Reason for leaving

Been thinking about how to talk to my boss when I wanna resign...
Probably they will ask like why I wanna leave.
I am not very keen in sales. My reason for taking up this position in the first place was to gain more experience in HR. I am looking for career growth and I really dun see myself doing recruitment for long. I would prefer to start and venture into inhouse HR role compared to continuing in this job for long... I want to work towards my future,  where I see myself in a more stable position and in HR field. I want to get started.
Moreover, I feel like I am a burden to the company. Yes, I am putting in effort but I dun see results and I feel demoralised. I feel that 1 year is more than enuf time. I think its time to move on. I dun think recruitment is suitable for me. For me its not just about money. Its also about my future. Yes, I can have career growth in this job. But it is still not what I want. I might not know what I will be doing in future. But I know this is not what I wanna do in future.
This job is not suitable for me because I dun feel happy doing the job. Yes, I know all jobs are like this unless you are really passionate. But its not just the jobscope. I don't see money. I dun gain satisfaction when my cdd tells me I put then into a shithole. My cdd sometimes tell me that they are unhappy there and they are crying on their way home.  I felt like telling them, me too. I cry for my sales,  I cry for the stress of getting the person and I cry for them too. Feeling guilty.
It might all be excuses. But I guess main reason is cause I dun wanna continue trying.
It might be even more tough out there but I am keen to try and do my best.  Maybe I will have to do tons of OT, get a lot of shit thrown at me. But I dun mind the hard work. It might change in future but its what I think now. If I dun work hard now, do I wait till 2-3 years later?
I think its time for me to continue on my path. No point waiting... Yes, I dun want to be labelled as a job hopper.  But I think I need a change.
I am appreciative of all the opportunities given to me. Definitely, this is a good company. Good environment,  colleagues and bosses. You might think I am saying for the sake of saying. But I feel that I am well treated here. I might not receive such good treatment elsewhere. My future boss might 管她去死。True, this company is not perfect.  But I do think it is adequate.  Its like what boss says, attitude is the most important. And the boss have the right attitude in term of improving the company welfare, staff retention.
My reason for leaving is not about the company but the nature of the position.  I have lost interest, I dun think I have the right attitude anymore.  I am worried that I cant survive outside as well. If I cant survive here, what more out there.  But I dun wanna be a burden to the company. I wanna find something I am keen in doing and something I will excel in. It might take sometime but I need to get started. I know that maybe I can improve.  Maybe I just need to focus more. But enough with the maybe.
Coz I have tried enough. maybe you might not see my efforts / results but I having been trying hard. I think its time for me to move on.

Been soooo long since I blogged, 都忙的没时间。Been indulging in some drinks n clubbing activities these few weekends :p
Soooooo I have decided on my bday, "i wanna go to" place. Wine Connection for dinner! Awesome food n drinks there. The Spanish rice thing? n also the pizza n also the small bites n of coz the moscato -smirk-
All quite nice arh! :)
Pressie... I dunno yet... hahaha... typical stuff bah...

Sometimes I think I will regret my decision.  But at the same time, I know right now, it's the right decision. Its great being with u. Just that right now our personality just doesn't really match n I dun see the point of making life difficult for us.
你曾忘记了诺言,而当你记起时,我也已经选择了放弃,或许是我不会珍惜。但这不是谁的错,我想就是我们都累了。毕竟这样下去也不会有结果。

小啰啰的心声之跟老板拜年

No ang bao on my first year on my first job coz... no one dares to 跟老板拜年...
Then most of us neh 跟老板拜年 so no angbao. Damned sad... :(
Why 老板 so kiam siap? Then still kao peh kao bu say we didn't go into his office 拜年。
Just giv luh... Last year, I hear no need 拜年leh... then this year dai ji zuay zuay... Damned sian leh...
Its not an entitlement, I dun really expect u to giv. But if you dun see us 拜年 n u wan us 拜年, just send email tell us to Q up lor...
We change seating arrangement also kenna scolded, thought u wan us to change since long long de? Tsk! Haiz! Not like u ask 风水老师 or anything...
My angbao!!! Walao... first time got hear no angbao lor... my temp job also got angbao, got $10 lor! Walao... All the staff damned sian n angst today need to work. Still tell us we no ang bao... still kpkb abt the seating arrangements.
Last week see liao u also ask if we need help... then today u pms or wad? U lost money during CNY arh? Angst sia...
The point isnt really the ang bao. But to make the office so tense on the day we start work... 财神 also tense sia...
Do sales de how can you do this kinda stuff? Tsk sia!
-angry-
Still... my angbao...
Especially now that the seniors hav decided not to bai nian... there goes my $50 angbao...