MetaMorphosis - Rooted and Built Up

back from an awesome meta camp!! =)) i'll say meta will always be the best camp(s) in my life. to be around like-minded God-loving pple is always a priviledge. learnt alot this camp. so here goes!!

some really basic stuff tt we tend to forget. we forget that God loves us JUST AS WE ARE! we are blessed, loved, His precious ones and He is always thinking of us. sometimes i cant understand how He can love me just as i am. but im glad and thankful that it is just by HIS GRACE that we stand, by HIS GRACE we can be called His precious children. it is indeed a TRUTH that God loves us, so despite the feeling that we may experience, we cannot deny the fact that He loves us and sent His Son, Jesus to die on the cross for us. So, WHY DID JESUS DIE? He died to set us free from sins. He was the willing, pleasing sacrifice that used His blood to wash our sins as WHITE as snow. and all this cannot be a lie. bcos NO MAN would DIE for a lie. Jesus was executed bcos He claimed to be the Son of God and even to the point of death, He would not deny this fact. so if any normal man was to go through all the whipping and humiliation and even being nailed on the cross for a lie, he would have admitted he was lying. but Jesus did NOT admit to lies. He faced the cross out of obedience to the Father. so Jesus died. but here's the BIG difference. HE ROSE AGAIN 3 days later! He is not a dead God. we are NOT worshipping a dead body. He is THE LIVING GOD. it is a distinct difference between all other religions and Christianity. and Jesus said He is the way, the truth and the life. no one comes to the Father except through Him. =)) so what's next? we all have to receieve Him into our lives. He loves us SO MUCH!! and this love runs deeper than the ocean and it stretches as wide as the ends of the earth.

wells. besides this, i personally experienced how God prepared the ground that i went during Project X (evangelism). how the people's hearts were so responsive is really the work of God and not by any man's own efforts so we may not boast, but give praise and glory to Him. =))

and also our vision. MOVEMENTS EVERYWHERE - so that EVERY STUDENT will know someone who truly follows Jesus. this campus is one which the Lord has given us, we must be good stewards of it and yeps, BUILD MOVEMENTS! as long as we have a willing heart, God will be able to do a great work in and through us. but its a CHOICE we make. we choose to let God use us. me myself am NOTHING, but God can show His everything through me. and this meta, i learnt what it was to MAKE a CHOICE to praise and worship Him. i knew in my heart i was angry at God for the rain on tues which spoilt all the games plan, and i was questioning God why did it rain. afterall we had really worked really hard for the games and prayed really hard. but i came to realise this anger came from the frustrations and confusion i felt when the rain came. and when we were singing the song that goes 'i will worship', in my heart i was telling God 'yes, i will still CHOOSE to worship You despite everything'. and im glad i made that choice. and i pray that should the world collapse, each and everyone of us will still make the choice of CHOOSING to praise Him.

and thank God for the great CG i had and the new brothers and sisters that i came to know! they're all great encouragement to me. to see how each and everyone seeks to serve God with whatever they have. its marvellous. lifes change, hearts change. and all this are NOT the work of Man. but the work of God. =))

im all His =))

me. the sentimental old cow.

haha. yeps i am a sentimental old cow! not that i didnt oredi know that. but i just proved it again when i was diggin out all the soft toys for liren to bring to bangla! =)) haha. i have kept ALL the toys that were presents and even toys since i was in pri sch, even though old garfield and donald and little blue rabbit and even the old macdonald teddy bear are ALL REALLY OLD, they are all in tact and i cant bear to throw them away. so they are all kept in the cupboards to avoid trapping dust! haha. so im still keeping them even though my mum might be complaining. haha! to add on to my sentimentalness, i still have almost all the letters that i've ever receieved since primary sch. haha so ms poon shu min, all our memories are still there to refresh man! so nice. yeps and my journals from primary schools and the diarys tt i've ever written. haha. i love being sentimental. helps me to keep memories in check. =))

anyways had a super insightful and exciting AND MIND-STIMULATING (which explains y i was totally exhausted after the summit) uni summit with campus crusade. learnt alot about MOVEMENT EVERYWHERE - so that every student will know somebody who truly follows Jesus. and its really exciting because we have this 52,000 uni students that God wants us to reach out to! and u know God can really reach all these students on their own. but He chose to involve us! like how He waited for David for 40 days before David used some stone to kill that big giant (dunno how to spell Gor-liar?). now, we are the chosen generation to be involved with Him in this BIG EXCITING plan! =)) it was a time of reflecting too, knowing God's heartbeat and wanting to be in sync with it. =)) and you know, our GOD IS A BIG GOD. we can dream BIG DREAMS because HE IS THE BIG GOD.

and i have thanksgiving many many. =)
God do listen to His children's cries.

im all His =))

frustration

haiz. feelin frustrated over watever is happening now. grandma's not going to get better and it sucks watching her suffer so much. every breath she takes is also xing ku now. i can only pray and pray and i dun even know wat to expect. haiz. super super sian. n i wish dad will just stop telling me im fat. im feeling shitty enuff. thanks.

im all His =))

Centre Of My Life by Hillsongs

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes upon you
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto you

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
You placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

This is your song not mine
It is your song that bring healing to this land
This is your song not mine
It is your song that brings feedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song
You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty
I live to sing Your song

another beautiful song!! =)) so so nice.

im all His =))

grandma

grandma is currently in hospital and i thank God for thru it i learnt some lessons. life is precious, and if all life comes to an end, and its just death, i will really hate this life. whereas, i believe that in my life there is eternity with God to look forward to. and that's wat gives me hope and a purpose in life. and well before going for the seniors' retreat, i already saw how bad a state grandma was and i was totally praying that nothing will happen. but on the 3rd day or so, my sis sms me and told me grandma was in hospital, i could only cry. bcos i know grandma has not heard abt God yet. and God gave an opportunity for the house girls to help me pray for grandma and when retreat ended, i went to see her. i didn't know how to share with her den, so could only pray for God to bring pple to her. and praise God, He did! even after i shared with her the nxt day in my SUPER CANNOT MAKE IT hokkien, joyce came to share with her, armed with hokkien gospel. i was so thankful! and everyday i've been praying for her. and God really bring pple to help me pray as well. though she seems to be still the same, at least i know that God is going to work in her life somehow. I SURRENDER ALL. =))

im all His =))

Father's Love Letter

My Child

You may not know me, but I know everything about you
…Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up
…Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways
…Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered
…Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image
…Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being
…Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring
…Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived
…Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation
…Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book
…Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live
…Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made
…Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb
…Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born
…Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me
…John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love
…1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you
…1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father
…1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could
…Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father
…Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand
…James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs
…Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope
…Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love
…Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore
…Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing
…Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you
…Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession
…Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul
…Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things
…Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me
…Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart
…Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires
…Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine
…Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager
…2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles
…2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you
…Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart
…Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes
…Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
…Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus
…John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed
…John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being
…Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you
…Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins
…2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled
…2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you
…1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love
…Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me
…1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again
…Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen
…Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father
…Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child?
…John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you
…Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad. Almighty God

i have the narration that comes together with tis. otherwise, pls go to http://fathersloveletter.com/flltextenglish.html to listen and read at the same time. im just amazed at why God would love someone like me so much. His every being spells love. GOD IS LOVE! and He dun only love me, He loves each and everyone of us equally. this love letter is not only for me. but its for EVERYONE. and wonder why the God who created this WORLD would even care about small things like me. but hey He created me and you to be loved and experience Him, and in turn give all glory to Him. He loves us as much as He loves Jesus. and what can i offer back in return? my nothingness, to be used by Him to be made into something. comforted to know that He uses the weak to shame the strong, im weak i know. =))

okie. time to go out with mummy, sister, bro in law and baby! =)) haha. upcoming seniors retreat. hope its good!!

im all His =))

homestay+chc+frens

such a joy to stay at home.
i get wake up calls at 8am, 10am from the little baby.
but poor baby has to cry pretty long and LOUD before he can get my attention.
hahaha..aunty tired ma. bo bian!
haha. and i have learnt to feed him milk, attempted to burp him and changed his diapers for him too!! but ok the diapers were only filled with PEE kind. those with the shit still need somemore effort. haha =)) n i have helped his ah ma aka my mum URMM-SAI (go URMM URMMM URMMM to make baby shit). haha. and he's the funniest when he's so tired but he refuses to sleep or when he's so hungry but he refuses to drink! den he will cry and his tears will break my heart. so poor thing that little fella. oh n he learnt a new trick! taught by his great aunty. catch him in his good mood and say 'xiaoxiao!' he will SMILE!! he's so cuteeee!!!!
and i know my dear frens want more photos of him. haha. when i get back to hall! i forgot to bring the cable back home. haha.

went to city harvest with my bro just now. its amazing what God is doing in His life. trust me. i never thought he would actually go back to the Lord! call it little faith, small faith or no faith. haha. but never in my wildest dream would this have happened! and he's on fire for God now and all i can say is "GOd does wonders, you just got to believe in Him". trust in His perfect timing, trust in His good works and trust that everything under this sky that is happening (good or bad) are all in His control! and everything will work towards His glory and for His kingdom. my takeback from Pastor Kong is that to "Keep my focus and avoid distractions". there is a perfect timing for everything and i must keep focus on the task ahead. =)) there might be pains and sacrifices that i must make, but i have to keep my eye on the Lord and trust in His provision. =))

many things comin up tis hols. its gonna be exciting and great. but gonna make sure i catch up with many frens tis hols. i realised that i've neglected too many. sigh. the thing abt uni is that we're all too busy with projects and all the shit. no good! and i realised true frens are hard to come by, so we must take time to invest and treasure in the good ones around. always love. u cannot lose anything by loving someone.

im all His =))

my little lover =))

this is little baby sleepin on my mummy. isn't he sweet? my sis says he likes to sleep in this manner now. haha. and yes he really does. i found that out in one day.


see, he's sleepin on the sofa like a little angel.


tis is the close up!! =)) sweet baby!!!!


and i tink he looks super adorable here. =))
im all His =))

its a different sem.

tis sem has just officially ended. and its been a great sem so far!! and i really thank God for that. its so different from last sem, where everything revolved around sports club and well sports club one more time. =)) not that its bad, it was tiring though. but STILL i must still say that i did like my time in sports club and made fabby frens! =)) but well this sem was different. had more time for myself. going to children's home, having my own room, making the choice of spending more time with some frens, crusades, family and dear baby yicheng. had sec. sch frens as classmates helped too. =) where u are really concerned about one another. its great!

its just a different sem where i chose to draw closer to God. tried to put Him on the throne in all i do. tried to prioritise Him above everything. tried to seek Him in decisions i made. of cos sometimes i fail, but there will be people around me to encourage me to press on. tis sem, i really did enjoy a personal walk with God. and im so glad that He chose me. and amazing things do happen when u trust God.

for the exams, i really felt Him leading me. tis sem's subjects were really bad. its absolutely disgusting. why? first there's TWO accounting modules, n i suck at accounting SO BADLY. den there's tax, and its NOT called TAX for nothing. its freaking taxing and its like biz law and i did so badly for biz law. and then there's some IT module. and yeps i did do badly for IT too. so its just a bad sem when each subject has about 2 projects each. =/ but guess what? God really works in ways i cant imagine. projects were cleared on time and we had time to study. and i really thank Him for helpin me plan my study timetable, where i was able to finish my studying on time and even had time for second revision. and that it was not that hard studying too! and i did manage to understand some accounting and now i really think accounting is NOT TOO BAD! i guess im placed in accounting for SOME reason that i don't know about. =)) but for the exams, though some papers were hard and i felt like crying, i had the peace and strength to press through.

and then i thank God for the frens that i have. amazing people whom im sure u know who u are. those that study with me, run with me, eat, talk, encourage and even BULLY. yeps. it made exam period less draining. =)) and even those outside ntu who remember me. i love all u pple from the bottom of my little heart. u guys have been prayed for by me! =))

ah. there's just too much thanksgiving. im just so happy this sem. it flew by and it is one of the best sem in ntu so far. =)) and im sure its all gonna get better!! =))

im all His =))

little short update on exam =))

its exam time time. so not much time to post up my thoughts and probably there really isn't much random thought these few days too. just thanking God and seeing how good He is to me, im glad. there's many thanksgiving tis exam. for all the great frens he placed in my life, all those tt study with me, go jogging with me, eat lunches and dinners, frens tt just msg or msn me outta the blue, sweet cards from sweet frens, all the joking and teasing. my wonderful family. and how He's bringing me thru this exam is amazing. i cannot cope without Him. and guess wat? im starting to find that accounting is really NOT THAT bad after all. im learning to deal with it. =))

and just realized recently how God has been 'talking' to me through my own prayers and that i didn't even realize! i think its awesome. cos such a brain like mind could have never thought of or dreamt of such prayers. but the Spirit leads =)).

life after exams look even better. cant wait!!

now show ur a foto of my nephew on his 2mths old. dear sister sent it to me. he looks super funny! he's fatter so he got NO MORE NECK!! muahahahah =)) changed since the last time i saw him!!

still ever so cute. back on tues to sayang him!! =))

im all His =))

upon rachel's request!!

see me and baby. at family dinner!! it was a happy nite cos its the ENTIRE family!! its been awhile since kor joined us. so happy. so kor u know wat to do ah!! =))


and tis is yi cheng when my dad carried him. superly funny. he went ALL quiet and stiff. HAHAHHAHAH!! and my mum complained that my dad DIDN'T carry us when we were a baby. hahaha =))

had FAMILY dinner today! made me much happier than i was. =)) i love my family. haha jie i know ur reading tis. hahah LOVE YOU TOO!!! pls give me more nephews and nieces!! thank u!! 2 more will be JUST FINE!! =)) JIA YOU JIA YOU!!

im all His =))

exam time

come! let's count. we have been takin exams since we were in pri ONE. so thats 6 years in primary sch, 4 years in sec sch, 2 yrs in jc and 1 yr in uni already. and so that's a total of 13 years worth of exam experience! haha. and looking back at all these silly exams wat do u remember? haha. i remember my mum drilling me during primary sch, remember going for all the tuition and i remember sitting before all the exams with my eyes tightly shut in prayer. =)) God is indeed is good. i wasn't a Christian yet but He was still with me during those exams. i remember a tutor who gave me this exam prayer that went by "Dear God, please give me an quiet heart before examination start, let me remember what i've learnt.." and i just pray it. exams sucky. but at the end of it all, we can all testify to His faithfulness.

this sem is supposedly the xiongest of all that i've been thru. i hate accounting but i have TWO accounting modules this sem. i do badly for IT and i have ONE more IT module tis sem and i DETEST BIZ LAW but TAX is like BIZ LAW with all the Income TAx Act to remember! but somehow, im just not as STRESSED and PANICKY as last 2 sems. learnin to claim on His promise and trust in Him. no matter what is the outcome, im comforted to know that at least i leaned on Him. and well, this sem its time i do well. REALLY. =))

jia you to everybody who is studying! take time to rest too! as a brother reminded me out of the blue, our body is a Temple of God, so we must take care of it by resting too. =))

i'll be praying for all of us 'examined' pple. haha =))

im all His =))

just for ping..

hahah..k ping shall show off my dear nephew's fotos!! =))
he's so adorableeee!!!! im gonna teach him how to be a gentleman and he'll win MANY girls' hearts!! =)) hahah


k tis is him on the FIRST day tt he was born! hmm..taken a few hours after he was born actually!! =)) look at his little arms. he was sleepin with both hands in the air since he was born.


haha!! see he's STILL sleeping like that!!


see him cry!! =)) hahaha!! k actually its not fun when he crys. its super scary. he screams till he got no more voice and till he's breathless. so baby pls dun scream. u scare me.


superly uberly cute


hee..he was lookin at the camera but im sure he didn't even know cos he cant see!


i hold his little hand in my big hand. =)) teehee.


haha!! see he's so small!! =)) haha. anyways figured he's going to be a man next time and guys do love going ard half naked, so i might as well catch him when he's small first!! =))

kk i tink if my sister DO see tis post, she's going to tell my nephew that her 'siao siao ah yi' has just posted all his photos online again. haha!! well advertise a good catch first!! so yes my little nephew is single and available too! so anybody who wants him can go give birth in preferbly 2 or 3 years time. so the age gap is just nice!! =))

im all His =))

sometimes you just have to pick up your feet and flee

yeps sometimes we just have to pick up our feet and flee, run far away from temptations to prevent ourselves from slippin from God. yes. run far far away from the evil one. the evil one may be smart but God is smarter. the evil one will tempt us, but by God's grace we can withstand all these temptations!

how shall i say wat i want to say? let me try:

the evil one is smart and tempt us. especially in the area of love. he knows how a love relationship without God in it can draw us away from God itself. so what does he do? he puts people into our lives that cause our hearts to thump, to melt and to love that person. and before we know it, we have fallen into the evil one's trap and we slowly lose our focus on God. we slowly start to compromise God's standard. sometimes we set standards for our future other half and we start to compromise it. its sad. is it that hard to trust God in this area of our lives?


sigh. i don't know how to say what i really want to say. i don't think anybody really understand what im trying to say too. if you do understand, let me know.
and i also know some of you will not agree with what im saying. haha. sorry!

im all His =))

God's Message to Woman

When I created the Heavens and the Earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man, because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart.

Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him; nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel. You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtue in your heart.
Your eyes - don't change them.
Your lips - how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose so perfect in form.
Your hands so gentle to touch.

I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep, I've held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you:
my holiness, my strength,
my purity, my love,
my protection and support.

You are special because you are the extension of me. Man represents my image - woman, my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So, man - "Treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile." In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart, the heart of your Father and the heart of her Father.

Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle quietness show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.

Author Unknown

now i know why im created out of a man's rib =)) its so beautiful.

im all His =))

I Will Offer Up My Life

I will offer up my life
In spirit and truth,
Pouring out the oil of love
As my worship to You
In surrender I must give my every part;
Lord, receive the sacrifice
Of a broken heart

CHORUS:
Jesus, what can I give, what can I bring
To so faithful a friend, to so loving a King?
Savior, what can be said, what can be sung
As a praise of Your name
For the things You have done?
Oh my words could not tell, not even in part
Of the debt of love that is owed
By this thankful heart

You deserve my every breath
For You've paid the great cost;
Giving up Your life to death,
Even death on a cross
You took all my shame away,
There defeated my sin
Opened up the gates of heaven
And have beckoned me in

another beautiful song =))
im so thankful God spoke to me last nite about some stuff that's been buggin me for quite awhile and Yes God, im going to choose to trust You. from the smallest to the biggest fear i have. i may struggle but i will not be defeated. =)) Thank You.

and this song, im going to practice hard on the guitar! yea the chords are all the chords i knoe!! yippee!! but the beat is abit weird though! haha! its weird to me cos i only know the standard 2 beats, 3 beats or 4 beats strumming..haha =)) back to believers soon i think!! raise support!! haha..kidding

im all His =))

what if..

was doing my QT yday and read from the Daily Bread online on Daniel 3:16-18 when the 3 men were facing persecution and had a choice to bow to other gods and then continue on with their lives OR to enter a burning furnace. the 3 men were facing a life and death(plus painful) decision and yet they chose NOT to bow to other gods, because they will worship God and God alone. and they said

"If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and He will rescue us from your hand, O King. But even if He does not, we want you to know, O King, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up"
-Daniel 3:16-18

its such that these men know that EVEN IF GOD really do not come and rescue them physically, they will rather go through the suffering and not worship the idols that have been set up. so they must have really known the grasped the full understanding of God in their lives! then i thought to myself, if i was placed in such a situation as to enter a burning fire before me, will i be bold enough to say "Yes, i will enter the fire" and believe that God will come and save me. i really don't know what i will do in such a situation.

k the song "Better is one day in your courts better is one day in your house better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere" just came into my head. so maybe i'll choose to enter the fire and trust God.

because if im not wrong in Daniel God was really in the fire with them because the people outside saw 4 figures in the fire and the 3 men came out of the fire unburnt. then i thought well maybe God would really enter into the fire last time but i cant imagine that happening now!! and THEN it hit me again that GOD IS A LIVING GOD!! what He does in the past, He will continue to do now! and what He does to another of His child, He will do to me too! im so glad to have this LIVING God in my life. and i got to start to grasp the full understanding of this term - "LIVING GOD". got to start to trust Him more and more, even with the little details of my life which i think He won't care. but i am starting to think and believe He really cares. =))

praying that He becomes so much more real and evident in my life.

now, im torn between this - SPORTS CAMP



which is superly funn and gonna be a GL..even more fun!! and with the sports club pple and just 7 days of madnesss..hahah..!!

or a probable Crusade FOC..which will be meaningful!! really hope they dun clash again..but i think they will =(( why does this always happen?? why are these 2 not independent objects in my life?? y must it be mutually exclusive??

im all His =))

love and respect for your parents

i was on the train on sat nite and there was this bunch of teenagers who were just COMPLAINING and COMPARING their parents. and the common agreement in their conversation was that their parents were very 'fan' and very 'naggy' and that they wished their parents are not around as often as they are

i was so sad. im sure i was like that in the past too. but hopefully not anymore after seeing how difficult it is to be a mother. nobody was BORN into being a parent too. they will all make mistakes as well. but ultimately they really love us and want the best for us. how can anybody ask their parents to go and die? i will be heartbroken if i was that parent and i will shatter if that do happen! life is too short to complain, we should all love our parents because they have brought us up. they gave us lodging and food and education and love. though they never seem to understand us, we never seem to understand them too.

i thank God for my mum. she don't nag at me to study anymore and when i told her tt 'so and so' committed suicide, her first reaction would be 'you just try your best k? dun be too stressed' and she will cook food tt i like whenever i go home. though i get mad at her sometimes, i really love her mans. and she knows she cant call my frens 'mei nu' without calling me that too. haha. she assumes i'll get 'jealous' haha..she's just so cute and really so wei da. there's too much about her to say. love her very much =))

and my dad. always so 'serious' but he dotes on me. i wish i can talk more to my dad like how i talk to my mum. i wish someone will tell him about God. but all the same i really respect him and love him too. though i probably never told my dad that before. and my sis revealed he dunno how to carry my nephew! and my mum said 'yeah that's cause he didn't really carry us much when we were babies too' haha. then he was trying to play fighting with my nephew just now too! 50plus old uncle fight with one mth plus baby. haha =)) cute cute!!

well at the end of it all, appreciate your parents. they were the one who brought you to this world. no matter what they do, you must still love them. =)) life is short, grasp it! so whoever is reading this now, silently pray that God will touch them ok!! yeah thanks!! =))

im all His =))

i love your love

bought some cds over the weekend and was listening to it and this song really struck me cos it really speaks about how i feel!!

I love Your LOVE

Sometimes when I feel Your love
As I walk along the busy street
I whisper Your name under my breath.
And sometimes when I feel Your touch
In the quiet place of my room,
I sing Your name in adoration.
And there are times when I feel like I’m bursting
With Your love so strong and so true
And in my heart I feel such a yearning
I want all the world to know Your love them too

I love Your love, gonna shout it out aloud
I love Your love, wanna tell the world about it
I love Your love, cause I found it to be true
And I live to You love too.

yeps the tune is really catchy and cheery and the lyrics just reflects what i really feel sometimes!! yet to master the chords yet..with all the B F# E..haha!! ONE DAY i'll master it!! =))

the best choice i have ever ever made in my life is to choose to Receive Christ into my life. suddenly life is not so gloomy and i find hope in all situations. you realise that your life on this world is only temporal and we all live on only a dot of our line. as what my pastor, when we are on ground level and we look at a building, 20 storeys make a BIG difference compared to the 2nd storey. but hey when we take a plane, they all look the same! and that's the eternal perspective for u. =)) SO its about living this little dot significantly and for Him. of course there are times i slip and lose my focus and try to use my human understanding in all situations, but at the end of the day i sit back and realise HE IS GOD.

He is the sovereign One who created this world from nothingness, the One who created ME, the One who really loves me unconditionally as i am, the One who knows me even better than i know myself, the One who paid the price for me, the One who told me to remember my first love for Him, such a God can love such a person like me. Im thankful He chose to let me serve Him, Im thankful He chose to love me. My friend my confidant my King my Father my Rock my Everything.

i wish all my friends know Him too.

im all His =))

tiredness

everybody's tired
i cant wait till all the projects are over
i long for that day when i can declare im free from projects
and when exams are over..!! 15th nov!!!

but i hate to be tired
i rather be happy and joyful and cheery

kk for now the plans after exams looks GOOD!!!

sm retreat
church retreat
metamorphosis!!
babysitting baby yi cheng =))

im so excited!! well for now.
claiming on to the promise from God that He plans to prosper me and give me a hope and a future!! =)) that is the only comfort i can seek in this sucky period. been sleeping at 4am since monday nite and im gettin all pimply and ugly..growl

im all His =))

a mother's love

this little baby of my sis has certainly changed lives =))
his mummy is so amazed at how he was just a little dot in her tummy and now he's out in this world kickin and crying for all our attention all the time. and all i can tell her is "God's creation ma" =)) i was in the room with my sister the other night and what she said to the baby touched me. she said

"Yi Cheng, mummy loves you so much. i never loved anybody so much before, not even your daddy. i cant bear the idea of going back to work already."

i have never seen this side of my sister before. and it amazes me. a mother's love can be that strong you know. she's so tired and when the baby cries in the middle of the night she will still wake up to feed him because the mother's milk is the best milk for him. and when he had to draw some blood that time, she cried too cause she felt that it was so painful for him. and she cried the other time he had to stay in hospital because he had jaundice. i never knew my sister was like that. and my mum? she's busy taking care of my sister too. and to think about it, its still about mother's love cause my sister is her daughter too.

i love my mother =)) lots.

im all His =))

i love the children's innocence

haha. as usual its monday and i went to the children's home. it was really funny today because of these questions they asked! n all these questions were just from a simple question - is chicken or egg born first? i answered "i think God created Chickens first." hahah. so they continued to ask all these!!

1. can we fly in Heaven? how come angels can fly?
2. when we go up to Heaven, can we come down again?
3. are there shiney panties and swimming costumes in Heaven?
4. is there a big swimming pool in Heaven?
5. are there toys in Heaven?
6. do we need money to buy food in Heaven?
7. if somebody does something bad in Heaven, will He get sent down?
8. will Jesus get angry?
9. if we have eternal life, how come we still must die?
10. is it when we die, angels will come and bring us?
11. is it painful to be burnt when we die?
12. so when we are adult then we die, will be be in adult body in Heaven?
12. You De: so Buddhist will go to hell?
Me: ya
You De: but my mother is not!
Me: pray lo!
You De: but i pray already, she still not
Shi Hui: but God say must be patient!

hahaha. they are so funny. i was laughin the whole time they asked me! haha. cause they were SO WORRIED! it was so cute!! and i could only tell them "i don't know! cause i haven't go to Heaven yet!" yea then after tuition rylee was really sweet. she asked me to sit there and she got food for me for tea break! and invited me to the park to play with them. but they ended up gettin punished for makin too much noise so i had to leave. haha. after exams then go play more! =)) cute kids!! they are like my little brothers and sisters!! =))

addin on abt today..the 3 girls bullied poor you de and made him cry! i was so amused at even though how they protested SO LOUDLY that it wasn't them who made him cry, they still ended up coaxing him! haha. rylee was offering him lollipop and cheezball and she was the one who made him smile =)) shao min was writing a note to him and shi hui together with the rest were just telling him not to cry otherwise not shuai anymore. HAHAHAHA..super funny!!

im all His =))

a Christian faith

just thought that i should post this up =))

4 Spiritual Laws

1. God LOVES You and CREATED You to KNOW Him Personally

2. Our Sin keeps Us from KNOWING God personally and Experiencing His LOVE

3. Jesus Christ is God's ONLY Solution for Our Sin. Through Him ALONE We can KNOW God personally and experience God's LOVE.

4. We NEED to personally RECEIVE Jesus Christ as OUR Saviour and Lord, then we can KNOW God personally and experience His LOVE.

You can pray

"Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the Cross for my sins. I believe in You. I open my heart and receive You as My Saviour and Lord. THank you for forgiving me, giving me eternal life and making me whole. Lead me as You know best. Amen"

well it occured to me that i should post this up otherwise many will be like me last time, not knowing how to receive Christ and just wondering what is Christianity all about. =)) i'll be more than happy to answer any queries!! hee =))

im all His =))

a nice song =))

was just feeling tired and frustrated, and i played this song tt liren sent me during that tough period. and i agree it speaks volumes to my heart =))

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain “I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain “I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

im all His =))..till my last breath let me be praising You

small hearts with a big love for God

third day on project BLOG =))

well today shall share abt the children fr the children's home i go to!! these children come from either broken families with their parents divorced or just bad family finance and stuff. so basically they stay in the children's home and can go home on weekends. and where do i come in? haha. i go once a week to tuition them and the girls in the foto are the usual ones that i tuition! =))

im glad they are in this children's home bcos this is where they also came to know God and with their little hearts they love Him. i was talkin to one of these girls the other day and she's so sweet. she was sharing with me about her boyfren (grins. so cute rite? these little girls are only pri 3) and that her future husband must
1. love God
2. love Her
3. be able to fight so he can protect her, cos she's scared of her neighbour who seems to be fightin all the time

isnt this so cute and sweet? she's so young and she already knows that her husband must LOVE GOD!! =)) den so i was so amused and continued to talk to her. so she told me that she usually tries not to go home on the weekends. so i asked her why and she said otherwise nobody will bring her to church when she's at home. so i asked again "don't u miss your mother?" and guess what she said? she said "But God is more important than my mother right?" isn't that like WOW? she's only NINE!!! so of course i can't say she's WRONG cos she is so right!! =))these little ones have God in their lives and they are so happy. whenever i teach them they will just break off into a song and go "jie do you know this song?" den they will start to sing. haha.

so i give thanks to God that i have a nice family and i am in a position where i can bless others by what God Himself has blessed me with. i love these kids but God loves them so much more! though they don't have a perfect family, they are so sufficient because they have a HEavenly FAtHer and they belong to the Heavenly Family!! =))

n today i also learnt a new meaning of givin THANKS thanks to OldMan. haha. you know just everyday of our lives we SHOULD be giving thanks to God because we have life and we have health. we can walk run jump see smell feel hear speak and we do not realise that these are in fact little gifts that God gives us each day. He can definitely choose to take them back. so let's not forget to give Thanks each day for who we are. we are all different BUT

"For You created my innermost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well -Psalms 139:13-14"

we are all His creations!! all of us are special in His eyes!! and give ThaNKS that each day all your loved ones are still around you. you never know when God will take them away. and of cos treasure them too..

and another thought. how do you LOVE everybody with the kind of love that God loves us with? our hearts and all are so ugly so sinful but God chooses to love us. how bout us? can we CHOOSe to love everybody around us too? no matter how much you rather not? its not easy!! that's why God's love is so UNCONDITIONAL and it runs so deep and wide. its true. we can't do anything that can make Him love us more or less. He loves us all the same. =))

Im ALL His =))

wat i learnt fr hall cell

hee. desiree shared quite well today during hall cell and her message was quite nice too! she shared about how we are different attributes between us and our God. how He is the potter and we are the clay. how He is the shepherd and we are like sheep. and personally He is my Father and i am His daughter. and also He is my King and so im a Princess!! so nice!! =))

she shared this too..read on =))

A radiant bride greeted her guests with a brilliant smile as she entered the reception hall after the wedding ceremony. She gracefully moved about the room, the train of her white gown flowing along the floor behind her, her veil cascading down her button-adorned back.

She conversed with each guest one by one, taking the time to mingle and soak up the compliments. "You look abosolutely lovely." "Your dress is devine." "I've never seen a more beautiful bride" The lavish praises rang on and on. The bride couldn't be more proud or more appreciative of the crowd's adoration. She could have listened to them swoon over her all evening. As a matter of fact, she did.

But where was the groom? All the attention focused on the bride and never once did she call anyone's attention to her husband. She didn't even notice his absence at her side. Scannin the room, I searched for him, wondering, where could he be?

I finally found him, but not where I expected him to be. The groom stoond alone over in the corner of the room with his head down. As he stared at his ring, twisting the gold band that his bride had just placed on his finger, tears trickled down his cheeks and onto his hands. That is when I noticed the nail scars. The groom was Jesus.

He waited, but the bride never once turned her face toward her groom. She never held His hand. She never introduced the guests to Him. She operated independently of Him.

that's enough rite? do you get the meaning? it just portrays how God will so silently wait on one side for us to just turn to Him. He will never forsake us and He will never want any one of us to fall away from His side. for myself, i always imagine Him to be waiting by the side of my bed to just talk to me. He won't force me to do things against my will but He will patiently wait for Me to submit to His will. like how i was lost years ago, He still brought me back to Him in the end. and i pray that i will not get lost again. this little story also says how sometimes when things are just perfect for us, we forget to give glory to God. instead we bask in the light and throw Him aside, as if as everything that happened was by our own efforts. God's love runs so deep and so wide, but that does not mean that we should take it for granted rite? we must NOT!

wells..that was just a nice little story to share =))

im all His =))

i walk with a skip in my steps

haha!!first post!! =)) well decided tt i shld blog abt how Good my life is bcos i have a Heavenly Father!! =)) so i can share about God's goodness to everyone of u!!

its been a LONG time since i really felt like skippin while i was walkin just now!the reason? simple, i found a confidant!! and she's yansing!! im just so thankful to God for placing this special sister in my life..i remember we have embarked on quite a few things together..
(1)cover to cover..failed badly!!haha
(2)sponsoring a child with world vision..i stopped for awhile oredi..but tinkin of sponsoring again..must pray hard first!!
(3)guitar!!yippee..n once again i have stopped..gheesh..i just realised im a donkey..always stop..hahah
well, tts besides the point. just so happie that i made the choice of meetin up with her for dinner instead of rushin back hall to study, and it made me realise the importance of havin a like-minded sister-in-Christ. someone whom u can confine in, pray for each other and just share so freely. i reallie reallie thank God for this special frenship i have =)) n im so excited to see God work in our lives!! trusting that He is Good and He is our King and we're the princesses!! i dun knoe wat to expect but He promises "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future -Jeremiah 29:11" isnt this wonderful?

we should all live each day as our last. and today for the first time, i feel that i did live my day as if as its my last. =))

God is good, all the time!