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Wednesday, September 16, 2015

这几天发生蛮多事情的。家还蛮乱的。老哥好像要发疯。父母好像经常吵架。还说什么分开。开玩笑！！！那么大的年龄还说这种笑话。而且是从发老爸的嘴里说出的。老弟又不管。老哥一直跟自己说话。说他疯了，又不信。真的不知道家里为什么会发生那么多事。感觉家好像不是家。有时可能我也快疯了。一直跟自己说不要管！我真的希望以后我的未来不会是这样的。家有一本难念的经。我的经好像很难念。

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11:01 AM

Wednesday, January 07, 2015

Hello Darlings. Happy New Year!!! It been very very very long time I didn't blog. haha. Soon my blog will grow mushroom and spider web. haha. come on lets blog Chinese today. haha...

哈哈。你好你好。好久不见。换了工作。目前不错。还过的去。哈哈。有很多东西想学。可是都是钱的问题。如果有了钱不代表会用那些钱来学你想要的东西。问题是一天一天的长大。一天一天的烦恼越来越多。这就是生活。不就好要有了孩子。更多东西不能学。而是要你的孩子学。害怕将来我的孩子会学很多东西。不知道是幸福还是悲哀。幸福是他们拥有的东西我们却没有。悲哀呢。就是我么拥有的他们没有。比如时间。一直要学东西。读书读书啊！这就是人生。简单生活呢？太过简单又不好。想学的东西没得学。人总是矛盾。因该是这样写吧。哈哈。

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4:55 PM

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

哈罗！很久没见到我post了吧？哈哈。今天是安静的一天。不想用英文来打字。因为太多白人在这里了。不想给他们知道我在写些什么。真的好久好久没有写blog了。突然想要写些什么的。可是有不知道想要写什么。啊。。写我下个星期要到泰国啦。。是有些兴奋。。不知道该带些什么。这是我第二次搭飞机。我会努力的抛开一切。。把工作放下。忘记几天。开开心心玩到疯。想要试一试在微博写些东西。有空去微博写东西吧。。

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10:39 AM

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

hoho... Just left two more mths to Chinese new year.. Den sooner will get bonus soon liao... Although increase me, but I still will find.. Bad hor.. Lol... Dun bother liao... Haha... Anyway this was my first time use iPhone to post blog.. Haha.. Download this app so long liao.. Still haven use... My job forever pending at there... Sian.. Dun bother... Try to finish it one by one loh.. Anyway shirley coming my department helping me.. Nowadays saw alot of my friends one by one marry liao... Partly their parents support them I guess.. At our age so young how to have so many money... Even everytime I save and save... Always not enough loh... But still got money lah.. Although not much... Haha... Hmmm... Reaching office soon.. K liao.. End here... Bye, good morning~

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7:55 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

hello.. as i saw something real in my eyes. i feel so afraid. afraid that one day will happen the same to me. i dun wanna happen just like them. but i feel afraid.. what can i do? will my future be happiness and happy? yah! i admit sometimes i'm a impatience!!! i felt i changed alot. it been years spending with him.. my heart know he wont betray me.. but i do afraid that what if? wat if one day really happen to me? do i don't have confident with me and him? so i shall believe him ya? but i did believe him... but kinda afraid... do i really trust him 100%? nope... not really 100%... even friends, family do lies.. don't need to say ur love ones.. haix.. am i thinking too much or am i too tired? i think both also have ba... haha.. its getting late.. it time for me to sleep.. goodnight cum good morning.. =)

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1:55 AM

Monday, August 01, 2011

it been a long long time since last entry.. haha... hmmm... anyway outside you see they look happiness.. but who knows that they not really that happiness??? Really feel sad for girl girl... kids really innocent. sometimes they shouldn't born in this world... sometimes really cant believe your partner too much.. althought u know they wont do that to u. As i know dear dear won't do that to me. like finding another girl outside. he said too mafan liao.. one already enough... why make himself so mafan find another wan? everyday lik hide here and there.. but who know it will happen one day anot? no one know... sometimes i do afraid dear will lik sj... sometimes i feel that i dunno iszzit he really wan to rom with me anot... wanna rom with me on 11/11/11... but this is a special date.. he shld know which date to register online.. he seem to be dun bother.. really make me sad.. TOTALLY SAD.. althought his mouth always say i wan to rom with u.. yah i know you wan.. but u seem lik no action... how am i going to stay with u for my whole life? alot of things i already give up... i can give up a wedding... just to be with u.. and wearing a gown... is all girls dream... flowers is mostly all girls hope to have... diamond ring... althought i hope to have one.. but its okay if dun haf a diamond ring.. it at least we have a wedding ring.. there is alot of things to be worried.. to be think hard.. is this person am i willing to spend with him for my rest of my life? in my heart always have an answer.. but... it still seem to be abit worried... haix.. i also dunno wat am i posting.. haha... go home continue to post ba? if i got the mood.. anyway need to do cover page for project too.. sigh~!

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12:53 PM

Friday, March 11, 2011

woohoo... it been a long long time... how long sia.. a few months liao lah... hmmm.. next month going to study le.. 13th april 2011... hopefully i can study well... hopefully end of whole course i can get a diploma cert.. hmmm... what to say? sometimes i feel i abit crazy, different, selfish... lols.. forget it... dun care whether she get in or not.. just do my very best... =P been working shal for 9th months le.. and dear dear finally have his own room... haha... i feel happy for him... of coz me happy lah... at least weekend can sleep a nice room.. not like mine.. haha... it too messy for me to tidy up.. especially MY TABLE!!! how i hope later finish work i can go his hse and sleep... but not yet not yet... his floor, walls and etc not yet done.. so i must wait.. i told him.. iszzit possible nearby my bdae will be able to be done? he say yah... he dunwan to move in during april.. as april is qin ming jie... and then... not long we are no longer STAYING HIS STUPID UNCLE HSE.. at least... hopefully wont move again... and dear will install air-con too.. and main supply is at his room.. not like current now the switch is at his mum & uncle room.. if on air-con... early in the morning they wake up HE WILL OFF IT.. tmd... off it, nvm.. but he stupid and save electric till didn on our fan... basically we get heated up in the room... sona... den we wake up de... i must faster hurry up finish work and go his hse and see see abit.. as he put his lights liao... haha. i wanna see how pretty iszzit.. =P hee.. next time stay inside the room.. feel closy.. hehe.. and his MR BEE... his dog cannot get it.. YES!!! lols.. not i dun like dog, is that his dog didn get train.. shh shh all around... and he will do his floor.. he make sure he dunwan his dog to go his room.. so make a small gate... the gate is for baby that kind... hmmm... =) this weekend must hurry up help him to paint and do alittle... hmmm... den faster move in... woohoo... haha...

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12:49 PM

Thursday, December 30, 2010

this few days mood was kinda not very good!!! there is lot of matters in my mind... why i always feel happy when i out of my house? why? firstly my brother result out, whether can get in to ite anot.. need my help to log in.. while i working.. okay nvm.. this small matter i can help... his result need to wait for today to come out, wait le... unsuccessful, need to appeal... my brother since lik dun bother or wat? i dunno... till out he was outside... sometimes i really hope to keep all my anger in my heart.. but i failed to do so.. i totally failed!!! tml i not coming home... my mum expect me to help my brother since my brother today sure very late come home.. why cant he learn? if he dun learn now.. what about few years later? am i goin to keep teaching him? am i? what if one day i not around? who help him? i not 24hrs help him.. NOT!!! i hope to have my own life... i hope to live my life.. i really hope.. i really hope i can independent.. and 2nd thing is... we really cant communicate well.. i cant even talk to my dad, mum, brother well.. iszzit my personal problem? i really wondering..

monday i was on urgent leave, but i came back from office the 2nd day which is on tues... the emotion of my department was weird... was lik i'm taking leave is my fault.. i dun understand.. i'm really tired sitting in front of my colleague... sometimes she really give a bad face... as my character too cheerful... it look lik i'm had done a wrong character... i hope if can.. if possible.. i will try to SHUT UP!!! ever thought having a good colleagues.. yah.. sometimes they really not bad.. there is a long way for me to think, for me to learn.. i still learning.. but most of the times i failed!!! sometimes life is so no meaningful.. really NO!!! i had vent out my anger just now... i'm tired... i just hope to shut up.. really... no.. is i hope to shout out.. but i'm too tired.. that why i hope to shut up for now.. my parents will never notice me.. will never notice my emotion... haix.. there is lots of thing i tired to type out.. really tired!!! bye~

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11:03 PM

Saturday, December 25, 2010

it really been months and months and months which i didn post any entry... kinda feel abit sad.. but really cant say out much... this feeling was really terrible.. i cant explain how its goes.. yesterday was christmas eve... it seem to be happy, but today was christmas.. it seem to be sad... having a van and car accident... huiting leg was swollen.. it totally damn big.. totally injure.. need to x-ray... haix... i was totally lost.. alot of things it gonna delay... he is my bf, i also agree that future he will be my hubby.. so i must try my very best to help him.. firstly study i think i gonna delay... either delay if not i dun take any study anymore... it seem to be tired.. i cant be so selfish just think of myself... thailand trip was thinking wanna delay anot.. how i hope i can cry out loud, shout out loud... god... please tell me what shld i do? god will u help me? god will u bless me? god... are u really there?

there is a sadness hiding inside of my heart... but must have confident... =)

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9:54 PM

Thursday, September 23, 2010

blog blog blog.. lazy to blog.. haha.. past few days i kinda abit sot sot.. as MENSES MAKE ME CRAZY!!! firstly the stupid eileen comment my post in fb.. whats wrong with her? i think she also having menses too.. i kinda damn fucking angry.. TRUE! i damn gek.. i did replied her.. but after that i delete away my reply.. so what i changing name? i change name is tat ur problem? she post at my blog as if i step on her tail and wan to shoot me.. plz.. come on... that is my problem.. changing name doesn't mean fully changing lucks or wat.. said what? i didn improve myself no matter how much i change it wont change my personailty.. before saying me.. as if u very good? thanks.. everyone not perfect.. as she dunno why am i changing name.. den comment so much nonsense for wat? i change my name which have my own reason.. and the name i having now not in my birth cert.. dun care this kind of person.. i bare with it not to talk to her much, quarrel with this kind of person.. is because SHE IS BOY'S FREN.. dun wan later so paiseh.. sometimes feel lik an idiot bare with all the gases in my stomach.. as i keep all my anger in myself.. fuck fuck fuck.. now think back really pissed... forget it forget it.. calm down, settle my heart, everything will be fine.. hehe.. next at night.. junbao called me.. ask me wan to go for k-concert.. haix.. it ex.. $300 per ticket.. short cut say.. at first not sure wan to go anot.. as i told him i will give him ans by next day.. said dun find ppl first.. till i tell u my ans.. HE SAID OK!!! end up i agree to go.. he said he find ppl liao.. after hanging up the call for less than 10mins.. forget it.. kinda damn sad and angry.. said wan to treat me eat dinner.. after tat i say dunwan.. he didn reply my msg in msn liao.. den forget it lohx.. haix.. see how first lah.. lunch time over le.. i gonna go do my work le.. later that going to kbox.. i wanna sing songs for long... wanna sing out LOUD!!! cya next time.. =) cheers~

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12:58 PM