11th Day

Sick Sick Sick!!!! Hope that HE is sick tml man~ Hope that HE wunt b in school tml~ hahaha... veri evil ar mi... lol... Haiz... If HE is sick... Or on MC den gd.. hee~ Den no nid to show HIM the phase 1... Well... prj stuck liao... tml phase 1... die lar... how man... Hopefully everything goes smoothly man... -.- No time liao... Mus Jia You~!!!

Today waited for Brother @ YCK Mrt... Den go Chinatown mit up Mama & Sis... Brother & I almost take the wrong side of the train sia.. haha... After goin down the esculator, both of us automatically move to the left... n walk to a comfort place n jus stand there n tok... Nv notice that we r actuali waiting on the wrong side.... Luckily train haven come man... if not if we happen to enter.... haha.. tats it.. We jus stand for awhile... den we suddenly somehow discover that we r on the wrong side... Jus when we go over to the correct side... the train goin towards Punggol one came.... Veri lucky sia.. haha... If not we blur blur... jus go into the train.. :P LaLaLa~...

Veri veri fast ar.... another 19 days lidat... Missy flying~ Today went Chinatown collect tix... Den went for dinner... After tat went TANGS... Go n get some SKII products for Missy... (Of coz she pay herself lar.. haha!!) Not bad sia.. hehe.. tis time round free umbrella wor.. haha... =X

Hmmm.... Today check my exam timetable... Heng sia... got 2 paper nia... Its on 27th n 29th of Oct... Not bad lar... After exam still got abt 1 wk for me to njoy b4 goin for IPP... Anyway, my IPP is @ Suntec... Mediterranean Shipping Co. (MSC).. Heard frm my fren who is now having his IPP in MSC aso... He told me that MSC is situated at Tower 4 level 34... OMG! so high sia.. lol.. :P Hmm... if free mus go n explore 1st... if not later 1st day of work get lost... Den not gd.. hehe~ Gotto go n get some more formal wear liao man... Mon - Thurs got to b in formal... Fri n Sat can b in Casual... Got to spend b4 earning man... haiz~ Its realli hard to earn... :P

Well.. free got to brush up my VB liao man... Heard frm Jason that I will b doin VB... N aso heard my fren saying the VB is slightly different frm wad we learnt... Its VB 6... And aso gotto learn how to use MS Access... Mus play ard with it b4 hand man~ Dun later go MSC everything aso duno... den will kena send hm one leh... Dun play play ar... ...

*Good Luck to Xiao Lao Shu!!!*
*Good Luck in Our Game!!!*
*Good Luck in IPP!!!*

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Day 10...

'Wo de Blur Blur Missy' says that she cried when she read my blog... *sigh* Same here loh... Tis Xiao Lao Shu here aso cried when reading Missy's blog... ...

Still rem on the 16th of Sept.. Perhaps I should say its 17th Sept, In the midnite... at ard... 12midnite bah... suddenly I was awake... I peep at my Hp.. C got one msg... Well.. its frm my sis... Saying that she dun dare to tok to me face to face... coz she knw that if we tok to each other at that particular moment... we sure to breakdown together.... Thruout that 16th Sept that nite... till the next morning 4plus am... we nv tok... Not even saying "Gd nite" n stuff... Aso stated in the msg, saying that Bro ask me not to think too much concentrate on my study... Dun b sad... B gd... When Im reading that msg, I breakdown quietly... without letting my mum know... Haiz... ...

I know now I say so much aso no use liao... But jus... ... (-_-"")

Now my Blur Blur Missy is still packing her stuff... She confirm flying on 16th Oct liao.... Morning flight... Tml Sis n Bro will b goin to collect their tix... Veri fast ar.... Veri fast 16th Oct will come... How r u feeling now, jie?? Excited?? Anxious?? Sad?? Happy?? Hmmm.... ....

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9th day...

Finally... finally Xiao Lao Shu is back~!!!

Veri fast ar... today is the 9th day liao... He had gone for 9 days liao.... haiz~ For the passed few days, realli keep thinking on wad happen b4 he is admitted again... Whenever got chance nia.. Will think... Will recall... Remembering the so called last time I tok to him... can say was... 15th Sept, in the morning, b4 goin to school... Still remember me giving him his morning medicine... give him water... Even told him to wait for Mama awhile b4 helping him change his shorts... as he is goin to A&E again after tat... That's the last talk wif him... Pretty sad.. Also remember the other time... when he quarrelled wif mama... n Im so fedup... I said something... something not gd... something hurts... Im sorry I've said that... ...

*Sigh* C-ing the last few days in the hospital... Oh my... damn sad... Realli sad... Remember that Wed, I nv go n visit him... Onli visit him on the next day, Thurs... When I c him I realli almost cry out... C-ing my sis is quite calm.. can tell that she is aso controlling... Both of us keep lookin out of the windows... Trying to c else where... Haiz... After tat day... Well... On the next morning, Fri morning... early in the morning.... 4 plus... Mama rece' a call.. After rushing down, c-ing him been sent to the ICU... omg~ knew that its realli critical liao... His heart actually stopped beating for 15 mins when he collapsed.. But too bad... brain dead liao... jus waiting for time.... haiz... Nv did we expect him to b like tat.... After abt 11yrs 5mths of staying together with him here... Clementi....
Hmmm.... .... (-_- )

Halfway typing my blog, I pop by my sis's blog... reading hers... tears almost drop again... Haiz... Agree wif sis... Mama is strong... she is veri strong... Although u may c her like nth happen like tat... as in.. U wunt get to c her cry so easily... She veri 'kan de kai'... She can control well... But I cant.. Sis cant.. Bro cant too.. Thinking back again... Remember tat particular moment when mama n I rushed to the ICU to c him the last time.... Seeing Brother breakdown... crying on mama's shoulder... Me n Sister hugging n crying at the same time.... Haiz... He left us... ... The Doctor aso said that he left peacefully... ... "Pa, Did u hear wad we told u?? Did u?? Do u knw wad we r thinking?? Can u sense??" "Almost everyday, ever since U left us... Every time, either when Im walking or in the bus or in the train or even when Im in bed... I would jus look at the sky or close my eyes... Hoping that U can hear me.... Hoping that U can read my mind.... Know wad Im thinking...."

Actuali I got a lot of questions in my head... got quite a lot of queries... But... nah~ its okie lar... shall ask some times later bah~ Now I feel that our siblings bond... The bond between the 3 of us... Jie, Kor & Me... Our siblings bond is getting closer... better den b4... veri veri much more closer den last time... Its a gd thingy ya.... Hope tis kinda of siblings bond will stay in tis way forever.... Nv ends!!!

Anyway... Thanx to all my frens... Thanx to everyone out there... those who know wad happen... Thanx alot... Realli thanx!!

Gonna leave Clementi soon... Quite miss Clementi man.. Have been staying here for abt 11yrs 5mths... got feelings for Clementi liao.... Mama is suggesting tat we move house... Will b moving to Telok Blangah... Nearer to Grandparents... Uncles n Aunties... That will b better isnt it... The more the merrier mah~ rite?? Seen few flats liao... Currently that 5th storey one seems better... Now hoping that we can move over asap.... Kinda excited.. haha.. Moving house is one of my dream... Since young.. keep hoping that I can get to move house... Can decorate my room... place everything nicely... etc.. heehee~

Hmm... One gone.. another one is goin off soon... Sis is leaving for Sydney soon... 16th Oct.. Kinda confirm tat day liao... She alreadi go n book air tix today... Well... Brother will b accompanying her there... gd hor... Brother keep disturbing me... tempting me... :P He even ask me to go n tell the lecturers... telling them... asking them to let me take examz now... so that I will b able to go wif them... Haiz... dreaming nia lar.. haha.. how can that b done.... No way lo.... Actuali Sis wanted Mama to go along as well... But will b leaving me alone... wanted to ask me go holland stay for that period of time... But I dun wan lar... So ma fan... Mama aso dun wana leave me alone... so she nv agree in goin wif them... But Mama is happy... is feeling safe... coz Brother will b goin over wif my blur Sis... haha... Brother been there b4... so some how know that side better... Gd lar... Sis's dream is approaching... flying over there liao... Congrate man~ =) Dun worry Jie, Kor n I will take care of Mama... Wunt let her sad sad... Anyway, thanx... U actuali offer me 50 bucks for my Jay Chou's concert.. But I have made up my mind... I decided not to go liao... *But that doesnt mean u no nid to give mi my 21st bday gift next yr wor... =P *

Hmm... Next yr wunt b celebrating my 21st bday liao... Actuali have been planning for a celebration... Planning to get chalets @ Loyang... But now... nvm lar... Postpone loh... 22nd bday den celebrate bah~ Too bad he wunt b ard to celebrate my 21st bday... wunt b ard to celebrate any of our bdays liao... Although I have been hoping that I could have my 21st bday celebrated... So that everyone will b there... Papa, Mama, Jiejie, Korkor & Me... together wif my relatives n frens... All will b present.. Jus like last time Jiejie's 21st bday... Its so fun... So nice...

Well.. well... nvm lar... Wherever he is... will stay b in our heart... No matter wad U had done to us... U r still our Papa... We miss ya...

*Forgive & Forget !!!*
*Do wadever u wan now... dun wait until there's not chance...*
*Once U regret, that's it !!!*
*So, grab ur chance now !!!*

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Tekong Trip

Ytd went to c botak guyz sia... Went wif the sch... Actuali got no lesson ytd... jus go for the sick of botak guyz wor... lol... :P Its quite a fun trip lar... My fren, zarrina... omg.. she's damn cute sia... I duno she is realli scare of taking ferry... I mean abit scare lar... I tot she is joking with me... cuz she keeps saying.. "Quick! Learn how to put on the life jackets!!" haha.. cute sia... Den keeps saying things like.. later I cant cross over how.. later drop.. later kena stuck~ haha... Mus c her reaction den u will find it cute... :P

Well.. Quite alot of ppl went man~ Not onli NYP students... Some TP student went as well... Hmm... its quite interesting lar... as in... U get to know hows life in Tekong.. How the guyz do... How they r trained... etc etc.. Too bad no shuai ge to c... cuz all of them look the same.. lolx.. :P After touring round, we went for our refreshments... YummY~ haha~

Hmmm.. b4 leaving, that is when I breakdown... I breakdown straight after hearing wad my mum said... OMG! My frens were shock to c me cry man... I hide at a corner... So paiseh sia... But bo bianz... I jus cant control myself... Haiz~

Afterwhich, was on my way down... but mum said that sis n bro ask me not to go down liao.. as its getting late... So I went hm myself lo... After mama n sis come back, I nv ask much... Onli overhear mama toking on the phone... tats how I get to know more on wad actuali happen... haiz~ At nite, went to bed... cant slp... I cried again... :( I tried to control myself as I slp wif mama... so dun wana wake her up....

Den middle of the nite... @ 12.15am... Mama n sis rush down again... to sign.. omg~ I was awake at that moment... After Mama n sis left the house to rush down, I cried again... wondering how isit... Hopefully everything is fine... Pray hard!! Cry n cry... I fall asleep... Till morning wake up to wash up n get ready for sch... Zar discover that my eyes were swollen... *sigh*

Today, after sch I went down... When sis n I reach, I saw him onli.. I was abt to cry again man... but I was able to control.. Haiz!! After some times, mama n brother came...

Haiz... I duno wad to say liao man... After tat... my cousins(god bro n sis) came... See them coming out... they facial expression aso change liao... Oh my... when me n mama outside... we tok tok.. den suddenly I cry... same goes wif mama... I control... B4 leaving... b4 goin back... went into the room again... I saw mama toking to him... I started crying... cuz I c that his eyes were red... mum's aso... I jus cant control anymore... We cried for awhile inside... C-ing him like tat... oh my... I realli duno wad to say man... Jus pray bah~

Walking out... at the lift there... mama told sis n bro wads his reaction... I stop. I cry... Brother come n console me... oh my.. Getting on the taxi, make a trip to Tiong Bahru for dinner... Jus after alighting... I ask my sis can I dun go n eat... Upon hearing tis... We both cried... Mama n brother console us.. esp mama.. telling us not to cry... mus eat... etc etc... Well.. Im jus not in the mood to eat... n I jus cant stop myself from crying... (Its jus wad Im doin now.... Crying while typing..)

In the end, we listen to mama... went to grab some food.. Me n sis jus cant stop.... After eating... off we go, queue for taxi... Inside the taxi, I keep crying... cry to myself... Cry till the top of the safety belt is wet.. my jacket is wet... Haiz~! Wad else can I do beside crying?? :'(

Haiz... I duno wad to say liao man.... Lucky tml no nid to go sch... If not duno how man... my both eyes sure swollen like hell.... sigh!!! Thinking back.... I know... wadever he had done make us fedup at times... although we hate u at times... say u at times... shout back at u... etc... we mean gd for u too... Do u understand??? Do u know how we feel now?? Do u??

Shall pray for u.... .... (._. )

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Missy Graduation Day

woo... Congrate Missy!!!! 'Gong Xi Lao Ye... He Xi Fu Ren'~ Xiao Jie finally graduated liao.. haha~ ^^ 1st time attend a graduation ceremony man... Hmm... abit boring... :P oppss... hahaha... SshhHh... :X Abt 200 ppl graduated frm BHS... Bachalor of Health Science... Hmm... quite alot of parents n frens attended the ceremony wor... Some aunties... OMG~ haha... they wear till... ... OH MY~!!! lolx!! :P

Hmmm... bcoz of Missy, I pon lesson today wor... oppss... :X not again.. haha.. :P Missy asks me to pon lesson so tat I can attend her graduation ceremony.... See.. wad a sis hor... ask sister to pon lesson... lolz... Jus kiddin lar... bleahz!

Waited for sooo long den can makan... Omg~ Damn hungry sia... Frm morning till 4 plus den can makan... "wads tis man... so slow..." :P hahahahaha~ =P Jk~! But realli damn hungry lo... get to eat a piece of sushi made by Carolin... thanx for ur sushi man~ :D 'Its delicious wor...'

Well... Click Here to view some photos taken on Missy's Graduation Day @ SIM... ...

Haiz... Wads wrong with him again man... Seems so pale... so sick... so weak... no strength liao... getting thinner n thinner... How man... Eat aso cant eat... haiz~!! Realli gonna go there again? Will he be better if he is there? Will he create some trouble again?? Now, Mama aso cant slp well... same goes to us... Wad shall we do man... Everyone is worried abt him... wonder how is he... etc.... *#$%#^&*!!!!!! Head big big liao man!!! *Sigh* (._. )

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Family Photo

1st time?? Think so its the 1st time bah... Taking family photos... omg~ aft so many years... haiz~ Again, see him cry again... while getting off the taxi, brother came over n help him as he cant walk properly... he called him n he cried... ... haiz~ Tat time is bcoz he is scared.. so he cried.. now bcoz of brother... Hmm.... ....

Well.. well... Missy n Brother put on their graduation gown... hmm... look so smart sia.. hehe... Mama n Papa mus b thinking.. "omg~ we old liao.. our kids all grown up alreadi...." hehehe~ :P We get to take 5 shots for the family photos... Hmm... xiao mei wo privileged lar.. get to sit down more.. hahaha... :P lalala~ Tis photo taking reminds me of... me taking the makeover sia... hehe... all the posing... the smile... etc... hehehe!! So fun.. hehe~

Waiting for next Tues & Sat to come man.. hehe.. Tues, goin to attend Missy's graduation ceremony... Sat, goin to c all the photos taken today... den get to choose the nicest one... hehe~ :) Kan Cheong sia.. haha~ :P

Well... till now still haben go n watch my garfield... haiz~ :( c how lar... mayb dun wana watch liao lar... save $$ save time... haha... :P Oh ya, so sickening man... I lost my anacondas movie tix... :( duno where it gone to liao.... haiz... on that day itself I still got take it out... den aft tat duno go where liao man... haiz~ Cant keep track of tat le... sianz....

Kinda scare sia... Alreadi week 11... I mean week 11 coming liao... Oh NOoo!!! so fast man... ScarYy~.... Can I dig a hole n hide?? =P

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Anacondas

W0w~ Anacondas~!!!!!
Jus now went to catch a show wif Carolin & Zarrina @ Yishun... Wah~ its so nice sia... veri thrilling~ Kan Cheong man~ hehehe... Quite a nice movie... worth it lar... 3 of us veri cute sia.. hehe.. Take cover~ hahahaha.... use our jacket to take cover.. :P
Scary Scary~~~ hehehehe~ =Pp

Dunno how to say lar.. haha... Mus go n watch tat man... hehehe... Next movie gonna watch is 'Garfield'.. My fren says its veri veri funni... tot of asking more ppl go n watch leh.. hehe.. :P Dunno who will wana go... Hmm... Next leh.. wana catch 'Sharktale' too... hehe.. Its a veri funni show too.. hehe.. Mus catch! Woohoo~ :)

Shall stop here and continue with my report liao lar... lalala~

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Aiyo~

So fast alreadi September liao.... Time realli flies man~ Hmmm... ytd went down to c him again.. waited for the doc to come n c him waited for so long man... wait till mi hungry liao... Luckily Mama bought me a packet of rice..

Finalli the doc came... Wah~ if doc dun come better man... come nia tell us so many things... soo many problems... They found out that there r so many prob in him... omg~ serious~ haiz!! How?? Now everything cannot b done... Now is his gastric... and his heart... wah seh~ so many problems liao.... Ah!!! Dunno lar... So many problems... ... Duno how to say lar.... haiz...

Mama n missy alreadi headache liao... haiz~ Hope everything will b fine man~ Pray hard!!!

Good luck for our Game prj aso man!! Oh ya, not forgetting..... Wana wish my fren, Carolin.. A Happy 20th Birthday!! Hope she will like the gift me & zar gave her... :)

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