sleep deprivation

maybe you've read about how people get tortured through sleep deprivation.

yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.

it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.

the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.

i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.

come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.

only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.

it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.

on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.

on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.

and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.

reunion wk

the past week has been a reunion of sorts for me.

every now and then i keep running into people from my past.

it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.

friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.

saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.

alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!

oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.

and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.

but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.

but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.

kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.

so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.

i need to get things going!

my mom always says that i take after her smartness yet i take after my dad's stupidity.

to that i agree.

i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.

i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.

take for instance, just now.

i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.

okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.

the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.

right.

apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.

an exploding thermos.

thats's really food for thought.

sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.

for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.

sarah's party

the past few days have been rather tiring.

take for example yesterday.

for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.

so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.

my car keys actually broke apart.

i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.

they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.

before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.

after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.

oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.

i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.

ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.