X-Lambda

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

We're distant

I hope you know, because no matter how I try
It only seems we're drawing further apart
I hope you know how much I want to treasure you
I just hope you'd do the same to me too
It just feels like we're no longer lovers
Just friends
If that is the case
Then why...

Monday, November 09, 2009

APEC

My deployment starts today. It's really draining me out

Morning-Night-Sleeping off

This will be my schedule until we stand down on the 16th Nov. Goodness.

On top of which, I just came back from working 18 hours. Sigh how I wish it were over already.

Not forgetting to mentioned, the support that I want and need, is not provided. In the end, it seems that I'm all alone. Who cares if I'm falling ill. Who cares if I'm not getting rest. Who cares about my APEC schedule. Who cares if they can meet me or not. Is that too much to ask for?






















Nobody cares. Nobody

Not even the closest I know

Friday, November 06, 2009

Oh my gawd

APEC is da bomb

I'm gonna get so screwed during APEC it's not even funny. I can't even sleep well at night

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Luck

It's been a long while since my last post. I doubt anybody still visits my blog for updates. Oh wells so be it. This is MY personal space, one that I've set public (or perhaps I shouldn't have). Anyways, I've finally reached past the 1 yr mark of NS and I secretly feel happier to know that I have survived half of it so far. I cannot wait for 6 Oct 2010.

I am involved in the upcoming APEC, so I'm gonna be pretty busy and all. Infact the workload has increased tremendously over the past few weeks. Really tired of it.

I always believe I have an unlucky fate. My friends, and colleagues, and relatives can all vouch for that. This unluckyness is perhaps, a paranormal activity else I'm some magnet to such things. I'm really sad that I have to life through all this. Naturally, I'm thankful to be alive, healthy, fed and loved. But sometimes, things just keep going the wrong way to the point where I don't know of things would ever improve.

I don't know if I'm cursed. Perhaps I did some really terrible stuff in my past life. Else, I accidentally offended some spirit who's taken a liking in messing with my life. How else can I explain this suayness? I don't understand.

I don't really believe in superstition (not much), and don't believe in religion. But I'm beginning to try seeking for ways to improve my luck. Perhaps I should do more charity work, help people more and maybe karma will change for the better.

Help

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I am a fucking fool
thrown around like a handy tool
I sit and wait for orders
To solve everyone else's problems
But at the end of the day
And pretty much to my dismay
I lie awake at night
Thinking why oh why must we fight
Can we never set things right
Or must we land up in plights
As I sleep and in my dreams
I can't rest in peace or so it seems
If being a tool is what I am
Then I'm that fucking fool. God damn