I like how you tease me at times.
I like how you play along wit me at times.
I like how you teach me till I understand at times. 
I like how you text me only at times.
I like how you will help me out whenever I asked for it. 
I like how hardworking you are at times.
I like how rubbish you are at times.
I like how you will brighten up my day at times. 


But all these, are applicable to everyone too.Blame myself for falling for it. That jus you. Now I have to stop thinking of the past memories and move on.

"Just give up on giving up totally", my friend said to me.

But I can't give up on giving up. I can't. Becos....
I noe it is kinda random why am I bringin this feelin out again after 2mth. But recently some things jus spark my thoughts again. So it make me think...and think...and think.... ok no i didnt really think abt it. I am focused on my studies de hor! hahahaha. but anw yeh... I noe I am gettin over it, but still not 100%. I need more time to move on. meanwhile, i shdnt do things that is not too nice in my still quarter taken heart rite.....hmmm.

If only I am as persistent like this in my studies. LOL.

PS: I am not emo-ing now or what. It is jus some random thoughts that came across my mind. hahaha.

midterms for core modules had roughly came to an end, but seriously I am screwed. very screwed. I felt that I have learnt NOTHING this sem. & it is alr week 11. I dunno what happened this sem. I did studied, I had been sleeping approx 4h everyday on weekdays jus to mug, I did tried to focus during lecture, I did stop goin out wit friends, I did stop being distracted by romance thingy, I did what I can do le, but I still lack time, I still cant get the concepts, I still cant freaking do tutorial qns, I am so bad to the extent that I can even fail my midterms when everyone shd be able to score well. Dear blog, can you understand my frustration??!! Can you solve my problems??! I dun wan to keep breaking down, cos at the end of the day, tears can't solve anything too. but beside using tears, I cant find any other ways to release my frustration....

random bloggin cos i am really feeling very stress. tell me what happened to me this sem. how come i cant catch up on anything. why am i laggin so behind. why am i scoring worse and worse. why why why.