Friday, November 23, 2007

Fading Friendships

End of the year is coming. And that means December is near. Which means my favourite time of the year is here - Christmas! Guess it'll be the first time I spend Christmas as a working adult. How time flies. Lately I've been reflecting on some of the people I met in my life and I do realise that I'm a poor keeper of friendships. It's not that I am "dao" or anything. But I guess time truely erodes friendships, at least for me.

Part of growing older is also to find that friendship ages along with it. Some relationships like wine mature to give a rich and fullness of flavour. Others grow tastless and flat likea can of coke you leave to set in the open. I guess I'm not too great with friendships. So most of mine just turn into nostalgic sighs and faded but fond memories.

It's times like these that those cheesy friendship songs don't sound so cheesy after all.

It's the holiday season. Hope there's time in all this busyness of consolidation and keeping up with friends.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

I Never Felt Poor

For those of you who are into reading finance books you might think that this title sounds like some get rich scheme like "Rich Dad Poor Dad". Or something some financial agent might say. But that's not what I am refering to.

I just watched the movie "The Pursuit of Happyness" starring Will Smith. It's basically a rags to riches story about Chris Garner who started out as a salesman selling some medical equipment, but never making ends meet. In the end he managed to get an internship in a stoke brokerage firm. At the end of the unpaid internship, only 1 person would be hired in the firm. Needless to say he got hired at the end of the show. But it was the difficult process of struggling to pay off the rent, moving in and out of homeless shelters and selling his remaining medical equipment while having to provide for his son that was particularly heart-wrencing and moving.

Synopsis of the show aside. The show did get me thinking about a number of things regarding poverty.

For one, I truely thank God that in all my years I have never felt poor. I assure you that my family is not rich. I live in a HDB flat just like most of us in Singapore. I take the public transport and rarely eat out. In short, I'm as average as everyone else. But the point I'm trying to make is that while the protaganist and his son was locked out of their rented apartments, by God's providence I never had to. So while I have never been exceedingly rich; I was neither exceedingly poor.

But yet it has reminded of something I felt while I was backpacking in Australia in June this year. I had stayed at a backpackers inn during my vacation. Obviously as poor fresh graduates plus one undergraduate; we wanted to save some money. So we made wraps (which were pretty good) and had them for lunch. We gave ourselves the luxury of a hot meal only during dinner.

Before I left, I decided to treat the girls (they were leaving 2 days later) to a buffet at Sizzlers. I'd thought it would be an enjoyable experience. I think they did enjoy themselves. But for me I had a nagging feeling that something was amiss. I felt really odd and out of place in the restaurant. In my mind I was thinking that as travellers, our "spartan" lifestyle was temporal and by choice. Once we returned to Singapore, a hot meal every meal is a given. Once we got home, we'd live in relative comfort again. But my mind wandered and wondered about those who lived "spartan" lives not by choice by by circumstance. For them there was no "once I get back home everything will be ok". The circumstance was for the long haul; until something else happens. At that's only if it does.

The show further reminded me of this when the protagonist had to rush to a homeless shelter everyday by 5pm after work so that he and his son could have a bed and roof for the night. We would always have a room at home. Families that love us and parents who would provide for all our needs. But not everyone lives like that.

Maybe it is this "what about them?" question which made me feel strangely uncomfortable then.

This is odd because most people would speak of such an experience only when they have been to a country where poverty is abundant. Not some affluent country like Australia. Moreover, I never met any poor people while I was there either. So I must say it was queer.

At the present stage of my life, I have become a working adult who with a stable income. As a graduate, my income can be considered high. At least compared to non-university graduates. Would this "affluence" erode those "feelings" over time.

God remembers the poor, the loss and the destitute in His Word and in His Laws. They have special place in His heart. I wonder if I would too?

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Settling In

I hadn't had much ideas on what to blog for some time... But partly cos I come home so late everyday. For this month I knock off at 9pm almost every other day. Then the other days I come home late because I'm out meeting people for various reasons. And so for the 2nd time this week, I have fallen sick again... I starting to think I'm one of those sicklings in the old Chinese shows. so I guess I really need to eat right and exercise. Vitamin C tablets anyone?

But this week was particularly relaxing. I had the opportunity to catch up on some reading on Sat morning before I met up with Ruth and Jason. Then I went cycling at Pasir Ris Park with Gil. Not too bad for a Sat afternoon.

But all in all, I been working for about 1 and a half months now. From a rookie with no assignment in the first week, to attending a company event last week and having assignments given to me; it does seem like I've been at this for the longest time. Even some of my collegues think that way. Reality ,on the other hand, is certainly far from that.

I thank God for my workplace, because the people are willing to teach and I'm entrusted with my own responsibilities even as a fresh graduate. Aside from the occasionaly interjections of "what does this-or-that-mean?"; you can hardly tell from how collegues interact with me that I've only started work 1.5 months ago. I guess I can consider myself "settled in". At least somewhat.

Some thoughts for the moment.

Christianity is a "universal faith" as opposed to a "private faith". This is evident in Christ's call for us to be His witness to the ends of the earth. Yet our society assumes that one's faith is private. You keep your religion on your side of the room and I'll keep mine. Or at least that is my impression of the world around me. And so I am apprehensive when it comes to an outward expression of faith.

But there are individuals at my workplace who view the world differently. They express their faith ways which are so natural that it is never offensive. God, faith and religion so undergirds their lives that their vocabulary is interspersed with "God-talk".

"I really prayed hard for that presentation to go on well" or "God really blessed me alot" are their catch-phrases.

There is no need for apologies or justification in any of these because they are neither offensive nor provocative.Nor were they meant to be that way. Just one person's expression of what he feels.

Ah...The false dichotomy of the publics and the private aspect of faith. That is another challenge wouldn't you say?

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Working Life.... I Miss School

I've officially worked for a total of 3 weeks as a Software Engineer and it's been a tough. Why? It's because I've actually done a total of 6 days of OT without additional pay. And when I mean OT. I have actually knocked of at 11pm a couple of times and went back to work last Sat and Sun.

So I was really glad that I could actually go for Fellowship Teaching on Tue and could knock off early on Fri. I hadn't expected working life to be this tough. But to be far, it's only the nature of this particular project that I've been placed in. The other projects in the company aren't like that at all. They're all pretty normal with set working hours. Don't worry folks, I wouldn't be quiting anytime soon. I haven't learned all I wanted to learn yet. So I'm still gonna stick around for a while.

I guess I should be thankful, since most of my team members have been at it since the beginning of the year; and they managed to survive. So guess I will too. Moreover, the project will end in Mar 2008. That's not too long. Hahah.. And I'm learning new things everyday.

Going back to school on the first FT was strange. Life goes on for many of my friends in school. It's all as per normal. But so much has happened for me since the start of the school holidays in May. There's NS (yes I finally ORDed!!!) and now there's work. In fact I actually started work at the same time the semester started. But everything feels so different now. Almost like VCF, NUS, Raffles Hall and FYP was another life time ago but it's been barely 4 months. I pray and hope work does not overwhelm me. And thank God that it hasn't as yet.

Having said that I must say that I was delighted to see Ruth, Meisi, Fern, Lester, Huishan and Sida at FT. Even though I was quickly siphoned away..

Lesson learnt to date: Job satisfaction is not just doing what you want and getting all the opportunities. But it should also allow you to spend time with those whom you love and to do the other things which we love as well. All said, a holistic life is what I'm after.

Fare Thee Well My Undergraduate Life. I Shalt Miss Thee.


To Miss Wen HY: I know God will provide. He always does. I pray that whichever job He brings you to, you'll be satisfied by it and the plans for March will go on well.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

First Day of Work

It's the night before my first day at work. And there are some jitters.

I guess it's all to be expected. I not sure what the job will be like. But I do hope for a sense of delight in the work that I do. And most importantly a sense of contentment. I know to a large extent I'll be underpaid in this job compared to many of my peers. Blame it on poor timing I guess. I signed the contract way before the pay restructuring. But yet there is this inertia to apply for another job elsewhere.

The inertia is hugely because I know that in my prayers and considerations I am certain that this is the right place to be. That God, in His perfect providence, has opened this door for me. And though I cannot fathom the reasons behind it, and the "pay cut" irks me a great deal; I have purposed in my heart to give this a shot at least till the end of my probation, which is 6 months long.

I know that in this journey of life, His ways have always been far beyond mine. And that which He has provided has always been perfect for me. And more often than not, it has bee surprisingly more than adequate. My heart on the other hand, has been the wanderer and dreamer discontented with what I already have.

Godliness with contentment is great gain (1 Tim 6:6). And so I pray for a heart of contentment and see what this new calling has in store for me.

Friday, August 03, 2007

Brisbane Memoirs

Here's some pictures from Brisbane which I went with Ruth and Gil. Btw I was sick while I was there. I actually went to the pharmacy to get some Benedryl cough mixture which was a life saver. I recovered while I was there.


We sure made full use of the public transport. This is a typical bus stop in Gold Coast along Scarborough Street. Which is walking distance from where we were staying - Sundale Motel at Queen Street.

All 3 of us at Mt Tamborine

The View Up there is pretty magnificent I must say. This is up a huge tree which oversees the Macpherson Range. We're actually on Mt Tamborine where there is an amazing rainforest. It's interesting to find an evergreen rainforest on top of a mountain in a temperate place like Australia.
Oh and they have really big scones the size of your fist! We had tea with scones and jam for breakfast on the day we went up. I felt very English that morning. Couldn't resist taking one back for lunch as you can see.
But then I was caught and Gil was my accomplice. But Ruth seemed pretty happy about it since she wasn't caught and all.

Ruth smiling brilliantly for someone on a Wanted poster.

Next we move on to the beach at Surfer's Paradise after shopping at Surfer's Boulevard.

Pretty isn't it. The beach looks really nice. The sand was white and smooth and the wave really has a soothing effect on the senses. Oh and not forgetting the 2 girls in front with their wide smiles.

But as you can see from this picture, the reality was that it's freezing cos its in the middle of winter. Hahahaha!!

Last but not least for all you Bikini Bottom Lovers out there, look who we found before we left Dreamworld:
Dun hate me Joel! Hahahah!!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

2 Weddings, 1 Mean Virus and Down Under

So I spent the the past 2 weekends giving ang pows to 2 of my friends at their weddings, both of whom are VCFers... So suffice to say I'm happily broke. Why because there's also an Aussie trip next Tue =) So I'm happy for my friends that they're getting married. Happier also that I'm going to Brisbane for abt a week...But I'll be broke by the end of it.. But hey... At least I'll be happy... Hahaha...

Break from Army life, Overseas Trip.... Just a holiday to relax.... But then I'll have to get over this flu bug for now. Whooaahooo... I'm seeing the end of army green!