sick

ive just recovered from some mystery virus. i'm quite sure it's some sort of virus. because 1 by 1 my colleagues in camp is falling sick, and they all show somewhat similar mysterious symptoms. it was so weird. on thursday i was just lying in bed in camp and suddenly my nasal passage felt weird, my stomach churned like a grinder, and my head started to spin like a top. every now and then when i walked around, i just felt like sitting down.and yes, when i got home i really felt sick. i had a temperature then, so 100% confirmed - i was sick. but by friday i was ok.

managed to go out w/ hadi on friday afternoon. haha we caught scary movie 4 at cineleisure. all i can say is the movie is quite funny, because of the slapstick humour and the spoofs it contained. i was worried i wouldn't understand the movie because of the spoofs, but it was all right. but overall it was quite a forgettable movie, since you just laugh on the spot because of its slapstick nature. only 1 or 2 scenes were really really funny. carried on walking around, and somehow at night we just ended up clubbing at mos. in the smoove room. which was uber-packed, with guys. errgh. and the cage. it's so stupid. they should just remove it. 1 day another hillsborough disaster will jus occur i tell you.

watched the anugerah skrin finals? that's the first time i really watched the show. and guess what? the female winner was actually a former neighbour of mine. she's still living at same premises, it was my family that moved out. huda's same age as me, although i wasn't really close to her. but i remember during school holidays if i was bored i would go down to her house and play aorund with her siblings. and her i think. haha. but 1 thing about her that never changed is her voice. it's still the same. and the eyebrows? i dunno. didn't know she had the habit of playing with it.

oh and mum said something funny to me. she says akhmar, 1 of the female finalist in the show, actually used to help out her own mum sell minced meat at the marsiling wet market. probably she still does, i dunno. i think that's a real meteoric rise to stardom. mum's just always gotta tell me these kinda funny funny stories.

oh and holland qualified for the 2nd round! yeah! at least it gives me a longer time to put on that orange jersey of mine! haha. but they are up against portugal. that kinda sucks. but hopefully they'll coast through. but the world cup has been a phenomenal event. even in camp they've issued reminders, telling us not too be too engrossed in the world cup till we neglect our responsibilites. and my colleagues been betting and betting betting. suddenly everyone is just tuned in to the world cup. even mum.

but it's fun. every night the same things happen. we'll just quickly finish our work before the match starts, and all of us will just gather in 1 bunk and watch the match together. it's quite fun actually. i've never really watched a match with so many friends around me before. then we all can laugh or boo at the players together. it's real fun. but then none of us ever stays up awake all night and morning. haha. oh and i caught this on news. some major retail store said there was an 80% increase in the purchase of antennas. what funny news.

that said, how come channel 5 still dare advertise themselves as the official licenced broadcaster of the world cup? fuck they only screened the opening match and later on the semis onwards. tell me how official can that be if you only screen like 6 out of 64 matches. that's utterly pathetic.

grind

i did another crazy thing today. or rather yesterday through today.

yes yes, i'm turning very wild. many have commented as such. i'm being frank. i'm not really the same old yusri anymore. i'm not the old yusri that everyone used to know. i've changed somewhat. not much, but i'm admit i'm getting wilder and crazier. but everything has its limits. so as far as i'm concerned i feel i still ahve control over myself, that i can still think straight and sensibly. personally, i feel. don't know about you people. the change in me might just turn people away from me. i hope not though.

as i was saying, before i was rudely interrupted by myself, i did a very crazy thing. i clubbed at zouk yet again and booked into camp in the morning and sorted out my things in camp. i think that is simply crazy. me, is, fad, les, bryan, zhiwei, hadi, liz went to phuture for some hip-hop clubbing. uber-packed! i ended up being squeezed every now and then. but very fun. haha the guys really go wild when we go clubbing. but the fights occurred frequently. it always spoils the night. and i managed to dance with this girl for a while. very very sweet and pretty. a chinese girl that looked malay. but alas no introduction was made by me, since i hate to shout at the top of my voice just to talk to someone. furthermore i was crazy at that time. just anyhow screaming out the songs that the dj spinned. it probably made the girl have a bad impression of me, as if i was drunk. hell, i'm a teetotaller for the record.

at 3 plus we had supper at river valley. after that me and is caught the first train to pasir ris. but i just couldn't sleep. in fact its 2pm+ now and i've yet to sleep. now i don't feel tired at all. but last nite i swear i had a complete workout. my body was kinda drenched. wow i felt damn lethargic thne, but now still ok. went back to camp to clean my table and sort things out.

so basically i had no sleep the whole night. but i'm still ok. for now. i better get some sleep before i owe myself more sleeping debts. and tomorrow my recruits are going to enlist. 3 days after the previous batch passed out. damn it. can't watch much of the world cup then. what to do? life has to go on anyway. and i'm still thinking thinking of that girl that i danced with. errghh and i couldn't even ask for her name.

anyway this clubbing thing. one day it will just have to stop for good. les is right. it's actually a total waste of time, or rather, it's as if you didn't do anything the whole night. one fine day it will jus stop when i get tired of it all. i know it's wrong, but i find it an interesting way to distress. rather then smoking? or smoking sheesha? or even down yourself in alcohol. i fidn clubbing really allows you to let loose and really laugh around with your friends. i know most will find it wrong. as i've said, i know some might just look down on me. if my mum finds out she'll just be crushed.

i can't keep lying forever. someday this nonsense will jus have to stop. it is all really aimless and unbeneficial. and i don't want to see myself as a failed child. because i'm not and never will be.