Sunday, December 07, 2008








Had a great outing with grandma(ah ma), mum , aunt and uncle yesterday.. went to eat smelly beancurd...


Heard that ah ma craved for smelly beancurd since last week after watching some tawainese program on tv.. she is so happy, savouring it =P Mum and Ah ma really enjoyed it.. Uncle and Aunt trying to enjoy it.. Me? haha not exactly a fan of it.. tried before..Smells like drain =P









Went FCBC for hokkien service after that.. Moses Lim was there! FCBC has a series of celebratory services which they would invite various celebrities.. so yesterday was one of the sessions! Really thank God that ah ma and mum eventually went and really glad to be able to go tog with Aunt and Uncle cos at least they would be in a better position to share to them, felt supported! =)


Moses Lim is really very humourous in presenting the gospel.. Both mum and ah ma said that he really knows how to talk..n they were laughing and listening quite attentively,think that's the 'power' of getting celebrities to share their testimonies..people would naturally be drawn to them and want to know more about the happenings in their lives... hm, pray that at least some seeds have been sown in their hearts..=)


Besides Moses Lim, another guy, Amos Ee shared his testimony too.. it's encouraging to see how God transforms his life!

Since young, due to his family background, he had been exposed to all the vices in life, drugs, fights , being constantly hit by dad, bro and sis.. grew up in a family which he felt uncared for, not loved.. he was in and out of boys' home.. though he received Christ at a tender age of 10, God to him is just a 'Santa Clause' whom he turn to when he is being lock up or when he is betting/gambling..

As he grew up, he continue to dabble in drugs etc... until one day while he was on the run, he was so despondent and was wondering how long does he have to lead the life of a vagrant.. so he made a prayer to God , repenting and asking God to save him.. On the same day that he made the prayer, he was arrested! However, at that point of time, he just felt a sense of peace that finally all was over and God had heard him and given him a chance to turn over a new leaf.. amazingly, though the drugs which he dabble in is of cat. A which would cost him a long jail sentence, the police could only find cat.C drugs in his possession, so he would only have to serve 3 years and 8 mths of jail.. In prison, he made the resolution to devote his life to God and after his release, he abstained from all the vices like drinks, drugs, smoking.. and now he is running 4 shops of his own! =) At the same time writing songs , praising and worshipping God..(his voice is really good!!

Very touched when I heard his story.. think God is really a God of grace and mercy! To provide for Amos things he don't deserve and seeing Amos's heart of repentence.. He actually witheld from Amos what he actually deserved after all his wrongdoings..n provided a second chance for him..Pray tt Amos would be able to impact people who is in the same plight as him and his life would really be an encouragement to them, not to give up hope or give up on themselves...

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Standard Chartered Marathone 2008












Ran 10km again.. heh but this year, rong is having jlpt so did not get to run tog.. instead ran tog with Nel , my bro and Shirleen..=) Hee my bro was cajoled into joining by me.. cos not sure if anyone is running 10km, so asked him to accompany me.. yeah so nice of him to agree la.. cos his frens all running 21km.. =P Then, realised that Shirleen is running too, so ran with her.. her first time running wor..hee gald to run tog with her =) My bro ah.. haha nw that there's someone to run with me.. he 'zoomed' off lor..=P

Went to 'pig out' with him too after the run.. enjoyed the time..just chatted with him along the way.. =)

Sunday, November 09, 2008

'The Screwtape Letters'- Just finished this book recently, it's a really good read.. It's about a more senior devil teaching a junior devil how to tempt a new believer as to draw him further away from God..


Find that the book is so sharp in picking up the subtle thoughts which the devil could implant into our mind.. I was filled with 'oohs and ahs' as I read the book , as i caught myself falling into some of these 'traps' set by the devil.. Below are some excerpts/quotes which I find them either relevant to my life at this point of time or areas which I find new insights from the book.. =)


The trap in times of uncertainty


"We want him to be in the maximum uncertainty , so that his mind will be filled with contradictory pictures of the future, everyone of which arouses hope or fear. There is nothing like suspense and anxiety for barricading a human's mind against the Enemy (God)He wants them to be concerned with what they do;our (the devils') business is to keep them thinking what will happen to them."


The trap in questions asked of a proposed course of action


"The Enemy loves platitudes.Of a proposed course of action he wants men so far as I (devil) cn see,to ask very simple questions;is it righteous?is it prudent? is it possible? Now if we can keep men asking "Is it in accordance with the general movement of our time? Is it progressive or reactionary? Is this the way that Histroy is going?" they will neglect the relevant questions. And the questions they do ask are, of course unanswerable;for they do not know the future and what the future will be depends very largely on just those choices which they now invoke the future to help them to make . As a result, while their minds are buzzing in this vaccum, we have the better chance to slip it and bend them to the action we have decided. "


Unselfishness vs Charity


For the devil, it is a great point gained if from the very outset, they could teach a man to surrender benefits not that others may be happy in having them but that he may be unselfish in forgoing them (parapharased)


"You(devil) must make them (couples/family/friends) establish as a Law that degree of mutual self-sacrifice which is at present sprouting naturally out of the enchantment,but which, when the enchantment dies away, they will not have charity enough to enable them to perform.... emotional resources died away and their spiritual resources have not yet grown-the most delightful results follow. In discussing any joint action, it becomes obligatory that A should argues in favour of B's supposed wishes and against his own, while B does the opposite. It is often impossible to find out either party's real wishes;with luck, they end by doing something that neither wants, while each feels a glow of self righteousness and habours a secret claim to preferential treatment for the unselfishness shown and a secret grudge against the other for the ease with which the sacrifice has been accepted"


"Love is not enough that charity is needed and not yet achieved and no external law can supply its' place"


Fear


"The act of cowardice is all that matters (to devil);the emotion of fear is , in itself no sin and , though we (the devils) enjoy it, does us no good."


Fatigue


"It is not fatigue simply as such that produces the anger, but unexpected demands on a man already tired..... To produce the best results from a patient's (Christian's) fatigue, therefore you must feed him with false hopes... Exaggerate the weariness by making him think it will soon be over;for men usually feel that a strain could have been endured no longer at the very moment when it is ending or when they think it is ending... (Let the patient avoid total committment), whatever he says, let his inner resolution be not to bear whatever comes to him, but to bear it "for a reasonable period" and let the resonable period be shorter than the trial is likely to last.... man would yield just when relief was almost in sight..."

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Just came home and saw this devotion which I suscribed.. thought it came quite timely.. Thank God!

I'm not ready!
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
11-08-2008


"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness'" (2 Cor 12:9).

If there is one thing that is consistent throughout scripture, it is this: God calls people when they are not ready. God will never call you into service when you think you are ready. This is intentional on God's part.

And, you can be sure when God calls you, you will have similar responses as Saul did when he was called to be the first king, or Gideon, when he was called to take down the idols in his nation, or Moses, when he was called to deliver his people from Egypt.


Saul answered, "But am I not a Benjamite, from the smallest tribe of Israel, and is not my clan the least of all the clans of the tribe of Benjamin? Why do you say such a thing to me?" (1 Sam 9:21).
"But Lord," Gideon asked, "how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family" (Judg 6:15).

But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" (Ex 3:11).


When God calls, you will most likely be in the most unlikely circumstances to receive that call. You will be in the midst of a crisis, you will lack resources, you will not have the skills you think you need. This too is the way of God.
God does this because He wants you to know your call is only based on His ability, not yours. When you think it is based on you, this is a false humility. And, it is unbelief and disobedience on your part.



Has God called you to something you have failed to do because you felt you were not ready? Repent before the Lord and let God accomplish great things through you

Friday, October 24, 2008

Sunday, October 19, 2008

White Knuckles over Niagara
By K.C. Tessendorf

Funambulist! Oh, how Harry Colcord rued the day he’d met one.


Eager to horn into the wages of fame, Colcord now feared he had sold his young life to Monsieur Blondin, famous funambulist-high-wire acrobat. Chicagoan Henry (Harry) M. Colcord was no daredevil or athlete, but a slightly built, white-collar clerk and agent who slid along on a smile, a handshake, and a shoeshine, selling his product, “The Great Blondin!”



But on this day, August 17, 1859, Harry stood unwillingly as point man in a crowd crowning the cliffs on the Canadian side of the Niagara gorge below the falls. Trembling and pale, he subdued a clamoring impulse to run away as fast as he could.


Harry’s frightened eyes were presently engaged with Blondin’s friendly encouraging eyes as the slim, muscular aerialist, carrying a long balancing pole, strolled up the final length of the rope pathway stretched 1,100 feet across the wild torrent of the Niagara River 190 feet below. Blondin’s saunter from the United States side had been accented with a few circus-type stunts from his repertoire.


The three-inch braided rope swayed in the wind currents of the gorge behind the nonchalant daredevil. Harry felt sick, for it had been advertised that in half an hour he would ride on Blondin’s back across the fearsome chasm.



“Blondin” was an appropriate stage name for Frenchman Jean-François Gravelet. He was fair, blue-eyed, and light-haired. Blondin was thirty-five and had been in the United States four years with a troupe of acrobats employed by master showman P.T. Barnum. In 1858, Blondin visited Niagara Falls as a tourist. It was there that he conceived a funambulist’s dream of slinging a rope pathway between the two countries over the Niagara gorge.



In the spring of 1859 Blondin left Barnum, and with Colcord came to Niagara Falls determined to create a personal aerialist theater.


Getting tying rights on both shores was difficult and required the hefty sharing of profits. However, a public-spirited merchant agreed to provide the thick, expensive rope for free. He even winked kindly when he said that if Blondin changed his mind and never used the rope, he’d understand.



Installed and anchored at either end by wide-spaced guys (ropes), the heavy strand sagged about 20 feet in the middle of the span. Since the gorge is normally windy, the rope moved sluggishly sideways and up and down.



A huge crowd with mixed emotions of hope and fear was present on June 30, 1859, to witness Blondin’s historic walk. Stepping out at 5 P.M. clothed in silk tights, Blondin revealed early on that he was a showman, not just a hiker.



A quarter of the way out, Blondin stopped, yawned, and stretched before lying down on the rope and placing the 38-foot balancing pole across his chest. He even appeared to snooze for a few minutes. Neatly arising, not using his hands, Blondin casually ambled out to midpoint, pausing on the swaying strand to unroll a coil of thin lead-tipped rope.



He patiently dangled the rope 180 feet down to a waiting boat, where a small bottle was attached. The daredevil reeled the rope back, sat down, and took a drink. Resuming his journey toward Canada, Blondin abruptly performed a backflip somersault, raising the tempos of many hearts throughout the crowd. Then he ran lightly up the mooring as the applause from both banks momentarily suppressed the roar of Niagara Falls.



“The Great Blondin” announced that he’d walk back, too. Carrying a camera, he went out and tied his pole to the rope. Freestanding in perfect rhythm with the rocking footing, he took pictures like an airborne tourist. He then briskly walked to the American side.
Blondin soon reappeared with a chair that he balanced on the rope and stood on. After that he called it a day!



Blondin went on to cross the falls weekly, adding new stunts. All of his crossings were heavily publicized by Colcord. On July 4, Blondin crossed in a heavy sack of blankets, blindly feeling his way. On his return, he walked backward. He bicycled. Once he came out pushing a wheelbarrow bearing a small stove. In midair, Blondin fired the stove and prepared, cooked, and ate an omelet. At least once, he stood on his head on the rope.



The great funambulist crossed at night with Roman candles spouting from his pole tips to mark his progress. A locomotive headlight shining on the rope went dark as Blondin was en route. But it is likely that this had been arranged by the canny daredevil, who emerged unfazed.



The business of daredeviltry requires the addition of new thrills, mostly because the crowds demand it. In early August, Blondin told Colcord, “Harry, here’s a stunt that will complete our fortunes! I’ll find a man and carry him over.” Harry also thought it was a great idea, and advertised a princely sum for the person who completed the trip on Blondin’s back. There were several suitable applicants, but after looking at the swirling depths of the gorge, each one quietly walked away.



Then Blondin proposed, “Harry, you’re a small man like myself. I can carry you. Be a good fellow and come along.”



Harry blushed and stammered—he couldn’t say yes or no. But at a meeting of the star and his agent with the press, Blondin cheerfully announced that he would carry his friend Harry Colcord on his return from Canada on August 17.



The news caused a sensation. It was apparent that a big crowd would come. Harry was hooked—wiggle as he might!



On August 17, after landing on the Canadian side, Blondin realized that Colcord was in a state of terror, hardly responding to him, staring into the gorge where the roiling water sped by at 42 miles per hour. So Blondin firmly took hold and led his companion out to the brink beside the rope as about 100,000 people called encouragement.



In a daze, Harry M. Colcord, apprentice daredevil, mounted Blondin's back, wrapped his arms around Blondin's neck, and placed his feet into harnessed stirrups. It was a load! Colcord weighed a little less than Blondin—136 pounds. The balancing pole added about 40 more pounds. As Blondin walked out, Colcord tightened his embrace. As Blondin barely grunted to release his grip, Harry, by supreme will, obeyed. Harry remembered the moment:



“Out over that horrible gulf I heard the roar of the water below and the hum which ran through the crowd. As we cleared the brink the hum ceased—the strain had spread to them.
“Blondin walked on steadily, pausing for one brief moment at each point where the guy ropes joined the main cable. The line was a trifle steadier at these points . . . Blondin halted at the last resting point before the middle span and yelled above the roar of water and wind,


Harry, you are not longer Colcord; you are Blondin. Until I clear this place be a part of me—mind, body, and soul. If I sway, sway with me. Do not attempt to do any balancing yourself. If you do we shall both go down to our death.’”



As the rope really moved, on lookers saw that the pole tops, which usually moved slowly, were now whipping up and down “like the wings of a bird in rapid flight.” And Harry thought they swayed sideways with the river flow!


“Blondin was now running just as a boy runs in order to better keep his balance when walking on a railroad track. We were nearing the point where the joining place of the first guy-line from the opposite shore offered us a breathing space. Finally, Blondin’s foot was planted on the knot that joined the lines. I was sucking in some air when suddenly the rope was jerked from beneath Blondin’s feet.”



The pair, near the end, managed to maintain their balance. Blondin was wringing wet with sweat, almost done in. Ashore, hundreds reached out their hands. The bandsmen were too emotionally overcome to hold a tune as the dogged pair rushed the crowd on American soil.



During the wild celebrations that followed, the president of the New York Central Railroad hailed the heroes. He gave Colcord a $1,000 check. Then the president offered the finest gesture a railroad baron could make. With a twinkle in his eyes he presented a second $1,000 check if Harry would promise not to do it again. Harry eagerly accepted.
What a happy ending!


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Drawing parallel to my life.. at times, I am just like the audience , cheered resoundingly when hearing what Christ can do.. but when I am expected to respond, don't really dare to proclaim and take action as rapidly as I should...


Blondin was a celebrated figure after this walk.. but I think I'm more impressed with Harry Colcord.. He was the one who turned his belief into actions.. though Colcord has his fears and anxiety.. afterall his life was on stake.. he did not start out with the 'purest motive' , but thought that his faith n trust in his friend was commendable.. he is practically entrusting his life into Blondin's hands.. and Blondin is merely human and could fail...


Hmm, imagining that God is Blondin and I'm Colcord haha so now I am not talking about a human whom I am entrusting my life in...I'm 'piggy-backing' on God, who is perfect and would not fail to walk through this tightrope of life, but why is it that at times wld still falter in my trust in Him?


These few months, could see the 'rope' swaying in the 'wind'.. so fearful that I would fall, unsure about the challenges that would come next, clung on tightly onto Him..


God , unlike Blondin would not ask me to loosen my grip on Him, but I believe He wld ask me to do what Blondin had asked Colcord to do at the last rest point:


‘Harry, you are no longer Colcord; you are Blondin. Until I clear this place be a part of me—mind, body, and soul. If I sway, sway with me. Do not attempt to do any balancing yourself...'



It struck me that while clinging onto God, I should not try to do any 'balancing' myself, have to deny my natural tendency or instinct.. and follow His leading, obeying Him, not partially, but completely.. if He' sway', I have to 'sway' with Him...Woah... Tall order.. but have His assurance that as I follow His leading, He would guide me to a place higher than myself.. and granting me the victory...just like the victory which Blondin and Colcord achieved in the end as Colcord followed what Blondin instructed him to do..

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Your Personality Type: The Harmony-Seeking Idealist

Your Personality Type: The Harmony-Seeking Idealist

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Saw this personality test from yeu ann's blog.. tried it and tot certain aspects are quite true.. haha i like doing personality tests.. probably i'm also trying to understand myself better...God's amazing, He created me so wonderfully complex that sometimes i caught myself by surprise hee =P

Psalm 139:14

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.


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I'm was very excited when i read about this guy, Kevjn Lim in The Straits Times..


Kevjn Lim- He was formally a trouble youth, monolingual Singaporean, but now a multilingual adult peacemaker as the only Singaporean war zone delegate of the Geneva-based International Committee of the Red Cross (ICRC)


I'm so excited because during the 2 weeks interim break prior to this new job, felt qt lost, thought that the new job would be steering me away from my originally set goal.. (ini thought of continuing to be in healthcare, after 2 years, take up master in public health) .. so when things happen and changes are made, felt uncertain about what is to come.. e new job is also a totally new area for me .. haha alot of response from people are like 'huh?' or 'tt's quite different ya? ' etc.. n guess it makes me feel more uncertain..=P


But at that point of time, also thought that this job could possibly help me be more global minded, facilitate myself interacting with foreigners.. then could help me in missions, humanitarian work which i thought of doing... from there, surfed websites like UN and ICRC.. n thought maybe in the future, i could possibly work for them or that could be my 'entry vehicle' =P one of the jobs that caught my eye was that of a war zone delegate in ICRC.. =) (yeah!) but at that point of time, i thought would it be quite far fetch for a Singaporean to be part of that international team..it's something like a childhood ambition kind of thing..something that one wld say , but hard to come true..=P


Hee but i was quite amazed when i saw the article...cos it seems to be God telling me 'Hey, it is possible , u know, a Singaporean did it..' it was e right encouragement at a right time.. ya.. but this doesn't mean tt i'm gg to prep to be a war zone delegate haha... everything is still blurry, but i believe He's adjusting my 'lenses'... in due course, i wld c a sharp 'focal point' in my life..anticipating!=)

Sunday, August 10, 2008

五年。

感激。

起落。

还是感激。

时光飞逝... 眨眼间,与他,相识了五年。=)
哈哈认识他应该不算偶然。之前身旁 认识他的朋友都向我诉说他的好,只是我有点儿半信半疑。

认识他后,心情 依旧。。起初的感动不由自主地变成担忧,不知父母会有什么反应, 同时也担心会影响学业。

一度想逃出这个‘疆局’, 但是他与周围的人对我的执著把我留了下来。

后悔吗?

没有。=)

他,虽然知道我的缺点,却从不嫌弃我。他耐心地包容着我的任性和倔强,对我的爱也从不期盼回报。。

在他的教导下,学会了很多东西也 加深了我对自己与人事的了解。这五年来,他帮我成长了许多, 使我的生活有了新的定义 ... 不再茫然,庆幸有他为我导航!

一路上并不平坦,但种种 经历却加强了我对他的信念也更巩固了我们之间的情谊。

他和我,有个约定。 =)

他 ... 是谁?

男友?

哈哈不是。

他 , 是我主!=)哈生命里的一个大靠山!

感谢他对我的恩典!

*祷告* 祈求周围的家人和朋友都能有机会认识他,体会他的好。=)

p/s: 哈哈刚学会在 电脑上用中文打字, 所以在这儿派上用场, 同时也看看自己的华文有没有生锈。 =P

Sunday, May 11, 2008

$23000 a month! An HR expert says that's the amount a stay-at-home mum would be paid if you consider all the jobs she performs.


Executive housekeeper (5hours) - $280
Childcare teacher (5hours)-$193
Chef (3 hours) -$170
PA (2hours)-$90
Driver (2hours) -$73


Monthly pay $22 568, yearly pay (including 13th month bonus) -$293384


The Straits Times May 11 2008


This article just caught my eye.. not only in terms of the 'fat' salary, but it got me pondering about my own mum...


my mum is also working.. 9am-5pm, sometimes working at night as well (doing accts for ppl) , on top of her job.. she still has to cover all those 'jobscopes' after she comes home.. not that i did not realise that it's tough last time, but guess reading the article just caused myself to reflect at how i may have taken my mum for granted at times..



start to appreciate more what my mum has been doing in the household.. n got to experience a fraction of how tiring it may be during times when my parents went on short trips, leaving my bro n myself at home .. oh man.. during those days, .. have to wash our clothes ( initially tt's the real difficult part.. dun really know how to operate the washing machine, after washing had difficulty with the bamboo poles.. ) , ensure that breakfast's bought.. Shadow's well fed n miscellaneous.. feel so tempted to complain how tiring it is, esp have to do those things after a day in sch.. but have to hold my tongue cos imagine mum have been doing more than that for ages...



There are many instances when my mum touched me, be it with a card for my bdae, just a word of how am i during my fyp times.. waking early just to make sure i had taken my breakfast before i went out.. n recently, there's one incident that simply melted my heart..



met up with my parents for dinner after wrk tt day... had a craving for char siew rice..was just telling them about it.. but when we went to the hawker centre, there isn't any char siew rice stall.. then was saying we'd just settle for economic rice.. so as my dad n i were ordering.. my mum said that she wanted to eat something else, so she went to order.. my mum was taking really long to come back.. but when she finally did.. guess what, she packed a packet of char siew rice from another coffee shop.. she said she also crave for it.. but deep down, i know it's actually for me.. oh man...i had to hold back my tears.. in case they thought wat's wrong with me.. =P



Alot of times, have to thank my mum (n dad) for the grace that she(he) had shown me.. wldn't say i'm a v sensitive or loving daughter.. made her sad , angry many times.. harsh words were exchanged.. tears were shed.. think it's just like what pastor Jeff said, we normally hurt our loved ones the most.. looking back am sorry for those times, but think at the crunch, words simply flow without bearing in mind what they had done for me...

As much as i want to be a better daughter, know that it's hard to do so by my own strength.. so pray that God can continue to help me grow in my character, fruits of the Spirit..in love, in patience..etc such that it can manifest in my speech/actions towards my parents n ppl..to guard against any undesirable atttitude .pray that i can be a testimony at home for Christ.. pray for my parents, for God to soften their hearts ,that they will come, see and experience how God can meet their needs as well one day..for their health , that they will be blessed with good health.. n for God to continue to strengthen our family relationship as well...=)



Sidetrack: mum n grandmum joining aunt's cg for rice dumpling festival.. encouraged! prev they keep refusing to join in any activities that are cg related... may God let it be a step for them to know Him more..

Friday, May 02, 2008

KK trip =)

Went on a much awaited trip to Mt KK , Sabah on 28th April - 2nd May with marc, mich n kw.. The trip's diff frm the prev trip which i went, it's my most gungho trip so far, mich n i tot tt it seems more like training for us rather than a leisure holiday.. ha we were pushed beyond our physical limits..

Nevertheless,really enjoyed this trip, the company, the experience... amazed by God's creation..Went Pulau Manukan at the very last min, one hour before the last boat, the water's crystal clear.. with alot of fishes swimming all ard..pity tt we din grab those snorkelling gear...but we did walk out onto the small wooden bridge to have a taste of having those small fishes swimmng around our legs..interesting..Sunset at waterfront is beautiful as well!

The scenary along the way up mt KK is awesome, with mt KK forming the backdrop..ha camera is always on a standby mode, will just start clicking whenever there's an opportunity..=P Started to trek up mt KK from Timphon gate,it's a 6km trek before we can reach Laban Rata where we are suppose to stay there till 2am the nxt morning to complete our climb up Low's Peak..the journey is made up of a combination of stairs and rocky steps.. some are really steep..so glad to spot qt a number of pitcher plant and squirrels along the way.. (have to thank God for the weather as well!When i saw the online weather forecast, it predicted that KK is gg to rain for the next 10 days, but when we went, the weather's really sunny, at least for the first n 2nd day =))Little yellow flowers laced the road up Laban Rata, helped brighten up the walk abit, cos we have been walking for ard 7-8 hours le n fatigue is really setting in then..

At Mt KK, am captivated by the vast number of stars in the sky..first time seeing a sky full of stars..=) n i saw a shooting star too,too stunned to make any wishes!!We decided to stopp around Panar Laban Rockface..about 2.5km away from summit,cos the rest of the route seems really daunting,have to climb up a steep surface (almost 70-80 degree) with the rope mounted by the side..dunno how to do it..think the coming down part is also a big headache..no regrets for not reaching Low's peak..think it's quite a feat le..but one thing to learn is tt definitely have to train before gg..din really train , so find it qt tough.. had a difficult time climbing down the mountain also..it's really gruelling..fatigue coupled with aches on both legs did not make it any better..Thank God for kw n marc who supported n enc mich n myself along the way =) n the guide who was so kind to help us carry our bags twds the end (initially he charged RM7 per kg for the bag tt he gonna carry, but after seeing our state, he simply do it for whatever amt we want to give..thk God for tt!)

Thank God for His protection during this trip and tt there's no hiccups along the trip! =) (abit worried b4 gg there cos made all the correspondences via email n internet, did not really have something firm to hold on to..kinda not sure what to expect haha so really glad tt it went well..=) ) Thank God for Jia and her parent's hospitality as well, allowing us to stay @ her place n fetching us to Senai airport for our flight early in the morning.. =)

Monday, March 17, 2008

Isaiah 65:24 'Before they call, I will answer'

This story was written by a doctor who worked in South Africa



One night I had worked hard to help a mother in the labor ward; but in spite
of all we could do, she died leaving us with a tiny premature baby and a
crying two-year-old daughter. We would have difficulty keeping the baby
alive, as we had no incubator (we had no electricity to run an incubator).



We also had no special feeding facilities. Although we lived on the equator,
nights were often chilly with treacherous drafts. One student midwife went
for the box we had for such babies and the cotton wool that the baby would
be wrapped in.



Another went to stoke up the fire and fill a hot water bottle. She came back
shortly in distress to tell me that in filling the bottle, it had burst
(rubber perishes easily in tropical climates). 'And it is our last hot water
bottle!' she exclaimed. As in the West, it is no good crying over spilled
milk so in Central Africa it might be considered no good crying over burst
water bottles. They do not grow on trees, and there are no drugstores down
forest pathways.


'All right,' I said, 'put the baby as near the fire as you safely can, and
sleep between the baby and the door to keep it free from drafts. Your job is
to keep the baby warm.'


The following noon, as I did most days, I went to have prayers with any of
the orphanage children who chose to gather with me. I gave the youngsters
various suggestions of things to pray about and told them about the tiny
baby. I explained our problem about keeping the baby warm enough, mentioning
the hot water bottle, and that the baby could so easily die if it got
chills. I also told them of the two-year-old sister, crying because her
mother had died.



During prayer time, one ten-year old girl, Ruth, prayed with the usual blunt
conciseness of our African children. 'Please, God' she prayed, 'send us a
water bottle. It'll be no good tomorrow, God, as the baby will be dead, so
please send it this afternoon.'


While I gasped inwardly at the audacity of the prayer, she added, 'And while
You are about it, would You please send a dolly for the little girl so
she'll know You really love her?'



As often with children's prayers, I was put on the spot. Could I honestly
say,'Amen'. I just did not believe that God could do this. Oh, yes, I know
that He can do everything, the Bible says so. But there are limits, aren't
there? The only way God could answer this particular prayer would be by
sending me a parcel from homeland. I had been in Africa for almost four
years at that time, and I had never, ever received a parcel from home.
Anyway, if anyone did send me a parcel, who would put in a hot water bottle?
I lived on the equator! Halfway through the afternoon, while I was teaching
in the nurses' training school, a message was sent that there was a car at
my front door.



By the time I reached home, the car had gone, but there, on the veranda, was
a large twenty-two pound parcel. I felt tears pricking my eyes. I could not
open the parcel alone, so I sent for the orphanage children.



Together we pulled off the string, carefully undoing each knot. We folded
the paper, taking care not to tear it unduly. Excitement was mounting. Some
thirty or forty pairs of eyes were focused on the large cardboard box. From
the top, I lifted out brightly colored, knitted jerseys. Eyes sparkled as I
gave them out. Then there were the knitted bandages for the leprosy
patients, and the children looked a little bored. Then came a box of mixed
raisins and sultanas - that would make a batch of buns for the weekend.
Then, as I put my hand in again, I felt the.....could it really be? I
grasped it and pulled it out - yes, a brand-new, rubber hot water bottle. I
cried. I had not asked God to send it; I had not truly believed that He
could. Ruth was in the front row of the children. She rushed forward, crying
out, 'If God has sent the bottle, He must have sent the dolly too!'



Rummaging down to the bottom of the box, she pulled out the small,
beautifully dressed dolly. Her eyes shone! She had never doubted!

Looking up at me, she asked: 'Can I go over with you and give this dolly to
that little girl, so she'll know that Jesus really loves her?'


That parcel had been on the way for five whole months. Packed up by my
former Sunday school class, whose leader had heard and obeyed God's
prompting to send a hot water bottle, even to the equator. And one of the
girls had put in a dolly for an African child - five months before, in
answer to the believing prayer of a ten-year-old to bring it 'that
afternoon.'


'Before they call, I will answer' (Isaiah 65:24) This awesome prayer takes
less than a minute. When you receive this, say the prayer, that's all you
have to do. No strings attached. Just send it on to whomever you want - but
do send it on. Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive. There is no
cost but a lot of rewards.


Let's continue praying for one another Father, I ask you to bless my friends
reading this right now. I am asking You to minister to their spirit at this
very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where
there is self doubting, release a renewed confidence to work through them.
Where there is spiritual stagnation, I ask You to renew them by revealing
Your nearness, and by drawing them into greater intimacy with You. Where
there is fear, reveal Your love, and release to them Your courage. Bless
their finances, give them greater vision, and raise up leaders and friends
to support and encourage them. Give each of them discernment to recognize
the evil forces around them, and reveal to them the power they have in You
to defeat it. I ask you to do these things in Jesus' name.


'Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps if you're not willing to move
your feet.


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God's amazing..

Really want to pray against the drudgery of life n long to work in tandem with God, experiencing faith-filled moments daily! =)

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Audrey Teh Yufen

A Colleague, A Friend, A Buddy
An amazing partnership that was heavenly made

Support that seems endless
Which never fails to pull me up from the Darkness and Down

Partners in "Crime" that everyone termed
Everywhere we left our footsteps.

~ Julia

Oh man, just so touched by my colleague, Julia ( poet to be =P), who wrote this poem for a friendship day contest held recently..really surprise to c it in email..

sorta 'grew up' tog in our job with her..with the first few mths being 'inseparable', so much so that when ppl see us, they call us 'partners in crime' y crime? ha cos we have to play some 'locating n snatching' game with others.. =P

Thank God for this friendship.. really blessed by it..=)

Saturday, February 16, 2008



my bro, me and my cousin..

aunt said been a while since the three of us took a photo tog so she brought along her cam..when we were younger, stayed at my grandparents house, always taking photos haha..hmm, no digi cam then, if nt can compare the photos.. then n now..=P




me and my aunt.. =)



grandparents.. mum, aunt, bro, cousin n me..


find that this year's new year seems quieter.. nevertheless, enjoyed the time =)

Monday, January 21, 2008

Sunday, January 06, 2008

This post will come as a late review of yr 2007..=P

Earlier part of 2007, most of my energy is exhausted at dashing for my last lap in nus, completing my fyp, projects and presentations for my modules..spent most time in lab.. even weekends.. felt alone and stretched during these months
but during this period, wanna thank God:


1)for the lab that He provided.. always wanted to have a taste of wrking in biopolis, n He fulfilled this wish of mine..then wonderful lab mates , Shalini, Hema n Xinyi who brighten up my days there.. Shalini , have to thank her for her guidance..


2) my fyp sup.. Prof Wong Sek Man and co-sup Dr Swami, they are both very approachable and willing to help.. as compared to some other sups of my frens..


3)Mich.. who supported n encouraged me alot during tat time as we serve and dash for our fyp..


4)learnt to be more proactive n independent in my learning.. gate crashed a graduate module to learn more abt DLS..


5)for drawing me closer to Him during this time, many times, can only turn to Him..helped me grow in my dependency on Him n trust in Him.. =)


6) Eventually,He gave me some micro protein crystals which I can use for my thesis!It's not easy to obtain crystals within one year..


7) Providence from God.. He provided me with a job even before I graduate..n i enjoy my job =)


8) Grad trip with Mich n GX to Vietnam, enjoyed n thank God for the trip!


Mid year started new job.. moved on to adults ministry..new environment, transition phase, adjusting to new ppl, new expectations, new worries and fears? haha


During this time, heart seems to grow 'cold' for God.. Felt indifferent..complacent.. just going thru the routine of going service, cg...seems a bit 'blind' to wat God is doing as well.. din really give thanks to Him.. Fatigue. worries and fears seem to cloud up the heart..n like recently the unit teaching, bitterness against someone hindered r/s with God then too..


Thank God He gave me a new heart and put a new spirit in me, removed my heart of stone and gave me a heart of flesh.. thru


1) a great talk with the person i am habouring some bitterness twds..


2) many ways in which He blessed and watched over me at the workplace by His grace..so much so that I can't ignored His presence.. =P thru patients, thru situations..


3) Thank Him for giving me the opport to view a CABG in my job.. oh man, it just makes me marvel at how great a Creator He is .. n the working env just helps to convict me even more that we really need Him..


Later part of the year..heart just swelled with thanksgiving for Him.. =)

1)Blessed by ppl ard me..

2)personal breakthru by running 10km in stand chart. marathon..

3)XL coming to know Him - a beautiful end to 2007.. =)


2008.. penned dwn some resolutions.. looking fwd to attempting new things for Him n do want to stretch myself more as well! Praying for God to direct my steps..


p/s: realised this is the 101 post in my blog..just a side track =P