nonsensical shits
Monday, July 09, 2007
i am sorry please forgive me
i am thinking of your boyfriend again
just allow me to have him in my thoughts
while you have him in your arms
puma bag failed on me
662865075193 did the MIA
i knew it was over
but my stubborn-ness won the battle of deceit
finally it's time to end it all
when you didnt even wish me
a simple call an SMS a gift from you
was all i wanted for my birthday
messagenotedyettheavaricetobeyours
♥```Shattered Dreams
1:28 AM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
bypassed ur friendster
lavished with photos of her in ur arms
triggered the splendid memories of me in ur arms
protecting me from the world's cold snares
but is no longer u that i want
is jux somebody that i longed
to hug and protect me
treat me as his little princess
havenheardfrmurelishthethoughtofhavingu
♥```Shattered Dreams
9:32 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
รักคนมีเจ้าของ
everything was left still since that day
no advancement no questions no pursuing
is not within my control
is letting go my only option?
hovering and planting images in my mind
smile foolishly at the thought of u
would u do the same?
or do u only do it for her?
perceived not to be affected by your doings
but a strong front is all i have
crumbled and messed up inside
knowing what's left of us
dilemma to find u
determine to draw a conclusion to what was left still
fear i can no longer have u in my mind
screwed up, deep shit holes
whyisitustillu
♥```Shattered Dreams
1:32 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
i gotta stop
as much as i want to
i fear of getting hurt
and hurting u
what a selfish desire
a wishful thinking too
who am i to you
a nobody
lookforwardtoubutallhavetoendsoon
♥```Shattered Dreams
5:59 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
i need guidance
i dun even know what my heart flutters at
can i really be just loving life
or is it called dead desperation
deepdowninsideiknowistillmissu
♥```Shattered Dreams
2:32 AM
Monday, March 05, 2007
i dun give a fuck if she is a fhm bitch
and that she has a good personality
if i tried stealing someone's bf
do u still dare to vouch that i am a good person?
of all the 3 years
u never once did fetch me from club
how great
it hurts
i dun expect anything from you
so stop your avoidance
u werent juz a fling to me
but seemed like i was to u
ruinedwishediwasyours
♥```Shattered Dreams
6:48 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
i can finally feel something
coz i was on the verge of crying when i thought about u today
i called ur parents to wish them 2dae
and they told mi they scolded u
for wat
pointless useless waste of time
whatifiSAIDwhatwilluDO
♥```Shattered Dreams
2:58 AM
Monday, February 19, 2007
i will always remember tat night
running a fever, suffering from stomach flu
and where were you
in the cinema with that fhm bitch
when i could no longer contain my fatigue and was practically weak
u sent me that msg
that left me in state of shock that i was already in
u left me, just like that
when he told me about ur blessings
which was my misfortune
my heart sank
even u, i said, was gone
thanzTOuilearnttheuglysideofLOVE
♥```Shattered Dreams
9:42 PM
u dunno how is it like
to be disappointed by two men
yes is the cause of my greediness
but do u know it is hard to digest
my heart has died on me totally
tears could no longer flow down
is beyond hurt
it has turned numb
clubbing has been a frequent activity
indulgence or anesthesia
i do not want to be affected by two worthless men
i do not want to suffer with their happiness
she is a fhm bitch
maybe clever and smart
probably much better than me
no wonder u chose her over me
logic worked for u that impossibilty reigns between us
she most probably is smart and pretty
to attract your love so fast
it is no wonder u chose her over me
i was defeated just like that
by two gals who took the two boys i love
i must be so worthless to them
i must be nutting to them
i hate you and you
i hate myself
i hate feeling sad and pitiful
i hate missing you and you
i yearn not to be affected by ur happiness and whereabouts
i long for the days to come when i no longer think of the both of u
is hard to hate u and is hard to smile at u
it fucking hard not to pass a day without resminicing our past
why the fuck should i care
when both of you are happily living with them and unconcerned about me
i dun wish to care anymore
is totally my fault and wishful thinking on my part
so fucking downgraded to lose to both of them
so fucking cheated by both of u
so fucking hate myself for being so useless
so fucking wish i was unfeelingly dead
bothofuPLEASEstophauntingmeNONSTOP
♥```Shattered Dreams
7:07 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
yes today is your 3rd year anniversary together.
or rather should i say, supposedly.
1095 days together.
in heaven in hell.
you lost this fucking chance on your own
you lost him to whose name bring you tears
your just deserts
karma is here to get back at you
all because of your temper
your self-concientious
your non-sensical never-ending shits
your taken-him-for-granted
he's gone
for real this time
cry swear slash
nothing will bring him back
why.fucking why do i miss u.
plaguedwithGUILTchokingSORROWS
♥```Shattered Dreams
12:29 AM
Monday, January 08, 2007
over
3 years n is over
a devastating way to start the new year
supresssing my anger, tears and hurt
i want to hear nutting from u
WHEREareyouimissuREALLY
♥```Shattered Dreams
10:22 PM
Friday, December 29, 2006
notice it is the last friday of 2006? what's in_stall for the new year?
past weekzouk
town
vivocity
home dvds-gouging
not to mention, christmas mass @ church
&party @ yuanni's hse
pix up soon*********************************
similar passe yet distinctly differentiated reactionsit doesnt seem to matter anymorecoz the power you have over memakemi a dead walking doll BLESSINGSshallbe
counted+appreciated
♥```Shattered Dreams
5:01 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
WTFi got a swollen lower LIP! worse still, i dunno how i got it. the possible culprit is the pimple under my lips
-_-"totally freak mi out when i woke up and realised my lips had grown extra 'muscle' or 'meat' or watever u call it. it better be off soon.
sobz.***********************************
forgive me just this once
let me have the right to think about you
freely
just this once
-heaven's tree-
mutilated&BLEDincessantly
nevertoREPLEVIN
♥```Shattered Dreams
8:30 PM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
almost a month since i blog
-explication time-fri 17102006
went to
loof to celebrate liyang's bdae
loof is sucha nice place to chill
bdae boy:liyang
uni peeps
the LOOF menu has 2 usages : A MENU (obviously)
and a MAKE-SHIFT SHELTER! (juz in case it rains coz LOOF is open-air)
from L to R : donna,amanda,liyang,mi,jess
bdae cake 'SMASHED'
jess,mi,keeyah
after a nite of drinking i was alreadi to tug myself to bed
when my dad received a call, saeing my grandma has passed away.
yes is for real this time. i went down to her house, hoping it wasnt true but no. the truth caught mi hard.
i shall dedicate a post for her solely.
my grandma, my caregiver always.
sat 18112006
the first day of my grandma's funeral.
2ml, mon 18122006, will be her first month.
wed 22112006
cremation of my grandma and last day of the funeral.
last look, last time.
fri 24112006
start of a torturing ordeal called 'EXAMS'
mon 27112006
my babelicious skele is back from aust! finally, my clubbing days r back. BUT WTF, i onli in the midst of my 2nd exam paper -_-"
thurs 07122006
FINALLY!! exams r done with. i cant believe i sat for 6 papers for 2 weeks.
one word: DEMORALISED
well headed for MOS to support amanda! she is in the pageant for seventeen mag: Queen of the Queens. nice event going on with the free nail polish, makeup booth and yummy icecream.
a great performance she put up though she didnt win. well afterwhich, clubbed the nite @ MOS with jess,marilyn,ger,ivy,skele,derek,lunny,jj,charles.
skele stayed over @ my place after a nite of clubbing.
fri 08122006
my house is in a mess n skele can still sleep like nobody business haha. major re-painting of the walls in my house. all dusty n untidy.
but the painters were pretty fast workers. they finished all the walls n ceilings of my house within 2 daes!
aniwae skele woke up and together with marc, we went to orchard to search for a special gift for his special someone.
afterwhich, met up with ger, yuanni n lunny to eat @ a hawker @ sembawang. cheap! i juz love to eat zi zhai(dunno wat the spelling)
sat 09122006
MOS again! wanted to go zoukout initially but it was freaking ex - $38 buckx - n preferably muz wear bikini -_-"
so MOS with jess,marilyn,eve,derek,glenn,jj. it's the company tat counts aniwae.
freaking crowded n we had to cut queue! too many ppl, too little space thus it wasn't fun at all!
skele was wasted haha. pictures speak a thousand words!
tues 12122006JB with jess n eve. eat seasons and secret recipes n bought lotsa dvds worth S$50. sweatz.
thurs 14122006
JB again. tis time with eve,marc,yuanni,lunny,ah seng. ah seng goin in army so juz wanna spend time n treat him eat.
we went to a corner shop to haf sumptous noodle! then ktv-ing @ TAM! to end it all, seafood @ a restaurant by the beach (reminds mi of the beach restaurant @ CHA-AM)
fri 15122006
madam wong for club. a place to chill but definitely not for a clubbing experience. songs n crowd were indifferently different.
sat 16122006
family's dae out. zi zhai @ geylang! crabs crabs crabs!
sun 17122006
sleepsleepsleep
funnily, the later i sleep, the earlier i wake up. my body clock is disfunctioning -haha-
shakes its head for the mind knows what's best
nod its heart for it knows what's desired
findaHOLE
BURYmi
♥```Shattered Dreams
11:31 AM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
deaftoALL
awareabtALL
♥```Shattered Dreams
11:16 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
FATfatFATfatFATfatFATfatFATSICKENING
look@u
concede defeat
ultimate loser, winner of neither
u arent tat great after all
pixdown statusgone pixup noneurs geddit? oversoon happynow? beprepared.belone.
avalanche of emotions these weeks
things that set me in tears
happenings that add smiles on my face
explicate when time is ripe
juz watched SAY I DO
(a variety show for one to confess their love or propose to his other half)imagine the gutsy the gal had to confess her love to tat guy on national TV
yet tat guy juz rejected her in front of 4 million viewers
HELLO! r u even a man?! couldnt u be more tactful n do it after the show? arghz i guess tat guy dun wanna lead her on too. well gal u did great, power of women these daes, tat guy is juz nt for u.
feelings r just something so uncontrollable n unknown. stranger it may seems, yearning the attention of many.
ponderLONGfindoutwho'stheFOOL
♥```Shattered Dreams
12:10 AM
