The heart still feels for you.

Although you have rejected me indirectly, i still wish that there was some possibility.
i just want to be by your side, be your support, be your equal, be your whoever.

i really don't care that we work in the same company.
and that "don't eat and shit in the same place" crap, i really don't want it to stop us from progressing further.

That day after you came back from Thailand, we were whatsapp-ing on and off the entire day.
Then you asked me, out of the blue, if i want to go somewhere relaxing.
I didn't expect that but I agreed.

The dinner was nice. but the long chat and comfortable company sitting on the sandbags near the sea....is something I will never forget.
The fact that we were surrounded by couples....made my heart ache.
How i wished we were one of those couples!

I didn't expect you to share such a big matter with you and really..it's like a puzzle falling into place.
Suddenly, I thought, maybe you were too busy too. to even seriously consider a relationship with any girl.
How do you have any time left for your girl with all the things going on with your life?

but still, i am thankful and blessed and honored that you are willing to trust me with such important matter.

yet i wish.......

will you miss me if i am no longer around you?
if i leave, will you re-consider?

my heart...still yearns for you. and only you.

you inspire me and challenge me. that is what i hope my significant half would be.
how i wish you are him.

first time out with you

You asked me on Friday at work that you will be going to JB alone.

You asked me if I wanted to join you.

I don't know why you asked but I was delighted to have a chance of being out with you just the two of us.

Not for work, but just having each other's company. 

You really didn't have to drive to my house's void deck.

But to a girl, it is a very sweet gesture. 

I really enjoyed the day we spent together yesterday.

Talking about everything and anything.

I shared quite a fair bit about my family and myself.

But from you....I wished you would tell me more.

You have always been a gentleman.

Opening doors for girls, waiting for girls while they shop, sharing food and all.

But do you feed a girl food from the bag if she is just a normal friend?

Honestly, I was very stunned by the gesture. 

First time maybe it's just coincidental, but the second, third time?

I really do not want to over-think it but it makes me all warm and tingly inside.

Even my friends and my brother say that that is not normal and you are crossing the line.

Sigh.

And why aren't you wearing the ring anymore? 

Is there a significance? a reason?

And you say let's go for photography trips. 

While I am interested and wouldn't mind, is there anything more to that?

I am thinking too much, right?

In any case, I like holding on to your passport, holding on to both our money and sharing from the plate and straw.

And I like that you feed me although I am very surprized.
Keep that coming and I will really fall hard for you.