it doesnt matter how u think abt me anymore..
cos i realised dat i wanna live for myself and not for u.
in the past. maybe i was living under ur shadow.
wanting to be perfect jus for u..
i realised i was weak in the past..
but glad u came along and taught me to be strong..
all these setbacks jus made me to be slightly more matured..
i will continue to be strong..

sighh. becoming more n more restless..
what's wrong with me?
why?
hais.

so do u think u're so damn mature?
go look at urself..
use a mirror and reflectt..
maybe u will jus wan to laugh at urself.

i dunno why m i so mad over such minor stuff..
but u jus make me feel dat u're so shallow..
so so so shallow...

at the end of the day
it still feels empty inside

why are there so many whys in my mind?
so confusiingg..
its puzzling me.

zouked last night..
gross..

bunch of desperados ard.
yucks..
maybe becos i was sober last nite.
dat made me realisee thesee.
laughs*

thanks friends whom have enlighten me
finally see the real whole..
bleahs..

yay! it blooging time again
been blogging so frequently. i guess its always when im bored and have no one to tok to. so im here toking to myself..
ok.. not much happening stuff to share.
im not feeling fine.
cos it feels.. humm bloody? =x

oh i miss training.
sea-rowing,,,

let me jus brief u abt wad i've did during the weekends.
ive work n worked.. for 2 days
kinda enjoy it.. maybe its the frens' company.
young environment.. and its at CHJIMES.
awesome place. its a wedding dinner.. it got me so envious, seeing the bride n groom
so pretty n handsome..
it got me fantasizing abt my wedding too!! muahhaa..
but who's gonna be e groom? lols..
tiring lahh.
worked again the nxt day.
its a graduating ceremony at NUS.
think its the students of university of queensland dat are gradauting?
wah lao..most of them are masters n bachelors holders loh. pengs.
so smartttt...
went starbucksss for revision. sigh.
i feel so guilty lah, make joanne and cheng lun workked with me though they needa mugg for exams.
and if they dun do well.
im jus gonna feel so guilty.
=((

yays! im so excited once holiday starts!
im gonna stuff myself with work work n more works.
im insane.
muahhahaa..
now in my eyes.
there's only $_$

oh give me a break.
fuck all the exams..
its freaking stressing..
but i guess 10 yrs later, im gonna miss the days mugging at the library
with frens and the bubble teas n breads.
im gonna missed the books.
but fuck. i dun enjoy that stresss now lahh.
BMD was fine.. qns were all expected to be e same as tutorial qns.
haa..hope i will do fine. hopefully is more den jus a fine. bleahs.
wow, im so vulgar. but who gives the damn??
haa.. i enjoyed doing whatever i like..
nothing is gonna bother me..
not anymore..

sent mic off jus now.
he's a great fren i would say..
hope to see him soon..
lalala.

hmm, one paper down. another one to go.. that will be like 5 days later?
i alwaes like to hug the budda's leg lah.
dunno why
super bad habit. shit. somebody SLAP me pls. let me wake up!!!!!
and u neo there's alot of things i would like to do at the moment.
hummmms.. like, suntanning. rollerblade at ECP. going on a holiday. go JB for a shopping spreee!!!.
wah lau.. no $$$. im jus a poor girl lahh.
=(

u know so many thoughts are running ard my mind now? i've so many ideas.
i wanna do alot of catching ups with my old frens. these are the things ive missed out for the past few mths. i wanna watch movie lahh.. but dunnno who to ask. laughS*
i wan ma po steamboat. dunno when is fennie gonna bring me there? bleahs.
wah lao.. also dunno wad were i doing for the past few mths... -.-
i wanna fly kite lah! haven fly kite b4.. i wanna go australia and parisss!!!

u neO WAD?!!!??!?! i missed the application for OBS.
u neo how much i missed dat place? and i was given this chance to go there b4 i leave NGEE aNN. and this is for freeeeeeee...
liews!! let me go kill myself k.
-waves-

i smile, i laugh, i fool around.
i guess im happy,
yet its only for short.
what happen when it comes to the night?
tots came running wild.
so wild dat i couldnt catch it.

guess its over.
i needa neo.
why am i still holding on?
when ppl are jus having the time of their life.
will i miss out the good things too?

areobics is so cool..

fuckingg hell!
spent 2 hrs on revit and den i realised dat i cant save it.
needa be in sch in order to get the license of using it.
all efforts gone in the drain laaaa!!!.

life is jus so unfair.
u get nothing though u've put in much effort.
good man jus get nothing in return.
arg!

zouked last wed. its been quite some time ago since i went
wells, personally i did enjoy myself dancing crazily and drinking..
however, its kinda sad dat not everybody enjoy dat day..
wellls. -shrugs-

its been 7 days yet it feels like only yesterday.
"things dat we took for granted, can sometimes lose.
n i promise not to feel this pain.
will i see u again?
cause time will pass me by..
baby, i'll nv learn to smile
but i know i will make it thru
if u wait for me."
"cos i miss u so, and i need to know, will u wait for me?
hmm, i sing even when i blog? haa. go n try to visualise how i sound k.
nice song. intro by zhu rong.
think it kinda reflect on how i feel.