Ever heard of the US political parties trend? They go through a cycle of conservative to liberal, liberal to conservative. Every time a conservative party is in power, people start to say "If only we had a liberal party, then this would not happen." So they vote for a liberal party the next election, only to realise that actually, "if we had a more conservative party, this situation would be handled better."

The grass is greener on the other side; people never count what they have, only what they lack. And when they give up what they had to get what they lack, suddenly it seems like what was lacking is not so important - they would rather get back what they had.

And that is the story of my life.

Friends ask, "Why did you get together with her? She is so different from the type of girl I thought you would like."

And I reply, "So you think you know the type of girls I would like better than myself?"

"But she's so different from your ex!"

Maybe different is exactly how I wanted it - because I'm not satisfied with my "conservative party". My ex is someone who is an extreme high flyer. She was involved in many student-initiated CIP projects, she appears on newspapers every now and then, she was offered 3 'S' papers by the school, candidate for President's Scholarship, now on a PSC scholarship and on her way to getting a PhD.

She didn't have time for me. She takes days to reply my smses. Sounds familiar?

She was also the sporty type of girl, independent and strong. When she gets into a fight, she will shout you down. And later cry secretly when no one can see her. She never tried to hold my hand or lie on my shoulders. She never needed me. And it made me wish that my girlfriend was someone who was a little more romantic, someone I could protect, someone who actually needs me. Someone like you.

But of course, now that I have a "liberal party", I start to think of all the good things a "conservative party" can give. Except that I know, humans by nature will never be satisfied. It doesnt matter which party it is, the only thing that matter is how much you are willing to put in to make the relationship work.

I once heard: Love is not a feeling. Love is a decision.

We all hope for our true love to come along, a perfect match that is suitable in every single way, our own fairy tale happy ending. Except that this is real life, and almost nobody ever find their ideal dream partner. We make do with half-fulls and half-empties. We learn to be satisfied with the half that is full, we work to fill up the other half which is empty. But before all these can happen, you have to make a decision. A decision to want to make it work. And that is the moment when love starts and love continues.

There are days in these 6 months when I am sure of my decision. But everytime we have a pointless argument, I question it. Is this something I can deal with for the rest of my life? Is this something you can deal with for the rest of your life?

Have we made the decision to make this work?

Are you happy?

You tell me.