Hold My Hand

Sunday, April 03, 2011

These few days been feeling very down.

Coz my company isnt in good condition and people are leaving one by one.

I wanna upgrade myself but i also thoroughly know it's not possible to juggle both at the same time.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe it's due to my mid 20s crisis which i felt SO FUCK UP the first time in my life.

I NEED A BREAK

Period.

Dreams painted @ 1:10 AM

Sunday, April 11, 2010

tell me it isn't truth..

tell me i'm thinking too much..

tell me my 6th sense is wrong this time..

tell me..sometimes the heart just can't be trusted..

Dreams painted @ 9:33 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

March the 16th 2010

It's been a long long time ever since I touched this blog of mine.

It's not that I've abandon it, given the thought that it's been with me for yrs..

But...i felt like keeping those entries to myself instead.

Suddenly felt like whining to myself though.

Somewhere that I can poured out all my thoughts/comments/feelings into then get back to reality

with an empty mind ready to face the challenges once more.

*Peeps through the last entry*

it's a sad / frightening / heartbreaking entry.

But these few mths, surprisingly we are still happily attached.

Boyfriend treasured me just as much as i did. or more.

Mr J finally got a girlfriend for himself but yet.. somehow I could feel that he's not as happy as

when he likes me. xD

Alright. I know i'm boosting lah but i could feel it, u know?

If Boyfriend didn't learnt to treasure me, things might turn out differently now.

Seriously speaking, I might be engaged with Mr J and preparing to get married leh! *CHEY!*

As I said, Boyfriend and I had been through lots. and lots of pressure / problems,

we r still in one piece though *CHEY x 2*

But the frightening part is that I find that I've changed. alot in fact.

Reality makes us changed alot. Office Politics made me changed.

Office Re-structuring costed us to change and we are in the midst of it though.

Struggling still.

Hope that this yr can pass fast fast as it's not been a gd yr for me yet. =<

Kay. I better start to exercise now.

Byeeee~~

Berry.

Dreams painted @ 6:29 AM

Monday, October 26, 2009

Last night we fought.

B knocked his head against the wall.

The wall cracked.

Yes. It cracked.

And mind u. it's not a "fong", it's a "洞"

I wonder if all the guys are like that.

Dreams painted @ 10:25 AM

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

13.10.2009

it was a normal Tuesday morning.

I decided to have tea instead of coffee.

1 hour later, i suddenly felt very unwell and puked the tea out.

Fren says it's food poisoning.

Argh!

Anyway..Happy Berday Mrs Choo! Stay healthy always.

Dreams painted @ 1:06 AM

Monday, September 07, 2009

07.09.2009

I cried my lungs out just now.

Why? Why?! Why.

I asked myself.

Did i do anything wrong?

Why is she treating me this way ?

In fact ytd.

I totally couldn't sleep at all.

Had a nightmare and I'm totally not in the mood for work.

I felt as if any moment I will go and end my life.

Just now. She msged me again.

With more hurtful words.

I really really couldn't hang on at that moment.

I almost wanted to ask Boyfriend to take care of himself as I couldn't be there for him anymore.

I slapped myself as I cried.

Fate's torturing me.

Did i not do well enough?

At least I cared.

But... she wanted more. more and so much MORE that I couldn't give anymore.

My Ex once said I'm too childish for my age.

But.

The actual fact is I'm trying to run away from reality.

Yes.

I tried. Real hard.

Till now.

GoodBye.

Dreams painted @ 8:38 AM

Saturday, July 11, 2009

好久...

好久....

好久沒有心動的感觉了.

Dreams painted @ 9:22 AM

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