whole day out

whoa..spent e whole day out today...but it was nice..and we watched the incredibles!! very nice!! haha..super cool and funny..and sweet too...esp e bro and sis parts :D:D hehe

we bought rings today!! all four of us!! and engraved in it too..hee..so fun :)

tml going out wif qian and hui..hope it'll be fun!! been going out everyday..which is bad cos i've gotta prepare for alpha camp!!! hahaa...well but gonna discuss wif aiping before choir tml...and toking bout choir...i'm gonna b missing spore idol!!! e finals!!! why must they put it on a wed of all episodes..haiz....so sad..hope i rush back in time for e results :(

class dinner

firefly interview went ok today, just that i was stumped at one of the questions on creativity (considering i'm such an uncreative person :p)

had alpha precamp today..yay glad it went well..and i'm glad i'm excited. :D hope i'll haf e strength to last thru e whole camp...guess it's gonna be quite tiring!!

had class dinner today (quite surprisingly :p) and we were commenting how it takes two years for our class to haf some dong jing :p well..i think it's always lidat..when u're gonna lose smth, only then do we learn to appreciate it more..think this is one of the last few chances i'll get to meet the scholars in e class...they'll be flying off soon, dun even noe if i'll be able to send them off at e airport..hmm..time flies..two years just whizzed past us lidat..was talking wif kelv that day..so true..no more walking to class bench and seeing the usual classmates there..no more walking into avt wif our brown u that fades into e walls of the avt for choir and seeing the sops on e right, altos on e left, tenors on e top and basses sitting everywhere else :p hehe...yeah..gonna miss all that..

on e way home today, heard on e radio e song 'dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui'..one of our school's 'special school song'...also e song which made me cry at the frankfurt airport cos our group of j2s were singing it before leaving germany..haiz...sad ar...leaving e school le..only at the end of two years do i learn to appreciate my school...haiz..well..i guess at the end of it all, glad to haf made good frens, and had good memories. :D cherish wat u haf!

down with 171s!!!!

before i start plotting how to an suan all e 171s to rid them from the face of this earth, decided to, well, take a step back and just be thankful cos the day's over, and hmm, all is still well no matter wat happened. well, story is, i waited at e bus stop since like 1250, expecting e bus to come latest 1 pm so i'll b happily in school by 1.40 , but NO..after at least 3 176s, 5 963s and mayb 4-5 920s passed, not a single 171 came. bleahz. waited for a whole half an hour at the bus stop, and i was super worried i couldnt make it in time..hai..was freaking out already..msged christina and fareena, but they didnt reply at first, so i was freaking out even more..not only that, i was kinda furious wif the bus driver..and i think i had this really angry look sprawled across my face :p

on the bus, was counting down to 2 pm, and continuing to freak out, imagining e invigilators going around giving out e papers already..at this point in time, received msgs from fareena and christina, which were so reassuring no matter how simply they put it. no matter how crazy i would have looked, e msgs brought a smile to my face haha and there i was feeling happier and slightly less worried. thankew, to two of u, for being there even tho u may not know how much u haf helped. :D *hugz*

reached school and it was so empty le (duh cos everyone was happily in their place waiting for 2 o clock to come) and i ran all e way from e bus stop to the classroom. phew..havent ran in ages, and was thinking how unfit i was..haha...so paiseh.. :p but well, 1 hour passed quickly, e paper's ok, and all's well again.

e day started wif a phone call from a fren who was leaving singapore, too bad i was sounding sleepy :p watever it is, was glad to haf been there before u left :) hope and pray that you'll b back safe and sound.will b praying for u :)

after coming back, heard e bad news from mum and hui bout sbc..well..things are getting slightly too much for a poor little p6 gal i think..hai...dunno...i know God has his plans and his own time, but i pray and hope she sees it too and moves on. jiayou dear gal, cos it's not the end of the world. definitely not. much more things in life to achieve.

toking to ching now, feels so happy :) haha yay i miss choir and i cant wait to meet all of them again!! :D chalet!! carolling!! yep yep all coming up :D

almost over

phew. the long day is finally over. phy was ok today, fm wasnt too ok..but i kinda felt beta after talking bout it wif far and nana cos we ended up laughing bout wat we couldnt do instead of sulking over them. haha...i cant believe i can still b amused even tho i didnt know how to do e ten mark qn..haa..but well..kan kai yi dian..it's not the end of e world..in fact, very thankful i've come this far le. :D

came back to my blog, saw yiwen's post, was so touched by it. indeed, it's so true, cos i know who holds my tomorrow. come what may, He is there before me to prepare e way for me. thank you, Lord, for being there.

saw this at yiwen's blog, (hope u dun mind me quoting e song here too :p)
"don't you fret now, child. don't you worry.the rain's to help you grow; so don't try to hurry the storm along;the hard times make you strong."

i read and re-read e words over again, tryin to remember where i saw this, almost certain it was part of some song. then it struck me. rev norman wong led this song before rite? called Hard Times. it suddenly hit me, and i felt like crying as i hummed e melody of e song again, reminding me of chapel back in mg and also cos of the meaningful lyrics. yup, it's so true. the hard times make you strong. thankew yiwen, for reminding me.

My grace is suffficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so tha Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. --2 Cor 12:9-10

nice song: Distance

~if only*

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to gray
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away I crawl up in the corner
as I watch the minutes pass
each one brings me closer to
The time you'll be back; you're coming back

I can't take the distance I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance And I'm not ashamed
That I every breath I take I'm callin' your name
I still believe in feelings But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin your name

I'd brave fire.And I'd brave rain.
To be by your side, I'd do anything.

I can't take the distance.I will go the distance.
I will go the miles.That's how much you mean to me.
Cause I can't take the distance I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm calling your name.

It's harder to remember The longer you're away.
When I find silence.I don't want the distance

this time next week

this time next week, it would ALL be over.
this time next week, i'll prob b worrying bout the interview.
this time next week, i'll be singing at choir.
this time next week, i'll prob be feeling kinda empty and 'direction-less'.
this time next week , i'll be counting down to christmas and alpha camp.
this time next week, i'll be plotting wif agnes how to go abt learning driving. :p
oh wells. cant wait for this time next week.

online chat

haha..had a nice group online chat wif yiwen diane and fish yest..like havent toked to yiwen for soooo super long and she finally came online. :p hehz
well..the weekend's here again..feeling lazy and cant really be bothered to study. hai...self discipline!!!

killer week over

the killer week's over!!! at last..but on not a very happy note tho. chem was quite bad..but..i guess it was e same for everyone..so..oh wells..shall not brood over it. fm 1 was ok today...
on a happier note, chem's out of my life!! :D:D
and agreed to b the grp leader for alpha camp..hope i'll b able to do a good job and also b able to make christina feel at home :D:D i'm sooo looking forward to alpha camp!! haha
and sigh...there's firefly interview coming up..it's so scary...well...pray for wisdom :)

listening to choir tracks

studying fm and listening to e recordings of jubilation now...i miss choir so so so much!!!! =/

after phy 1 n 2

phy was kinda bad today. shall try to be optimistic and work hard for fm tml. argh. havent practised fm in a loooong time. =/

after chem paper

had chem paper 2 today..it was ..err..not easy la..had mental block for e first qn..ha..but well, after that it wasnt that bad..like christina said, it's jus a sudden mix-up of eqm and kinetics..haha.how smart. anw. haha i once again feel like i wasted e whole day yest..other than slacking so much, the things dat i actually studied dint exactly come out..like organic stuff..ha..but nvm..happy it's over :D

after e paper, saw a msg from peishi..to ask me to be a grp leader for alpha camp..hai..thot about it on e way home..still dun haf an answer..dunno whether i should or not..dunno if i'm up to it..and i'm afraid i wont b able to do all the things i haf to do well enuf...praying for guidance.

locked out of e house

haha was locked out of the house today!! stupidly forgot to bring my keys..and of all days, it was the day when NO ONE was at home..how smart. ha..well..in desperation, had to go down to eat at e bbq pit while waiting for mum to come home from btp..ha..felt quite bad to make her cut short her trip :p well anw..glad i got home before it starts raining soon..ha

had math paper today...was ok la..but again..it wasnt as easy as i expected math c to be..ha..oops..i think i must be underestimating cambridge too much..ha..really hope f math will b do-able..ha..but well..so far e papers were ok la..just 1 week plus more and it's all gonna b over over over!!! yay :D:D chem paper 2's tml..bleahz.

well, to you whom i think may neva read this, really hope u'll stand up again, and to trust in the Lord. Thankful and very blessed to have been able to be of help where it was needed. God has a time for everything, and i believe He's put u in my life for a purpose. Really pray that u'll walk in e Lord and neva grow faint. :)

life's sian

life's sian now..it's so routined..ha..when i get too sick of doing stuff i come online to see if there's anyone to chat wif..den after that feel guilty that i stayed on e comp for so long..ha..toking wif fish now bout dental clinic and e dental nurse we had back in mg..and how we're only learning to treasure if after we leave e school :p hehe cheapo us.

well...just to share some verses which touched me greatly in e midst of the dreadful and longwinded exams..hope it encourages whoever who reads these too..

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. " Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. --2 Cor 12: 9

Show me your ways, O lord, teach me your paths;guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Saviour, and my hope is in you all day long. --Psalms 25:4-5

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men, yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. --Ecc 3:11

bleahz. careless mistake.

feeling kinda unsettled now. realised i made a HUGE careless mistake for math yest..hai..i noe i shouldnt be feeling discouraged or anything since i'm e one telling ppl not to be affected..but it's tough. hmm wells. must perk up. not gonna b affected by that stupid irritating mistake. hmms. yeps. there's always paper 2.

after math paper 1

math ppr 1 is over!! which is quite sad..cos it means e nicest paper to do is over le..hai...left wif e rest of e eekier ones..but oh wells. on e bright side, one more paper is down! one step closer to freedom. hehz. :)
yay...one week break to the next paper. :D (but that's e killer week =/ yikes! )

after chem paper

chem paper 3's over today!!! food chem's out of my life once and for all :D:D just like GP!! hehe..well..paper was ok today. shall not dwell on it. like always, i'm thankful it's over.
and there are so many other things to be thankful about!! like frens around u to brighten ur days when it seems so bleak. :) and so so happy that christina agreed to go for alpha camp. :D wheee!!! cant wait. hehe..really almost expected a big no. well..guess God has his own time and place :) very very thankful already.
met xinyi just now! xinyi from mg..ha..fren from pri sch and sec sch...kinda surprising cos jus read on sanmei's blog the other day that she met her too on e bus..yep..i so agree that it's nice to meet frens from mg again :) glad to haf had a short chat before my bus came along.
like fio and fish said, . His grace is sufficient for us.
I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.

Gp paper

had gp paper today..was ok lar...cant say if it was really good..but it wasnt that bad oso..but at least, felt the peace lar :) i know that in all things, God has his plans and his purpose, and my job is just to trust and obey. yep. that easy. but difficult too.. and i'm so thankful for ppl around u who u noe are praying for you when u face the horrifying exam battles. thanx :) :)

Psalms 16:8

I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. --Psalms 16:8

it's november already..

at 12pm today, i heard the chimes again...telling me yet another new month is here. so scary...it's november already. cant wait for the next one, cos it signals the starting of december. (which means by then, e A's are over!!)

feeling quite brain dead now, just finished a whole fm paper 2...my brain is overloaded wif doing statistics and mechanics le..ha..shall take a break before i start on studying food chem. bleah.

eeks it starts this week...