The Lord will Provide

Though troubles assail
And dangers affright,
Though friends should all fail
And foes all unite;
Yet one thing secures us,
Whatever betide,
The scripture assures us,
The Lord will provide.

2. The birds without barn
Or storehouse are fed,
From them let us learn
To trust for our bread:
His saints, what is fitting,
Shall ne'er he denied,
So long as 'tis written,
The Lord will provide.

3. We may, like the ships,
By tempest be tossed
On perilous deeps,
But cannot be lost.
Though Satan enrages
The wind and the tide,
The promise engages,
The Lord will provide.

4. His call we obey
Like Abram of old,
Not knowing our way,
But faith makes us bold;
For though we are strangers
We have a good Guide,
And trust in all dangers,
The Lord will provide.

5. When Satan appears
To stop up our path,
And fill us with fears,
We triumph by faith;
He cannot take from us,
Though oft he has tried,
This heart-cheering promise,
The Lord will provide.

6. He tells us we're weak,
Our hope is in vain,
The good that we seek
We ne'er shall obtain,
But when such suggestions
Our spirits have plied,
This answers all questions,
The Lord will provide.

7. No strength of our own,
Or goodness we claim,
Yet since we have known
The Saviour's great name;
In this our strong tower
For safety we hide,
The Lord is our power,
The Lord will provide.

8. When life sinks apace
And death is in view,
This word of his grace
Shall comfort us through:
No fearing or doubting
With Christ on our side,
We hope to die shouting,
The Lord will provide.

John Newton, 1779, from Olney Hymns, vol. 1, hymn 7

beautiful hymn! :)

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

Haha..i saw this on je's blog n decided to do it again for fun. i think his description suits him. haha. especially the first sentence. i think the boring part in my description suits me. haha

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you are very loyal. A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person... a partner who you do special things for. In love, you express your emotions through actions. Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well! At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

homesick. even in the 4th year.

after gg home for such a short period, now when i'm back at stanford, i really really miss home suddenly. i wish i could come home everyday and pinch xh's cheeks n see her smile, and irritate xq, talk to him, and watch tv with him. gosh i really miss talking and laughing with them. i know..it's already the fourth year, with only 5 mths left, so deal with it! but it's still hard :( doesnt help that xq will be gg into army end of the month and the day i've been waiting so long for to send him off at tekong will just slip me by. i wish i could be there with them when xq got his results back or when xh gets hers then celebrate with them..yes i'm confident it'll be a celebration no matter what. miss all the friends too. the environment. the simplicity n easygoing-ness. please dun worry, i'm not having any bad relationships here, i just really miss all of you in spore.

i know that there is a time for everything, and i've been blessed with so much too. i know these and i am so thankful for all of it, but sometimes it seems easier to indulge in some homesickness and self pity.

i just cant wait for june when my family can finally come, and it'll be the end of these 4 years of 'half lives' here n there, moving in and out of ppl's lives, ppl moving in n out of my life, adjustments, independence, and task-oriented traveling. i just want to go home.

warning: mushyness ahead

yup. dun read if u cant take it. haha. as i said in the previous post, love should be irrational (: so i'm going to be mushy.

my dear boyfriend thinks that i dont show him off enough. hahaa. my response was, show off for wat? later got more competition. haha. but yes, truth be told, he is a v sweet and silly pig (:

I thank God everyday that there is someone who, besides my family, I can always be so comfortable with, and who knows me so well. Someone with whom I can totally be myself, no masks, no pretenses,(except maybe times when i pretend there's nth wrong to get some attention. haha. dun ask me how that works) no fake smile, no small talk.

Also, someone who puts God above everything else, and reminds me to do so too. This is something I always forget/dont do, and it really helps when you are walking so closely with Him. I know it hasnt been easy, and 'walking close' may have been painful or even tormenting at times. But your constant encouragements and reminders help me more than you know, and your advice always leads and reassures. I love it, that God uses you so greatly to speak to me so many times.

He's the kinda guy who would wrap presents nicely and prettily in boxes, self draw a whole photo album, sew (the word itself is big enough in my opinion), make a cheesecake and put it in an icebox in the car boot, print A4 sized photos for me, send me cny goodies and exam goodypacks of ice lemon tea, cuttlefish and korean instant noodles, and think of ways and means to give me surprises. like, text me 5 mins before i finish work to tell me that he was waiting downstairs kind. (: and of course, organising the 21st bday party.

He's the kinda guy who will remind me to call home on mother's day, and will explain to me my dad's point of view on matters from an angle i might not have seen from. He's the kinda guy who has my mum in his clutches. hahahahaha. and she admits it. He's the kinda guy who cherishes family. He loves kids too (:

He's the kinda guy who I can count on to 'take care of it'. haha. hmm..this may be a bad thing if i grow over reliant on it heh which I hope isnt the case yet, but yea just trying to say that he's one to count on.

He's the kinda guy who remembers everything even though sometimes he acts as if he doesnt. Sometimes I think i'm the one with the better memory, remembering the things we used to do in the past, but later will be sheepishly corrected by him. heh.

He's the guy i love to ka-chiao and see his face scrunch up but he wont be angry one. =p He's also the guy who's ever so patient when we face issues, while I continue sulking or finding fault.

He's the kinda guy who will give in to the movies i wanna watch. haha ok this makes me sound super demanding haha but it's not like that! (i hope). He's the kinda guy who will order ice lemon tea jia sprite instead of peach tea for me (: He's the kinda guy who will eat lotsa food with me! then after that ask me to exercise which i will ignore. hahha. If i cant decide between two dishes, he will order the other one so I can eat both mine and his. haha.

I almost forgot. he plays the drums and the guitar!! my hero. hahahahhaaha. like real. but he loves and appreciates music and thinks he will be better at the piano then me someday. i'm looking forward to that day (:

He's the kinda guy who loves his friends in unspoken ways.

He's the kinda guy who will take photos with me and be willing to retry a few times if it doesnt turn out well. hee.

Oh i forgot one thing that he will want me to say, that he saved up for return air tickets to come all the way to London twice =p

He's the kinda guy who might not like expressing affection in words much, but yet can still melt my heart(: hee.

But all these are stuff anyone could still do i guess. Most importantly, he's my best friend. He knows my goods, my bads, and he knows the way i think. He can guess the 'next steps' i will take, and will be scolding me if that's a dumb move. He knows me., and he's an irreplacable best friend. and it's a two way thing. I'm his best friend too (: From day one, he's the first one I want to tell a good news to, and the first one I want to share a bad news with. He's the kinda guy I almost feel i dont deserve.

Thank you for being the bestest (: I love you (:

=)

ps. i have a sudden urge to pinch xh's cheeks. hurhur.

indeed..

Yes, love needs to be irrational. How can we even be capable of love, unless we were first loved? Yet how can we not love, since God has already loved us so irrationally?

I too used to think that one should weigh the costs first before one decides to love. Fear of losing out, I guess. Someone said smth v true today; in relationships you should never be thinking of how much you can gain from it, but from day one, it should be 'paying out' from what you have. Of course, I dont mean extremism, not giving up everything - values, principle, friends, money just to make the relationship work. But, you know what I mean. Good relationships with anyone shouldnt start from a calculation of benefits. Give, not take.

If God had been rational about how he should deal with us, none of us would even been worthy to pronounce His name, much less share a personal relationship with Him. I think my parents, too, love unconditionally and sacrificially, even though many times unarticulated. Showered with such love, why then should we be calculative when it comes to loving others?

Over these years, I have slowly learnt that indeed, love needs to be irrational. Sometimes, there are just no words enough to express why. :)

God loves you too. He loves you so much. So, so much.

I'm forgiven because you were forsaken
I'm accepted, you were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your Spirit is within me
Because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
that You my King would die for me
Amazing love, I know it's true
and it's my joy to honour You;
in all I do, I honour You

i'm suddenly craving for black bean beef hor fun...hahaha. such a pig :p

人们走过我身旁 他们眼中流露出
心中空虚与愁烦 走向未知路
人生路程极艰难 整日心恐惧
欢笑掩饰心哭泣 耶稣能医治

人们需要主 人们需要主
当美梦破灭之时 祂为人开路
人们需要主 人们需要主
何时我们才知 人们需要主

if only you could see.

self admittedly, I seldom read the news, especially so when I'm in London. Usually when I hear news of all the natural disasters happening around me, my reaction would be 'oh no, that's sad..' and then forget about it in the next second. Maybe it's a sign that I'm getting older when this time, as I look at the death tolls in Myanmar and China..I actually take a second look at the numbers, and try to read more on what's been happening. Such painful disasters..so many lives lost..Almost incomprehensible.

On one hand, my heart really goes out to the children who lost their parents, the wives who lost their husbands, the workers who lost their livelihood and homes..but on the other hand, I am reminded to give thanks for the safety God has given me, the security that many, many times I take for granted.

Amidst all these..God is still God. He's the God of all, and the King of Kings. I guess what we can do easily just from where we are is just to keep these countries in prayer. Lord, deliver them from this pain, and be King over all.

Father you are King over the floods, I will be still, and know you are God.

distracted...

Alas, it's Syesha and the two Davids left!!! :)

ok back to work. :(

exam goodypack :)

xiaoen says:
today i received an exam goodypack
yozuki. says:
SO FUN
yozuki. says:
wats tat
xiaoen says:
2 packets of ice lemon tea, 2 packets of korean instnant noodles, 4 packets of cheese biscuits, 2 boxes of eclipse and a copy of the upper room
xiaoen says:
haha
yozuki. says:
HAHHA
yozuki. says:
why they assume all asian korean IS IT
yozuki. says:
HUHHUH
xiaoen says:
errrr.
xiaoen says:
hello...you really think it's my sch give me one ah?
xiaoen says:
this shows that you never read upper room

haha. conversation with my bro. anws, the impt thing is tt, e goody pack is NOT some fun thing from the sch. it's from this sweet pig :)
thank you :) get well soooonn.

Hosanna

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

some photos and ramblings...

hmm..i wonder if anyone comes back to read this anymore..heh..yup..it's been a long time. some updates are needed i guess! so far, this academic year's been good, i think. more time for myself, to think, to rest, and to finish work in my own time. thankful for that :)

time really flies, it's 2 more weeks till the end of this term and when i fly back to Spore for the easter break, and just like my mum, i cant believe that it's gonna be the last two weeks of proper lectures and classes of my undergraduate life in Imperial. (-stands up to shut windows for the FIFTH time because the wind's really strong and i just cant lock the latch on the window-) Yea..as much as I am really looking forward to going back, I'm also half thinking, wow, u mean 3 years just zoomed past like that, and I can actually count the number of months I have left in London?

I remb je telling me when I first came that there's no point coming all the way here and then spending most of the time here wishing I was back at home..I have to admit I did spend qt a lot of time missing home n the ppl at home n trying to go back whenever I can and will allow myself to, but i guess now that I can see the end, I'm starting to really cherish each moment here. Not that it can ever replace my wanting to go back home, but that I'm once again amazed at what God has blessed me with in my life. Yup, I'll miss my housemates, my coursemates, my collegemates, the people who made coming to a place far away from home feel a little bit more like home.

Ok, must stop emo-ing already. haha. the grass is always greener on the other side. (-the tree outside my room is like swaying ferociously and the window's rattling so hard it's gonna blow open anytime soon again-) Anyways, so..what else in my life. haha. everything's been good i guess :) So far this year, I went to Italy with je in dec when he came to visit, had a great time there. Oso went to visit his -must visit- Manchester, I must admit that the tour of Old Trafford was indeed quite fun. haha. Together with the housemates, we also went on a road trip to Rochester where we were blessed with a comfy mpv bigger than the car we actually booked for, and it was auto too! Will be going to Valencia with Agnes next weekend for a short eat-lotsa-paella-and-catchup weekend, and then next weekend I'll be HOME! :) smiles.

Oh! and i should share smth exciting bout my FYP. I managed to successfully convert the brain signals I was given into music :) into different kinds too! managed to get the normal tune, the egyptian tune, the jazzy blues tune, the asian/chinese tune..fun! :) Met my supervisor today and he said good job :) Will be leaving the rest of the work till next term after the exams, where it'll be FYP full force.

All in all, I'm happy :) my life here is simple I guess, but in a nice way. thankful that things have been great with je, going strong :) thankful for the monday and thurs nite webcam sessions wif my parents, the nights I will be looking forward to the most, and when I can just tell my mum all that's been happening and she understands. thankful for the times I meet qian or hui online, when they arent too busy doing work and can entertain me. i really really miss the two of them. miss the times i tease qian n e times we get serious, n miss hui's laughter and silly antics and crazy talk which makes everyone laugh. yay to one and a half more years.

but also, thankful for the dinners the housemates have together, the after dinner conversations, the crazy experiences like water problems we had together, the bridge sessions every fri nite so far this term, the steamboat-in-a-rice-cooker during cny, the musicals, varekai, the road trips, the fun jumping shots, the housemates - the ppl who make the house feel more like a home to go back too i guess :)

ok i thot i rembered saying stop the emo-ing. It's like 2.40am now haha and I really should sleep..ciao!

reckless abandonment,
total surrender,
set apart for one purpose.

big words.

My Utmost for His Highest

There is only one relationship that really matters, and that is your personal relationship to your personal Redeemer and Lord. If you maintain that at all costs, letting everything else go, God will fulfill His purpose through your life. One individual life may be of priceless value to God’s purposes, and yours may be that life.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:33-34

why do we just tend to worry and not to trust in His almighty power? trying hard to...

不 要 为 明 天 忧 虑 ， 因 为 明 天 自 有 明 天 的 忧 虑 ； 一 天 的 难 处 一 天 当 就 够 了 。

quickkkkk....

i cant wait for december to come.



所需要的力量祢天天赐给我, 祢恩典够我用.

Perspectives

just some simple drawings i made using paint..looking at them one at a time..




notice how the problem seems smaller at the end? :)

havent been here in a long while...

yup, title says it all. a whole summer has gone by, and i'm back in London. I guess it's only in London when ur life isnt as packed and you're free enuf to blog, or maybe that's just an excuse for me being too lazy in Singapore to blog. whatever it is, it's been a great holiday in spore..3 mths flew past really quickly because i worked for 2 mths..and well i guess it was good in a way that i cherished the last 1 mth even more instead of feeling too bored the whole of summer.

work was good, liked the working surroundings, learnt qt alot of stuff, and got to work at diff depts too. only complaint is having to wake up at 6.30, like going to sch lidat! haha.

hmm ok i guess since this is a backdating post i shall just mention highlights i remember of the hols. haha. one was the bomb thrown on me :p - to decide to do 3 yrs instead of 4 in Imperial. Learning to trust in God and not to depend on my own abilities..which is sometimes just easy to forget.

There was bandcamp too..that was fun :) there were bday parties too to attend..all of us turning 21 this year! oh and not to mention all the birthday surprises yyxz carried out..haha..hmm..wat else. 3 mths seem so long ago, i cant seem to remember anything except in the last 1 mth. oh yea and i attended 3 weddings this summer! hee. one was fareena's sister's, one was qx and qy, and last but not least zy and lena :) heehee it was so fun. at zy and lena's wedding dinner, we were saying that it was like prom, smth like a church-prom, and all of us were taking lotsa fotos :) i love attending weddings :p it's always so sweet :)

ok since i'm on the wedding bit already, i'll jus skip to the last mth. haha. i had a surprise party organised by je n helped by agnes n my parents :) big thank you to everyone who came, am very very blessed to have all of you. and to the mastermind of it all, thank you =) u noe how much i appreciate all the effort :)

and and, dz, mq, je and i went to bangkok in the last week, that was fun! lotsa lotsa shopping, with great company.everyday we walked until we were so tired, yet we still continued and pressed on..all for the sake of shopping..haha..looking forward to another trip next year! :)

hmm since coming back to London, we settled down pretty quickly, our wall was up by the end of the first week, so thank God. took my GRE yesterday, didnt go as well as I'd hoped, will be attempting another one next mth. was kinda disappointed at first, but thank you for reminding me that if this is not the way, God always has the better plan. :) was also slightly stressed out by the choosing of fyp..at times, i still ask myself y i've put myself in this situation..y couldnt i just stayed with my original plans, the one which i've depended on all along..but i'm slowly learning that He has His reasons..reasons i may not know. and since I'm doing it already, put my best and my all into it. and if He is for me, then what else should I be afraid of?

today, the actual birthday, went out for dinner with my coursemates and housemates :) had lotsa fun. thank you guys for celebrating with me every year :) truly appreciate it.

on a random note, the postmen are still on strike. please please please start work again soon..i hate worrying about mail. ESPECIALLY royal mail. bah.

oh and i received pretty flowers n a huggable bear today =) hehe yay. thankew =)

so there, i've finally updated.