Everything still Flows.

Out here, the good girls die.

On moonlit heath and lonesome bank
The sheep beside me graze
And yon the gallows used to clank
Fast by the four cross ways

A careless shepherd once would keep
The flocks by moonlight there
And high amongst the glimmering sheep
The dead man stood on air

They hang us now in Shrewsbury jail
The whistles blow forlorn
And trains all night groan on the rail
To men that die at morn

And naked to the hangman's noose
The morning clocks will ring
A neck God made for other use
Than strangling in a string

And sharp the link of life will snap
And dead on air will stand
Heels that held up as straight a chap
As treads upon the land

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Wednesday, February 25

On the verge of tears, I left the class early, took a cab home, and cry.

When is enough really enough?

Hell week is taking such a toll on me, I don't think I have ever said this before, but I don't think I can handle everything anymore.

Too much too much. It is suffocating and I can no longer maintain my face.

Come next year, I will most probably be in Buffalo at New York for an entire year to finish up my degree. Green light given from my course adviser and my parents, just awaiting this July to apply and leave in early Jan next year.

I think the break will do me good.

Oh, and this blog is over. I no longer wish to continue writing here.

Take care guys.

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Thursday, February 19

Soccer trainings, or modeling class?

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Wednesday, February 18

Warning: Long and Wordy Entry Ahead
This is going to be a long entry, there is a whole mess of thoughts in my head that I want to pen out (before deleting them after a while). To help myself feel more organised I am going to categorize them.

Introduction
Most of you who follow my blog would know that Pst Tan recently gave my number to some thingy. Anyways today was my first lesson, and I now understand what it is. It is a talent thingy which our church is embarking on, the 20plus of us are the first batch. So we have 4 modules we are encouraged to complete, they are Modeling, Hosting, Singing, Acting. Each module will take about 4 weeks, and is trained by external people. So anyways today was the first lesson of our first module - modeling.

During the 4 hour long class
I WAS SO BORED!!!! There were many many familiar faces, such as Sally, Jody, Constance, Jonathan, Desmond, etc. So I wasn't alone, although 97% of them came from the Asia Conference pageant. But my point is, everyone there seems to know what they want except me! Am I the only one who never aspired to be a model or some pageant winner?!

We were asked to write 3 points why we were present, I couldn't think of any. I had no idea why I was there. In fact, although I went with a very open mind, through out the entire time, my mind was being so sarcastic at me being there that I almost wanted to jump out the window. The trainer then picked out 3 girls to evaluate on make up, I was one of them. She chose the 3 of us to show the contrast, from one who has the most make up, to one who has none. Guess which I was. Heh. I was the only girl in class who did not bother to apply make up. HAIYOH! I was also one of the two miserable girls in class who do not know how to put on fake eyelashes. The trainer said she is going to bring her eyelash set next week and give the both of us personal lessons on putting on falsies. yippie. (sarcasm by the way)

I was honestly bored out of my wits during the class as I can't find the passion in me for modeling! I felt so out of place as I seem to be the only one who do not want to model. I don't want to have to care about my make up everyday, I don't want to have to wear heels all the time, I don't care if I do not walk with poise, I don't care if I eat junk all day! I got so bored that by the end of class, I was contemplating on not coming back for the rest of the classes. It is a waste of my evening as I have a whole load of work waiting for me to attend to! Ministry schedule is still waiting for me, my exams are next week, 2 assignments due this week, badminton outing next Thursday, council matters to settle, COME ON!

Plus do you know how serious this course thingy is? During our third week, our trainer is bringing her professional photographers to come take our profile photos, then they will be sent out for casting!? And the fourth week we will be taking profile videos, which will also be sent out for casting! HAIYOH!!! And this is only our first module!!

After class, I immediately removed my heels (which we were required to wear) and returned back to my slippers. Sigh.

BUT

things begin to change on the way home...

On the way home
We ended only at 11pm, so I shared a cab with Sally and Raymond. Raymond is the organiser for this, and he has a well of experience in the entertainment industry. So in the cab, it went like this:

Raymond: So you are Kayla
Me: Yup, why?
Raymond: The one Pst Tan called right?
Sally: Whoa! Pst Tan called you in?
Raymond: We were having a meeting when Pst Tan suddenly called and enrolled you in.
Me: Really? It was during a meeting?
Raymond: Yup.

Okay, I have no idea why it mattered to me that that call (which I receieved when I was serving) was made by Pst Tan when they were having the meeting. But that reminder from Raymond kind of cleared the sarcasm which was clouding my mind. What does Pst Tan see in me that I don't see?! Why will he want me to go for this when I never imagined myself to be involved in this industry?! It then struck me that I am like an ambassador for Pst Tan, the organisers know 'Kayla' as 'the girl Pst Tan called'. How could I had even entertained the thoughts of quitting! How could I!

So after we dropped Sally, I confided in Raymond a little about me being very unsure of why I was here. He then told me about his experiences, how he was led to where he is, neither was he one of those who aspire to be in the industry. It is kind of like me, I do not really aspire to be an entertainer, but the doors opened to me seem to always be in that direction.

Conclusion
I never want to let Pst Tan down, I want to see what Pst Tan sees in me and prove that I can. There must be a reason why I am here, and I am going to find it out. Therefore, I am going to stick it through, continue going for classes, and ban all sarcastic remarks from my head!!!!!!! I will develop an interest for this, I shall learn to put on fake eyelash, I will be more vain, whatever it takes!

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Tuesday, February 17

Fairy tales are more than true: not because
they tell us that dragons exist, but because
they tell us that dragons can be beaten.

- G. K. Chesterton

I hate hate hate politics to the core core core.
I cannot be bothered, not one bit.

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Saturday, February 14

Two people that made me very happy today! :)

1. Pst Ming!
He makes me so very happy! Today he was asking me why am I not out celebrating valentines day, I told him I was going to! But with a girl. Heh. Anyways the gist of our conversation revolves around how I should not just focus on studies but also to go get a boyfriend. Haha. He is so funny la, he is really the only pastor I dare to be cheeky with. I smile extra wide each time he is there. Like today we were serving dinner, so the pastors and other board members were there. When Pst Ming came in via the pantry, I felt my smile going extra wide. Heh. And he was so cute, he whispered for me to tell him who is in the guest room as he didn't want to join in for dinner. So I offered to bring food out for him instead. Heh. I like Pst Ming! He is so fatherly, that look on his face each time he talks to me makes me feel so loved! Pst Tan and Pst Ming are my favorite pastors!

2. Rhonda!
Finally after 2 years, Rhon and I met up. It has been so long since I laughed till my stomach hurts sooooo bad. I seriously couldn't walk properly because we were laughing so hard. Haha. We talked about lots of stuff too. There was a point when she mentioned something like "I've been waiting for you for 2 years la!", that sentence made me realize how so many things can change within 2 years. It's a bittersweet thing I guess. The choices I have made that determine where I am now, which so far I am not regretting. Heh. Although things did not go as I thought it would, this path opened up so many other doors for me. Doors that would require more of God's guidance and strength, routes that forces me out of my shell, to reveal my insecurities forcing me to face them. I think it is awesome.

Anyways we joined Wayne, Sally and the gang after that. Played the polar bear game, super fun! I was so accurate okay, awesome. Hah. I would make such a good hunter.

All in all, it was a good valentines day!

So, should I go tomorrow or should I not?

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Wednesday, February 11

Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
FABIAN FABIAN!
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
COLDPLAY
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
COLDPLAY
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
COLDPLAY

Fabes @ Home says:
Huh what who what where coldplay what?
Fabes @ Home says:
WHAT THE
Fabes @ Home says:
COLDPLAY
Fabes @ Home says:
IS COMING
Fabes @ Home says:
TO SINGAPORE?!

Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
YESSSS!
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
LIKE YESSSSS
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
OH MY GOODNESS ME YESSSSSSS
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
MARCH 23

Fabes @ Home says:
MA- .... MARCH!?!?
Fabes @ Home says:
That's the Month of Jason Mraz too
Fabes @ Home says:
zomg.

Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
I KNOWWWW

Fabes @ Home says:
z. o. m. g.
Fabes @ Home says:
TICKET
Fabes @ Home says:
PRICES

Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
I WANNA DIEEEE

Fabes @ Home says:
WHAT ARE THEY

Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
$248
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
but that's the free standing
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
I'm sure there are cheaper ones
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
BUT ITS COLDPLAY!
Kayla- WHO WANTS TO GO FOR COLDPLAY GIG WITH ME!!!!! says:
HOW CAN YOU GET CHEAPER TICKETS!

Fabes @ Home says:
There is no such thing as sitting at a Coldplay concert.
Fabes @ Home says:
You either stand and dance, or you donate your limbs to someone WHO DESERVES THEM MORE.
Fabes @ Home says:
... 248. Ouch.

how now brown cow!

CO-COL-CO-COLDPLAY IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!!

AHHHHH!!

COLDPLAY IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CRAAAAZZZZZYYYYYYYY!!

HOW ON EARTH!!!!

EEEEKKKS!

COLDPLAY COLDPLAY COLDPLAY!

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Monday, February 9

The call came today!

Shall not elaborate here, leaning on God's guidance!

AND ITS PST TAN LEH!!!!! (sighh, I'm still not over it.)

:)

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Sunday, February 8

Hospitality Session!

So, today we had our very first Hospitality Meeting! It is like a cell group meeting, except it is for the hospi ministry! It was so awesome as Pst Yong led the 20+ of us at the guest room. One thing I love about this ministry is that we are so small, thus it feels like a family. The downside to the size of our ministry is that the person drawing up the schedule has a horrible life (points at self). Ha-ha. Kidding la, I really enjoy what I do. I was just telling WM the other day that I enjoy serving, but of course, I told him not to tell my leader that! Heh.

Today Pst Yong laid hands on everyone, he spoke promotion to my life and I am claiming it by faith! A word also came to me during the session, "The joy of the Lord is my strength". Really, it just hit me. I am juggling with so many things right now yet I am reluctant to let any go, really simply because I love all that I am doing! The joy in doing what I do, the joy I feel from heaven. Have you ever felt God being proud of you? That pride that falls down from heaven unto you, and you feel a smile come across your face knowing that God is so proud of His 'pure and beloved' (the meaning of kayla! heh). It is like a glow that shines on your face which stretches your skin forcing you to smile. Hah. That feeling is what I live for.

Anyways, today's session was really awesome. The presence was so strong, it was a very different meeting. I've always seen Pst Yong as a very eccentric Pastor. He is very different; from his style to the way he speaks. During today's meeting, I noticed how he kept everything very open, and how he allowed so much room for the spirit to move. Shall not elaborate here, but it impacted me.

It is also exciting to see where the ministry is headed. With more 'dealings' with the air crew ministry, it really 'up' the standard of the hospitality ministry. Plus I am excited to learn from the crew and all the others from the ministry. Oh! Another point, it is so sweeet to see people getting attached within the ministry! There are 2 couples already. Heh.

Sweeeeeet.

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Saturday, January 31

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Commitment Even though it may not always seem like it, deep down you are afraid of being committed to anything serious. You love the feeling of being carefree and not having anything tying you down. You're afraid that someone or something that may tie you down in life, will keep you from reaching other goals. You may also be afraid of getting hurt. You need to open yourself up more to possibilities and realize that sometimes it's good to be committed to something that you really care about. Just because you're an independent, free-spirited person doesn't mean that being committed to anything is going to change who you are.
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I can so see Mich and Laura grinning to themselves ...

p/s: If anyone is selling their Jason Mraz concert ticket, do let me know, I have friends who are desperately looking around ...

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Thursday, January 29

We had our girls' night out the night before, with heart broken Alena and Michelle, getting totally wasted was definitely THEIR main agenda. With that drilled in their heads, we hopped from Zirca, to Attica and finally to The Arena. I am alright with clubbing, but only for the music! As repeated so many times, alcohol does not get me high, only the music does. But anyways, with a blond Russian, an Indian-French, an Eurasian, and of course a Chinese, the four of us can totally make up a poster for any of Singapore's multi-racial campaign. Hah.

Anyhows, what I want to declare is that I love Clark Quay at night! (cityhall in the day) Always have and always will! Not only because it is where the 'hotspots' are, but also because of how spontaneous that place can be!

Example, I left the girls for a while to go find a few of my other friends at about 3am. So I was walking pass this alfresco Italian/French (I assume) cafe which was blasting the ketchup song. The Italian/French chef started dancing the ketchup dance which then saw me laughing my head off. Then before I knew it, he was beside me and I ended up doing the ketchup dance along with him on the street. I love! (not the ketchup dance, but the 'fun-ness' of it!)

I love it when people go wild and crazy together. I enjoy spontaneous trips to JB at 4am in the morning, dancing on streets, lying down on the road in the middle of the night, suddenly breaking into a 'high school musical' dance and song right smack in the crowd at orchard road, havoc driving at night (when the road is way clear of vehicles), running down the roads of potong pasir, etc.

Just letting go, unrestrained. I love!

Be FREE!

Lets escape into the music, DJ let it play.

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Sunday, January 25

SPRING ORIENTATION 08 (6th - 7th Jan)

This orientation was the first event that sees me not being in charge of it. A different feel altogether as I looked out for my marketing guys and helped out with the videoing aspect. When I saw Stephanie running all over with her board, I told Willy "that used to be me".

Anyways, photos!

During the usual boring admin talk in the morning. As Pres. and VP, Laura and I had to stick ourselves there. Which really is such an irony considering how I sneaked off at my own orientation during the boring morning talk. (Shayne remember??!)

When we got to the campsite in the afternoon ...

HAHA. I had no idea what Elly and I were looking at.

We then had a campfire at night which saw a lot of campfire songs and dances, cheering, skits, with Laura, me and Michelle being the judges.

THEN came the super fun part! NIGHT WALK!

When the night walk crew brought Laura, myself and my marketing guys for a trial walk, we really scared ourselves silly. I was holding on to Matt's sleeve with my eyes closed, but of course, while acting brave. Hah.

Anyways I sticked around at one of the 'scare points'...

Introducing Little Ryan! You see that dummy hanging on the tree? That's Little Ryan. Matt was holding onto a string that when pulled will see Little Ryan swinging. It it super scary I tell you! Little Ryan scared the shit out of Laura and I when we first saw him. My role was to do the creepy sounds. It does not look very scary in the photo above, but trust me, it was. The bushes were very thick. Whenever Matt stood up to stretch, I refused to sit in there alone and would come out too.

And here's Benjie Boy! He is one of my marketing guys posing as a dead corpse on the road. Poor him had to go through numerous kicks and stones that were thrown by freaked out freshies. Haha. They wanted to check if that body was real. Again, the flash of the camera makes it look not scary. Imagine it without any light at all.

Yup. Then the next day, we hiked to this really pretty place!

What a beautiful place huh! Anyways the freshies had their station games and war game, while I did my job as VP (to err.. walk around and supervise. ahem) and Director of Marketing (VIDEOING!).

The girl who took over me, my Director of Events! :))))

And here is what my beloved secretary does. Elly Sim! Shiok ah. Heh.

Following which we walked back to camp, did the whole closing thing and award ceremony.

That's it folks!

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Saturday, January 24

Things that got me upset today:
1. A name that just had to be mentioned at the meeting in the morning. That name annoys me, don't like that name one bit. Not surprising whose mouth that name came out from.
2. Being called back to expo for hospitality when I was already at Tampines with my members after service!!!! I really wanted to cry! And we finished later than security and ushers ...oh boo.

Things that saved the day:
1. PST MING! Really, he is the only pastor I dare to be cheeky with.
2. Serving at the pantry for opening, it was fun as HM gave me the liberty to lay the cny goodies out as and how I like. Plus the busy periods at the pantry is always intensive but exciting!
3. Riding the DXO's bicycle (in a dress) at expo when I went back to serve. Heh. I needed something to perk me up, thus speeding inside hall 8 on a bicycle was the best option at that time.
4. WM who totally tickled superfoulmood Audrey and awfullygrumpy me when we were doing closing. Laughed till I forgotten I was 'forced' back to serve. I cant deny it, I do enjoy serving. Audrey and I started off mad and pissed with some people, but ended up laughing our heads off with WM. Awesome. I so love love being around funny people. Told you my favourite hospi people serves on Sundays. Sighhhh.

Conclusion:
Not such a bad day after all.

And this book! Started off rather slow, mid way I was wondering if I got tricked into some chick lit, but the ending, totally freaked me out. The twist at the end got me so creeped out I didn't dare leave my room that night. The twist here can be compared to one of my favourites "tell me your dreams" by Sidney Sheldon. The only difference here is that you will NEVER expect it to come for this novel, as everything was going so... 'normal' and cheery. Whereas Sheldon's had a rather dark vibe from the start, thus you knew it was going to come. But this! I was SOOO NOT prepared! Really! I was still casually snacking away in the middle of the night at the kitchen when the twist came and freaked me out so much I hurried back to my room.
Awesome stuff.

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Saturday, January 17

After service which saw Pst Tan preaching such an awesome sermon, I was busy doing closing for hospitality. Then my phone rang and displayed a number which is not in my phone book.

Me: Hello?
Person: ......
Me: HELLO???
Person: Oh hi, Kayla?
Me: Yup. Who's this?
Person: This is Pst Tan.

My heart dropped out of my body and rolled all the way to China.

I was in such a shock that I missed out everything he said - you got to understand that although I know that he knows me, he has never called me with his own phone before. I would normally be called to look for him in the guest room. In addition to that, he just preached such an awesome sermon! And it's Pst Tan! Like only my favourite Pastor!!! So anyways, the only thing I heard was the end of the call when he asked "So I'll give him your number okay?" Thinking it was about the same thing he asked me before the last time, I said okay. After which, I remembered him already giving my number to another person, so it cannot be about that thing again!

Yep. So I have no exact idea what I've joined, but really, even if Pst Tan were to ask me to join some stupid robot competition, I will make sure I build the best damn robot and make him proud.

(But please don't let it be a robot competition....)

p/s: Pam, this was what I wanted to tell you. You were the first person I called!!

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Tuesday, January 13

WILD! CRAZY! HIGH TO THE MAX!

These will be the adjectives to describe The Ting Tings' concert.

Seriously, this is the concert that sees me screaming and jumping the most. Then again, most of their songs involves screaming (rather than singing). I came out of Fort Canning drenched in perspiration and water, although Shimin and James got hit by most of the water that was being fling-ed around (as I happen to be standing quite safely in between them. Muahaha.)

So let's evaluate the crowd. As mentioned before, Suede's saw a lot of beer bellied white men, Franz Ferdinand saw a lot of 'muds' in their skinnies and striped shirts, Stereophonics's contained mostly white people as well, and for Ting Tings, arty farty TEENS!!! Almost every other girl was either in tights or dresses, I felt like I was participating in some fashion parade. Plus I was surrounded by designers (shimin and gang), who well, dressed like designers.

Moving on, I think the sound wasn't all that awesome (if you were to compare), then again, you cannot compare as they are not a full band. Nonetheless, energy was SKY-ROCKETING HIGH. The percussion was rocking! It was the percussion and her screaming that got me so very high. Yep, I didn't care that I was probably going out of tune, I just screamed the hell out of me. There was even a period when I danced till my right leg was cramped, but way over the top high me refused to stop and thus relied on my left leg to continue. HAHA.

I am physically very tired, but mentally sky high. I still wanna party away and probably would have if not for school tomorrow morning. And surprisingly, you're on my mind.

Photos shall be up when Jols and Shimin get back to me!

Hello Jason Mraz!

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Sunday, January 11

We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end, it's just her window ledge

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Friday, January 9

I hate socializing, but that is required of me. My poker face is stretched out, I thank God for Laura who keeps me intact. People really do watch, and no, I am not being paranoid. Saturday nights shall also be seeing me more often in expo serving till late. My schedule sucks for this month, and again it is required of me. I am contemplating taking a break from hospi, or at least serve Sundays instead so I can spend time with the cg, but they need me for Saturday. As much as I will like to just leave, but we work as a team. I cannot bear to see the other members of the team being all stretched out just because I choose to go. I also wish to speak to my leaders on releasing me off the scheduling. That duty alone requires me to sit in front of my com for hours planning every single person shift for the entire month in expo and jw. After which, I got to call them and mass msg to confirm. And one by one I see people replying giving reasons why they cannot fulfill their duty, thus either I swop, or I substitute for them. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy serving. The only reason I feel so heavy is because I am holding on to so many things. Taking a break from cg duties is something which I don't even allow myself to think. I cannot deny, I did think of shifting over to my ministry. Focusing more on hospitality than on cg, but I cannot. My love for the cg and the members will not allow me to. Thus if I were to sacrifice, it will have to be ministry. But I know the burdens my leaders carry, by letting go I will only be piling more on them, and I don't want to do that as well. So how? When school starts, 5 modules I will be taking next semester, that itself will take a lot out of me. Council is still in quite a mess, there are so many things Laura and I have yet to settle. Ambitious me also planned for my driving in Feb, my instructor was telling me to book more lessons in these two months. I am very very stretched out. Everything aspect is rushing me. Council matters are killing me, I am avoiding reading my emails as that means more work. Marketing side is still awaiting for me to settle. I left the emails regarding ministry unread, as I just don't wanna face it now. I don't have the mind to sit and plan for next month's schedule yet. I am really dreading for school to begin, coping 5 modules on top of everything. Laura only has to focus on council and studies, I have more than that. Now you see why I just won't allow myself to run for President, council cannot be my top priority. But what can I drop? Studies? Council? Cg? Ministry? I feel like dyinggggg.... and I wanna run away. I really want to crawl under my covers and hide. But hiding won't make all these go away, it will only continue piling. Avoiding calls won't solve anything, I just have to pick them up and settle it. I have 24 hours a day, I am sure I will be able to cope with everything. "So when you're feeling kind of mixed up, just remember it's a mixed up world. And if you're feeling life is just too tough, just remember you're a real tough girl." Take control girl! Take control! I'll make it work! Make it work!!

God, Help!

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Thursday, January 8

Simply because I love my cousins.
(and my hair)

This is my favourite.
(we are even lined up according to age! 6 months apart we each are.)

I love them to the core, and would lay my life for them without a doubt.

(jols, where is our cousin blog!! and 4 more days to The Tingtings!)

Anyways just got back from camp. Night walk was da bomb! Seeing the freshies' reactions were hilarious (and evil of us). Photos will be up once I get it settled.

Haiyoh, everything is piling up.

BIG SIGH BIG SIGH BIG SIGH.

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Sunday, January 4

It cannot only happen in books.

I want, I must, I need!

The pages must come alive.

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Monday, December 29

Hello stranger.

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Sunday, December 28

For my 21st, I curled my hair.

Although my mum did mention that whenever she curls her hair, it always straightens back by the next day. Me who inherited mum's stubbornly straight hair is praying the curls are strong enough to go against all biological factors.

The photo above was taken before curling (like duh). See what I mean when I say my hair is too straight and horrendously neat! How on earth did I live with such neat hair for so long?!!! (I suddenly remember someone mentioned before she was not used to me having long hair because I look too neat. I think it's Jas. Right Jas? Was it you?)

Dave (the hairdresser) was really proud of his curls though. He said that unlike most singaporean girls, my hair is naturally thicker and of a better texture (muahaha), therefore able to achieve the messiness that I want. So satisfied he was after the 5 hours long process that he proclaimed my curls to be one of his best works. hoho.

However, please don't judge his work when you see me. By then, my hormones may have already straighten my curls out. In fact, my sides are already looking quite straight.

oh booooo.

Well at least after today's visit to the salon, my hair ego is now sky high! I think I shall make Dave my regular hair stylist! My hair ego is well fed by him.

Oh. and among all my hairstyles, Shayne still prefers me with my straight short hair, which I feel I might just go back to that one fine day. One fine day...

For now, let's approach the new year with thick, messy and curly hair!

Oh yeah.

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Thursday, December 25

Anybody wants to go to The Ting Tings concert on the 13th Jan? It is only 50 bucks for students!! Plus it's part of a bigger event called "Big Night Out Singapore 2009", meaning it doesn't just end after the concert, but will last through the night with DJs and all that sort. (Though I am not interested in the after party, just the concert)

Anyone? (Shayne?? 50 bucks only! I'll go get their album and share it with you!)

So shut up and let me go

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Monday, December 22

what the earth

council is killing me.

I desperately need a renewal of mindset and an expansion of capacity, pronto.

wipe that smug off, december.

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Sunday, December 21

I haven't really admitted it, but each year the birthday present I always look forward to the most is the one from my brother. Although we are anything but close, his influence over me is undeniable. It ranges from my taste in music (he owns more Garbage and Suede albums than I do), to my favourite shows (The simpsons, etc.). The reason why I am more into speed than stunts on blades was also because I was determined to beat my bro, which never happened even till today. (please take into consideration that my bro is freaking tall and has feet the size of gorillas that requires him to purchase shoes from the states)

The last time I raced him was a couple of years back. I was speeding at my top speed but still couldnt catch up. There was then a steep slope with a hump at the bottom, every bladder will know to either slow down or maintain speed. But determined I was to beat him, I accelerated and sped down the slope. Heh. Of course, I flew the moment my wheels hit the hump forcing me into a high jump, BUT I didn't fall. Muahaha. Pro man.

Anyways, the reason for this entry is really because MY BRO JUST GAVE ME MY PRESENT!

A Phil Handsley's Audrey Hepburn painting! This is gonna be my favourite gift without a doubt, not just because it is such a classic, but also because it is from my bro!

Birthday eve was also made good with dinner with the parents. Da Paolo (Il Giardino) never disappoints! Squid Ink Pasta, lots and lots of Foie Gras, Beef Carpaccio, and Cheese Platter makes me one very happy girl. The total bill adds up to over 300bucks though. Hoho. Only when with the parents will I dare to splurge.

Oh wells. Drinks with the girls later!

audrey hepburn totally kicks december's ass

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Thursday, December 18

Crazy dancing (aka wildly jumping around) to this track blasting to the max.

Now, who needs dope.

my remedy for december

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Monday, December 15

My first 21st birthday cake!
(I only realised I have my camera after we cut the cake..)

Also receieved my first 21st birthday present. So early huh. Haha.

Thanks guys for the surprise!

Much much love from the bottom of my big big heart

:)

p/s: Bolt is SO FUNNY! HAHAHA. Laughed darn loud.

I'm tougher than december

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Friday, December 12

This is the story of a girl, by the name of Shayne.

One day, excited she was as she decided to join a beauty pageant!

Off she went, skipping along to the audition.

Then, she suddenly remembered... the pageant has a talent segment, but.. she doesn't have a talent! *gasp*

"Oh no! What am I gonna do!" She thought to herself.

"Desperate times call for desperate measures!" she said to herself as she decided to pick up a guitar.

But it didn't take long (2 seconds in fact) to realise that she possesses no musical ability whatsoever.

"I'll go to the library for inspiration!" she decided.

She tried searching for books that will help give her a talent...

But instead, she fell off the ladder.

"AHHHH! MY BUM HURTS!"

"ARGH! What am I going to do now!"

"Hold on a moment, Me, Shayne Ong Minzhi is such a pwetty girl, who needs talent! I'll just show my pwetty face!"

Of course, we all know, that certainly did not impress the judges. Not especially when her competitor is..... MISS DEMURE!

Upon setting her eyes on Miss Demure, Shayne exclaimed, "My oh my! I have never seen such beauty in my life!"

And of course, Miss Demure won the pageant.

This came as a blow to Shayne as she turned emo.

But the more she tried to shake off that image of Miss Demure, the more she got depressed. And instead, she found herself fantasizing of being with her....

"NO! I cannot be emo! I need to get up and make friends with Miss Demure!" Shayne thought to herself as she decided to pick herself back up again!

With a great smile on her face, she approached Miss Demure..

And said. "Hi! I am FLOWER GIRL! CAN I BE YOUR BEST FRIEND OH GREAT AND MIGHTY ONE!"

Miss Demure being not only demure, but kind, accepted her as who she is and they became best friends ever since!

And this is the story of how we became best friends.

I should so write a book...