With a heavy heart.

Its been ages since my last blog post. Ages since I last penned my thoughts for the world to see. I


A lot has happened since my last post.

Relationships lost, lovers turned strangers, opportunities missed; to say I am a survivor is an understatement.



I have been arguing with my parents a lot. More specifically my mum, bless her soul. She takes on too much for a woman who is 60 years old. If it wasn't for her being my outlet, I would have imploded a long time ago.


There are so many problems plaguing my heart that it remains continuously burdened. Things that not normal people my age need to go though, not healthy people need to endure, not happy people need to worry about.


And as you grow older, priorities change. You get more responsibilities, and at the same time, the big problems that plagued your younger life seem so miniscule now.







On another note.






I have been working in my hometown for a year now.


After spending nearly 6 years abroad, returning back home wasn't easy. Leaving my friends in Australia, my house, the whole lifestyle, it wasn't easy. To say I left half my heart back there is an understatement. But my heart grew back, and the other half grew too.

Working for a listed company back home does have its perks. Considered one of the bigger (if not the biggest) listed company in my hometown, im blessed with a good work environment and plenty of experiences. To be given the uncommon title of corporate executive, is something that I cherish and am thankful for. Sometimes just being an overseas graduate is not nearly enough to get you a job. Experience does. And I was very lucky.

Unfortunately, working in my hometown does have its setbacks. Its still a very much a small town, with little development (although its been picking up the past year) and even less young people.

My colleagues are mostly middle aged. And it gets painfully difficult to live here when you cant speak Cantonese. Generally though, my colleagues have been great at best. They are a kind bunch and nice. And that's what matters in this dog eat dog world.

People here live a very modest lifestyle. Its not as hectic as the big cities, we clock off at 5pm and are usually reach our homes by 5.10pm.  Provincial would best describe work life outside of office.

It gets mundane. And im getting mundane.





Currently pursuing my chartered accountancy, I do not foresee smooth sailing ahead of me. Studying for my professional papers and working is no small feat. It proved more challenging that I anticipated. Until I complete my remaining papers only shall I truly feel unburdened.

Happy New Year Readers!

 First blog post of 2013. One of my resolutions is to update more regularly now. More to come!

Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened

last night was the first time i prayed in a loonng time.

it was good.

thank you

anxiety anxiety.

i need to deal better with stress and manage it.

cause the next few weeks are gonna kill me.


positive energy, positive energy

let the healing begin.

exam in one week.

time to really get it on.

less than 3 weeks until finals.

game plan for this week, finish revising Tax Law tutes, revise FA lectures. next week FA tutes and  revise EPM.

nice 3 weeks ahead of me

Its been exactly 8 days since my throat infection. Im pretty much fully recovered already, just finishing up my course of antibiotics (2 days dosage left).

On the flipside, that means its 8 days closer to exams and while i was bed ridden with fever everyone else was busy studying their assses off. I did study a bit, but in my feverish haze all my notes kind of melted together in my head and i didnt get much in. Ok, time to study for serious.


Financially, its been a not so good month. Stocks are down (globally), but what pisses me off the most is that the company i invested the bulk of my money in is performing the worst in my portfolio. Should have just stuck to the major banks =S

Note: It was pretty exciting to receive dividends your own name. Kinda makes you feel like a big business boss hahah. Though its not much =S


Relationship wise, im seeing someone now. Nothing very serious that the whole world needs to know about our relationship, but we are comfortable with each other and that the most important thing. Personally, we both agree we dont see each other going the distance so we just hope for the best and enjoy whatever time we have together left. Since im graduating soon (and subsequently off to China) while that person person is only a first year. LOL. Unexpected much? Didnt realize i'd be taking a younger wife so soon HA.

down with strep throat. fever and sore throat.

seriously, what is up with me falling sick so much.

gosh. need to catch up on my sleep and eat more healthily.

So i was sick over the weekend. Fevers,chills and all. Missed my marathon. Quite a what the fuck moment as i've been training for it for over 2 months.

Oh well i guess its not a total loss, i do feel physically much more fit than i was 2 months ago. Cept this sudden bout of flu/viral infection?Must have been that girl i made out with last week...
HAHA

nah.


Exams are in 3 weeks. Time to start studying. My exam starts later than the rest though as im a third year student. So that gives me some form extra time to revise.

A speeeeecial thanks to you* for taking care of me while i was condemned to sweating under the sheets. And cooking for me. Loves.

Marathon this weekend.



Run run run.

Mums

I guess thats why we all have mums. Someone to fuss over us, to nag us, to teach us. To make us better people.

and provide us with a never ending supply of unconditional love.

Im keeping this short because if I were to write a long post about my mum, a post about this awesome woman who shed blood and tears bringing me up, I wouldn't be able to write it all in one day and would have to spend a whole week typing it all out.

I know you weren't perfect. Sometimes you were too strict, too idealistic, too critical, and sometimes too pampering. But you loved us with all your heart and only wanted the best for us.

And now I have come to appreciate as an adult the love you have shown us through the years.

thanks mum.