took this 2 weeks ago with our fav bubble tea. arent this a very nice pic? haaa..and reason for taking this pic was becos we wanted to tempt joyce to join us for the bubble tea session together. we displayed it on our msn while chatting with her. and and and... it works!! -laughss* are u tempted too?

zouk again on wednesday.. wells wanted to go MOS. however, it was way too crowded.. so the only alternative left was zouk again. haaa.. starting to get bore of that place already, time for a change in hobby. heeeheehee..

anybody is kind enough to give me a k750i?

"and we can build this thing together, standing strong together, nothing's gonna stop us now" 

wednesday is here..
once again its mambo night..
hurhurhur
u've got me crazy all over u..

"i remb laugh till we almost cry, here at the station that night, i remb the look in his eyes..oh my love is u that i dream of, oh my love since that day somewhere in my heart, i'm always dancing with fluid, the summer rain

i think im suppose to study now...
ciaos.



 

life have been busy..
working, schooling etc..
sorry to friends whom ive neglected..
a simple christmas day i had..
a simple christmas eve for me..
as usual, its all simple.. but nice
love recieving chocos.
haa.. thanks to those who gave me present.
and i love to see people happy on dat day..

and now, im looking forward to new year day!

hmm, let me recall what have i done on xmas eve.
went town in the afternoon with joyce, shopped for awhile.
joyce bought a hot boots!
haa, den we head dw for work..
sigh.. worked all the till 3am.
ken and the rest came over to cele ash's bdae at the pub which we're working at..
not bad lah.. they damn noisy. but fun.
haa..
after worked, cl and i went thomas prata for supper.
haa.. stayed all the way till 7am b4 heading home. it was raining heavily.

xmas day..
met cl in the noon. shopped ard orchard rd..
oh bought a pair of sandals from havainans.
wooo..
we had maggie mee for dinner..
haahaa.. simple but nice lah
den went over to geraldine's hse...
lots of drunkards there..
i drank martell.. omg
haaa.. so peh peh!
=x
stayed over her hse.. and went home in e nxt day.

i will always rem how we teared, how we laughed, how we sang so terribly on the boat, how anxious we were, how we calmed each other down, how we supported each other.. thanks npdb for letting me grow with u thruout these yrs. thanks girls for staying together no matter how tough the trainings are...
when i look back, a smile will appear because of u girls..
love u girls so much.
=)

as for the mens, congras for winning a silver medal for np.. the moment when we saw e guys crossed the finishing line during the IVP final, we yelled and jumped with joy.. they've got back wad they lost this time.. congrass..

and wad makes np different is the spirit.. we stay together as a team. regardless of mens n ladies.. we're a team.. im so proud to be part of the team. =)
thanks for the support during the ivp ladies finals.. u guys have stood by us even before the race starts. it really touches us alot.. thanks..

we still left with a penang race.. dun give up
lets continue rowing..
a passion dat stays in us..

a guy frm nxt door MSN me last fri..
he says " are u a lesbain?"
i replied "yes i am"
and he believed..

today, he msn me again
he: "are u really a gay?"
me: "yes i am!!"

wad an irritating guy... haahaa..
actually liking a girl isant really a bad idea..
girls are more attractive den a guy..
-laughs-

see the two girls behind? wad a background.. -.- hee 

its jus one more day before regetta smiles* this will be my 3rd regetta.. how time flies.. it was so memorable... a great satisfaction ive got. great friends ive made.. thinkingg back.. there's so many ups and downs..

this was my 1st regetta
yr 2003 

my 2nd regetta in 2004 

dec means.. christmas is coming
dec means.. we are going to penang ( last trip for yr3s =(. )
dec means.. PARTY!
dec means.. project deadlines
dec means.. money is running short
dec means.. busy busy busy
dec means.. its the last mth of 2005
dec means.. im graduating in 3 mths time
dec means.. its ashley's birthday and alot of others too..
dec means.. snowing but not in s'pore
dec means.. end of regetta'05

in my office, slacking again.
i need snacks to keep me entertained!

*shivers
odel jus told me a cold joke.
she says " wo fang hair band hen cute de ma.."
i gave her a "hur hur hur"
-.-"
haa.. joke of the day! =p

woooweeewooo..
i cant help be to be irritating here..
boredem..
my shit is coming out frm my assssssssssssss...........holeeeeee
assssssssssssssssssss holeeeeeeeeeee
wah piang..
-censored-

currently at block 35, doing my In-house-project now
wah, how slack it is. ok, suppose to do research but none of my project grpp mates is ard. how am i to find motivation to start working? laughs*
btw, its odel who told me to update this!

yawns. boring wednesday. MAMBO NIGHT!! but im not going.. haa
not dat ive quit clubbing or wad but, we are conserving energy and resist dat temptation for 30th nov! my teammates know wad i mean.
lalalas.

ytd training was great! hasnt been running long distance for awhile. ah huat took us for a run at kismis area.. good pace, comfortable jog. sweat lots too.. however, ive gained back the weight by eating lots of cookies today. boo! =(



going for job interview later..
in need of $$

what have i got to say?
this semester is sooo boring.. practically rotting myself away in the day.
project hasnt started..omg
sigh, felt so lonely without my kakis ard..
how i missed them..

last sat and sun i was working at ngee ann civic plaza for the subaru team challenge event.. it test on the determinations of the contestants as to how long can they stand with their right palm on the car without any sleep..
it may look easy, but its definately not wad u think it is..
chit chatted with a few contestants.. trying hard to find conversations with them to keep them awake.. nice ppl..
another method which ive tried upon was using the water spray and spray on their face. haa.. the original intention was to hyradate their body... =x
winners get 2 subaru TS1.6 impreza.. heys.. i like dat car.. esp the white and black one!

anybody interested to go zouk out?

what have i got to say?
this semester is sooo boring.. practically rotting myself away in the day.
project hasnt started..omg
sigh, felt so lonely without my kakis ard..
how i missed them..

last sat and sun i was working at ngee ann civic plaza for the subaru team challenge event.. it test on the determinations of the contestants as to how long can they stand with their right palm on the car without any sleep..
it may look easy, but its definately not wad u think it is..
chit chatted with a few contestants.. trying hard to find conversations with them to keep them awake.. nice ppl..
another method which ive tried upon was using the water spray and spray on their face. haa.. the original intention was to hyradate their body... =x
winners get 2 subaru TS1.6 impreza.. heys.. i like dat car.. esp the white and black one!
anybody interested to go zouk out?

life has not changed very much for the past few weeks
basically im jus doing the same routine again and again
perhaps there's just something empty down there..
or maybe my mood swings has been bugging me thruout dat im behaving a'lil weird these days
mood hasnt been very gd?
or is dat PMS?

wells, of course there are days where my mood has been alittle better..
but i still find myself shutting away frm people..
is dat a sympton of aging? the fact that im no longer a teenager in another 4 months?
haa.. see, how paranoid i am.
frustrations n more frustrationss with myself..
i apologise to friends whom ive been hostile to..

i know life is more den jus eating n sleeping. but i cant seems to go anywhere beyond that boundary..
laughs*
im tied up by myself and limitations and by how people will look at me.
i guess the greatest enemy is ME.

anyways.. zouked last night, ok lahh wasnt as crowded as i expected it to be. it didnt changed much after the revamp. haa.. so lame.. and i heard that they spent 7 millions to it? zouk is just too rich.. dunno where to throw the $$.. okays, and we saw the guy from superstar. think he's call sebestian. cute looking.. and i smiled at him. haa.. he's jus too cute lahh.. couldnt resist him..
oh, i missed school today again.. so gulity but i just didnt want want to get out from my beauty sleep..

wad a mess ive got myself
shrugs* its been so long already...
not exactly so long.. but quite longgg..
each time i heard that song,
i jus hate it..
my heart is jus not listening to me..
jus cant get it out of my mind..

past 2 days of rowing was great
although most of the sets we were going against great water resistance
but im glad we overcome it! u neo how amazingly my teammates has helped me thru the trainings? just the tot of their names while rowing. my every stroke in the water jus became more powerful den the previous stroke..every stroke i pull, i pull for u girls..see, its so amazing =) just wanna let u gals neo how much i love u!!! haahaa..
really enjoying the times spend together ...

tiring day.
u know i did enjoy myself for the past 2 days although it was really tiring.
went dw for alot of races.. esp ytd. the 200m event.
at least 6 sets for me.
4 sets ladies n 2 sets mixed.
final cup 200m was the unforgettable race we had done.
i can never forget how hard we shouted for joy, how much tears we had after dat race.
NTU won us by 0.04 sec..

todae was worst! 500m. arggg.. good race though.
enter the cup finals and super final.
i think its already a very gd achievement for us.
im so glad..
=))

its sava tmr, well though its a mini race but we still hope to achieve something..

at least learn something..

hope its gonna be a gd race..regardless wadever the results might be.

=)

im looking forward...

its gonna be yr3's last few races... gonna really cherish it.

 

i love them.. =p

sighh.. there goes my holidays..
spending 4 days a week in sch
5 days a week for training..
life is jus so busy...
stressed.. tensed and all..
i need some air*
i need to go ECP
i need a roller blading therapy!
i miss the thrill of it..

fatigue is wad im feeling noww..
nafa laterr..
i dun wanna stress myself.
im having phobia with dat word!
arggghhh...

nothing nice to bloggg abt.
hmm.. let me thinkk.
i.. i.. i.. dunno.
-shrugs-

it doesnt matter how u think abt me anymore..
cos i realised dat i wanna live for myself and not for u.
in the past. maybe i was living under ur shadow.
wanting to be perfect jus for u..
i realised i was weak in the past..
but glad u came along and taught me to be strong..
all these setbacks jus made me to be slightly more matured..
i will continue to be strong..

sighh. becoming more n more restless..
what's wrong with me?
why?
hais.

so do u think u're so damn mature?
go look at urself..
use a mirror and reflectt..
maybe u will jus wan to laugh at urself.

i dunno why m i so mad over such minor stuff..
but u jus make me feel dat u're so shallow..
so so so shallow...

at the end of the day
it still feels empty inside

why are there so many whys in my mind?
so confusiingg..
its puzzling me.

zouked last night..
gross..

bunch of desperados ard.
yucks..
maybe becos i was sober last nite.
dat made me realisee thesee.
laughs*

thanks friends whom have enlighten me
finally see the real whole..
bleahs..

yay! it blooging time again
been blogging so frequently. i guess its always when im bored and have no one to tok to. so im here toking to myself..
ok.. not much happening stuff to share.
im not feeling fine.
cos it feels.. humm bloody? =x

oh i miss training.
sea-rowing,,,

let me jus brief u abt wad i've did during the weekends.
ive work n worked.. for 2 days
kinda enjoy it.. maybe its the frens' company.
young environment.. and its at CHJIMES.
awesome place. its a wedding dinner.. it got me so envious, seeing the bride n groom
so pretty n handsome..
it got me fantasizing abt my wedding too!! muahhaa..
but who's gonna be e groom? lols..
tiring lahh.
worked again the nxt day.
its a graduating ceremony at NUS.
think its the students of university of queensland dat are gradauting?
wah lao..most of them are masters n bachelors holders loh. pengs.
so smartttt...
went starbucksss for revision. sigh.
i feel so guilty lah, make joanne and cheng lun workked with me though they needa mugg for exams.
and if they dun do well.
im jus gonna feel so guilty.
=((

yays! im so excited once holiday starts!
im gonna stuff myself with work work n more works.
im insane.
muahhahaa..
now in my eyes.
there's only $_$

oh give me a break.
fuck all the exams..
its freaking stressing..
but i guess 10 yrs later, im gonna miss the days mugging at the library
with frens and the bubble teas n breads.
im gonna missed the books.
but fuck. i dun enjoy that stresss now lahh.
BMD was fine.. qns were all expected to be e same as tutorial qns.
haa..hope i will do fine. hopefully is more den jus a fine. bleahs.
wow, im so vulgar. but who gives the damn??
haa.. i enjoyed doing whatever i like..
nothing is gonna bother me..
not anymore..

sent mic off jus now.
he's a great fren i would say..
hope to see him soon..
lalala.

hmm, one paper down. another one to go.. that will be like 5 days later?
i alwaes like to hug the budda's leg lah.
dunno why
super bad habit. shit. somebody SLAP me pls. let me wake up!!!!!
and u neo there's alot of things i would like to do at the moment.
hummmms.. like, suntanning. rollerblade at ECP. going on a holiday. go JB for a shopping spreee!!!.
wah lau.. no $$$. im jus a poor girl lahh.
=(

u know so many thoughts are running ard my mind now? i've so many ideas.
i wanna do alot of catching ups with my old frens. these are the things ive missed out for the past few mths. i wanna watch movie lahh.. but dunnno who to ask. laughS*
i wan ma po steamboat. dunno when is fennie gonna bring me there? bleahs.
wah lao.. also dunno wad were i doing for the past few mths... -.-
i wanna fly kite lah! haven fly kite b4.. i wanna go australia and parisss!!!

u neO WAD?!!!??!?! i missed the application for OBS.
u neo how much i missed dat place? and i was given this chance to go there b4 i leave NGEE aNN. and this is for freeeeeeee...
liews!! let me go kill myself k.
-waves-

i smile, i laugh, i fool around.
i guess im happy,
yet its only for short.
what happen when it comes to the night?
tots came running wild.
so wild dat i couldnt catch it.

guess its over.
i needa neo.
why am i still holding on?
when ppl are jus having the time of their life.
will i miss out the good things too?

areobics is so cool..

fuckingg hell!
spent 2 hrs on revit and den i realised dat i cant save it.
needa be in sch in order to get the license of using it.
all efforts gone in the drain laaaa!!!.

life is jus so unfair.
u get nothing though u've put in much effort.
good man jus get nothing in return.
arg!

zouked last wed. its been quite some time ago since i went
wells, personally i did enjoy myself dancing crazily and drinking..
however, its kinda sad dat not everybody enjoy dat day..
wellls. -shrugs-

its been 7 days yet it feels like only yesterday.
"things dat we took for granted, can sometimes lose.
n i promise not to feel this pain.
will i see u again?
cause time will pass me by..
baby, i'll nv learn to smile
but i know i will make it thru
if u wait for me."
"cos i miss u so, and i need to know, will u wait for me?
hmm, i sing even when i blog? haa. go n try to visualise how i sound k.
nice song. intro by zhu rong.
think it kinda reflect on how i feel.

craddle - Atomic kitten

I will rock you like a baby,
I will cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger, shelter you from harm
There will never be another lover, who treats you like I do
We can drift into forever, on a love thats made for two
Don't you ever say this loves not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential,
babyI was only thinkin of you, hopin' you were thinkin of me
Two hearts beating just like one, agaisnt the world,
babyI am always dreamin of you,
hopin' you are dreamin' of me
I could never live, one day without your love
I will kiss you like an angel, baby, cradled in my wings
I will take you up to heaven, show you precious things
If you promise that you love me, if you promise that you care
I will be here for you always, and forever this
I swearDon't you ever say this loves not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential, baby
I was only thinkin of you, hopin' you were thinkin of me
Two hearts beating just like one, agaisnt the world, baby
I am always dreamin of you, hopin' you are dreamin' of me
I could never live, one day without your love
Though you say you want a love, but you dont think you believe it
Just open up your heart, and you know you will recieve it, oh baby
BabyDon't you ever say this loves not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential, baby
I was only thinkin of you, hopin' you were thinkin of me
Two hearts beating just like one, agaisnt the world, baby
I am always dreamin of you, hopin' you are dreamin' of me
I could never live, one day without your loveI was only,
I was only, I was only thinkin' of youI was only,
I was only, I was only thinkin' of youI was only,
I was only, I was only thinkin' of youI was only, I was only,
I was only thinkin', oh baby

participated in the real run ytd.. was in the junior category, ran a total of 5.5km ard sentosa.
wad was challenging was the sand part.
ran along the sandy beach of sentosa. guess its abt 1.6km.
haa, cool..
lots of ppl were there.
some of us were quite late. our event starts b4 we arrive, so in the end me and kok yi had to start with the opens.
Linda won 1st prize for the lucky draw!
how lucky..
haa, joyce missed her prize as she wasnt there when they called the no.
anyway we went to sunset bay after the event.
enjoyed the company of the girls. we were freaking chaotics.
sang n sang.
played beach volley ball and had our tann.
pretty eventful day.
uploaded the pics.
enjoy... =))


the cutie girls =x

MONKEY 1 =p

MONKEY 2 =p

Ben and the flower girl.

=p

on the bus. we took this.

the crazy girls who sings out of tune.

sweet.

after the real run..

are all these setbacks gonna make me give up eventually?
or will i be able to survive thru?
shrugss*
who's gonna be there to give me a hand?

trying so hard to feel im fine.
trying so hard not to bother
trying so hard to put that smile on me
trying so hard not to feel unhappy
trying so hard to be independent
i try n try n try..
and im still trying hard...

congras to me. found myself striking lottery early in the morning. and the symptons were kinda significant the day b4 when my victim almost died in my hands. luckily he was smart enough to escape my killings as the last word he said to me was "fine den".. and i couldnt be bothered with him later on. although i do actually mind wad he said. and dat i expected more den jus a "fine den" from him..
anyway, as usual.. my anger diminished on the very next day the moment my beauty sleep got disturbed by this boy.. lucky for him.=p
training took my breath away. super breathless thruout.. perhaps it was due to the cold weather dat makes me "hei ku". did campus run, followed by circuit. oh man.. dat almost took my life away. haa.. maybe i haven done dat for a month. honestly speaking, i haven done any effective training for a month already ever since the race. dat explains all the dyings n struggles i had.. hee
i shall buck up..
gym was another killer. i guess im kinda weak. but i really enjoyed it.. cos its been long since i had such a feeling again. the numbnesss in my muscles. jus love it!

ok, i gotta buck up!!! my napfa is coming.. jus nxt thurs. and my greatest fear is standing broad jump. sighhhh.. tian ar, ju ju wo bA!!!!!!

stupid HX!!!
talking CRAP with me. he advised me to go MARIE FRANCE BODYLINE for a slimming session.
ok, he shall sponsor with the CASH to do so ok?
thanks HX kor kor.
haa.. i will wish u n her all the besttttttt........
:D :D :D

commissioning paradeee

ok, ive finally uploaded their commissioning parade pics here.
enjoy.
=)









father changing rank for him. from cadet to officer =)












him marching up the steps



the rest of the navy cadets. marching smartly...



all in white, with a rifle by their side.
cool..
can u spot gh, lek n henryk? haa




that's us with their magewatt smileee. haa


that is after the parade


that's their officer congratulating him



their parade square..
300++ of cadets awaiting to graduate
behind is their tower..
its beautiful to look dw from dat tower..

its just nxt week, and he will be commissioning frm OCS.
42 weeks of tough trainings for him.
i have been waiting for dat day to come.
things has not been easy since the day we started
lotsa ups n dws..
but we're holding on tight. jus hope dat everything will get better after this.
still i feel alittle paranoid.
wonder if this is a good thing ?
maybe i lacked of dat confident in this r/s.

im losing dat grip.
sigh.
everything, jus seems disappointing.
i dunno why.. why m i so hard to please these days?
wad's wrgn with me?
im irritated at myself
im angry at myself for not being good enough for u.
argggg.. freaking pisssed at myself.
sighh.
=/

its friday morning and im home!
haa.. lesson start only at 3 today. cool
yes! my weekends are here again..
happy* can enjoy myself now.
=D
im still working on my dieting plan. but somehow it didnt seems to work.
still eating as much as ever.. tskkk i guesss it can nv work on me,
sadded*
haa.. maybe that makes me diff from other girls?
hurhur.
though i really love eating, but cant cook.. =x

oh, i haven watched Intial D yet. keep wanting to watch but cant seems to find the time.
i wanna see jay chou..
heard dat the show is pretty funny..
guess im abbit out dated. its like everyone has watched dat long ago n i seems to be the last to watch, haa.. tskkkkkkk.
how can?
bOO!

this is quite accurate.
omg.
haa..

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

getting tire of everything. perhaps its mentally tire. projects all piling up. common test is jus 2-3 weeks away. this semster is bad, i cant u/s what the lecturer is talking about. =/

anyways, im home early today. aint feel dat well..
came home and sleep.
its been awhile since i have afternoon naps..
cool!

i think blogging can be v.boring, perhaps im not good at expressing myself.
anyway i jus blog lah.
hur hur.

went to the library to borrow book.
Why Men don't listen & women cant read maps.
a pretty interesting book that talk abt the differences btw men and women.
and i quite agreee with the differences the book says.
guess it did entertain me.

life has been the same for me throughout these months.
looking forward for something new.
dunno wad isit.
but im looking forward.

i desperately need to go shopping!
humprhssss

fridays alway make me smile!!
thought of going chom chom tonight makes me even happier
yay!!
im gonna eat the jelly beancurb with longan
and prawn mee etc .
its gonna be fat fat fat but i dun care..lalalas

guess my teammates have been feeling alittle low lately..
due to the race
stress is building up in every one of us.
but let's jus enduree through together
just remb u're always not alone.
cos we will always be there to support u.
=)

tmr is gonna be a hectic day however its the day im looking forward to.
i dun care if we win or lose
i jus wanna it to be the best set.
i dun care what other thinks abt us anymore
i jus want my buddies to support each other
i will give all out i promise.
*wrinks.
jia you..

i agreed dat there's no such thing as forever
why would such word even exist?
nothing last forever
even feelings will fade one day..
its only a matter of time.
i apologised for being pessimistic
so, i live for today and tmr.
yesterdays are only memories worth looking back..
yet i still miss the good old days..
if only i could turn back the time
laughs*

its feel alittle empty*
alil boring
nothing seems to motivate me
why is dat so?
!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate it.

its fri again! =D
2nd week of sch, and i can see a mountain of presentations and projects
oh mannn.. yr 3 suxs.
haa..anyway im glad to be in yr 3. cause very soon i will be graduating
yippies!
tue was freshies' 1st day for training.
the no. of man vs ladies doesnt tally.
over 80 guys : 8 girls?
tskk.. how pathetic..
thurs did not get any better.. this time there was only 7.
tskkkkkkkkk
how can like day??

life is still as boring as it is..
oh mann.. zzz
im hoplesss
lazing to blog.
gdbye.

dont take me for granted pls*
or isit i got strucked by karma?
hmm..
*shrugs

maybe its the lack of patience in me dat makes me not happy..
or maybe stupidity dat plays a part too.
high hopes = GREAT disappointments
no mood. no mood
jus a moodless day for me..

arg. cant stand e fact dat my last day of holidays were wasted away
sch reopen tmr.
=/
damn..
my patience is running low..
hot tempered m i..
help?
bring some ice for me....

while i was clicking on the icon of MIRC
i found afew chatlogs dat i still have with me on my laptop.
its was logs dat was frm e yr2003
clicked on #npdb
haa, read those logs.
pretty lamee stuff.. but it was nice recalling
wellls, mIRC seems to have extinct in our lives..
indeed, it was outdated.. no more icqs no more mIRC
wads left is msn, skpye, friendster etc.
missed those days when the ppl in DB will tok cok in mIRC
it was only thru irc dat i got to neo some of the seniors betterrrr..
oh i still remb the 1st time i started usinggg irc was 13, made alot of new frens there
had alot of funn, 1/3 of my teenage yrs was spent chatting online.
goshh.. haa but i really had fun lahh..
maybe we shuld start going back to irc againnnn..

haa..all the old memories seems to flood my mind..
realised ive grown slightly matured over these 2 yrs
frm the way i typed i guess?
frm a 17yr old teenage girl to a 19 yr old girl.
soon im gonna hit the 20s.
-.-
DB demo for the freshies frm sports campp today.
find it quite funn.. to see new faces
feeling excited for them..
cos i still remb my sport camp..
every scence, i still recall..
how i got physco to join DB..
i remb....
the friends, and the GLs.. we made.
the cheer n fun we had.
haaa..
maybe without sc, you wun see a qijia in db...lolS!
shhhhhhhHHhh.
=x
maybe its better off without me rites?
LOL

i wanna have a life of my own.
hais. why cant ppl jus let me live
i cant take this anymore..
its driving me crazy
it just make me feel so weak..
=/

whether im beside u doesnt really matter
cos im jus the additional item in ur life
to have or not to have dont make a difference to ur life
haaha..

couldnt figure out why m i behaving so weirdly today
sigh.
i seriouly felt v.remorseful over my behaviour
pms is no excuse
today jus aint gd lahh.
im not trying to make things difficult for everyone
and i never want to.
jus find myself weird lately.
wads wrgn?
so angry with myself.
-sigh-

think its gd to relax
guess im gonna start relaxing
perhaps life will be much easier like dat..

today aint a very gd day,
my eyes are feeling sorey for the whole day since ytd.
jus when i reach jurong east, gettting ready for a good sun tanning session with joyce
IT RAINS.
sigh-
a day without e sun means a day without a smile
=(
but me and joyce still managed to enjoy ourselves.
pinic by the poolside with spicy tuna sandwich and banana coated with chocolate sauce.
yummmmmmmm

procceed back to sch aft dat.
helped oliver with the coaching of staff from BE dept.
ok lahh.. did enjoy myself seeing how they suffer.
lols. oh im gonna be the sitting on the drummer on their race day. smiles*
i jus love dat seat. dun ask me why...
played captain ball after dat.. improves on the interaction among the staff..
ok lahh.. wasnt dat bad. though we lost to the EE dept.
haa.. losers close the drain and collect paddles back.

towned after dat..
met up with feennie n yen
fen is going perth tmr, so we met for dinner at ramen 10
chilled out with them for the night and den home-swee-home

mic is leaving to uk dis sunday.
and this leave will be one yearr.
tc dude.
gonna misss ur la-bi face.
=)

sentosa ytd.
however was drizzling..
so no sun. =(
so we went to play in the water.
cynthia's birthday party by the beach.
cool..
they played water bomb.
i think it was quite interesting.. bombing ard
running ard..
haa..
nice ambience, nice music, nice company
with 2 cute dogs..

another weekend has gone.
gonna wait for the nxt coming weekend.
=)

sometimes its really hard to accept facts.
but i will try to live with it..
accept it.
cause there's nth else i can do to turn back time.
only me to blame..

seeking for alternatives..
i will be fine..
i know such failures will make me grow stronger.

gonna take a slight break this monday
heading to genting highland..
it was almost a decade ago since i last stepped on that piece of land
cheap priceee
pay like 59bucks for a 3d2N stay
=)
i need some fresh air.
gonna run away from all these stresss..

sigh*
what do i wan actually?
think ive been asking too much from u
im jus not understanding enough.
sigh.
ive been making life so diff..
maybe PMS played a part too?
i only think for myself,
guessed ive missed out how u feel too.

im starting to loose my control in
sch, work, life, r/s, trainings, family, friends, money.
ive failed in doing them well.
sigh.
enlighten me anybody?

happy birthday terry !!!!!!*!~!*~!*~
turning 20 already.
haahaha
alright i shuldnt laugh
cos its my turn soon.
=/
ok lah. we shall grow old together k.
hees
they bought her a bdae cake. sang loudly in the KFC.
hope she like it..

results gonna be out on this thurs.
hoping to clear all my module.
dun wish to repeat moduleeeeee..
*cross finger
very soon, we're gonna be yr3.. look at how time flies.
still remb the days in yr 1..
days when im still fresh to ngee ann.
1st few friends made during the sports and FOC camp..
how i ended up joining dragon boat
how i managed to survive in those monsterous training
how i made those nice frens in db.
how i managed to overcome my fears during race
how my 1st r/s failed.
how i got my feet up and carry on with life.
those up and downs in lifee..
cool cool.. so many to recall but
all these memories make me smile..
=)

hurhurhur

being an instructor is cool..
cos i haven tried being an instructor b4.
and it was a dragon boat activity
from dunno which primary sch..
wow, the boys are so cute.. they're accompanied by their parents.
total we had 6 boats, 6 instructors and 6 coxswain.
taught them the basic way of rowing, they were all kinda cooperative.. esp the parents
it feels so cool.. standing on the drummer's seat.
haa.. guess i wun have alot of chance to stand on it.. cos im jus fat fat fat.
we had a mini race before everything ended,
my boat was leading at 1st.. but well like wad they say. "ppl dun care how u start, they only see wad's at the end"
*sadded*
got 3rd place.
the boat who came last, the instructor will have to jump dw the water.
haa, so funnie to see joyce jumped dw..
ok, see training was killing me.
rowing with tyres on, i simply was energyless.
changed partner for one set..
rowed with him
its jus something newwwww lah..
think ah huat did dat purposely.. haa

aft training, we went hooters, clarke quay.
its an eye opening restuarant. cos ive nv seen any waitress with such short short shorts.
wah, but the service and food was quite good. kinda expernsive though.
they have mini performance too.
playing hula hoops?
lols. but the girls are gd at it lah..
ok, dats abt it.. dun wanna continueee... this entry is getting kinda too long.
offf to work.
=p

been super occupied last week.
work, training, work, training.
hardly have time for myself..
but it has been a fulfilling week.
=)

is there something missing?
-shrugs-
feel quite empty.

tired, off to slp now.
work tmr..

dunno, dun care, dun give a damnnn

ok, race is over.
well, kinda satisfied with it.
so glad that we got 3rd for opens final.
its the effort put by most of the girls team
smiles.
got 3rd for IVP.
im happy already
hope this is a stepping stone for np girls.
mixed was ok.
at least we made it to the finals.
something to be happy abt..
we've done our best..
so cheer up peeps!
=)

exams cominggggg.. work hard!
=)

.its a good friday morning

here im up on my com

suppose to go sentosa, but fren not feeling v.well

so cancelled it offfffff

joining ling to KAP for revision larer

hope we dun end up toking.

hee..

 

oh oh, i went chom chom ytd.

met up with all my secondary good friends

*smiles

its such a long time ago before we sat down and do some catching up

took some pictures with them. here it is....

 

it was a satisfying fats burner workout today.
8km of jog to bouna vista.
slow and steady.
jus love the satisfaction after every long distance run.
shall do dat again.
=)

mood's been going up and down lately
boooooooooo......

guesss it didnt reach our expectation.
it was a.. disappointment.
sorry for the "off form" performance.
sorry partner, for not giving u encouragement and not reminding u to twist.
sorry mates, for the inconsistency pace ive given.
i'll try to correct my mistakes..
thanks mates for enlighting me todae.
u guys' words of encouragement mean ALOT to me.
i guess its been a very stressful month.
jus too many things coming up.
but i promise to do my best for u girls.
let's work harder together with no regrets..


finally heard his voice after so many days.
he jus gave me a call.
=)
but the conversation was a short one.
nvm, at least i know he's safely there.

cute pic, given by a friend

Stoopid pigggggggg!!!

look, how much i've changed over the 19 years?

awww, so ccuteeee and innocent.

wow, i was a shy kid..=p

heys, how happy i was. . gave the camera a big BIG smile. hahaa

this was drawn by my friend. nice.

this was my 1st ME to You bear 3 yrs ago. i think.  =)

read thru my old blog written 3 yrs ago..
how time flies..
spot the difference bwt life 3 yrs ago and now.
realised dat, i was so simple last time.. its not like how i am.
life was simply stresss-freee!
i wasnt bothered by things like love n trainings..
things like LOVE etc.. was something dat i din neo n din understand..
haha..
i jus misss those days at woodsville.
misssed the bee hoon soto..
misssed my good frens.
missed chilling out with them...

ok, ive jus eaten my dinner. chicken rice cooked by mummy. sigh, im really having a bad time now. 2 tests dis week.. and all i can think abt is play
my vision on my left eye is getting worst. have stopped wearing contact lense for the past 2 days already. yet it shows no improvment... i cant see properly.. ive got this feeling dat its going blind sooner or later..
haven seek any consultation yet.
im really worrried...
=/
this is really a tough month.
hope things get better soon..

please come back soon...
sigh

jus came back from tuas naval base..
went to see him off early in the morning..
he is sailing all the way till 31st march
going 2 places, korea and sabah..
hope he will be fine during the trip..
=)

waiting for training later..
another sunny weather..
stored up my energy already
had one snicker choco bar.
woo.. so sinful
haha.. but no choice.. for training. i need to sacrifice leh
later no energy ar....
hahaa..

lots of tests and projects piling up..
sign..
hate it hate it!!

heys, im in lib's cafe using com now
drinking bubble tea
as usual...
wads new?
-shrugs-

jus attended a talk by a guest lecturer from hutton
its a real estate company that deals with buying and selling of houses
got kinda inspired by his talk.
real estate agent is a career that can earn big bucks if u're hard working enough
i may wanna consider this career line

=)

jess's 19th birthday, celebrating with her. =)



can u smell the yummylicious food? or rather can u SEE it? haha..

have some feelings for that place..so many memories was left there.. its nice to recall back again..  

its ur birthday tmr.
cant celebrate with u..
=(

u're coming back soon..
but u are going away again soon
take care boy..

training today.
ok, im happy.. saw HER!!!!
lol.. no im not lesbian
but jus think she's gd looking
hahaa.. its not only me who drools over her.
the whole of girls team is..
hahaa.....

my muscles got so ache after this 2 days of rowing
the weather has been good.
kinda cloudy..
coool
gonna rest more..
yawns.
im tired.

i feel so disappointed.
u actually felt dat we are like dat.
sigh..
since u chose to believe things dat way.
den let it be.
i got nth to say..
lost for words.

cant believe its fridae again.
so many things to do yet so little time.
needa get some shoppping sooon
desperately.
and yea, im rotting myself away on a fridae morn.
maybe getting some sleep would make it alil more meaningful den sitting here to see my butt gets bigger yea?

i think im crappy. i think im crazy
-laughs

why are there so many feb's baby here?
hate this month so much.
maybe i shuld play some MIA game with them..
haha

yawns.
off for a morning nap now.
tatas~

=D
my miseries has all come to the end
and here comes the time to enjoy.
im so into CNY mood now.
though i haven got my new yr clothes and stufff..
hohoo.
wells, so many happening things this mth
gonna be so occupied..

heys. i think im really in high spirit now..
-smile-

woke up at 8++ today.
went library cafe to look for odel.
due to my request, she's nice enuff to look for a table for me after her paper.
reached ard 10am..
while i was busying mugging for my test, she's doing her data entry.
actually she looks nice in white top.. so stop wearing black le lah. lol.. heard dat? hahaa
ok, i was panicking like siao todae.
cox i wasnt prepared for my test.
so i think i willll fail marketing...
aniwaes i didnt managed to finish the paper.
some of them i dunno how to answer.
the topics dat i spotted, didnt come out..
-fumes-
aniwaes, its over.. i can only blame myself
2 more papers to go.. tmr's the last day of nightmare
gonna enjoy after dat..
=D
suddenly misss sea rowing
ok, sat is coming.
hahaa..
i miss the sun. i miss the sea
i miss the scenery of kallang
i miss dat dirty water.
hahaa. -.-

things happen for a reason.
i believe dat when something bad happens,
something good will come next
so dun feel devastated when u're down.
cox something good is gonna happen
=)

lalalas..
today has been a fine fine day for me..
im happy..
esp when CNY is coming.
im looking forward.
weee!
so happpy...
nights ppl.
cheerS!

jus came back from zouk
ok, was quite bored though.
hang out with afew of them
mambo was quite funn...music was nice
kinda enjoy the music there...
saw daniel, jeff etc there.
ok,nicholas was drunk.
and so is ah bee..
he even puked.
tsk..
this is how scary to get drunk...
haha...
ok, i shall not get so drunk anymore.
:)
qijia has grown up k! hahahaaaaaaaaaaa

i think i have bad time management.
haven really started with my revision.
oh no. i have 5 papers
and im working tml..
-.-
thoes ppl without any papers really got me so envy man
im panicking already...
ok.. will get started ASAP!

felt something missing..
is this really wad i want?
-shrugs-
=/

came back from training not too long ago..
felt dat i din do much today..
din join the rest for the campus run.. instead,
some of us went to try out 2 sets of 100m and one set of 400m for polympics thingy
hohoho, cant make it man.. my running still sucks.
but its ok, no harm trying new things.. besides its only 100m.
=x
did only 4 stations for gym session
so slack.. kinda not used to it.
nvmm.. once in awhile is alrite.. heee

oh joined the team for dinner
went KAP to celebrate Ervin's and Ken's birthday.
took some funny videos and pics.
jus love taking pictures with the girls...
they're a bunch of sweeetiess...
btw, their birthday was yummy..
mango's flavour..

im happy.. because tmr is friday!
weekends is finally here...
im lovin' it!
:D
im going chom chom to meet my frens to do some catching up tmr night
i jus misss that place so much..

many things has happened lately.
it's through all these things that i've learnt to be independent
so much more independent than the past..
i dont wanna think about the unhappy stuff..
i jus wanna move on..
i will be strong.
sigh..

felt that my friends and i are beginning to drift apart..
due to the busy schedules.. sigh we no longer do the things dat we used to do.
no longer have so much fun together anymore.. why?

i know im always blogging unhappy things..
dont blame me cause i tend to think too much at night.
i like to reflect my feelings and my thinkings..
blogging is not just about the events happening in every day life.
its also about sharing of thoughts and feelings right?

hmmm.. guess im using food as a way to bury my damp feelings..
=/