sigh
im not gonna have a memorable new year's eve again this year
yes, im sad.
everybody is having fun out there and im here at home rotting.
jus cant find any mood to do anything.
the feeling is the same as how i felt last yr.
2 years in a row..im at home
how can dis be happening to me?
get me out of home and i'll stop grumbling.
argggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!
why?
=(

its 3 hrs before the end of 2004.
new year is coming..
dis yr aint a very good yr for me, lots of ups and downs
perhaps all these has made me stronger
im gonna look forward for a better year in 2005 =)

new year's eve. im at home again..
doubt im going out to celebrate.
suppose to go steamboat with my friends. but guess ive got no appetite for dat
so i end up not going
hahaha
similar fate as last yr..
im jus going to rot myself away...
hohoho...
oh, went town earlier this afternoon.. slacked my day with qihui, yibei and odel at coffee bean
shared a cheese cake with qihui. =)
talked alot todae, haha.. think i was the noisest there..

i still cant believe time has passed so fast.
cant believe dat its the last day of 2004.
omg.
haha..
=)

its scary to see that in another 2 days, it will be the year 2005
i dun seems to be prepared for dat.
=/

i wanna spend my new year's eve to be very meaningful and memorable.
perhaps i din have a very memorable one last yr.
i stayed at home and watched the sentosa countdown on tv.
at dat point of time i really hoped to be there, to experienced the fun.
saw my DBmates there on the contest.
how interesting....
dunno how fun would it be? lalala

hOhoho! merry christmas!
=pPp
though the christmas mood isant dat great but im glad.
im glad i spent it with my loved ones.
my db mates.
my darling.
my good frens.
its good enough.. and i shuldnt expect much le
=)
quite a lot of ppl turned up at ken's place
had a couple of drink..
ate the buffet
the cake was nice.
xiaO pang got drunk!!
tsk..
mao mao was so cute!

stayed ard 1++
den off we go..
went to fetch nik and den head down for some prata.
den home sweet home.
=p

3 yrs has passed.
can still remb wad happened on the eve of christmas.
shant sae much.

tml's the christmas eve!
hohoho.. fav time of the year
not becox of the presents.
but the moments spent with frens..

=)
all i want for christmas is u*

found myself enjoy playing badminton.
haha.. went to play with odel, kok yi, shurong, glenn and jian sen after the run.
haha.. got myself addicted to the game and played all the way till 8 plus.
till den, we realised dat its too late to go town and headed down to adam's food center instead.
sat there till 11pm aft eating.
and now im feeling tired!
yawns. slping soon..
-waves-

another day has pass..
another day to go..
everyday seems to be repeating its same routine over and over again
why do i feel something missing out in my life?
what is dat?
tell me.
people change..
feelings change..
but memories stay..
im held on by those memories..
memorises dat seems so beautiful and perfect
sigh.
its jus feel different now

its sunday. tmr is monday again
hate monday. hate sch
only left with 3 sems to go. i can nv enjoy student discounts etc. aft dat.
i neo im gonna miss studying by den.
ok, i will enjoy myself as much as possible.

weekends are alwaes short to me.
esp this week.
fri: sch in the morn.. den went fen's house in the evening, ate sakura at north point for dinner. yen was nice to buy us rotiboy. haha.. thanks girl =)
sat: worked in e morn.. frm 9-3pm
its a buffet catering.
easy money.. cox the job is simple.
went hm aft dat..
met my dear girls to do some window shopping. town was flooded with people.. the rds of orchard are jammed up, so are the streets and the shopping centers.
he came and fetch me there at night.
den head down to chjimes for some chilling out session with mic, zhibing etc.
the ambience was gd. felt comfortable there...

christmas is coming. just recieved my 2nd present frm one of the in-charge at my working place.
so touched. haha..

=)
i hope this yr will be fun.
previous new year and xmas was bad.
still rem i was sick.. terribly sicked. and had to spend it at home..
even on new yr's eve i had to stay at home... it was a sad sad celebration.
dun wanna repeat the same thing again.

past few days have been alright, trainings and trainings
that's because peneng race is on this coming sunday.
it might be the 2nd time and the last time there? -shrugs- lets hope not.
last yr's trip was quite fun.. the seniors were damn crappy. and i remb my 1st time drinking vodka there. hahaa..
i even went after ken for more alcohol
this is how crazy i get when im drunk?
terry wun be joining us. humprhs.
one lesss ppl. one less fun
=(

beginning to feel sick.
sigh.
jus feeling so =(
chinablack tonight
dunno if i shuld go.
it jus seems boring to me suddenly
perhaps im not feeling v.well
-.-

ive never felt so sad before.
last june race, i've told myself. yes i wanna have dat feeling. the feeling of winning.
this regetta, i was given the chance.
but things just was'nt on our way
by saying 'if only ive..' wun help anymore.
but one thing i could say is dat, we've done our BEST.
i can feel it..
i've never regretted to be in this team.
u make me a stronger person, both physically and mentally.
thanks NPDB.
i will move on...

i hate my fuck up sister.
yes, din have a great mood today
felt sian thruout e day
dunno wad's wrong with me..
sigh. therefore i need some enlightment.
im going ice-skating tml!!
i dun care. i jus wanna have fun.

life is unfair.

oh no, my fone is spoilt..
sad*
think ive been spending alot recently.
keep going out for movies and spent a bomb on food.
see lah, fat already lah
gotta cut down on my eating
dunn wanna add burden to e boat
hahaa..
i missed going out with my sec frens.
somehow they're all quite busy recently
booo
race is on 20th and 21st.
whoever is free can come down to watch.
its at boat quay, near macdonald

going out with terry and melissa.
again.
catching princess diary 2.
hahhaa
been seeing them everyday?!
pengs.
but nvm.. jus endure
sch's reopening den i wun get to see them so often le
hahahahaaahaha...
im evil.
=x

morale was kinda low ytd.
dunno why we cant perform well.
sigh.
acc joyce to SIR building earlier in the afternoon to update photo for her passport
den went bugis. terry joined us there
ate yoshinoya.
ate wafffle
walked ard the placee
bought myself a new sport bRA. haha
den we continued walking..
all the 3 of us were so damn slpy
decided to slack at coffee bean..
i suggested to eat cheese cake
it was fantastic man.. yummmmmmmm
slacked and talked.
till 3pm
den we moved on to kallang
the weather is kinda weird recently.
but nvm lah.
i kinda like it
hahaa.. i slept quite earlier ytd nite.
couldnt hold any longer..
suppose to wait for his call..
but i peng at 12++
he left me 2 missed call at 1am.
haha. not fated ba..

ytd was alrite.
maybe its just monday blues
rained thruout the afternoon.
went for a nap in the afternoon
felt super lazy
didnt know wad i wanna do in the later of the day
think and think and think
finally decided to meet up with terry, mel, linda and odel
caught shark tale
not bad.
its damn cute.
and kinda touching too.
slacked ard at mos burger after e show.
talk and talk.
den off we go.
home-sweet-home

im bored.
=/

life's been good though it's not perfect
maybe to me it is.
jus look at the positive side of it.
and u will find urself feeling happier

=)

finally.
its friday. thank god.
yay. im gonna have funnnnnn
i wanna shop till i drop
eat till i drop.
haha..
im crapping.
nvm
sakae later.
cant wait,
shoppping later.
cant wait.
its gonna make me happy once again
*smiles*

jus came home frm training
didnt join the girls for pizza
sorrie

sigh, feeling so lifeless lately.
dunno why. =/
probably im stucked at home and wad im doing now
is to wait for every training session to start and go home after dat
dis is so not me.
i hate it.
been like dat thruout this week
luckily tml is friday.
yea, i love friday the most
im gonna enjoy enjoy and enjoy!!!
there's so many zillions of things i wanna do
save me. help me!!!
arg.
-brain dead-

my sister cooked spagetti today.
eek, and i got forced to eat it.
was still edible though.
but cant say its nice. cox its not!!
-.-
haha.
aniwaes, im rotting to death now.
waiting for training later
wake up at 10++am.
training at kallang, 4pm
hope every set will be a better one.

ytd's training was ok.
maybe was becox of the weather.
went to eat tou hui after dat.
its our routine to eat tou hui after our training during intensive trainings period.
i missed dat old tou hui shop.
i hate e new tou hui shop.
so far and it feels so different now.
=/

today is wed.
im happppy. =)

arg. im stoned..

back frm training camp.
had a good slp.
however body aching here and there.
and huge blisters on my butt.
haha.

a rather cloudy weather today.
feels kinda good.
got craving for food and chocos.
piggy me.

im bored.
sigh.

*smiles. finally done with all my papers
today's was bad.
terribly done
wonder if i can pass.
lets pray

tml's my training camp
haven pack my bag yet
lazy lah.
lol


went town alone
walked ard
shoppped ard.
bought some things there..
its kinda boring but nvm..
gotta learn to be independent sometimes
nxt week e beginning of holidays
its gonna be occupied by my trainings
trainings and trainings and moree trainings.
no pain no gain.
its also a good opportunity to keep fit
hahaa..

i miss my frensss.
where are u all?
haha..
jio me outtttttttt lah.
lol...

-laughs-
left one last paper on friday.
after dat i would be freee
freee from those lectures and tutorials
cant wait.

today's paper was fine.
luckily din waste my time studying e other book.
went school early for revision.
felt stressed.
cant afford to fail any modules
i dun wanna repeat
and yes, im not gonna repeat. nonononono!!!!
hahaa.. im crazy
ignore me alrites?
let me go crazy for a while and i will be fine

will be roller blading again
wee!
i wanna burn away my fatts.
=D

1st paper today.
was fine.
2 more to go..
soon everything will be over
friday's my last paper
thinking of how to enjoy already..
hahaa

went roller blading with chris earlier.
feels great
haven been doing this for months
i jus love to feel the cool air at nite
it really relaxes my mind
=)

ive been snacking alot lately.
grown so fat.
boo.
i hate it.
i feel so fat so unhealty.
im afraid i'll die of diabeties
save me.!
lol

exams is coming yet i dun see myself motivated to study
dis is bad.
blame on my laziness
and when exam is over
intensive training will come
no time to relax anymore

wasted my day at home
din do much things
flipped thru my notes.
was trying to absorb alittle
i guess was useless
im jus studying for the sake of it
no interest at all.
haha..

going out later. wee! haha

3 more days to go. =)

sigh.
think im having pre-exams stress and pms now.
feeling so sians.

=(

i had a hectic weekends.
worked throughout e last 2 days at shangri-la
1st day was fine.
2nd day was boo.
nvm im working for $$
hahaa..
having study breaks.
my aim is to study hard for this 2 weeks.
lalalas..



i cant wait for sunday.
words jus cant explain how i feel
sigh. we're both busy.
there's too much to say..
6 more day. :)

jay chou's concert is coming. and i wanna watch it.
but no $, too expensive also, he wouldnt be free to acc me.
but i seriously wanna watch it. booo......
no lesson today.
suppose to study in school.
however, i wasted my friday away..
terrible girl.

sigh. 15 days to go..
dunno if i shuld go visit him ornts.
if so, i will have to go alone.. boo

its a day to remb. =)

yawns.
tiring day..
sun is burning hot today..
went training as usual..
saw tp guys.
but din see dat gay.
saw him rowing as pacer again..
felt happy to see him rowing with leroy again.
=)

did our sets.
wasnt v.good though..
but im trying to improve..

im tired but im happy.
gosh. haha
*happy happy*
*jumps ard* =p

sch start late today.
only presentation.. so i carried nth except my wallet and hp
haha, slack slack day but i like. =)
went to support them for their soccer match.
haha, scored 10-2
wooo.. quite fun cheering for them lah
they won they won!
hahaa..
went town with joyce.
had dinner at ps with her and her xiao mei.
met terrry n ash etc..
celebrated ah baO's bdae with them
haha, not bad lah..she got shocked by the surprise we gave.
=))
walked all the way frm PS to wheellock to take bus.
enjoyed dat walk.
was windy n relaxing..
i love it.

zouk last nite.
not bad..
i din get drunk k.
skipped sch again.
im a terrible girl.
sigh.
training later.
gym sesssion.. hahaha
i hope everything would be fine later.
-cross fingers-

had training ytd den went
celebrating mooncake fest ytd with my db mates.
enjoyed eating those nice mooncakes.
tried diff flavours.
snow skin mooncake was a yummy one.
-drools-
played some games, though was lame but i enjoyed.

hahhaa..
overslept again.
forgot to set alarm.. so end up waking at 8.30
lesson suppose to start at 8am.
sheesh.
intend to go for 11am lesson but i was 20++mins late.
so decided not to go again.
met terry for lunch.
den realised dat all my frens arent going for lectures in e afternoon.
so i end up not going for any lesson in e day.
tsk tsk. terrible kee.
zouk tonight.
hahaaa, looking forward.
its fENNIE's bdae.
happy 18th bdae. *hugs*
finally e long awaited day is here for her.
=)
i bought something nice for her.
hope she will like it.

lalala
haven been updating this blog. boo its getting rusty
life's been good for me.
kinda busy with sch projects and trainings
=)
im contented with such simple life
race is coming..
working hard for it.
hope ngee ann would win medalsss!!
we gotta believe in ourselves
oh exams is coming
lalalas, im still as slack as ever
wad to do?

its a boring sunday..
m doing nth right now though i have alot of assignments to do
boo boo boo.
cant help but to grumble

i feel quite lost
i dunno wad i want..
sigh
this feel sucky

life is not the same anymore
ive gotta learn to be more independent now
i have more freedom which means i can do wadever i like
hahaa..
i wan more chocolates!
=p
been pretty broke. no $$ for new stuff
sobs

gazing at dat bottle of stars on e table
wondering how to deal with it
throw or not to?
sigh..

life's been alright..
tests over..
training resume..
repeating the same routine..
wake up, sch, training, eat n slp

saturday: went henry's auntie chalet
super nice bungalow..
very spaciouss
played majong with them..
drank with some of my friends
got drunk and puked.
its a good way to numbed myself
everything was short termed.
but i still enjoyed myself dat night..

-smile-

lalala..

2 more papers left.
it will soon be over
=)
looking forward for weekends.
but i hate sch reopen
i hate sch.
i hate life. but i love life
dis is getting more complicating

i wanna divert my attention onto something else.
any sugggestion?
feeling worst and worst..
how m i to describe dis feeling?
too lost for words.
-laughs-

im so glad to hear my pri sch good friend is coming back to sg nxt week.
its been almost a yr since i last seen her.
so happy. =))
im happy today.
went supper with nikkole, Qihui n Yibei
i missed serangoon garden terribly much.
so when i stepped into dat place jus now. i jus feel like floating.
it jus gave me too much memories dat i can never never never forget.
it wasnt dat crowded today.
had hokkien meee and etc..
though, its only for awhile.. im happy.
studied thruout the day.
nth went into my brain.
shall try harder tml...
tml will be a better day for me.
=))

sometimes i wonder,
are we happier this way?
its been a month.
wad make it difficult for me to move on is e memories.
i will move on..

sometimes i wonder, do u still miss me alittle?
do u still have some feelings for me?
im jus curious dats all.. but i guess i dun wanna neo e ans.

hmmm..

ladies night at chinablack yesterday.
the bartender looks super cute.
joyce wanted to get his no. but i stopped her..
think she was high dats why talk this sort of rubbish.
had a few glasses of drink before we procced to zouk.
zouk was fun. met quite a no. of DB ppl there..
oh i love e music.. =p
crazy all e way till 3am.
its was a fun night..
i wanna go again. =x
oh, i saw 50bucks on e dance floor..
stupidly, i asked ard whose is this.
shuld have jus picked it up man.
in e end dawn grabbed e 50bucks n insisted it was hers.
haha.

test are coming n i have not started on my revision.
wad m i doing? sigh. i better go study now..

in school library now haha, having 2hrs of break. one irritating classmate of mine is bugging me to say he is handsome. feel liek puking all my lunch out. its cloudy outside. raining soon i guess. wondering what my pig is doing.

new layout
kind of satisfied =)
quite pinkish but wells i dun mind
hee
m so happie!
todae isant so bad
went to e gym with dearie and his frens
did afew sets to condition myself b4 training begin
heard dat its gonna be tough under ah huat's guidence
hope everything will be smooth
so excited to see moi juniors
tml is youth day but we poly students still haf lessons
dis is so damn unfair
-grouchy-
can somebody teach me how to slim dw?
think i desperately need it
lalala..

its a nice orangee colur
currently craving for lots of food
lyk kinda bueno and bubble tea
n chicken wings
i m a pig
=/
slacked my day away
stupid me
din go training again
pon so many trainings already
well im jus too lazy
chom opening today!
finally my fav hangout is back
lol

sigh.. everything was bad. sorta conflicted with him juz now over something stupid
sometimes i feel im so useless
lousy gf i m
always pissed him off with my swings
feel inferior
so much troubles recently
dunno im complicating them more
hai. headache.
lousy weather.. sucks
=(
off to study le..
hais
haissssssssss
haissssssssssss!!!

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