yet another 29th december.
2009 is ending soon and could u still remb how excited u were trying to welcome another new year?

2009 has been challenging year. many many things has happened.
unexpectedly, i got promoted.
and then came the decision of getting a new car.
afterwhich, i decided to join ERA.
however, i was not happy.
i felt that in exchange for material happiness, i lost another part of me.
hating to go to work and sch, coping with family stress.
my life became rather mundane. I am so going to overcome such thing.

Therefore, i set a new resolution for 2010 - TO BE HAPPY.
I know lah, resolution often dont come true. owells.. as far as i can, i will try. i will think more for myself and not bother about how others look at me.
JIA YOU.

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sometimes i feel that i am alone.

rational and heart matters never align.

i have emotions too.
losing the motivation.
this is affecting me in alot of ways.
adding more stress to my already 'fucked up' life.
i am fucking stress in every single way already.

take me away please.

This year, it feels different.
I have this feeling that, its time to put a pause or maybe a stop to this sport.
The feeling has faded, time to move on.
In future, i will start focusing on career & complete my studies.

I need a long long break from working.
Will I survive without working? I wanna do freelance.

When u have a dream, think of it everyday.
Cause I believe, someday somehow it will come true.

New goal in life.
I wanna earn my 1st million before 30 years old.

very miserable

nobody understands me.
not even u.
this boredom is killing me

now I cant log in to FB in office anymore!
this blog has been neglected by me since i am hooked on FB.
and now that i have no Fb, i need to rant!
BOOOOOOOOOO

truely believe dreams can come true regardless of the obstacles u may face. yes i may fail alot of times, but luck did shine on me.

the next goal in life, is to own a 4 wheel drive of my own. though i know it may take some time, but i will be patient and work hard towards it.
it has always been a dream of mine since young.
i desire freedom, and with my own vehicle, i will be able to achieve the kind of joy i want.

believe, and work towards it. satisfactions will come ur way.

something is quite wrong somewhere.
just cant figure it out

i am very unhappy.
and i lost the drive.

somebody saveeee me?

i'm glad you are always there for me tolerating my nonsense.
:)

The best times during a relationship is the early part of it.
They call it the honey mood period.
The guys usually gave all out just to get the girl they desire.
what a sad truth.
Why cant things be more consistence during the maintenance?

After all it's not about how u start but its the process goal we are talking about?

I think i am a loser in every single way.
why is my life so miserable. or am I the one making it so miserable
or maybe it is not even miserable but i make it seems so miserable.
I have a problem with my self and my own attitude.
quite fucked up actually.
I think I am really fucked up.
OH FUCK.

Last night I attended a short rock climbing course.
and now I am a certified belayer + climber!
It is interesting except I got a few bruises here and there. The sole of my shoes was unsuitable for rock climb, too thick therefore bad grip.
Oh, more up-coming interesting event such as nature run and WINDSURFING.
I am so cool with it.
:)

Loon brought me to ESCAPE theme park last Sunday. Kinda excited yet disappointed. All the damn good rides were under maintenance, so it was actually quite boring.
And I was kinda scared taking some of the rides which i won't when i was younger. OMG. I think I grew older.

EVERYTHING is so random.
I love to be random.
haha.

someone said to me 'you can initiate first mah'
and i replied ' i initiated alot already'
really find it too tiring to initiate things.
it always take 2 hands to clap.
once bitten twice shy.
i'm tired. really
i dont wanna get disappointed over these issues again. therefore i opt to stay passive.

some really no big deal issues are in fact big deal issues to me.

i talk non stop is when i am happy.

being nice will never get good retribution.

HAHA kana PS.
assuming things when u didnt even try to contact me.
why must I always do the initiative??????

i dunno, too many misunderstanding.
i get pretty sensative to such issues.

To a certain extend i think i really giving it up.
I gonna do all the hecks

but still, I'm angry.

Looking at the amount of outstanding work which was brought over from 2008. I really need to tell myself. 'Ok, time to be discipline and start working on the serious stuff, no more slacking and surfing in office anymore'

I think for the month of December I was really really snaking myself away indulging in the festive mood and stoning at the same time. nothing really productive.
SHRUGS MAN.
maybe this is me.
This is just so so me.

Oh my new year resolution is to get a new touch phone.
:D

happpened to browse through my previous blog a/c and found some really old entries which was written way back in 2003. Nothing really special except it reminded me of all my past relations and how i felt then.


Things has indeed changed over the years, and i no longer blog about my daily routine and i dont blog as often as before.
For the last 6 years, I have gone throught alot, many rollercoaster rides. Maybe it was the time of my life.

I think I have grown up.
but if I have a choice, I rather not.