National Stadium Closing Ceremony

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Sweaty day.. haha... went National Stadium with 2nd uncle & family together with BOY kor, mama n missy... met up with cousins & AMAY & family @ stadium... frm 3plus till 10plus.. omg... tired... hot hot hot... sweating~ hahaha...

Today is the closing ceremony of the National Stadium... Besides that, they hav tis Field of Dreams - A Tribute to National Stadium... Featuring: Football Legends - Singapore VS Malaysia & Singapore VS Australia... Oh my.. Its my 1st time watching football.. hahaha... 1st time goin to stadium n watch football... I know nuts abt it one... lol... N now Im there watching it... woowhoo... wahahaha...

Singapore VS Malaysia - 1:0 Its the Ex-Intl... Singapore VS Australia - 0:3 Friendly Match Live on telecast...

Australia's goalkeeper veri steady sia... omg... no nid jump or move abt much.. haha... oz ppl is tall enough... jus simply stretch his hands out n there he goes... managed to catch hold onto the ball liao... thumbs up man... Watching live is reali kan chiong sia.. haha.. 1st time 1st time... haha... Overall still not bad lar... nice experience thou... :)

Last time enter National Stadium... say gdbye to it n welcome the new stadium in few yrs time...

Well well... last but not least of coz there is fireworks... beautiful... took a few shoots... but onli 1 or 2 is clearer n nice nia.. hehe... better den nth yea? :P

Hmmm..... Ytd out frm 1plus till 11plus den back hm... Out shopping with mama n missy... acc mama go buy hp... too bad her Nokia6111 cant trade in liao... spoilt... no choice lar... jus upgrade without trading in loh... Head to swensen for some ice cream... mm.. yummy... hoho... den me n missy continue shopping while mama went back hm... Frm FEP slowly shop shop walk walk... Tangs... Wisma... Heeren... PS... omg.. tiring.. lol.. legs aching sia... old liao cant walk long.. hahaha...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to 张栋梁 - 只因为你

活着也没用...

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Last nite keep thinking... thinking of wad mama has said... wad others have said... everythingy... y not letting me dream of him... Wana dream of the 2 of them... can I? o.O??

Cried... thinking wad if Im gone... Will I know if Im gone? Where will I b? Will I get to meet any one who I know? Will I b alone? Wad will I do? ............... If Im gone... means gone... no longer belong to tis world... So wads the point of having me b in tis world in the 1st place? Afterall we will die... afterall we wunt b in tis world... so wads the point of wasting $ & time... Realli cant imagine wad will happen to me next..... Im jus so scare... Will I still b able to b together with my family members all when Im no longer in tis world.. when everyone is @ another world?? ><

I dunno y suddenly I will think of those thingy... but jus.... it jus happen to come to my mind... n I jus think think.... dunno y...

....................... 搞不懂为什么我会这样想.....

现在的老鼠突然没有心情做工了... 不知怎么了... 就是没心情... 不想做工怎么办... haihh~ ><

negative thinking.... haihh... always like tat.... wad to do... well... that's me... ...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to YES 93.3fm, 吴克群 - 明天过后

now tat he is gone...

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Thur took another day off... Suay suay Fri morning 2am plus, me feeling unwell... upset stomach... vomit... omg... so suay... In the end morning wake up missy acc me go c doc... doc ask me wana hav an injection mah... haha.. no tks... scare scare... he laughs.. -.-||| Spent $23... took mc... Took a day MC.. nv go work... wahh siong sia... on leave for so many days... aft tat tio MC.. haha... whole day at hm slp n slp n slp...

Luckily tis morning still alright... able to go work.... feeling better... whole day at work was like blur blur still...

Hmmm... pray hard... hope that wad ever she has mentioned... wad ever she said is not going to come true... cannot... Dun wish to have any thingy happen again... dun wan~ Rem tat time he told mama another 4 days... nv say wad 4 days... nv say wad the 4 days meant... jus say 4 days... n thingy realli happened aft 4 days... now her turn... she told her another month.... oh pls... no pls... touch wood... nth is gonna happen... Every one will b alright...

Please.... 保佑... 祈祷...

Now tat he is gone... everything changes too... as kor mentioned.. another piece of jigsaw is gone... haihh... keep thinking of wad had happened... think of when it's him... the period when he is unwell... in the hospital... everythingy... den think of him... the period when he was admitted to hospital as well... den discharged... one day one day... getting weaker each day... till den... thingy jus happened like tis...

Keep thinking when is my turn... wad will happen then... haihh... 如果走的人是我那该多好... 对我而言.. 活在世上... 有时觉得没什么意义... 不懂啦... haihh....

@Tis point of time, Im listening to 罗志祥 - 爱转角

第七天...

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今天是第七天... 好快哦... 一眨眼就七天了... 在那几晚... 大家分工合作... 轮流守夜... 第二晚,出发生一个意外... 大家都被吓到.. 不知该怎么办才好... ...

第三晚... 第四晚... 一天一天就这样的过了... Hmmm.... 第五天... 告诉自己不管怎样都不能哭... 不可以掉泪... 可是... 我也知道我是办不到的... On the way 就已经哭了... 到了那里跟加受不了... 尤其是那一刻的时候... @ 1st 是想到以前... 想到他以前... But now is 他... 那一刻真的是.... haihh... 不知怎么形容好... Sad!!! 好想好想哭...

Think back... 18yrs back... the time we had together @ the market... helping out... early in the morning... mmm... realli miss it man...

Now left her... wondering wads in her mind now... wad she's thinking inside her... how she feels? realli duno... think nobody knows... she dun wana say out... jus quietly kept to herself... She mus b strong... jiayou~ U r not alone... u still hav the whole lot of us with u...

haih... 在短短的三年年内... 就倒了两个... 这一次被他说中... pray for the best... dun wish to hav any thingy happen again...

Today took another day leave... tiring man... body n legs all aching... tired~ haihh.. so lazy to go back work liao man... sianzz... how I wish no nid work.. haha... haihh...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to Yes 93.3fm, 陈奕迅 - 想哭

15062007

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Its friday... was on the way to work... halfway thru... rece' sms... asking me to back immediately.. shit~ somethingy happened... Alighted at raffles area... tried to hire for cab... but none.. scare Im not allow to hire cab at tat spot... anyway... tried my luck over the other side... managed to get onto 1 fast... on the way, called up weeshin to inform tat Im wunt b goin work... settle everythingy... called up branda to go down to help them coz I think the 3 of them nia cant cope...

Got a 'good' taxi driver... too bad no license.. if not sure ask him get down I drive myself... haihh.. anyway.. reach 62... went up... Im still too late... cant c him for the last time... sad... Wad he mentioned to mama is accurate... 4days... onli thingy is we duno wad thingy 4days.. keep guessing.. Monday he told mama 4days... counted 4days.. n its Friday.. jus nice 初一... haihh...

@ the furneral, while staying over the nite... looking aft... was looking at his pic... thinking of last time... the time when he is still working... selling at the market with mama... n me still kingdergarden if not wrong.. helping out at the stalls... n its so fun... rem every morning mama drive to 62 to fetch him... n he will bring down breakfast for us... simple porrigde but nice... hmmm....

Thingy jus happened like tat... he is back frm hospital abt 3wks or so nia.. n thats it... as doctor said.. 6wks - 3mths.. but its less den tat... haihh...

............ ............. .............

@Tis point of time, Im ...................... T_T

sad...

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此时此刻的老鼠孤零零的一个人待在家... 妈妈和姐姐过去啊公家... 哥哥却还没回来... hmmm... 自己在家的feel真不好受... 好想找个人陪陪聊一聊也好... haih..

从早上到现在才回来... 过去看看他... granny也来看看他... 见到他... 她一开口就哭了... 怎么讲也是俩兄妹... 就只剩下他们俩... 当然会伤心.. 心痛.. 我们看了都想哭... 眼泪慢慢地望下掉... 在送她回之前, 在见见他一面... 又来了... 又哭了... 哭着哭着... 他也好想跟着哭了... 天啊... 越看越心痛... 两次我们都跟着哭了... 就连我们可爱的她也哭了...haihh... T_T

此时此刻的他只能躺在床上... 吃也吃不下... 说的话语无伦次... 听了就.... ..... haihh... ><

天啊... 突然觉得头真的很痛... 太多东西要烦.. 要想.. haihh... 听这个讲... 听那个讲... 听到头都痛... 希望你们是错的... 不可以... 这样的事发生.. 谁还会有心情做工... 每个人都没心情... haihh...

真的不敢想象下一秒会发生什么事....

祈祷... 祈求... 保佑...

哭... 除了哭还是哭...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to YES 93.3fm, 五月天 - 为爱而生

blur blur...

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今天missy回来了... 到airport去接她... 然后才去做工...

Hmmm... 听不懂他在讲什么... 听不懂... blur blur的... uncle说他最近就是这样... 讲的话blur blur的... 他叫我拿他的杯... 说杯掉了... 我明明听见杯.. 可是看来看去我都没有看到什么杯... 就在问一次他要什么... 他说为什么我傻傻的站在那边... 还不帮他... 老鼠整个人都听到blur去了... 幸好uncle进来... 他听见... 却说拿了.. 已经拿掉了... blah blah... 还告诉我他最近都是这样... 没办法... haihh....

pray hard... ...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to 品冠 & 卓文萱 - 忘了我是谁

头痛...

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头痛... 受不了了... 真的是卧床不起... 一点力气都没有... 真可怜... 双脚都冷冷的... 带有点肿.. 有点黑青... 摸摸他的双脚... 看看他的手... 看他的样子.. 天啊... 心好痛哦.. 真的不敢乱乱想了... 说话有时侯不是很清楚...

听见她们跟他讲话时... 我的妈呀... 不知该说什么好... 只想哭... 忍.. 怎样都得忍... 现在的老鼠好想找个洞藏进去.... 躲起来... 哭... haihh... 老鼠好想好想有个人可以在身边陪陪她... As wad missy said... 除了哭还能做什么呢... haihh... 除了哭还是哭..... 没别的...

..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... ..... .....

那时的你还好好的... 怎么那么突然呢...

保佑... 加油... 努力...

又偷哭了...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to 林宇中 - 蒼蠅的淚滴

我忍...

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Today isnt tat bz... abt 6 students didnt turn up... super slack today... haha... managed to look thru the folders for monday & tuesday... Hope everytime aso like today... so smooth.. haha... :Pp

Bought 3 CDs again today.. hehe... wana listen to new songs lar... hehe... still tot of buying some more.. but dun haf yet.. too bad... gotto wait loh... ...

Am on the phone at the moment... Missy called... ask how izit... well.. wad can I say... anyway glad tat missy is able to b come earlier...

Came back frm there... seen him... heart pain... nth to say... touch his hand... hold him... haihh... gav him monthly $... called him.. giv it to him.. hold his hand.. he asked if I had enough for myself... omg.. at tat moment I realli cant stand.. almost cried out... bare with it... die die aso gotto control... control control control~

肿... 是有点肿了... 摸一摸他的手... 看一看他... 心酸... 看见他这样真的很心痛哦... 跟他说再见时的老鼠很想哭哦... 好想想抱抱他... 老鼠忍..

你要加油... 坚持到底... 不要放弃... 要勇敢...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to 黄义达 - 到底多久

how???

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收到简讯, 叫我别去买先... 情况不是说很好...

接到听话, 叫我问她是否可以换日期.. 是否可以早一点回来... 虽然机会很渺茫.. 还是希望她能试试看.. 尽量能再早就早...

听她讲他今天的情形.. 听了不是很乐观... 自己好象已经懂会发生什么事似的.. 说屋子的是已办好了... 还说自己没用了.. 要死了.. 天啊... 听了就心痛... 听说他连说话都有困难了.. 听不太清楚... 身体渐渐地越来越差... haihh... 听着听着... 老鼠的眼泪又忍不住掉了下来....

总而言之, 老姐试试看是否可以让你早点回来吧... 不要等到17th了... 就这几天吧... 能早就早.. 能快就快.. 尽量说服他们让你快快回来吧... 拜托...

害怕... 无助...

又偷哭了...

@Tis point of time, Im listening to Yes 93.3 fm

伤感...

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看见他卧床不起... 没力气... 头痛... 很喘... 吃也吃不下... haih.. sad... 看他的脸色也不是说很好的样子... 不知道啦... 大家都........

某某人说她对她说话时很大声... 听了就心痛... 可是... 她说话稍微比较大声是因为她不听话... 所以有时侯说话时声音难免会比较大... 我也知道她不是偏偏的... 我也有跟她谈过... 我了解... 可是能避免就避免... 怎么讲她也老了... 就让一让她吧... 体谅体谅她也是... 啊啊啊~~~!!!!!!!! 不懂啦.. 不懂啦.. 不懂自己在说什么了啦... haihh~~~

刚才, 两个突然好想语无伦次是的... 突然问这个.. 突然讲那个.. 天啊... 不要这样对待他们吧... 可以的话... 多想替他们减轻负担...

希望他等得了... 不想有什么遗憾... 等吧... 要等下去.... 尽量等吧... 一定要等喔... 不要放弃... 加油... 挺下去吧~ 坚持到底...

害怕... 担心... 伤感... 心痛... 心酸...

奇迹~ Need Miracle~

@Tis point of time, Im listening to Yes 93.3 fm

无言...

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I've decided... actuali ever since tat day I have alreadi come to a conclusion tat I dun wan liao... Aft knowing Missy aso giv up on her trip... rather waste $ aso dun wana go for her short tour... rather waste $ aso wana come back SG.. even if for that short short period of time.... yea... she did... cancel off her trip... try to ask for leave back SG... initially cannot help, cant get approval... but... lucky in the end she managed to get her leaves... She will b able to come back...

And I've made up my mind to tell boss today... Ask her abt KL centre visit thingy... c if she has make any booking... & I've alreadi told her tat Im not goin with them... Well... thou I do wish I can join them for the centre visit... 难得有这么一个机会... On the other hand, I dun wana miss out any thingy... dun wana have any regrets... So... I shall wait n see if there is any more chances next time bah... Certain thingy do have more den 1 chance... but certain thingy dun....

While typing my blog... Im aso reading missy & kor's blog... haihh... 读了kor's blog... 老鼠又想哭... 老鼠也跟他一样... 都害怕收到任何简讯或来电... 怕有什么事发生.. 担心.. 看到他那越来越虚弱的身子... 天啊... 越来越瘦... 吃也吃不下... 走也走不稳... 怎么办呢?

前几天, 她对Uncle说... "你就让我'欺负'你多一阵子吧..." 她说这句话带有些什么意思吗? 希望是老鼠想太多了吧...

不懂啦... 尽量不去想太多了... 虽然我知道很难不去想... 可是......... haihh.........

@Tis point of time, Im listening to 方大同 - 爱爱爱

MC...

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Friday... in the end nv go work... Midnite alreadi feeling unwell liao... morning wake up fever... vomit.. ls.. omg... shit~ bth.. went for doc take mc for the day... if sat nv go work den siao liao.. haha... Sat 3 staff on leave... omg rite... shit~ bz bz... lucky boss got someone to help out if not sure jialat... but... still not tat bad lar... not tat bz... coz some of the students alreadi gone for holidays liao... hehe... ytd can c tat the baskets move veri fast.. haha... clear fast.. haha..

Got a false alarm.. scare me... lucky nth happen... 下死我.. 差一点儿哭了出来...
昨天听说他吃不下... 想吐... 没力气... 看见他走路的样子... 天啊... 好可怜哦... ... haihh..

Mmmm... ytd aft medication bth... slpy.. went to bed @ 9pm.. haha... super early ar... hahaha... slp early.. but in the middle of the nite keep wake up... tossed ard... dream dream tis dream dream that... haha... dream of some 小帅哥... dream of someone giving birth n we all bz helping to choose name... blah blah blah... haha... funny sia.. haiz... wad a dream.. haha.. y cant let me dream of other thingy.. haha...

haih... sian sian sian... shall slack for the rest of the day bah.... yawnzz~

@Tis point of time, Im listening to Yes 93.3fm