Dad
Dad lost his mum at 16 and his dad at 20. With the poverty background he has and without further education and guidance from his parent, he sort of went astray. His only love is drinks and can only provide little advise to me. This is not his fault as he is powerless to do so. He can only try his best.
Mum
While mum made a wrong choice for marriage, she has suffered the consequences herself and will not have a happy ending. She is also herself lowly educated and also took on her mum's will to simply look after her kids until she died. She is fat now and at her age will always find it difficult to adjust her lifestyle. She is not at fault and also is powerless to do anything for me.
Amy
She had a bf that is closed to marriage. Even before that, she was married to a Canadian and the marriage end up failing as well. She locked her heart v tight. While she might be multi dating without fully committed, I can't expect anything out from her just because I paid for many things. For all I know, she might be treating me only like a trustworthy friend and supporter. Thus she is unwillingly to spolit the friendship. It is not her fault that she is not attracted me to. She is powerless in this sense because I was the one who gave up my control to her.
I am the only one losing control and for all I know, focus myself will reap benefit in the long run. The knot in my heart can only be untie by myself...
Dad lost his mum at 16 and his dad at 20. With the poverty background he has and without further education and guidance from his parent, he sort of went astray. His only love is drinks and can only provide little advise to me. This is not his fault as he is powerless to do so. He can only try his best.
Mum
While mum made a wrong choice for marriage, she has suffered the consequences herself and will not have a happy ending. She is also herself lowly educated and also took on her mum's will to simply look after her kids until she died. She is fat now and at her age will always find it difficult to adjust her lifestyle. She is not at fault and also is powerless to do anything for me.
Amy
She had a bf that is closed to marriage. Even before that, she was married to a Canadian and the marriage end up failing as well. She locked her heart v tight. While she might be multi dating without fully committed, I can't expect anything out from her just because I paid for many things. For all I know, she might be treating me only like a trustworthy friend and supporter. Thus she is unwillingly to spolit the friendship. It is not her fault that she is not attracted me to. She is powerless in this sense because I was the one who gave up my control to her.
I am the only one losing control and for all I know, focus myself will reap benefit in the long run. The knot in my heart can only be untie by myself...
