Monday, January 19, 2004
i JuX.... wantEd to noe .... wat is he really thinking abt.. i dun like the way .. he tok to mi on phone... i dun like the way .... he shout at..MI i juz wan him to care mi more.. tat's all .. the way he tok to mi... i can't feeL the love... U NOe.. i jux can't feel it...In my heart... is like ... when is bored or sian.. den msg mi or wat... ya ... i agree tat he is busy... nowadays... but ... i jux...hai... 4get it ... maybe i shld.. juz fit into his shoes... n ... sEE how he fEelSss...well i jux told him .. to tok to mi nicely... i wan ppl to tok to mi nicely .. not giving mi actitude... ya he dosen't haven tat kind of attitude... tat ah huat have... he dun give mi the .. wat damm .. n shit n hell .. n FUCK.... but is like .. ya la i will la... yalayala bye bye la.. u noe ... hai... hope tat he will change ...
i think ... i m going deeper into the relationship.. if i dun bother it at all.. i will not ... ask him to tok to mi nicely...n ... when jux now... studying my poa n math... i will not think abt all tis thing.. i jux can't concentrate u noe ... hai dunnoe y... i dun wish tis realtionship affect my studies... if not .. i m going to end it.. even though i couldn't bear.. REaLLy ir TrUt...
10:22 PM
tOdAy.... StoMaChaChe... rest at home... every one have gone out to work.. only mi was left alone ...in this small little hse of mine...waiting 4 nuttin... oh... ya my lunch... Gary(ex) jux message mi out of blue... 1st i tot hu sia... chey yuan lai si ta... weLL surely got some thing... weird abt it .. . but i didn't care so much abt it .... haha ....
1:06 AM
