我知道

我知道，我去看，会再次让自己伤心。

我也知道，我不去看，你也一样能活得开心。

就那么简单的两行字，谁能明白？

Promise MySelf

for now. i promise myself.

never view for her profile.

never look back the photo that we took.

never think back what we had been done together.

everything just a suffering for me.

why i still need to hurting myself?

this is what we call " fan jian"?

work hard for the job.

spending more time with my my friend and family.

do focus on the thing i have right now.

what means by " just let it pass"?

everything is end, just let it be, just let it end, and just let it disappear in your life.

you are good counselor among your friend.

why you can do that to your friend. BUT NOT YOU?

try to applicate what u had told other.

try subscribe it into your daily life.

you already pass the most suffering thing ( i think so) in your 22 years old.

looking further.

focus on yourself.

what the thing are not belonging with you.

it will run away from your one day.

you have to be happy because god bring it out from your life.

there are still have happiness in your future life.

human live with a wonderful dream and transfer to the miracle life.

think positive, be happy, everything will be fine.

work hard for your future. yoxi kyu.

恐惧的感觉

真的很怕看回你以前的那些照片。

我会很怕。

那种恐惧感，充满了我的心。

很怕。

不敢往前踏进一步。

这种感觉，真的好怕。

那种一个人的感觉。

无助的感觉。

恐惧的感觉。

全部一下子涌进了我的心。

全部都是害怕的感觉。

我，真的很怕。

习惯了一个人的日子

开始已经习惯了一个人的日子。

一个人吃饭，

一个人上课，

一个人读书，

一个人在静静的地方温习功课，

拿起电话耳机就往耳朵塞，

听着一首首那么熟悉的歌。

看着四周宁静的环境。

现在下雨了，雨下得好大。

天黑黑，雨大大。风凉凉。

看着economic一张张的纸。

头脑，偶尔不专心，但是，还是训练好自己好好专心读书。

现在的努力，造就以后的日子。

没时间写部落格，但是，心情不好，就会往这里塞。

不再往面子书写出心情，以前的不成熟，把大家都搞得压力累累。

现在，理智的作出每一个决定。

虽然痛苦，但是自己知道是为了大家好。

过去的东西，怎样弥补到弥补不回来。

以其放下，放下执着，让自己的心情，更好过，更舒服，不对吗？

有些事，错了，就是错了。

要不然，怎么会有，三思后行这个成语呢？

好了。专心读书。

慢慢的发觉

原来，我已慢慢的变了。

慢慢的发觉，我不再是那个愿意等待你的人。

我的生活，不断地在发掘新的事物。

我不喜欢做等待。

等待一个没有结局的事物。

我要的是被重视，而不是愚昧的一再借用借口来掩饰。

现在的我，站在圈子外面。

我，开始看到很多不同事物。

眼里不再只有你，不再去执着与一件事。

以前的压迫感，开始消失了。

或许是根本不去想知道你的一切一切。

两个人的世界，真的不容易。

我，宁愿一个人。

享受现在一个人的生活，不受任何人约束。

不开心，我就打给朋友。

找朋友聊天，已经变成了我的喜好。

网络游戏，已经让我不感兴趣。

我热爱游泳了，每一天，一定要游一次，才甘心。

只想在一年半的大学生活，添加一些可以美好回忆的记忆。

而不是只在于感情事。

慢慢的发觉，我也爱上了烹饪。

当自己煮了一道不错吃的食物，感觉很满足。

和朋友分享时，别人称赞你，那种感觉，很好。

或许我的人生，会在这段期间，有了转折点。

有时在想，活了二十二年了，为什么还是为了感情事，伤心懊恼难过呢？

把那些时间，让出来，做其它食物，不是更好吗？

你可以说我狠心，或者爱不深。

但是，当我痛苦难受时，有谁能真正感受到我的感受呢？

有些事，明明是会让自己有不好受的感受，就别再伤害自己。

珍惜一切的事物，发生了，可以阻止，就要努力去阻止。

当一切事物已成定局，那就接受。

接受了，再让自己重新回到正确的轨道。

我，跌倒了。但是，我也再爬起来。

谢谢一切经历的，我不埋怨，因为，它让我成长。

我，真的很享受现在每一个感受。

这才是最真实的现在。

希望我的乱想不会成真。

心里真的好乱。

很担心。

为什么就是要这样？

我真的不知所措。

我不能入睡，有谁能理解？

真想一个人过生活，真想简简单单的就这样。

但是为什么就是做不到？

我只是个普通的人。

请别把我看成很坚强。

我真的好累了。

我要爆发了！！！！

我惟有一直控制自己，不去想多。

不去胡思乱想。

去游泳，希望能把我的烦恼抛掉。

神，保佑保佑。

一切不再重要。

原来一切都是过去。

不再重要了。

是自己当傻瓜，做着傻戏给人家看。

朋友都劝我不要不要，只是我没听进去。

爱情本来就是互相的，一旦一方已经放弃。

给再多的爱也是一一反弹回来的刺。

明天要回去了。

今晚就去看一场戏，“笑着回家”

希望它能带给我欢乐。

把我的伤心带走~

再过五个小时就是你的生日。

或许我就只能陪你过那一次生日。

祝你，生日快乐。

愿你幸福。

爱，让我真的觉得好累了。

突然间，所有歌，叮当的歌最让我心动，心痛。

唱了我的心声，我的眼泪，无声的流了出来。

已经忘记了，哭泣的模样。

突然，眼泪，无声的，安静的，从眼眶里，流了出来。

我累了，真的，好累了。

我无心再去想那一些，已经离我远去的，不属于我的，爱。

画清界线。

你说的，画清界线。

好吧。

永远不会为你担忧，着急，或任何举动。

把我的认真不当一回事，你爱怎样，就去怎样。

我不是带菌者，所以我不必去做任何检验。

最后的结局，还是难看的收场。

男人的傻，别把我当成理所当然的会一直傻下去。

分手，就是分手。

我终于明白，没有回到过去的时光机。

只有永不倒退的时光。

一切，回到原点。

心，痛。

是正常，因为我是人。

这是真的为你傻那么久，也傻的甘愿。

不必再留念什么。

我，好累了。真的，很累！！！

all the memory

when i view back the photo we took.

i am smile.the promise we made,i never forgot.

but since every thing cannot return to the passed.

i'll save all of it into my deeply heart.

it was a sweet memorize between us.

i never easily promise you anything because i worry i can't do all of it.

you might say i am not romantic,you might scare i realistic.

maybe you are wish a sweetie and romantic world.

all of it i try to do perfect.

i already work hard to do that.

don't disbelieve i never put an effort on it.

i had been cry before, mad before, insomnia and lots cause just for you.

time is passing like a lighting.

life is changing like a movie.

but, the only one thing never be change is...the memory that saving in my mind.

i still remember the wish i made on my 21 years old.

but all of it just a wish, i think it never been happened anymore.

almost over half years, i still searching the door,the door who pull me out from darkness.

i am clearly understand no one can helping me,unless i work hard to find it.

this is my life, it is not the best, but it is also not the worse.

but two times,it let me suffer for all.

i am not complaining. i just want to write down the phenomena that happening right now.

i have a crystal heart. it had been broken first time at 18th years old in my life.

i am taking two years to fix it back. but on the crystal already scar.

when i was 21 years old. it broke again.

almost 22 years old. i still like a lost goat,try hard to survive in their life,but some time worry be target by the wolf.

every time get hurt or fall down, i try hard to memorize it, not because i am petty, it is because i would like to avoid from the mistake happening twice.

there was a changing memory yesterday.

my house full of loving from my cousin, uncle auntie and friends.

i was drunk yesterday, but it would not beat me down because i already know how to drink it and cover it!

i was went to jetty with my brother's friends. my body full of the wind blowing.

i ain't fully enjoyed it because my brain was rotary.

after an hour, i just clear from drunk.

it was a memory during my 21 years life. some i ain't write down,maybe already forgot,maybe just like a simple drafting.

today is the second day in year 2011.

i wish my life will be changed, fight for my future, fight for my life. goodbye 2010...

all the memory

when i view back the photo we took.

i am smile.the promise we made,i never forgot.

but since every thing cannot return to the passed.

i'll save all of it into my deeply heart.

it was a sweet memorize between us.

i never easily promise you anything because i worry i can't do all of it.

you might say i am not romantic,you might scare i realistic.

maybe you are wish a sweetie and romantic world.

all of it i try to do perfect.

i already work hard to do that.

don't disbelieve i never put an effort on it.

i had been cry before, mad before, insomnia and lots cause just for you.

time is passing like a lighting.

life is changing like a movie.

but, the only one thing never be change is...the memory that saving in my mind.

i still remember the wish i made on my 21 years old.

but all of it just a wish, i think it never been happened anymore.

almost over half years, i still searching the door,the door who pull me out from darkness.

i am clearly understand no one can helping me,unless i work hard to find it.

this is my life, it is not the best, but it is also not the worse.

but two times,it let me suffer for all.

i am not complaining. i just want to write down the phenomena that happening right now.

i have a crystal heart. it had been broken first time at 18th years old in my life.

i am taking two years to fix it back. but on the crystal already scar.

when i was 21 years old. it broke again.

almost 22 years old. i still like a lost goat,try hard to survive in their life,but some time worry be target by the wolf.

every time get hurt or fall down, i try hard to memorize it, not because i am petty, it is because i would like to avoid from the mistake happening twice.

there was a changing memory yesterday.

my house full of loving from my cousin, uncle auntie and friends.

i was drunk yesterday, but it would not beat me down because i already know how to drink it and cover it!

i was went to jetty with my brother's friends. my body full of the wind blowing.

i ain't fully enjoyed it because my brain was rotary.

after an hour, i just clear from drunk.

it was a memory during my 21 years life. some i ain't write down,maybe already forgot,maybe just like a simple drafting.

today is the second day in year 2011.

i wish my life will be changed, fight for my future, fight for my life. goodbye 2010...