permed hair

finally did smth i've been wanting to do for very long :p hehe..permed e bottom half of my hair today..looks..ok la..expected look. hehe but today was a happy day...went out wif agnes, she did stuff to her hair too!! was a happy do-hair outing :p

oo btw at far east met reuben nathan joshua when we were eating, and subsequently mq xzy, den later at e salon val sher wella and yt was there too! so fun :p heh...everyone's cutting their hair!! hehe..actually not everyone la..but wells..val did. ha

altho spent 70 bucks, thot it was quite worth it for a perm and quite a lot of washing..ha..was quite worth it la i feel..so ..happy lo. :) and then..found a rent-sell book shop at far east that sold tuesdays wif morrie at 10.50 only!! :D:D:D so happy..yay...esp after reading e five ppl u meet in heaven..think it's a really nice, short and sweet book..so looking forward to reading tues wif morrie. good price good price :)

and oso bought a jap kimono looking top for cny! hehe..makes one look fat tho. hai. jian fei jian fei :p

yay..very happy that vivian came for yf today =D and i'm glad i survived e week =D it's kinda scary how each day passes by just like that, and january is already ending. i'm aging!! =p

tired

noe e type of feeling when there's quite a lot to say, yet too tired to type it all out? yea..these two days have been quite tiring..only left work at 8 yest and 7.30 today..and it takes so super long to get home..haiz...i guess i shall not complain la..mus be positive..jiayou jiayou..

something's missing. =/

clinging on to a fading memory...

mixture of

inexplainable

relief
joy
happiness
hope
boredom
loss
satisfaction
fatigue
expectation
confusion
worry

feels as if it's been quite long since i last blogged, mainly cos e last few days haf been both busy and tiring..wif work ending so late and zan mei hui and all..well zmh was really enjoyable both nites, spending much fun time wif fellow choir frens, and singing e oh- so-beautiful-and-meaningful songs. :D my fav song: zhi dao wo xin si (know my heart) the lyrics and e music is just a wonderful combination :D esp nice too when singing wif e fellow altos and sops for fun, like that time at e staircase :p

learnt a lesson of faith this zmh, amidst other lessons too. for e sec nite, at almost 730, we looked at the no. of ppl already seated in the recital hall thru e close circuit tv, and the no. of ppl present then was pathetic. so many empty spaces, only a few seats filled. a sight like this certainly was quite discouraging to quite a few of us, but i reminded myself then that we were not singing for men, but to glorify His name. reminded myself to have faith, and to trust in His own plans and His perfect time. was a relieving thot. after that, didnt get to see e no. of ppl again until we went on stage. was gladly surprised by e no. of ppl present then. hall wasnt filled, but was already a stark diff from e scene i'd seen earlier. after e first few songs, a huge group of ppl were ushered in further. was greatly encouraged.

not to be affected by the mere no. of ppl present, but to focus on praising and worshipping my father in heaven, giving thanks for our blessings.

the week starts again today, and it saddens me quite a bit to think that we wont be having any more choir practices, which i've grown accustomed to. maybe we wont be able to see those familiar faces as often cos of the different services we attend. but i am thankful to the Lord that i have had this opportunity to serve in this area, and that even tho we noe not what e future might hold, we know we've shared these precious memories together as a choir. :) looking forward to realising our dream of forming our very own accapella group! hope we do get down to it ladies! :)

today at work i signed e 5 mth contract le, hope all goes well..today i also got a table of my own, and will be taking over e ocbc stuff..currently still quite fine wif the job, mayb cos i'm still learning so it's not that sian? hope that i'll be able to haf a happy 5 mths wif this job, and continue to learn to give thanx for everything he has done for me.

2nd day of work

2nd day of work today, not bad again..starting to get more used to fd and fx stuff..hopefully i'll be able to work on it independently soon, cos i feel quite slow at grasping all e knowledge..ha..always mixing up stuff cos it's really quite confusing considering i noe zero accounting or banking knowledge. haha..but at least ppl are nice to talk to and willing to teach..finished all our stuff at 5 today, so chatted quite long wif sf..got to know that she's a christian too, made me feel even more blessed, to haf such an opportunity to work here. had interview today for the contract thing, didnt go too bad, was more like a chat. yay. and read yiwen's blog jus now, very happy to noe she's doing fine there. yay again. hee so many things to be thankful for..which shd i write down for this sunday? ha :p

first day of work

first day of work was quite fun, enriching too. learnt quite a lot of stuff, which may be jus the basic of wat those ppl in e office do everyday, but for me, it was really quite a lot of info to take at once, esp since i noe nuts bout banking and stuff. but was quite fun, get to check out currency exchange rates everyday, and deal wif foreign currency stuff. yay. think i'm truly blessed to haf found a job as such, sumore working wif ppl i noe. truly very thankful and blessed.

startin work tml

sent yiwen off today. she should still be on e plane now..hmm...gonna be a long time till i can see her again.. :( glad to see gill again today! havent met for a long time..hope we all get to meet again sometime soon
starting work tml. yep got a job from gugu...everything's happening so fast..ha..that day i was jus complaining casually that i havent yet found a job and asking her if they needed any temp workers, and poof a few days later she tells me i'm registered on the waiting list, even on aunty soo ee's side and den later in e afternoon i was told i got the job. sounds like a good deal to me, and e best thing is that im workgin wif some one i noe..so think that's e good part. hope e working exp will be a good one. cant wait to start tml. :)
thankful to my heavenly father for His grace that leads me through everything.

zmh full dress

zmh full dress rehearsal wasnt as tiring as i thot it'd be..cos it was fun as well! brought back memories of children's choir days when we performed two years ago alongside cockroach, giraffe, rhino and oops i forgot wat's e last one! wat was it again? hehz anw..it was fun :D and also very fun this year cos we're all in it together..hopes of setting up our very own small accapella group..hope we'll really get to do it one day! :D

mg 4a1

altho there werent many ppl today, still glad to haf met up wif frens from sec four :) and chatting bout how time flies and how old we are ..haha..can neva get enuf of it. and nat looks so different!! ha..think among all of us, only jan's e one and only never changing person. nice to know tho that we're all still e same old us and can still haf a good lunch and chat togetehr :) yay.

just came back from family dinner, cos of granduncle's 90th birthday...one of the family frens they invited was this old couple, whom i thought were incredibly adorable!! think they're super sweet, still so close together even after so many years. especially cos she has trouble walking, and he helps her around everywhere. think they're so super cute, very xian mu :) guess it's a long long way before i can sit back and enjoy life lidat ..ha..well dun think so much. im' not even in university yet. sigh.

yay.. so happy to meet up today wif two of u.. :) spent great time together, should do that more often! weird that we dun see each other everyday le. cant wait to see our photos! :)

how fragile life really is. anything can happen so suddenly.. anything. personally, i dun really mind going back to heaven earlier? but why the ppl around us? guess that's a really selfish thot..but..sometimes, it's tough dealing wif it. i hope and pray that you'll be able to pull thru this..and im' so glad u're still clinging on to God..remember he has his purpose and will for everything..i'm reminding myself that too every single day. if u ever read this, jus wanna say, be strong, and for ur family too. God noes and He cares. will always be here when u need a friend. always. :)

signed up for driving

woohoo considering e past few days of slacking, i might say i've accomplished at least some stuff today :)
for one, i went running in e morn!! haha 3 rounds around cashew heights lei..amounts to bout 2.7 km? ha hopefully
and secondly, went to sign up for driving lessons le! altho only took e first step of signing up for theory lessons la, but at least it's a step. :D yay.. and super glad i went wif two of u, at least somebody..if not i'd be like totally lost :p
still looking for a job..bleahz..and already spending so much on transport..i dun like paying adult fares! :p

j2 bbq

had a nice csa bbq at es's house today :) house was super nice! hehe..so big...and very happy to see all of u, and somehow when we all started to leave it was feeling so..hmm..final. dunno..cant believe e guys are going to army le..next time we can all meet again is probably when they all book out..hopefully we do haf a gathering then..and they'll all look so tanned and fit..not to mention without hair.. hehz..and e gals will also be busy working? or even overseas like yiwen..haiz..life is gonna be so different..

school's starting tml..feels weird to be not a part of it all. growing up. bleahz.

song lyrics

ooo i found it.. my fav line of e song 'All i ask of you'

'Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me,each night, each morning.
Love me, that's all I ask of you'

so super sweet (haha i can imagine agnes nodding her head :p ) hehe yep someone sing it on ur wedding please hehe :p

2004's over

2004's over and here comes 2005. fast eh. was just saying today that this has been the fastest yr ever in my life..somehow..time really passes so quickly..zoom and a week is gone, another zoom and one month is gone. before i knew it, i'm out of jc. unbelievable that im' 18 and going to uni soon. ha.

yest at jiafa's house we did this timeline thingy, forcing me to think back on this past one yr, realising how much i've actually been thru. wat seemed to be tremendously tough and worrying now seem much less threatening. still remb last yr, on 31st dec 2003, we wrote something like prayer requests on a slip of paper and another person was supposed to pray for us..remb wat i wrote was something like to survive this yr given all e choir commitments and of cos the big A's..and really thank God that at the end of it all, i'm still in one piece, and very thankful for all e memories of this past two yrs in jc. especially the choir and frens like far nana and gq. :)

was sharing wif agnes, even tho this yr was supposed to be really tough, it's quite a wonder that throughout e yr i've learnt even more to be optimistic and also dependent on God. or maybe i shd say i learnt to trust in his plan for me? especially in this year, i realised how great man can think he is, yet at the end of it all see his own minuteness in it all, if there's such a word. we worry and stress ourselves up, only to realise how foolish we are to do that cos all along, all we had to do was just to simply trust. human nature, to complicate things too much? i think i learnt to see bigger pictures instead of jus focussing on certain aspects probably?

also learnt to be thankful for everything i haf, especially ppl around me, my family and friends. Cannot help but realise how blessed i am, and how blessed we all are. God works in wondrous ways, and he probably has his own special purpose for putting each and every person in ur life.

glad to haf spent e last day of 2004 and first day of 2005 wif u all, and thanx to u for toking wif me e whole nite :) hehe..altho we're aging :p cant believe we still managed to sleep only at 7.30! hehz. yay best friends forever ya u two :)

for some weird reason, the songs from e phantom of e opera is stuck in my head! (hehe agnes :p ) yea!! u noe that sweet sweet song dat we kept saying a couple should sing tog..haha..yes yes..wat's e song again? issit all i ask of u? haha so super sweet and nice. :) hehe send me ar!!

yay tml's sunday again. and choir bbq at nite :)after that, however, it'll just be kind of a blur cos currently i still haf no idea wat i'd be doing for e next 6 months at least. bleahz.

just to add as a last note and a reminder to myself, His grace is truly sufficient for us, and with Him, we should fear nothing. :)