Okay im surrendering soon, tired of working and the non-rewarding factors aint helping as well. i brushed up a bit of my resume... time to start hunting soon.

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its sad when friends come to a point that they start to use you sometimes. :(

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and when friend say they havent seen you for a long time, just keep saying it and not making it happen. damn, i'm one of them as well. heh.

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we quarrel again. about a almost non-existent person. why why why? if you knew i disliked her that much, and for a substantial reason, why still bother to keep in contact with her. you said you have nothing to hide. then why does she appear to always be so chummy even online huh? i dont like i dont like. if it wouldnt kill you to cut off contact with someone 'you dont really talk a lot to', is that so difficult?

and to see you even putting in a teeny winy effort to get her info she needs, and to ask you to do just a little thing for me which you just wont do, saying it's on purpose, doesnt it makes me feel worst?

ohh so look at jack neo scandal. the so aspiring, so busy Director Neo ended up with girls that can be as young as his daughter. i must totally respect Mrs Neo! her move to do it gracious, deserves applause and admiration!

and guys guys guys, like what Cindy said, it doesnt matter whether he's rich/poor enough to play with fire. its just lower or higher probability.

and then theres the news about young guys dating ladies at least 10-20yrs their senior. whom they claim the older ladies to be much independent, doesnt demand constant attention and does not need flower-wooing. LOL. and i think that's my bf's ideal partner.

you may say love doesnt need mind games. but i think mind games are in play whether you like it or not.

(1:52 AM)

Tokyo, Japan.
My first time there, and its totally stunning.
From the locals to the shopping!

I overspent :(
and im gonna go really budget for the next few months!
impulsive buys; don't ask me how much i spent... feeling guilty as charged!
its a bad habit of mine!
i wanna start saving seriously!

thanks for those who are still reading this space..
coz i wonder sometimes do my the other significant half even read this! :/

i saw "couples retreat" the movie on the way back..
-Sometimes we forget how to do the easiest thing in the world, which is just to talk to each other-
ahh, there you go. hit right on the spot! i like this quote!

we always forget the good things about each other whenever a quarrel rises, for all relationship. i hope to be more patient with him, as im the more temperamental one!

also wish that there could be more intiatives..
(yes yes women women always complaining.... but sometimes we really want it to be more special, more dedicated, dont ya agree with me huh)

and i feel marriage is a nightmare........ is not exactly good news.
why? you see, marriage is permanently fixed. and once broken, divorce... young child stuck in between custody. everything turns ugly..

i think im getting on age! -_-

(7:08 PM)

its the Chinese New Year again!
Have been going for the usual gatherings, or rather gambling sessions.
either the banker is the big winner, or the players are.
its all about the luck! always so exciting to see if the bet placed will be multiplied.
greed always take place too, when you have the urge to keep placing bets to cover losses.

i have a sister, many do not know, or rather, they thought im the only child as i do not mentioned about her much.
its been, about 5-7 years she have been married.
and the shocking fact is, i haven't see her since 2-3 years ago.
i do wonder how is she. i don't even have her contact.
my parents, on the other hand, have the contact, but would just rather leave the status as it is, as they knew my sister is still the stubborn one, thinking that her own family is always out to get her. ironic?

i'm very worried that in the future i won't be a good mother!
what if the child is rebellious, or just isnt obedient?

there's still always this gapppppp between my parents and i.. i wish i'm close to them.. like to be able to tell them about every single thing that is happening in my life. there's just this wall that continue to get thicker. lucky you, if you have a close-knited family. no matter what, family are always the ones who stick by you under any circumstance.

(4:13 AM)

its been so long yea?
i used to like uploading pictures, blogging about happenings and all.
after so long, i think nobody is even dropping by here for a peek.

i wanna blog again. :) about the thoughts of my life.

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i have been really rude that day. and i feel bad.
its not even her fault that she can't help me with the simple task of processing the transaction.
and i ended up flaring at this stranger.
sometimes we failed to see what other see.

(12:58 AM)

I decided to mass update...! Been so long! And well, I guess this is a good avenue for me to just vent out my thoughts and all. :)

hello, people..

For those who haven't met 7, he's an angel sent to Raw and I.. There's him in the hiphop wear!

Cindy with 7!

His one-week hotel stay at Bukit Panjang while the Woon's family's at taiwan.. it was the most crazy week, where i rush to feed him before work and rush back before my parents sleep so that they wont be disturbed by his barking...

it was that one-week which i fall so in love with 7...

See, isnt he a sweetie...

Cloud 7....

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That's DRK's birthday..... Okay, Raw and I seemed to be very out of the point... haha..

Uncle Woon's birthday... We can tell that Raw is being fed very very well.....

cuteszzz

beat that - 4 batches get together. :)

lunchie with agnes

He reminds me of Baby's dad... one of my colleagues in Jurong Point...

I like the cheerfulness and green in the photo!

One of my favourite things...! :D

The crazy babe!

Clifford birthday @ Crystal Jade... I think we made every dollar worth by ordering all of their xiaolongbaos!

Nichy's gettin older...

My Feb 13..

Long-lost poly mates...

Miss Ou Qing Xian lookalike... Gettin married... stay blissfulll...

Soryan's turn to get older!

Beth Cooooper!

Another lovely gathering.

I still don't understand why the hell are the guards in our picture. But, never mind.

We love batammm!

a bit of alcohol, an overdose of good company.

he says "it's CRISS ANGEL....!!!!!!"

Lubna, now faraway in another side of the globe. Miss you!

Happy birthday jimmy boy!!

(12:06 AM)

I know... i know! I left this place so cold and empty for a few months..
I wonder if anyone still hangs around, readin this blog?

I finally held on to a full-time job for 6mths! Sound lika big feat huh? hahaha, that's the longest ever time I held on to a job..! Im now fixed to Jurong Point, for a month already. Colleagues there are really nice... Just that either the job is stressful or im stressing myself too much. It's all about numbers. And we just keep running running to keep on track... I just hope I hold on long enough.

I just suddenly feel like bloggin today.
Today had been a bad day..
Sometimes, I dont know where are we heading to.......
when I feel we havent started at all......
it has been raining......
so has my eyes.
:(

sometimes, i just wanna feel like losing all i have.
it sounds crazy.
but probably im richer when i lose.

(9:24 PM)

And sooo, the primary school gathering did came true!
All born in 1986, Presenting..... Batch '92 of South View Primary.

It was Kok Ann's birthday too, so had a cake to celebrate for him.

It was a really, fantastic gathering! All of us trying to remember which class who's from.... And whether if we still remember some good ol' memories in the primary school days. Some, which I havent seen them for 10 over years... can you believe it?!




Took after our steamboat at Xian De Lai...!
Top Row from left: Desmond Chua, Nick, Alvin, Junhao, Shiming, Weiloon, Zhenquan
2nd row: Hanming, Shunfoong, Kok Ann, Bryon
3rd row: Donghong, Weiqiang, Shishi, Kunyi
1st row: Yongxing, Seokyan, Zu e', me, Zhao Xian, Gilbert...



And the girls whom i was close with, playing zero point, five stones, 'bi xian' ... and whatever. haha..



(12:07 AM)