Sunday, March 01, 2009
自从看了她的 blog 后
慢慢觉得自己
不如她
也内疚了起来
他应该会读她的 blog 吧
看了一定很感动也会很后悔
当初做的决定
可能会
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如果是这样
我不会怪他 也不会硬留着他
爱一个人不一定要拥有
天天 当你面向看我 看你睡觉的摸样
偶尔躺在我怀里 然后说你爱我
就已足够
虽然心里知道对他的爱 不会比她来的少
付出的也不会
却不知道
自己对爱的信心 勇气 和执着
跑到哪了
当我读她的 blog 时 是真的希望能看到她过得好
可是却越读越难受
如果当初 他选择了她
我会不会开心一些 会不会不抱着内疚过日子
会不会不再想着她过得好不好
从和他在一起 搬去他家的那一刻起
我已经把他当成我的一切了
除了家人以外
他是对我是最最重要的人
我曾说过如果时间能回头
我还是会选择和他在一起 不是因为傻了 是因为真的太爱他
当他不舒服 不开心 有烦恼的时候
我会很着急 不知所措
想要安慰 却又不知道怎样安慰
这点她一定做得比我好很多很多
他说过
我不懂得体贴
不懂得为他着想 不把他排第一
他不知道 他确实是我的第一也是第二 是我的一切
只要他要求 我一定会做
可能是我不会表达心里想说和做的是吧
听了好难受 真的
可能这也是我不如她的地方吧
看了也明白了
她才是一个真正好的女朋友好的老婆
不知道为什么写了这句 心真的好酸 眼眶也湿了
说不难过是不可能的
越是爱他 越是心痛 有时候想到有一天将会失去他
心里痛的 就连呼吸都成了问题
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谁来给我安慰
白头到老
也只不过是我想太多
还以为这就是 我们的以后 我们的永远
又有谁能给我答案
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也许 他 就是我心中的答案
Saturday, November 15, 2008
昨晚，把"家好月圆"看完了。
不论是亲情或爱情，真的很感人。
第三者的痛苦，又有谁能了解呢？
“说的是，于shu秋”。不知道她的shu是哪一个shu。
再也不能分辨什么是对什么是错了。
“爱一个人有错吗？”
他对于shu秋的承诺又算什么。
他还是选择了离开。
看她痛哭说着，“我好挎着他，我好辛苦”。
我也忍不住的留下了眼泪。
我明白。
我真的明白她的感受。
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
今天我写了我有史以来写过最最最最最最长的一封中文email. 真的很长很长。好后悔没把中文学好，想表达一些事都那么的困难。希望你看的懂，也感受得到。
我希望一切会跟好。
考试到了，大家加油！
Love,
璇
Monday, November 10, 2008
弟弟生日快乐!!!! 第二次不能帮你庆祝了。真的很对不起。等我毕业了，我一定补给你。((=
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Exams are round the corner and still I can't concentrate.
Concentrate please. PLEASE.....................................
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Came across some stuff which truly makes me feel like "hahaha YX-ed". Those images and those intitals........ "
K*I".. are going to haunt me for the rest of my "life".
Still to u. Thanks for being there. Thanks for ur awesome sentences of wisdom or encouragement or whatever u call it.
Signing off as ...................................... Retarded Xuan
Monday, October 27, 2008
I'm not feeling very well. So it kind of dampened my spirits. But all is cool.. Everything is gonna be alright once I wake up from my beauty nap. Yup I'm going to take a nap now eventhough its already 730pm here. Not going to be able to sleep again tonight... maybe that will get me started with Chemistry..
Had presentation today.. Gosh how i hate presentation.. I started out ALRIGHT but after awhile I could totally feel my face getting warmer and warmer like its creeping throughout my whole face den my ears... AND MY WHOLE FREAKING FACE IS RED.. yea TOMATO RED... OMg.. i swear its EMBARRASSINg... but its a good thing that 1/3 of the class was gone by the time it was our grp's turn to present.
I totally need to overcome it. Someone help me...... Oh and I had a headache after the presentation. I bet its due to the fact that my heart was pounding 3x the rate it was suppose to when Im running.. ok so thats really fast ya.. and all the blood went to my head and it got me going BONKERS. yea..
Neways, I'm off to bed.. Cheerios.. (=
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Guess what? My flowers are dying and cool enough I was able to resuscitate it. muahahha! ok guess what x 3000000000000000...
I cooked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I know... like what the hell.. how could HAN YONXUAN possibily cook up a decent dish.. lets not even go to the point decent.. lets just say "cook up a dish" regardless of it being edible or nt. WELL........... Against all odds, I manage to cook up two dishes with minimum help from a friend my mine........................................................... 2 very simple dishes indeed. NO LAUGHING AH.. ITS SIMPLE FOR U PPL BUT COME ON..ITS my first time "cooking" since like 10000000 years...My friend cooked this awesome "something pork + potato with a touch of chilli".. which was delicious except we were to busy chopping up garlic (me) and washing dishes (friend) to realise the pork has dried up (overcooked by 2mins).I cooked vegetables with mushrooms and egg with mushrooms.. OK I KNOW.... u're thinking why everything also mushrooms.. well cos we're mushroomed to death.. bought too much and my friend being smart thinks we should just cook all of it.. so ya............. I overcooked the vegetables.. and the egg is like @#)$(*@#. But overall I shall say GOOD TRY. LOL! I'll cook cooler stuff next time round... OH and here are the pictures to the "awesome" dinner we had..................................................
My friend's work.. totally dried up to the max.. LOL!
My vegetables and lump of decolourised shit. #)$@#($ LOL....!!
