saw darling's blog... she has a new job... but i dunno wat is HSA.. anyway is her company.. but can see tt is a big company... so envy... went to two big company already... hope she can enjoy and adapt to her new job well... jia you darling...

after oh gong's death, nv had much time for rest or playing... tests are coming... jus finished CEP test ytd only... mon still hav maths test... super sian... headache since noon... still need to do mat sci hm-wk.. still hav lab report.. oh my god... time really flies when u r busy... really hope 4 yrs can quickly finished... now the only thingy tt i really look forward is our 588... haha.... i'm looking forward to it... think Bb also looking forward ba... whenever think of 588, i can jus smile...

nowadays too many things to worry... sch... ah ma... mummy... daddy... work not so serious.. jus tt till now i dun hav my bonus which really boil everyone up... though worry, but nth can i do... can only pray hard to god... pray hard tt all my beloved ones stay healthy n happy....

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hmmm..... this year my new year is really super not a gd one.... jus finished attended ah gong's funeral... ah gong really went off v suddenly... too suddenly tt no one can accept tt he is gone... everyone went to visit him on the 1st day of new year as per normal... had reunion dinner with him... played black jack with him.. promised him tt would bring him back to his old town on sat... but he jus couldn't wait n left us..

i love to go back to old town... i love tt place... i even told bb i was wondering when can i go there again... but nv did i realised tt i can go back there so fast but w a v bad purpose... to attend ah gong's funeral... though he nv had any pain when he was gone but he shocked everyone esp ah ma... poor ah ma.... collapse dunno how many times... though she suffered for the last 2 years but can see v clearly tt she still cared bout him...

the photo of ah gong is when he is v healthy, about 50+ or 60+.. jus before he had the fall... the fall really a fatal fall... the fall caused him to lose almost everything... but god pity him and gave him another 2 to 3 years of survival... though tt 2 to 3 years is not tt gd years but tt allowed us (grandchildren esp those v little ones) to have an image of ah gong...

the funeral lasted 7 days... v long... n i learnt many things from there... esp those traditonal funeral... but too bad... nowadays, modern ppl dun like traditional funeral... think this would be the last traditional funeral tt i would be attending...

had a last look at my fav place... i finally now the address... ave 5 #207... now i really wonder when can i go back again??? ah ma no longer lived there... i'll miss tt place... really... a place where i can relax fully...

the singing part is teochew language but suddenly hav to mixed w malay address, sound v funny... of cos there are a bit of fun due to many kids there... afterall they are still children... but there are angry things n sad things too... "money" is the word tt result of those unhappiness other than the news of ah gong.. dunno does it happen to all family a not??? but i guess "will" is best thing to settle those "money matters".

i noe ah gong already get rid of all the pains... really hope he is released now... i hav a mixture of feelings... is death really can get rid of all pains n headache???

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