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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Bulletball Story



it's so laughable and sad... i dont know what to feel

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Congratulations... and celebrations

it rained

but we still had our graduation ceremony anyway. it wasn't exactly saddening, just that i hate to move on to the working society. it's inevitable, but i'd like to prolong that anyway. actually i wonder... how hard can schooling be when you compare it to work? you work 8 hrs a day, maybe more, and bring home work. and you get sent overseas to work and not play. you only have 1 hr lunch break and max like 30mins toilet break each day

and to top things off, you're graded everyday for performance, and your bonus shows it all

heck schooling is the best. i wouldnt say studying is the best, but schooling is TEH best hands down. where else allows you to mingle with 300-500 people and makes friends/bonds with, having fun and wiping sweat off each other's neck in tough times.

it's sad only because the people that i've met, who i've known, will probably disappear over time. soon i won't even remember their names, and im already starting to forget those in sec sch.
the police sent me a letter today, asking for applicants to be a full time policeman. bummer. i might end up in the school next to Ngee Ann afterall.

the top business scholar scored 35 distinctions and won so many awards that he stood there for about 5 mins while his achievements were being read. 35 distinctions for business? thats madness! maybe they would like to say how many distinctions he didnt get. maybe like an A+ or A...

oh well, i can only blame myself for not being the minority.

kudos to everyone today

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Quick news flash

And so SG won Pedra Branca, also known as Pulau Batu Puteh. Kacang Puteh!!! lolol. im sry, couldn't help myself there XD

anyway MSIAn ministers are unhappy that they lost to SG. one of the ministers said that if only he could have found the letter which the British wrote, telling them to look after the lighthouse, then they might've won. lolol. quite funny, but dont you think it sounds like the story of the fox and the grapes?

SEATBELTS for children or not?

My answer is no. because why? public buses like SMRT and SBS are still buses that also carry children, or infants. whats to say that if one day, anyday, that the bus jams break due to a hasty motorist. wouldn't that be dangerous as well?

my pnt is. if you want to think of it that way, then everything will be dangerous. jay-walking, sitting on the bus, cycling, running.... walking....... anytime if you rly fated to die, i think you will. some people get struck by lightning and you cant possibly ask the govt to build electric conductors right? and comon, if parents are this angry... then maybe they shld teach their kids to behave. if they kids behave, and stay seated like they shudda, they wont get hurt unless the bus smashes or collapses. yes?

oh i read the papers today, talking about BS. they say that fresh grads are earning even more now, some claiming to have a starting salary of $4k SGD.

SCREW YOU AND YOUR SYSTEM. IT'S A CONSPIRACY MAN

thats what i'd like to say, but i cant ^_^

but it's extremely annoying, because day after day i see SMU and NTU putting ads on the newspaper, each trying to promote the lifestyle of their school and the talent which they nurtured. yet another BS. they dont nurture talents... they just give them a place in the school thats all. thats why 9/10 applicants cant get into SMU biz mgt. and oh mr director, thanks so much for informing me im the unfortunate 90% who didnt make it. it makes me feel so much better. perhaps next year i'll be notified that im in the 80%. not to be a sour puss, but i definitely liked NTU rejecting me even if i couldnt get into it. its courtesy man. and the letter was just printed out copy after copy for 16,000 subtract 1,600 people who applied.

and then after knowing that u're the unfortunate 90%, you begin to see ads like those sticking on full page or junior pages on the newspaper. national swimmer.. outstanding award.... NYAA.. gah.

as i quote from Eric Cartman from Southpark...

"Screw you guys... I'm going home..."

Friday, May 23, 2008

It's 2:24am reporting live

from my bedroom

i've done alot of thinking. about us, and about our future. it hadn't been a smooth start and our relationship was made up of squabbles. we share affection from each other but could never fit together as 1 piece.... ever

it is time to have said "i have tried" instead of i am trying
i have been trying, for the past 14 months. i checked my inbox, and i saw the email which i sent to you long ago, when we were only 6 weeks into the relationship, and i broke down. why?

because things have not changed since then

I quote from my email:

"But each time i tell myself it's all worth it if I'm able to be with you. And yet, could you even count the days where we spent without having even 1 second of emo? I look at everybody else, they have been together for months and they only argue from time to time. Whats worse is that ours is not even an argument. I don't know what it is. Differences? Is that the word they like to use when people initiate a breakup?"

"i ask myself why many many times. Isit ME? Isit You? Is there anyone to blame? Or isit that we are not meant for each other. Each time i think of it my heart hurts alot...."

"and sometimes when you have your mood swings, im slowly beginning to wonder how i can cope with it. everytime im afraid that 6 mths down the road, or 1 year down the road,i cant take it anymore and i'll start scolding you. maybe right now at 6 weeks i still can take it. but times it by another 10 times and i wonder if i can do the same..."

"i wish the world could just freeze at that second, because im in bliss and i never want that to stop. but now is like 80% of time we're unhappy with something and only 20% happy. i wonder if thats the way it begins or what...."

"i only know that if you were to leave me. i'll have my time back. i'll have more sleep. i can play my games, watch my animes, go out with the few friends i have left. spend time idling at home and searching for people to chat online

but i can never fill up that emptiness in my heart if i dont have you..."

"I still havent let you seen my family yet and my annoying sister. i still havent said i love you enough yet. "

"Love
The silly boy who loves you more than his life"


it was a long email and i poured my heart out to write it. 6 weeks has long passed. 6 months also passed. we're going onto our 14th month already but still the email made so much sense. it makes so much sense that it scares me, for at 6 weeks, it was already pushing our limits.

Quoted from 1 mth anni:

"I can promise you that for the time that I’m with you, I’ll try my best to love you whole-heartedly and to make you feel happy. Although I know in all relationships not all of them work out, but I would like to have you known that I cherish this relationship very much because it means a lot to me!"

you sent me a meaningful story in the past, which i also found in my inbox. and i shall quote it as well:

" 'A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.'
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears.
And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think."

"Sometimes we spend time in asking who is responsible or whom to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. By this way we miss out some warmth in human relationship"


also. i'll quote parts of an email you replied me with:

"i want this relation to continue. as i said before, i only want you ... and no one else. i know alot of things' been happening. i will try my best to cope and at the same time, change my ways of doing things to make things better. but i need time. will you give me some time to try?

sry dear, didnt mean to hurt you so badly. im sry.. but i still love you. always will. no matter wad. i love you.."


its breaking my heart as i read and type this out, for i've waited so long for things to turn out better.

do you know how much i have already changed since then? whatever things you once disliked me doing, i've stopped them completely, for the sake of having you. for the sake of this relationship, i've been pouring my heart and soul in making it work, to make each day today a fruitful one, one that's not to have been regretted. but i've failed. maybe one too many times. it's hard to pick myself up again.

i've decided to give it only 1 final push. even though there were many strikes, it shall remain as two. this final stretch, will determine whether we should be with each other or not. otherwise it's just wasting each other's time, effort, emotions and money to keep something going that's not meant for one another.

7 October 2008, the day of enlisting, i shall be going into NS. the verdict shall be then. i'll give this 4 more months to allow itself to unravel its mysteries. if it doesn't work out, i would say that i've tried my best, and have given it ample time and opportunities for it to work out. i shall give you my blessings and move on with yet another phase in my life.

so let's not waste any more time shall we? let's give it one final push so that neither one of us will regret it. let's not take the time we have with each other for granted. i believe i've been doing that and will do it too, at least for 4 months more. i don't care if you despise me or not for throwing in the towel so early, but i want to say it's not easy. patience has been wearing thin, what seemed like a 6th week old promise has stretched for 14 months. something must be done immediately. 4 more months, that's all that i shall give. no more, no less. i believe it's fair.

and let me quote one last one for today. from Three Day's Grace - Never Too Late

"Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it all around 'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late..."

"The world we knew won't come back
The time we've lost can't get back
The life we had won't be ours again"

Thursday, May 22, 2008

It's a joke really

god punk'd me

i dont even need to meet my aunt today. it got cancelled. and all that for nothing. thanks god.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Oh yes the moment i've been waiting for

the return of the mood swings chap XX

once again i'm stuck in a heap of shit. doing wrong things, saying wrong things but fuck me. they arent wrong at all

dont blame it on mood swings. simple things i say you get angry, frustrated, and blame it on ur busy life. funny thing is that i nvr once said things to get you frustrated, you get frustrated with yourself, not me. it's all about you

do you mean to say every month i'll get 2 weeks worth of mood swings? how many chapters must i write to depict the sad sod i am

i nvr knew that printing notes could be an issue
i nvr knew that meeting up would be an issue
i seriously didnt say anything that would cause an issue

you just want me to clean up all the mess
end of the day i have to kiss and make up hoping that these 2 weeks will pass
fuck me even when i tried to meet up with you with the whole purpose of kissing up to you you get frustrated with it too. fuck me and my sad fucked up life. i guess you'd regret it if i get caught in that fucked up cyclone or earthquake. would you treasure me then? all i did for you

you know it the best

im not going to try and kiss up to you when you're like this because it's never ending
i'll stop interfering with your life for now
try and date me out again when you're free and i'll check my schedule
why would i have the courage to comfort you at all when you'll lash out at me

The real deal on local University

(12:08 PM) jeroldahseng+1: any acceptance from the uni?
(12:10 PM) jaclyn: NUS and NTU.. SMU i didnt go for interview. haha.
(12:10 PM) jaclyn: i accepted NTU
(12:10 PM) jeroldahseng+1: oooooooooooooooo
(12:10 PM) jeroldahseng+1: cool
(12:10 PM) jaclyn: you?
(12:10 PM) jeroldahseng+1: rejected by smu and ntu. no ans from nus
(12:10 PM) jaclyn: aighhhts
(12:10 PM) jaclyn: but u can appeal again next year eh? gonig army when?
(12:11 PM) jaclyn: whats ur gpa..
(12:11 PM) jeroldahseng+1: 3.3
(12:11 PM) jeroldahseng+1: :(
(12:11 PM) jeroldahseng+1: try again for 2 more years lor
(12:11 PM) jaclyn: ahhh okay
(12:11 PM) jaclyn: shld be able to get in leh
(12:11 PM) jaclyn: business or ?
(12:11 PM) jeroldahseng+1: yea business. i think cannot leh
(12:11 PM) jaclyn: i put psych first choice and i got that.. appealing to business..
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: florence got rejected by NTU and NUS business also
(12:12 PM) jeroldahseng+1: whats her gpa like
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: she got in arts faculty in NUS (econs)
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: 3.72
(12:12 PM) jeroldahseng+1: what
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: mine's also 3.72
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: yealor... rejected leh
(12:12 PM) jeroldahseng+1: wah how to fight sia
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: heard mus be 3.8 for ntu business
(12:12 PM) jaclyn: thats why my appeal i think also cannot go through

Friday, May 16, 2008

Moi pruss wans

:)

First off, we went to catch Made of Honor at Marina Square


It's a romance + comedy movie which would be good for couples, or couples-to-be. Unfortunately reviews weren't too good about them saying that there's just too much cliches in the movie like going after your best friend when she's about to get married. yea havent we all seen that before. but still it's a good watch with good company (:

then <3 made me walk in circles... HOR? probably revenge on me for doing the same thing =/ so we headed to Marina South, had a long wait for the bus, and then reached the restaurant

PIER ELEVEN RESTAURANT

Sparklette's review on Pier Eleven Restaurant

i was exhilarated because i've chanced upon the post as well and <3 brought me here. It looked really fabulous and we took the open-aired seats. there is a jetty there and it had an extremely soothing ambience to chill out. just visit sparklette's site to check out more about the restaurant

ok enough of talking, let the pictures do the description:

side note: just before i post this, i am sorry for being unable to recall the exact name of the dish. correct me if i'm blatantly wrong and pls allow me to adjust it. same goes for the pricing, it's all coming out from the top of my head. also pls pardon me for the awfully taken pictures with the dark lighting and pathetic handphone camera quality (:


while waiting for bus service 402 at Marina
decided to take some candid shots


served appetiser. if you've noticed, half of it is gone
because it went into my tummy before i noticed i havent
taken a pic of it yet.

Critic: the bread's extremely soft and fluffy and it is served hot with some butter on the side

FOOD FOR HER:


Oyster Chowder
Damage: 8 sgd
Critic: Similar to clam chowder except that this is oyster. the oyster bits were sorta fried. it's crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. it really starts to melt in your mouth without having to gnaw at it for ages before it breaks apart


La Fondue Seafood Platter
Damage: 26 sgd
Critic: Seafood platter consisting of mussel, prawn, cod fish, scallops. The sauce is really interesting and refreshing. Very rich dish which also melts in your mouth. This dish was recommended by the waiter for the SEAFOOD selection


Apple Tarte Tar Tin
Damage: 8 sgd
Critic: Apple pastry with ice cream. Not too much to our liking in addition to being so stuffed with rich food already. Pastry is a little too overwhelming with bloated stomachs =/

FOOD FOR ME:


Seafood and Lobster Bisque
Damage: 12 sgd
Critic: Extremely worth it. So rich with the lobster flavour that you cant get enough of it. It's served with scallop, prawn and mussel. w00t


Baby Ribs
Damage: 20 sgd
Critic: This picture clearly doesn't show a flattering image of it. but it's served with quite a big portion, absolutely not what i had in mind with the word BABY ribs. Extremely tender and moist


Baked Chocolate with Vanilla Gelati (same as the one in sparklette's blog. my pic doesnt do justice to any of these dishes sadly)
Damage: 12sgd
Critic: Similar to Soffiato from Mennoti Italian Cafe There's warm chocolate lurking on the inside. But i still prefer Mennoti's Soffiato. it's frickin sinful.. not that i care too much about sins

Total Damage: 116.50 inclusive of 7%gst 10%service charge and 1%cess (according to sparklette)

Overall review of Pier Eleven: A-MUST-GO restaurant in Singapore. Ambience, food and services are extremely good. It's THE place for couples to have a good quiet dinner (except for the occasional horn blasting from the ships nearby). Highly recommended for special occasions. Probably one of the best few restaurants i've had in my short 20 years.

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Moi present. damn my hp camera stinks



Credits to ppl who wished me happy birthday:

Personally: <3, Dad, Mum, Sis, Chuan Wei, Jiunn Chin
SMS: Han, Peng, Wei Liang, Terence Khim, Hui Shan, Chin Leng, Xin Ni, Jackson Ang, Roxanne, Wei Shun
MSN: Yu Hong, Sinye, Brenda
Friendster: Constance
Belated: Kenneth, Yan Xin
Asshole who didnt: Oh Yi Quan :)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

4D3N 3D3N

and im back from my 4D3N 3D3N stay at ChiangMai Thailand with my parents

Teh Facts:
1. It takes ~ 2hr 45mins flight from Singapore to Chiang Mai
2. The weather in Chiang Mai ranges from 4 deg to 38 degree depending on the season
3. Chiang Mai is located in the northern part of Thailand, many of them can speak Mandarin
4. They have specialty fruits such as pineapples, longan, lychee, strawberry and durians, each depending on the different seasons
5. They catch red ant eggs and eat. It's considered a delicacy
6. They have quite a clean city and you seldom see rubbish lying on the ground. Funniest thing yet is that they have few dustbins
7. SilkAir is wonderfully good

The Good: Alot of cultural places to visit
The Bad: You probably can't go on a free and easy tour unless you can drive and have done detailed homework

The Good: Thai people are great drivers
The Bad: You can think of it as reckless driving as well, 100kmph round a bend

The Good: I realise Thailand save on alot of electricity
The Bad: It's really hard to see

The Good: The women there are decent looking
The Bad: You don't really know if they're women >.<

The trip wasnt very good with all the internal conflict and my dad's misunderstanding of every frickin thing. its not fun to tell him one thing and for him to imagine other things over and over again

The trip was planned as a 5d4n trip but i wanted to be back by friday, so we cut it to 4d3n and the itinery was rescheduled, which was also the cause of many problems to come

First shocking thing of the night of arrival was our hotel. it was in the center of Chiang Mai, next to a shopping centre and the hotel name is LOTUS. we checked in but was brought to another side of the hotel which looked totally different. we then found out that was it was old "wing" and it was cheaper. it was dark, gloomy, and creepishly red. something that you'll find in old creepy horror flicks from time to time. not to mention that the walls were paper thin and neighbours kept opening and closing the door could always be heard.

2nd day we went to an elephant farm where they had 77 elephants. there was an entertaining performance and my dad and i rode one of them which was 38 years of age. there was a wooden "bench" attached on the elephant's back and you had to climb up a platform to mount it. there was a elephant trainer who planted himself on the elephant's neck and steered him to walk the track. it was a 30mins ride, 800 baht for 2 people, which is abt 30+ SGD. it was entertaining, and so was the smell of elephant manure that littered the track.

and so we went to many places which i wouldnt mention. and then we went to Doi Suthep, one of the most renowned temples in Chiang Mai. it is said that if you are in Chiang Mai and if you haven't been to the temple, than you probably haven't been to Chiang Mai at all. Doi Suthep is located on an extremely high mountain, and the driver brought us through many windy roads. it is said that there are 99 bends to turn before you make it to the temple. once there, you are given a choice to climb 306 steps, or to take a diagonal elevator which will cost you 20 baht per person.

the legend of Doi Suthep is that there's a white sacred elephant in the past which carried this very huge pyramid-shaped relic up the mountain. the relic is FRIGGIN huge, but alas it's just a myth


*source from wikipedia*

day 3, went to Chiang Rai which is a friggin 3 hrs drive away. my butt can rot to death if not for the frequent stop overs to sight see/makan. we went to the Golden Triangle as well, which is a common point for Thailand, Myanmar and Laos. it was said that a triad leader did alot of drug trades in this area which could not be controlled by the authorities. he died not too long ago

anyway all in all, it was a tiring, butt aching, body aching experience. it was nice to learn new things, such as tour guides trying to tok your money by bringing you to places to see gemstones etc. and seriously my dad needs to learn how to shut his trap. imagine you go to the airport to check in and he says this "can we have the window seat? it's my son's first trip on a plane"

IM FLABBERGASTED WITH WTFZOMGBBQROFLSMD. talk about parental humiliation. i got a low blow from that. i wouldnt mind if i were 3, 4 or 5 years old all add up in one. but im fricking 20 to be!

btw below is a chat log with cw with my insane good looks ;) :

[12:11:09 AM] JimSkylark says: ghey
[12:11:11 AM] JimSkylark says: coz u handsome la
[12:11:15 AM] JimSkylark says: (puke)
[12:11:17 AM] JimSkylark says: =x
[12:12:10 AM] Jerold says: cheesepie
[12:12:16 AM] Jerold says: i dont give u the snacks i got for you
[12:12:20 AM] Jerold says: i give yq instead
[12:12:21 AM] JimSkylark says: nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
[12:12:28 AM] JimSkylark says: okok
[12:12:31 AM] JimSkylark says: u handsome boy
[12:12:33 AM] Jerold says: too late
[12:12:34 AM] JimSkylark says: : (kiss)
[12:12:44 AM] JimSkylark says: (emo)

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Rejected

oh the letter from NTU finally came. ok i got rejected, which probably means my chances with NUS and SMU are pretty close to non-existent right now

comon, be nice and let me know if i got rejected or not!!!!

ive been watching South Park lately and its absolutely crazy. lol

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Movie Updates



First movie update: S u p e r h e r o

Man this movie is absolutely crazy. it's a spin-off on Spiderman 01 movie which features the main protagonist to be a Dragonfly. WARNING SPOILERS BELOW. HIGHLIGHT TO READ:

Male protagonist parents died because he somehow killed them when he was young while using a gun in self defense. He lives with his uncle and aunt and his uncle dies in a robbery, see where the storyline is similar already? anywho he goes into this special lab with his classmates where there were several species of mutated animals like the dragonfly.

male protagonist falls onto poop, sees a bottle of H2O and decides to squeeze its content to wash off the poop, only to realise that the bottle contains H2O3 (i think), some weird shit which attracts all animals to mate him, including the dragonfly.

this movie is full of ingenious lame and crappy scenes and is a great spinoff of spiderman. but i wouldnt pay to watch it at a cinema.



I r o n m a n

I'm giving it a 5/5! it's probably TEH best marvel superhero movie i have watched. among superman,incredible hulk, spiderman etc etc, i feel this should be the best movie yet so far.

ironman didnt exactly have a great cartoon series. it lacked punch. this one gave you punches and kicks into your tummy and you're in for a real good laugh in the 2hr and 6mins worth of screentime

and the ending was superb. WARNING FOR SPOILER:

"stick to your script..."

"I'm Ironman"

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Strike T-W-O

flunked my FTT again. pretty fucked up considering that i really didnt know where i went wrong. i think i'm going to stop trying. no use being able to pass it but not get my license within a year. i should burn my book. fuckin useless piece of crap. who needs a book then if the answers cant be found

_ _ _

im upset and disappointed in you. you say its your mood swing, so what am i to do with myself when im down. i asked you to change topic, you left me alone. what reason? i dont know

past few days ive been doing my best because of your mood swings. i kept my emotions in check and try to make you happy. but now that im unhappy, i cannot just let it be. so who'll be there for me?

i need to binge. it makes me happier