tsunami

when i first heard bout e earthquake, casually brushed e news off as just another natural disaster in some region. didnt pay much attention to it. these few days, however, seeing e numbers steadily rising until (ly just told me) 120000 ppl...beginning to ask why why why such a thing must happen, and ask where God is really. i noe, it's not a time to doubt, but seeing the mere no. of casualties...it jus feels so..cold. but still, thank God that sm and e are fine..really God's blessings, 2 incidents which encourage and remind me that God is always here for us whenever i think about them. :)

so amazed wif sanmei

heard about a terrible incident recently, most of us were in shock when we first heard it..but now looking back at it and listening to my fren, couldnt be more thankful how God has blessed her.Very amazed at e strength of ur character, truly inspired. ur optimistism, bravery, really very encouraging. cannot help but be awed by God's marvellous planning, and his own creation, u.
"When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings, and crowned him with glory and honor. "

--Psalm 8: 3-5

Christmas is over

reading Christmas card and remembering what agnes said..that when the A levels started two of us were like missing Christmas and spending time in church so much..now it's over so quickly..how time really flies. last week of the year, last week before i gotta get moving and start looking for a job? heh

sometimes, e Christmas period is just so busy that it's just so easy to overlook the true meaning of Christmas. had a fun Christmas yf party in church yest..tho it was pretty busy and tiring for us..but was fun!! :p and glad 4 of us were there to do it all together. :D

have been carolling so many days, on one of the days, was singing the first noel and listening to e beautiful melody and then the words actually struck me. i was forgetting the meaning of Christmas. Then i realised how blessed we were to be able to praise the Lord like this, very thankful.

today at choir, was especially touched by one of the songs we sang, ni de ming zai quan di he qi mei. music was so super super nice, melody was so super nice, and most importantly, words were really very meaningful. the part that really hit me was about us being so small, yet the Lord God still watches over us. so true. something to feel so thankful about. Thank You Father. :)

phantom of e opera

watched phantom of the opera today! :) songs were super super nice...but it was pretty creepy at some points :p but it was nice. :) even nicer was that we managed to meet up :) yep yep..somehow tho, it's always e same four of us...haha..well..i'm gonna be the friendless one next year..ha..everyone's going off!! (to echo fish :p ) yeah..how how how..so sad case. i'm gonna be the free one who can send everyone off at the airport. hehz. anw...nice slacking day today. :)

tired

tired!! been carolling these few nights..but fun la...spending time wif choir frens :) reach home at 1110 today. ha..not carolling wif sch choir next two days, but wif church on 24th! :D yay..hope it's fun..i'm feeling so lazy..dun wanna go mug those two new songs..but think i haf to...argh...sianz..cant memorise in time!!! how how how..and ahem is conducting..so i think err haf to memorise..argh...die...haha..today my deck e halls was like crap..hehz :p couldnt hear myself. oh wells. enough of ranting and rambling. hehez. gonna take a good nite's sleep and hopefully can meet gill and e rest tml :D

wow. so many days haf passed since i last blogged, and so many things haf happened. yep. went to hk and back, enjoyed myself, enjoyed e time spent wif my family. :D:D but well it was 5 days, and right now i'm just tooo tired and lazy to describe every detail :p overall, food was good, weather was good. for more info, read my bro's blog cos he described almost everything :p other than e fact that i bought quite a lot of stuff. hehz.

right after coming back from hk, e next day went wif cg to ly's house in malaysia..very fun to haf this kinda fellowship, and was just great to spend time tog..food was good and cheap rite? hehe and it was fun watching e show and going to kukup island :D tho e kelong guy was so crappy and lame i couldnt register his jokes fast enuf :p it was still fun overall. yay...haha and the end of it means the return to life back here again..haha

these few days while i was away, received news bout my applications..got e news that i'm rejected for both stanford (obviously duh :p) and firefly too..well i think i wont say i'm very sad ba..disappointed yes, for e time and effort i put in, but well, i noe for sure that God has better plans for me. during e hongkong trip, was thinking bout this, and i realise while i was enjoying e companionship from my bro and sis that maybe at the end of the day, i actually dun really wanna study overseas. i'll miss my family too too much. and friends. and there's nothing bad bout ntu or nus. so wells. like i always tell myself, i'll just finish up e applications on hand and leave e rest to God. at the end of it all, i realise i dun really want the firefly scholarship that much anw. yep. not my kind really. so it's not really a bad thing too, very happy for fareena and guo qing :D

didnt go to church today, we went to LY's church in malaysia instead..so tired now, gonna take a nice nap. :)

going hk tml

tiring day today..woke up so early for choir presentation, den rush to cg, den rush to lishi to set up, den after that still had choir pract all e way till bout 5..tired!!! going to hongkong tml, so after coming home still had to do my packing.. =/ well but still excited la..going on a holiday :) hehe..and right after i come back, will be going wif my cg to liangying's house!! yayeee...happy happy :D looking forward to spending time wif u all. and to when a fren comes back. :) till then, wont be blogging for a long time again :D

alpha camp's over

well well well...these three days passed so super quickly..alpha camp is already over le :( gotta wait another year..well, must say that througout this camp, saw the work of God even thru very very small things, and feels very blessed and very thankful to be part of my group, Maisha. I think the one thing that makes this camp so much more meaningful to me is cos Christina came for this camp too, and i felt that at so many points of the camp,e message brought across was really so apt loh. still remb e day i asked her to go for camp, was expecting a no, but somehow, she almost readily agreed. along e way, before e camp, of course there were times when she was kinda worried bout it..but i think you're really very bang le. if i were u, think i wont even dare to go for a friend's camp like this. but really really very thankful that u took e effort to even come.more than that, so happy to see u also enjoying urself in e camp, enjoying the friendship. dunno...jus feel so touched and happy.

first time as group leader in camp (as compared to agnes's 5th time :p)..was worried at first, but somehow, maybe cos of the dread of e a levels, all e while i've been looking forward to this camp. As for e camp itself, oso, really really blessed to haf a group such as ours..i think i didnt notice it myself first, but many ppl did tell us that we were really enthu as a group, which i think is the most impt part. we had fun, we gave it our all, we bonded. different ppl from diff backgrounds, diff personalities, but we had fun together. tiring, but satisfying.

preparation for talentnite, e part which i dreaded e most. but well, it wasnt so bad, and i think personally, at that point of the camp, i was past hoping our group to top e competition and shine and all..but instead, told myself that wat's impt is really not all those stuff, but e experiences and e time we spend together. after e performance, didnt think much of it too, was preparing myself for a 6th or 7th place, cos the other groups were so super good. well, results turned out otherwise. our group actually got first. to me, these results are just wow wow wow wow and wow. couldnt believe it loh. of cos i'm not saying that only if we get such results would we then deem our group as a success. but i think at that time, personally, i really needed that bit of self affirmation. it came at just the right time. was greatly encouraged.

in this camp, was also very very thankful that enlin came back for e camp, and i must say taht it was great when 5 of us jus chatted tog. christina definitely havent known all of u for long, and enlin has also not been back for sometime. somehow, tho, we could jsut sit tog and tok..which i thot was really beautiful. happy to just see ur faces around in camp, and to know that at the end of e day, no matter how tired we were, we'll be stoning together, whining as we had to take a bath before we sleep no matter how tired we were, going together to the toilets and bathing wif the inadequate resources we had and finally falling asleep next to each other. thanx for being a great part of my memories of this camp, all four of u, christina, agnes, xinyi and enlin. *big hug!!*

and to xinyi and agnes, remb next time when we go for camp, we must keep up e tradition of bathing wif e pathetic water hose at least once k! promise! :)

enjoyed camp. feels blessed. to also know that you're always there. thanx. :)

alpha camp tml

yep. tml's e start of a very very busy period..prom, alpha camp, family trip, cg trip den carolling. phew. willl b fun and tiring :) looking forward to it.

wondering. hoping. praying.

jus read peishan's blog. all e memories came flooding back..from our first year, and then thru our term, jubilation, bremen, and when we stepped down, right up till e farewell last nite. all these precious precious memories..so blessed to haf them, so blessed to be a part of it al, so blessed to call the csa batch my own.
thank you for a wonderful and memorable two years, the best decision i ever made in jc was to join the choir. so glad i did. tho feeling sad and nostalgic right now, rembering wat the others said yest, es said these were the best two years of his life, and yijie said that this is not the end, but only the start, cos we can and must meet up in future.
read ching's autograph on yoke's book, there was a quote saying 'we always thot we would look back on our tears and laugh, but never did we think that we would look back on our laughter and cry.' so true. but at least, we did cheng2 jing1 yong1 you3. it's not the end :)

choir farewell

had choir farewell cum chalet yest..too bad didnt stay over cos there's church today..but anw..one nite was enough to make me feel so touched...was so pleasantly surprised wif the effort they all put in to do such a sweet farewell for us..the song ice kachang and the gift and all the individual notes they wrote...really super sweet :D hehe we didnt even do that for our seniors..cos we werent as close..but well..these two batches went thru more together i guess...

felt so xing fu yest..cos as we were jus sitting there simply enjoying each other's presence and joining each other in christmas carols and other choir songs, i felt so blessed to actually haf a voice..and to haf the opportunity to noe music even..maybe it's something not everyone will understand? but i noe all of us in choir do..even tho it's jus sitting there singin easy songs together, the music filling the whole bungalow jus fills us all somehow..feels sooooo good to immerse urself in it..the beauty of so many different voices blending together in harmony and coming up wif such music..really very very nice. this is wat i've always dreamed of and always loved..always thot it very beautiful what humans can do wif their voices...and i think that's so special about a choir..cos we're not all solo singers, but wat we really do is just to make music together. so beautiful rite? :D hehe i kinda feel like im toking to myself...ha..mayb to most, it's weird how music can haf such an impact..but jus wanted to blog bout how much i love choir, and it's e best thing that ever happened to me in hc.

jus came back from church choir too..was nice..at first was asking myself how come i dun really feel that kinda spark like in sch choir..but when i sang more and more and began to realise wat i was actually singing, just felt so...in awe. singing praises to God. so beautiful. and again, the four parts blending together to make music. was simply awesome. thru e conductor's explanation and all..realised wat we were actually singing, and the meaning each and every phrase held.. was simply awed.

today was doing nametags and the group choker wif aiping...was fun! :) feeling more and more excited for alpha camp..just that this time next week, it'll all be over le. so fast!

feeling so thankful for everything in my life. everything.

these few days

ahh well..yes..before my bro starts nagging even more that i didnt blog about our shopping trip..ha...yep it was good fun..spendin time together :) walked a lot..shopped a lot...i came back wif the most shou huo :p yayee. haha

yest went wif xinyi yujun may and nathan to bras basah to buy stuff for alpha camp..met sujun laoshi there which was just as well so we could borrow her discount card for art friend :p hehe..getting really excited for alpha camp!!

today met fish to go hand in our resume to mg general office..and two of us were almost sure they'll lose it..just like how they lost our primary school report books!!!! yes they did!! :( but haha...anw..hope we get some response..after that was supposed to meet jan and yiwen for lunch cos jan was super bored at home..but as we were making our way to town jan called to say she was too tired..ha...two of us were all like 'jan!!!! but u were the bored one!!! how could u!!! ' haha but well it was still quite a fruitful day cos we managed to get this pair of cool batik pants for quite a reasonable price..and after that found bags for prom too which was simple and inexpensive :p yay.

and well yea i'm kinda broke. haha..been spending so much money..hope can get a job..and so so so many things are coming up!! cant wait :) for one, choir chalet's tml..yay happy..but actually it's a farewell for us...that's saddening..but nvm..there's still carolling!! yay :) and alpha camp and family holiday and kelong trip hopefully!! yayees :)

and btw, i think the firefly thing is a goner le. havent got a single call or email. oh wells. reminding myself that God has his time.

and to u, hope you're doing fine. take care k.

feels good

blogger wasnt working yest..couldnt blog but well basically had yet another tiring day yest out wif qian and hui..haha...bought a few tops :)

it feels good to..
haf a great fu zu zhang for alpha camp who's so supportive and helpful
wake up and know you're being missed :)
know a friend's safe and sound
look forward to pract for alpha camp worship later
spend time wif good friends this whole week
know someone values u that much
lend a listening ear when ur fren needs to say smth to someone
thank God for a brand new day ahead of me. :)