One week of hols just passed in a whirlwind of events.. It was packed to the brim.. did not really rest alot for the week.. but can say that everyday of last week was a fruitful day for me.. managed to learn some things about myself or acquire new knowledge everyday.mon, tue, learn more about skills involved in being a teacher aide from a two day teacher aide training course, then also learn more about some subtle attitude of mine..thu, learnt baking frm 2 great bakers =P win n claire..(=P but not there yet.. more of an observer..)fri n sat had wfl.Attended 'A faith church'..quite an important lesson for me.. n it just came in time for me to make a decision..it was also a week of struggles.. many thoughts ran thru my mind..in e midst of settling them down..also a week when i really needed rest.. fell ill.. sat was the most drastic.. thought tt i was fine le, but midway thru wfl, tummy started churning for no reason.... nearly fainted during p n w.. e exact feeling when i felt when was in e train last time..sat dwn n prayed(dun wanna be e first to faint during srv)after tt started feeling feverish again.. but thank God for bro n sis who prayed for me..such that can endure till after dear sheppy b'dae celeb..=)n also made it for sun's sports event..
Went Sentosa on sun, played frisbee, dodgeball n captain's ball.. quite long din touch these games le.. or can say e time when i play these games is usually bcos of e club's event.. initially really cannot imagine myself enjoying e games.. cos quite tired n tummy still aching a little..(sorry if this caused any dampening of the mood of anyone) but thank God.. after some time pain just subsided..was quite an enjoyable time =)Have to thank e pe teachers in our group who tried their best to coordinate the group, though after a few games they are already feeling quite tired yet they continued playing.. directing the group (which may not be that strong in sports)and to help us work together..
Hmm.. this week will be quite action filled too.. will be gg settler's cafe on sat after service..n e program will be great!! ppl, if ur wanna join can let me know ya =)
Then, esp to Clara, yun n xy, really sorry tt have to change the timing of our meet up over n over again..cos will be quite packed these few weeks..everything just happened at the same time.. hope that ur will understand n tt i really look fwd to every of our meet up..sorry sorry..

At the point of typing this post has already completed 3 papers within 3 consecutive days.. feeling really tired.. haha wondering how come in the past in secondary school or JC, consecutive day exams, or even two papers on a single day exams seems to be the norm and no one complained or take much notice of it..or maybe it's me who don't take much notice of it.. and that time has more 'stamina' to keep studying..but in uni, with papers on consecutive days are like..'uh oh...' haha then if with 2 papers on the same day.. ha that will really be a 'nightmare'...=P

A review of the papers...more on the first one.. After first paper, immunology, set me into a mixture of feelings.. i dunno how to answer the short answers, then true-false qns also not very sure.. but while doing though i dunno how to do, what i felt is not fear.. but rather is more of that though i dunno how to do,but i want to attempt every qn to my best ability.. managed to at least write something for all short ans..but like what i told some people, it's really smoking.. i know that there's no substance inside..hmmm... felt relieved, at the same time uncertain after the paper..went to pray.. think in my heart wanted to trust God for His help but at the same time was thinking how can He help me.. it's a factual paper.. so either i have the facts or i don't and if i don't how can He help...then have to admit that studies and family are two things that have a stonghold in my life so, if anything happens within these two vicinity, qns will just start brewing..but think at that point, He just reminded me of a passage in e prayer and fasting guide, Acts 12 , the miraculous escape of Peter from jail..God reminded me to continue looking to Him even when things seem impossible from our point of view.. and to keep in mind that God can do the extraordinary while we continue to do the ordinary, to pray..No needs are too great for God.. decided to commit the paper to God. dunno how is He gonna help.. but instead of feeling hopeless about it, will want to put the hope in God and strive on for other papers..Matt21:22 22 : "And all things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." it's really Father, dept on you le =).Want to grow to look towards Him no matter what is the circumstance.. Then realised that it's important to have a peer to support u.. at least can point each other to look back onto God..Thank God for mich..
The pharmaco paper is better.. at least know what i'm writing though feel a bit insecure abt the essay qns but think hav some substance inside..Today's microbio paper , think have to thank God that it's 'doable'.. whew~!!Thank GOd for jia too,her concern and her room which helped to generate more time for my revision =)
Will press on for my last paper..physio!!

=D I'm 21 yrs old for 2 days le!!! got the 'key' (something cliche =P) to adulthood.. haha n of course responsibilities tt is to come..But this yr's birthday is really full of blessings from God!
Had a wonderful dinner with my parents, bro n grandma.. v touched by all tt they had done for me. am showered with gifts.. my bro got me a necklace(though he is busy wif his A levels but he still took the trouble to go n buy gift for me.. so sweet of him!!) .. in addition, my dad got me a sunflower n an ornament indicating my special daughter.. touched!! Wat is most amazing is that they agreed to take the trouble to drive me to a church prayer meet.. (praise God!! Initially they were quite firm about not letting me go.. thanx to all who prayed!! =))So blessed!!
At the prayer meet.. woah felt immersed in God's presence.. everyone worshipping n praising God together! It was a wonderful feeling..haha then there was a black out.. for ard 30mins? haha dunno.. but ppl just continued praying , worshipping.. so glad to be there with the caregroup n unit ..=)at the prayer meet.. God reminded me with a verse, I planted the seed, Apollos watered it but God make it grow..(1Cor 3:6) =) i will trust God with this..entrust Him with my family and frens.. hee faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible(hee today's sermon..=P)
After the prayer meet.. went out with my sheppy, dy, mich, jia..=) very blessed by them too! Their heart to want to make my day special.. =) even though they may be tired frm work or busy..Really thank you!!Hee though din go to the jazz pub(as intended) but just 'savour' the time when we can go out tog..=)
Yest...hee my unit celebrated for me!! =)Thank God for them, every single one of them who took the trouble to plan n be there.. though now is the exam period! Thanx a doz for all the affirmations and encouragements, the gift, the card, the cake! V v touched!!These wonderful moments will be etched in my mind for as long as i live as well.... =)Looking back, it's just so amazing how God had brought me into the family n it's has already been 2 years n 3mths le..Thank God for pushing, pulling n reining me in haha everytime i felt as if dropping.. He always manages to pull me up in time..=P n to bro n sis who are there..
Pray tt all of us will continue growing in frenship, in our experience, faith n knowledge of God n to support each other better!Pray tt one day i can give thanx to God tog wif my family as well!Amen!! =)

COMMON QUESTIONS WE WISH TO ASK GOD
God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me : Called you? No… who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me : I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me : Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me : I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God : Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me : Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated. Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.
Me : But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me : But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me : If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me : You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me : But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?
God : Problems are purposeful roadblocks offering beneficial lessons to enhance mental strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me : Frankly, in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me : Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look a how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me : What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, “why me?” When they prosper, they never ask “why me”. Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me : Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me : How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Me : One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me : Thank you for this wonderful chat.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. “Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!”

Met e gals today..=)finally got to meet again.. these few months, all of us are like busy wif our stuff..xy n clara though in nus haha din got to meet them at all.. except miss clara.. only once.. n tt's in the ladies..=P xy din got to c her at all in sch..though studying under e same roof yet so distant..al n yun dun need to say le..even further..wait till nxt sem yun ia in nus, al coming bck , then may hav chance to meet more often =)
Though e meet up is short..n think all if not most of us are tired and burdened by coming exams or assignments or even work.. really appreciate the time together n touched by ur gestures..=)Thanx a doz!!

Your #1 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

What's Your Personality Type?

Haha..me a thinker or feeler? i also dunno.. haha dept on situation ba..can let em knoe what ur think =P

We are going to the zoo zoo zoo, hw abt u u u? u can come too too too, we are going to the zoo zoo zoo" Haha.. we started singing this song when we realised that we are going to the zoo for gfg..think many will exlaim.."zoo?!! think there must be a better place than that.." or some other responses are "zoo?!! thought that place is for kids.. forgot hw long since i last been there." haha forget abt initial responses, but think all of us had a wonderful time there yesterday.(at least in my opinion =P)haha b4 the trip met up wif jia, huili, jitsy for lunch at amk..had a really hearty meal n food there is cheap n good (hmm wonder y din i go there often while in aj..)was a good time of chatting n laughing..over some silly matters..

then went to meet up wif the rest..think most of us are quite high.. n we r just talking n laughing along the way.. like a bunch of sec sch gals out for excursion..haha then gg to e zoo ,we lingered for quite long at each enclosure of the various animals..oohing and aahing enthusiastically at their actions and behavious..=P then were fascinated by elephants who know how to respond to commands in singhalese..(a sri lanka language) and the rapport between the zoo keepers n them..n also penguins who responded to hp light and did a 'head' dance.. haha moving its' head in the direction of the hp.. n there are penguins chasing after the hp..=P also learnt some knowledge also.. regargding e snakes, boa constrictor and anaconda.. they give birth to their young alive.. not by laying eggs.. i din know tt wor! =P oh then soem crazy things tt we did incld went to children's world then me n huichoon just went to play wif water.. haha then 'ambushed' by a kid who got us wetter than we wld expect.. hee then the other sisters came n join us.. n we took a lot of photos there.. cos it's really pretty wif the water splashing ard.. =P (haha act along the way, we took quite a lot of photos..thank God for Christine .. =))
Generally manged to 'comb' the whole zoo.. which makes the price tt we paid for the ticket worthwhile.. =P

After the zoo trip, thought abt cerain things.. think not the first time tt went to the zoo.. but find today's exp an enjoyable one..act show tt ppl do make a diff..if

nt for e sisters' enthusiasm thruout the trip, dun think this will be a v fun trip.. then also realised act seldom has such a time like yest to really walk ard , observing animals or plants.. or marvel at God's creation.. many times am just caught up with shuttling here n there, reoccupied with studies , thoughts that din even have a good look at the surroundings.. which i am walking in..think reminded em of what my pri sch teacher, Miss Ling, taught me.. when walking, look even at the crevices, keep ur eyes big n u may find unexpected surprises there..=)true wor.. nature is so beautiful.hahah all of a sudden i just feel like becuming a botanist or zoologist..=P

personally, enjoyed gfg .. find tt it serves as an extra opportunity for sis to get to know each other better and deeper at the same time support one another..sometimes feel that the fellowship, if in a grp.. at least got some chaperone then no matter wat will tend to have something to carry on the conversation.. but sometimes feel quite awkward when maybe just alone wif another person cos feel that actually dun really knoe that person and dunno what to talk..then will tend to 'flock' to ppl i know n forever wun know another person deeper.. at least gfg, though may seem deliberate but at least increase my contact with the rest of the sis in the subd..=) ya.. then also when i was still a nb, always feel that other than ministry, hard to find ppl to go out tog..having gfg, at least will have some shared experience n moments of fun tog.. believe will strengthen our r/s also..=) ya.. hmm looking fwd to stepping out of my 'shell' n really take the initiative to know other ppl.. this is one area which i hope God can help me grow in..

Went to Goshen for dinner..went there for the first time...
Goshen.. has a modern chic look with black tables and chairs, black wooden chopsticks, white glass plates and bowls.. then beautiful crystal clear glass plates were used to serve the food..which are beautifully arranged on the plates.. =)n the food is deeeelicious !! ahha se xiang wei ju quan..=P hmm then the waiter and waitresses are also dressed professionally.. in black overalls..(look abit like tt of Tao restaurant) n their service is v good.. taking care to ask us how's the food and to chat with us...Hmm.. the environment.. it's serene..open n cooling..=)with fish tanks of goldfish and parrot fish lining the corridoor of the restaurant..then walls decor with er-hu.. giving it a tinge of wen hua qi xi =)
guess where is it located? dun think anyone wld hav tot of it.. it's actually inside a gloomy, enclosed drug rehabilitation centre ard geylang lorong 23..ya think wld have gussed it ya? it's opened and run by ex-drug addicts..n tt's wat make the restaurant special..=)
my impression of drug addicts are tt maybe they are quite ah beng or ah lians..so when my dad told me abt the restaurant, my first thought was like tt of a kopitiam.. just a slip slop eatery house maybe with those plastic utensils..but i was wrong wor..n am sorry to to be judgemental..but..
guess most people (including me)when they heard of drug addicts or ex-convicts.. first thought tends to be a negative one..one of it is.. can they really trust tt person to change? n most companies will not be willing to employ ppl with a 'black mark'..n it's sad.. i saw a quote frm Jack's Neo new movie.. 'I was sentenced to 10 years jail, but in the society, I am given a life sentence'.. i cannot help but agree.. hw many of them can resume working in a big firm with as bright future as before they go to jail? My uncle was an ex drug addict too.. n when he first got intro to my family, my grandparents were against him too..bcos of his background of taking drugs, gang fights.. but he later proved that he is a faithful and sincere man to them..he took drugs n got into fights as he was young and immature then..( Thank God for him too.. to help me witness God's transforming power in his life.) =) Seeing these ppl who are really determined to change,glad that there is this yellow ribbon project..to raise awareness.. for them to help them integrate into the society once again..
In the end.. bought a yellow ribbon..too =)

First immunology lab today wor... DISSECTED A MOUSE!!! =P first time after 6 years of studying biology..hahaha recalled that at sec 3 what prompted me to take biology is that i thought that there will be dissection involved in the practical...haiz.. but who knows the year when i took biology, the syllabus changed and there will be no more dissection practical =( all that we did was boil potatoes, food test in sec sch.. then still filled with hope of dissecting an animal in jc.. but also dun have, instead it's more of microscopy work of plant n animal tissues, more food tests..year 1 and year 2 of uni also dun have.. hee finally year 3 have!! Yeah!! hee though it's 1 mouse to 4 persons.. but nvm.. at least i tried cutting open the skin and had a look at the spleen, thymus of the mouse..=) Pls dun think that i'm a psychopath.. =P i also found it disgusting and if one were to ask me to kill the mouse i dun think i dare to... ( initially tot have to pull tail of the mouse to kill it cos 1 mthd in the protocol is cervical dislocation, but thank God they killed it for us) i just want to see what is the anatomy of a mouse like.. acc to the TA, their anatomy is quite similar to human.. so amazing.. no wonder they always use mouse in lab testing..Ya.. so though immunology lab took up the entire 6 hours (without break), was tired but really glad that learnt and tried something new today, enjoyed the practical =)just some side track.. today's pract already made use of 20 mice.. can't help thinking, how many mice will be sacrificed in the process of discovering a new drug.. believe the no. will be many times more... sometimes even guinea pig, rabbits or dogs will be sacrificed.. seriously cannot really bear the thought of a dog being killed..(if it's a dog, i surely wun dare to dissect it cos remind me of shadow) hmm... but if the animals are not sacrificed, there may be no new drugs for human.. so how?? to gain in certain area, some areas will be lost ba i guess...

First week of school ended.. it was a 'whirlwind' of events..Going back to school is a mixture of joy, uncertainty , excitement and fear...
Haha.. on the first day of school is the HIGHLIGHT of my week!! We have a new sister among our midst!!! Woah.. was really ecstatic hee =) Really looking forward to her growing stronger in her faith!
first week...haha ur must be thinking quite slack rite, nonono hahaha I already had practicals for 2 modules.. though the practicals were not exactly tedious..but hmph... people's pract starts on the 3rd week wor..n mine.... among the 2, physiology one is quite unique.. we played board game for 3 hours, though it is a bit boring butlearnt quite a bit of knowledge from that then the good thing is our grp emerged the winner!! =)
Besides pract, lecturers are also going almost full blast le..ha no more long introductory lectures..guess year 3 le..so shld expect it..=)
Hmm.. also wanna catch up with a lot of friends..friends whom i agree to meet during hols, but never had a chance to.. =) sorry wor.. will catch ur in school ya.. =P

Second week of school almost coming to an end as well..hmm this week more free compared to the first cos no pract =)Glad to hav lunch wif qm n sel this week.. hope to meet up wif others also..Oh then act today is my HIGHLIGHT of e week ( haha accidently)celeb mich's bdae, think first time 2 units come tog to celeb bdae ( as far as i remember).. it was short but sweet..today also learnt 3 new praise songs..thx to jia.. hee tml cg will try my hands at playing guitar ..pray tt wun have any hiccups in btw..=)Hmm.. hope to save up n get a guitar fast so can learn n then dun hav to keep leading p n w.. =P can play guitar also...looking fwd to later cg..=)

A LOVE STORY

One day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah the beauty of God's creation is beyond description. As I watched, I praised God for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.

He asked me, "Do you love me?"

I answered, "Of course, God! You are my Lord and Savior!"

Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?"

I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't; be able to do, the things that I took for granted.

And I answered, "It would be tough Lord, but I would still love You."

Then the Lord said, "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"

How could I love something without being able to see it?

Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved God and His creation. So I answered, "Its hard to think of it, but I would still love you."

The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?"

How could I listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood.

Listening to God's Word is not merely using our ears, but our hearts. I answered, "It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your word."

The Lord then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"

How could I praise without a voice?

Then it occurred to me: God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul. It never matters what we sound like.

And praising God is not always with a song, but when we are persecuted, we give God praise with our words of thanks.

So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your Name.

And the Lord asked, "Do you really love Me?"

With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes Lord! I love You because You are the one and true God!"

I thought I had answered well, but...

God asked, "THEN WHY DO YOU SIN?"

I answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect."

"THEN WHY IN TIMES OF PEACE DO YOU STRAY THE FURTHEST? WHY ONLY IN TIMES OF TROUBLE DO YOU PRAY THE EARNEST?"

No answers. Only tears.

The Lord continued: "Why only sing at fellowships and retreats?

Why seek Me only in times of worship?

Why ask things so selfishly?

Why ask things so unfaithfully?"

The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

"Why are you ashamed of Me?

Why are you not spreading the good news?

Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when I offer My shoulder to cry on?

Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?"

I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.

"You are blessed with life. I made you not to throw this gift away. I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away. I have revealed My Word to you,

but you do not gain in knowledge. I have spoken to you but your ears were closed. I have shown My blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away. I have sent you servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away. I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all."

"DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME?"

I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuse. What could I say to this?

When I had cried my heart out and the tears had flowed, I said,

"Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be Your child."

The Lord answered, "That is My Grace, My child."

I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do You love me so?"

The Lord answered, "Because you are My creation. You are my child. I will never abandon you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you. When you are down, I will encourage you. When you fall, I will raise you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I will be with you till the end of days, and I will love you forever."

Never had I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold? How could I have hurt God as I had done?

I asked God, "How much do You love me?"

The Lord stretched out His arms, and I saw His nail-pierced hands.

I bowed down at the feet of Christ, my Savior.

And for the first time, I truly prayed.

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Sch starting... hmm I've got all the 4 core modules that I've wanted but can foresee that the next semester will be quite a packed one.. 4 core.. immunology, human physiology, pharmacology, microbiology... all requires a considerable amount of memory work.. plus plus..for 3 modules, e exams are one after another.. 24,25,26th .. a bro was saying that in tt case, will have more chance to pray for me.. haha i believe so too..with God, everything is possible.=D
Looking back at the holidays.. hmm.. don't actually find it very long, most of the days are occupied..with matric, with work..
Oh.. I really enjoyed all the work that i've done during this holidays.. as a student care teacher, a teacher aide with Mayflower sec and a facilitator with Amdon..all deal with kids and students..it proves a challenge controlling a bunch of energetic primary school kids..rmb that time shouted till lost my voice for about a week.. =P but really enjoyed the short stints here and there...=)
Hmm...then before the holidays,actually listed quite a number of things that i wanted to do..but did not actually manage to complete them... the only thing i managed is finished reading 'The Da Vinci Code'.. read it as a thriller, minusing the controversial part, it really has quite an intriguing plot..with twists here and there..especially towards the end..=)
Then another thing on my list is to learn a new technique of drawing.. and try it out..did not manage to do that.. but in replacement of that, learnt a little of balloon sculpturing (i can do up a decent doggy =P), hmm made a lot of cute boxes for sweets..(from ACTstrinsic 'Who wants to be an entrepreneur') then learnt how to fold origami lilies..( by courtesy of a collegue, who wants to fold for his gf..=P)so not too bad after all =)
i also wanted to complete reading some books to build up my spiritual life.. but due to laziness, sloppines.. haha or whatever those are..only read 'if you want to walk on water, get out of the boat'( second time reading it..)
hmm.. actually over this holiday.. realised some issues.. am praying for God to help me overcome them.. praying for Him to stretch my heart, to love Him more courageously..trust in Him under all circumstances and not just be dependent on whether i attained the outcomes i desired..and also to be humble and look to Him for strength..
So.. started afresh now...my computer started afresh too.. (was re-formatted because of stupid noton).. spiritually, gonna start afresh as well in order to pass the 'tests' that may be coming again..studies wise.. new sem .. so starting afresh..year 3 le.. will not have pre-allocated modules.. so the ppl i always see in labs may change as they conc in different areas..but looking forward to the new start..=)

This is what the Lord says to you:' Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. ~ 2 Chronicles 20:15b

=) me back frm hk le..seems to lost track of time there.now exists a 'back to reality ' kind of feeling..

Enjoyed this trip.. think it will be etched in my memory for as long as it is..firstly reg plane.. haha glad tt i din make a fool out of myself on plane..was quite nervous during take off part..later was ok.. more calm than usual.. thank God there r no turbulances.. =)also to clara who tried distracting me hee

Amazed at our map reading skills for these 6 days ..ha we covered quite a no. of places .. Repulse Bay,Tsim Sha Tsui ( includes Avenue of Stars, Space Museum shopping area), Causeway Bay (shopping area), Mong Kok (shopping area for youngsters , cheaper stuff.. 'ladies market' , sports street..r also fd there ),pass through Temple street ( it is a different look of hk.. quite a messy place, we felt quite uneasy there so decided just to walk thru as fast as we cld).. went up to Victoria Peak..(think din get to see much of the scenary, too foggy..) then went Macau (St. Paul Cathedral, Macau Tower,Wine museum)...ice wine in the museum is nice =)

Oh, thanx to our tour guide 4 a day..who brought us to eat roast pigeon n to the peak..jc fren, gm, haha think he quite poor thing, made him acc us 4 a day though he lacks slp n has to endure wif 6 girls..esp the shopping part.. think he almost bored to death..then but really appreciate his hospitality. =)

Basically what is advertised by the hk tourism board is quite apt.. in hk, it is really shop n eat, shop n eat..=P then it is a nite city, shops will close ard midnite, then even so, there will still be many ppl walking along the streets..By e way, walked n shop so much tt dun ask me to go shopping.. hmm maybe for the nxt one mth.. =P most of e time just window shop, din buy much.. cos e stuff in hk abt e same as in singapore..

Then observed that most ppl there are very well groomed..seldom see girls on streets without make up or guys without their hair styled..then ha also noticed their fashion trend this summer.. they go for layers..guys n gals alike..oh, most ppl also use branded stuff.. was thinking hw can they afford it? or r they imitatios? i have no idea...

Found tt media in hk is also quite liberal..they can talk abt religion quite openly.. chanced upon a program regarding Christianity.. there's a lady sharing her testimony of Christ on TV.. woah.. think it'll be powerful if can do tt in Singapore.. since influence of media is great.. oh then heard that tt is their own channel...

Hmm then also discovered that the food in hk is unhealthy, it's meat, meat, meat for most of the time with little veg n fruits.. ha had a hard time looking 4 them..then the portion of the food is big.. ate a lot during this trip..but on e whole e food there is quite nice.. oh, like an eatery by e name of 'tang dynasty', they have v nice desserts..shrimp dumplings.. n porridge..=)

On the whole, this trip quite an eye-opener.. thanx to my frens.. who made e trip memorable..though there were awkward moments (b4 trip n during abit).. but believed tt we've forged stronger ties ya..=)

In another 16 hours time, will be boarding the flight to hk..haha.. first time in my life gg overseas with friends instead of family.. hmmm... feel a excited yet a bit uneasy n insecure..seems like a weird combination of feelings.. but ya.. tt's hw i'm feeling..
e sense of excitement think most shld be able to understand.. haha gg on tour wif family is different frm wif frens ya?..but uneasiness mayb hav to explain a bit haha.. a lot of factors but..hee
mainly come frm having to take plane.. i'm not a big fan of taking aeroplane.. it just does not give me the security tt i'll get when taking train or ship or car..ha but no choice la.. other mode of transpotatn may take forever to reach haha..=P hmm.. let me see..frm past experiences, i can just sit at the seat minimising my movements for e entire flight..with my seat belt buckled on even though the seat belt sign is off..e longest flight is 12 hrs (haha tt's hw bad it is =P)hmm thinking of deep vein thrombosis haha ...thank God tmr only 4 hrs.. can be kept occupied by reading.. dunno if china airline has games or movies to keep me occupied..oh dun like plane bcos of turbulences also... can u imagine the plane plunging down? even if a short dist,think it's quite scary haha.. pray tt there wun be turbulences tmr...
but think once in hk.. shld be fine le.. can eat, shop.ppl r asking me to buy stuff back lo hee =)..then..pray tt the weather will be gd though...don't like to carry umbrella ard when shopping..then somemore if rain dun think those night markets will be open..
Hmm..hope all goes well n tt will have a fruiful trip..hee dunno if bargain wif my half bucket water (direct translation) cantonese..will they understand? haha will c then.. =)

Long time never blog le... haha think all will know why ya? exams lor plus I am lazy, lazy to type down my thoughts, just want them to be in my memory..=P
Just finished exams on Friday and Sat is the first day of my holiday.. long holiday.. can recharge =)
think first day of holiday is great!!!went ktv in the afternoon with bro and sis..ktv was a fun time of fellowshipping.. =P, ya also first time hearing bro n kl sing (though know kl v long le, finally got to hear her sing )..
went arcade at night..played all those games that i used to play..puzzle bobble 3 (my favourite =P), daytona, bishi bashi champ.. haha reminds me of my secondary school time..Think few will believe if i tell them i often go arcade when i was in secondary school on weekends and stayed till 2-3am ya? haha
The story is like that, my family is a group of 'owls' when i was in secondary school, think almost every weekend, we will go downtown east there, then my bro and i will be in the arcade after dinner till sometimes the arcade closes..then my parents ah..haha ur can guess where they will go..but so long never go arcade le..btw, though that is the case,am not good at those arcade games like time crisis, those shooting types etc, cos when i was younger was mostly playing those ticket types.. haha then can change for prize. =P
hmm...can say arcade brings back 'childhood' memories ya...=)

Just as I was feeling tired and down because of the coming test tomorrow, my report, exam and the lack of time... God decided to encourage me wif a phone call... haha SO HAPPY , SO HAPPY!!!!! =) WOAH!!! my students got a SILVER for their Northzone Science Elementz competition..... hahahaha .. initially din expect it at all..must be by God's GRACE!! cos the topic (Tea Wine fermentation) isn't such a novel topic.. then my students are not quite motivated to do the project.. a lot of problems cropped up in the way as well..am so glad tt they pulled thru the presentation and the display board thingy.. asked cy yest, she just mentioned a mere ok for the presentation which sort of disappoint me a little.. but now I'm on cloud 9 lalalala.. =P Think my students will also be caught in surprise when they hear this...hee...=) A rainbow tt appears after rain....or shld i say amidst rain =P

All The Way

The road seems long, I can't see ahead
But I will not lose heart
Mountains seem taller
With each passing day
But I will not lose my faith
Stones and pebbles they stumble me
But I have not lost my way
Not by my wisdom, not by my strength
But by following Jesus
As He leads my way

Jesus He is with me , He will never walk away
Jesus goes before me, every step of every day
Jesus how He loves me and He's coming to stay
In my heart forever, guiding me
All the way

.......

This is the song which i saw when i was just browsing the song book...have never heard this song before but i like the lyrics...pls send me the song ya.. if ur have =)

=) Today is Good Friday... but still have to go back to school to write lab protocol in the morning.. haha when I told my bro abt it, he thought that I was crazy and had forgotten that today is a holiday..Really thank God that we came up with the protocol within the time limit that we set.. pray that we are on the right track cos it's like 15% for it and if the protocol is wrong..then may have to say 'tata' to the other 15% as well..
First part of the day sounds quite dull..haha but afternoon was fun !!!jia they all n py,kl came to my house to bake hot cross bun and paint easter eggs..haha first time trying to bake bread.. a.. think the bread din turn out v well, texture is more like scones instead of bun..quite hard,think did not let it 'raise' enuough.then haha no measurement stuff, so mostly is based on 'agaration'=P Shall try it again next time..
Then first time painting an easter egg actually..enjoyed the time..then all eggs r so nicely painted.. (tml gonna take a pic of them)Haha then different styles also.. Mich one is cute.. got story one, hl one is v easter-like, shir's punk-like haha then jia's is like 'jiu chen gao',kl's like a strawberry at e btm,py's blue.. mine. haha hope to depict a feeling of spring, but.. hmm.. haha
Thank God for the time..=)

Risking

Two seeds lay side by side in the fertile spring soil.
the first seed said, "I want to grow! I want to send my roots deep into the soil beneath me, and trust my sprouts through the earth's crust above me...I want to unfurl my tender buds like banners to announce the arival of spring...I want to feel the warmth of the sun on my face and blessing of the morning dew on my petals!"
And so she grew.

The second seed said,"I am afraid.If I send my roots into the ground below,I don't know what I will encounter in the dark.If I push my way through the hard soil above me I may damage my delicate sprouts...what if I let my buds open and a snail tries to eat them?And if I were to open my blossoms, a small child may pull me from the ground.No,it is much better for me to wait until it is safe."
And so she waited.

A yard hen scratching around in the early spring ground for food found the waiting seed and promptly ate it.

~Unknown author~

by the way, the story is abt moving house.. then how my house has so many things to move, move until very long still have not finished moving everything. Then i described what I bought for my room and that i like my new room more

Keluarga saya baru pinah ke rumah baru saya di December 2003.Rumah saya dekat rumah lama saya. Teman teman saya berkata rumah saya rupanya dekat dengan rumah lama sampai keluarga saya seperti tidak ada pinah. Saya senang bisa tinggal di rumah baru tapi saya tidak senang pindah rumah karena kami punya banyak barang barang di rumah lama yang harus dibawa. Barang-barang yang banyak sangat sulit dipindahkan, perlu banyak waktu. Padahal saya tinggal di rumah baru sudah satu tahun lebih, rumah lama saya masih ada beberapa barang barang yang belum dibawa ke rumah baru . Waktu kami baru pindah, rumah baru berantakan sekali. Barang barang dituruh di mana saja, di lantai ada, di meja juga ada. Karena itu, saya tidak bisa mencari barang saya perlu, tapi tidak ada orang bisa membantu karena mereka juga tidak tahu di mana saya turuh barangku. Di rumah baru saya, saya bisa dekorate karmar sediri. Saya membeli beberapa barang barang untuk karma saya, seperti tempat tidur dan meja tulis. Ibu saya mengatakan tukang cat mengecat dingding karma saya biru karena dia tahu saya senang warnanya biru. Sebernanya, bukan warna biru yang saya mau dicat untuk dingding karma saya tapi saya mau mengecat hijau muda.Sesudah tukang cat mengecat, ibu saya menanyakan saya mau mengecat lagi, saya rasanya tidak usah karena warnarnya biru juga cantik. Dingding karma sedikit kosong, jadi saya membeli lukisan ditambah pada dingding. Sekarang karma saya cantik sekali. Saya lebih senang karma saya sekarang daripada karma lama saya.

Haha.. this is my first bahasa indo homewrk.. felt v happy after writing this cos after struggling with my limited vocab, managed to 'cook up' a story of 242 words..haha

Happy New Year to all!! First entry in the new year..=)Hmm.. something cliche, shall make some new year resolutions...but before that will review thru yr 04..
Haha,will say yr 04 is a bit more exciting c/f yr 03, not as plain n smooth sailing.. think the different experiences this year had helped me grow more and increased my trust in God more..
Hmm... remembered had some prob with my parents ard water bap time .parents objected to me going to water bap .. then plus some late home coming issues etc..then was also like caught in a dilemma and was feeling quite down n filled with many negative thoughts..but thank God, for all the encouragement, prayers n ideas on hw to persuade my parents..ha they finally relented n i went for water bap (after missing two times.)n the amazing thing is my parents agreed to come as well wor..hee then first time sharing testimony to so many ppl.Learnt tt have to try different ways of communicating to parents,cos previously i'll be like i want means i want, then i find it hard to explain to them cos form a concept that they will not understand..then think this incident also increased my faith in God by 1 level..
Then b4 first paper,got scolded by parents again, forgot what is it about,just remembered during the 'arguement', all my fears, emotions, just burst out uncontrollably, then tt night was a night that i spent a long time with God, after quite some time of just rushing through qt becos of a lack of time.. felt refreshed and peaceful after that.. then , really experiencing tt God is the God of comfort..=)
Another event that i learnt alot from is the sowing process.. frm 1st pl to the onwards.. frm just superficial r/s to growing a burden 4 the person..it's a process tt comprised of sadness, fustration and happiness..learnt alot frm sf.. when co-sowing,her courage to spk God's words n her perseverance..in addition,was particularly impacted by a sharing session to a pl as well, cos tt time communicated God's words boldly to her(though think it was something not v good abt her) n she was like agreeing with it, i was like... woah.. thank God wor.. cos initially was contemplating whether to share a not for fear of 'damaging ' our r/s but God's assurance just helped me to say it out..then think grew closer after tt sharing..n trust in God just increased as well.
Then, have to thank God for my results as well, cos really did alot better than expected especially for stats..=)
Ya.. then there are a few regrets in 04, tt is haven grabbed a sheep yet.. then haven finish reading old t wor..hmm.. 'bible vocab' is also v limited..
haha though tt is the case, will look fwd to this new year to improve and develop myself further.. just like what dy shared in cg (Isa 43:18-19)ya..
For the new year..
1)will finish reading old t by January.. then remember more verses and when reading bible.. think have to spend more time meditating.. cos now i often just scan through the whole thing without understanding or thinking..oops..=P
2)to be able to becum a sheppy
3)to exercise more.. ha.. din keep to my schedule..
4)to improve/maintain my results in study
5)to build deeper r/s with my family n be a salt n light at home, to be able to share to them boldly..
Yup.. think tt's already quite a no. haha hope can keep to it..=)