homesick. even in the 4th year.

after gg home for such a short period, now when i'm back at stanford, i really really miss home suddenly. i wish i could come home everyday and pinch xh's cheeks n see her smile, and irritate xq, talk to him, and watch tv with him. gosh i really miss talking and laughing with them. i know..it's already the fourth year, with only 5 mths left, so deal with it! but it's still hard :( doesnt help that xq will be gg into army end of the month and the day i've been waiting so long for to send him off at tekong will just slip me by. i wish i could be there with them when xq got his results back or when xh gets hers then celebrate with them..yes i'm confident it'll be a celebration no matter what. miss all the friends too. the environment. the simplicity n easygoing-ness. please dun worry, i'm not having any bad relationships here, i just really miss all of you in spore.

i know that there is a time for everything, and i've been blessed with so much too. i know these and i am so thankful for all of it, but sometimes it seems easier to indulge in some homesickness and self pity.

i just cant wait for june when my family can finally come, and it'll be the end of these 4 years of 'half lives' here n there, moving in and out of ppl's lives, ppl moving in n out of my life, adjustments, independence, and task-oriented traveling. i just want to go home.