Next year I have decided not to travel so much. But instead to go somewhere far instead. Usually I would travel near by countries so I can afford to travel more. But I realise I am bored! I want to go places I never been before! So I shall save! I want to go Japan, Korea or or maybe London? I want to take proper airline like Singapore Airlines, Malaysia Airlines, Korean Air, British Airways or maybe maybe Cathay! Idk! Still dreaming in my own world...

I guess...some stuff are just not working out as I want it to be. It not the first time I feel this way. Anyway, Korean Air has just order 5 747-8i. Finally some other airline other then Lufthansa decided to get it. No matter how big A380 or how popular a A380 is. I still think 747 is the legendary queen of the skies. If possible, I want to fly it one day! :D It WOAH!

I feel so alone and lonely somehow...

i never felt this for a long while already, the feeling of being alone and lost plus the distance dont make things better. idk. i was excited about today but it didnt went the way i want. more questions come out instead. 3 things to sum up today. i got my earphone, i drink soya bean and i am more then ever motivated to be a pilot. it time to sleep soon i guess...if i can...when i see planes i just want to travel. damn it.

i am face with a dilemma, whatever i do...it seem wrong. there is no perfect solution to a difficult question. i am like so tired. what a long week it has been plus a long day. i shall go to sleep but i dont feel like sleeping! i shall continue my drama! wahahahaha. :D I also love Russian plane suddenly...I find them so cool!!! Opps...

I think I might have been sick or fallen to exhaustion. I been sleeping for more then usual. I feel so tired...Hmm...Idk. But I have wake up now and I shall go out later! Stuck at home all day feel so lonely and lazy. I suddenly feel like going to Istanbul, Turkey! :) Idk why! It just happens! I shall try to go there! Turkish Airline perhaps? My 17 years of life, not much things make me happy but something for sure! I am always happy when I am going on a holiday!! :D I always smile in the airport whether going oversea alone or with other people, it never fail! :) And and...I haven been to Disneyland yet! Haha. I shall go there one day!

"Your Call"

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I never release so much tears until this week happen...

i like this advertisement. idk why. not because of the camera though...it just...idk. that kind of feeling...catchy tone perhaps?

It's difficult to maintain a long distance relationship. Distance is not too much to overcome but it just definitely very hard.

My Dream of One Asia

I this year have a change of perspective, I always respect how US and the Europe for their technology breakthrough and economic, how vibrate their political scene has been and stuff. In Singapore language, I jing bei the Angmoh. But this year I realise what the US and Europe has done, Asia have the potential to be the same or even better them. Why? I slowly write first. My views maybe wrong but hey it my mine view not yours! So stay tune.

hmm...i feel so idk. haha. just that what has happen remind me of a episode in How I Met Your Mother. Maybe TV is true sometime but I been reconsidering something but I think if it happen, I will stand by my decision. I let it to god and fate to decide bah. My decision maybe wrong but even if it is, let me be wrong by my own decision and not others. Something the right decision may not be the ideal decision I guess. I have decided. people ask me why, let just say i think it for the best. full stop. i won't be convince otherwise no more. i made it.

haha. i learn something i guess. while some stuff u can compromise. but some something idk. it okay for example like, if i want hershey but i get cadbury instead. it still compromisable (i doubt this word exist) but when for example when u need to travel and use a laptop but what u get is a desktop instead. then u can't possible travel with the desktop and the desktop wont turn into a laptop either. i been ponning on that topic and i think i get it...but in reality...it harder to ditch ur desktop when it so meaningful to you. if everything is based on theory how easy life would be isn't it. haha.

i just have the craziest idea of all. if I have a chance, i might intern in a Airline instead. Abit no link to Fund Management but if my assigned company sucks big time, I shall go source for a Airline instead! :D Financial Department of course...for now. :)

on my 400 posts on this blog. all i can say is...my lacrimal gland is probably going to empty soon and tides do change. with this i rest my case and go to sleep. i am so freaking tired. feel like fainting any moment.

the right decision may not be the best decision. sometime when we face with a tough decision, sometime the right one is not the best, may result in tears and other negative stuff. but we just want to do it. cause sometime things happen for a reason and yeah. it may look bad and hurt alot in short term but in long term wise it for the best. :)

I am back from Kuala Lumpur! This the best moment of my life! I officially admit, I have fall in love in being a pilot to another level! Woppeee!! The A319, seeing Tony in person, photo in a simulator cockpit, and a virgin visit to a real cockpit in a commercial flight. All check! This weekend is the best I can have and yeah it perfect! Will write a blog post about this trip soon that will also be posted in AirAsia blog too. And here are my two wishes!

1. To have Tony blog about us.
2. To have Tony seriously invite us to the padlock of Lotus F1 team in Singapore GP next year! (This would be awweeeeeeee-some)

Gone with a wish, Back with a dream! :) - Once sentence to sum up my trip.

Dare to Dream! :D

My Virgin Visit to a Real Cockpit! Is a320 fetching me from Kuala Lumpur - Singapore. AirAsia AK 715

Co Pilot doing his check before a flight back to Kuala Lumpur

My photo with the teacher of the pilots.

First photo in a cockpit!

Second photo in the cockpit!

Hopefully one day I will sit there for real! :)

AirAsia CEO Tony Fernandes writing the cap he is giving me! :D Excited face. (P.S, he just wore this cap) :p

Writing Writing Writing...

Lastly, my photo with him! :) Will frame this for life! Haha. :P (The cap he is wearing, is the one he gave me! :D)

as i am stuck in MacDonald in Changi Airport for my morning flight to Kuala Lumpur. the airport is so quite but mac is quite crowded. quite abit of student studying here. my phone is sinful, i feel so bad. i knw it wrong but i still do it. someone told me US serial are just television show but there are certain message in there which I feel is quite right and....right. it make me realise things that i been hiding frm.

anyway, back to the present! i starting to love sch nowadays? 8am lecture on thurs! principal of management, wooopeee...it good! so interesting and funny (plus lame)...i never fall a sleep leh!!! miracle do happen! haha. follow by stats...gosh...even though the stats teacher isn't bad...but compare to the rest (the standard are high), she is boring. ended with effective communication. this is how i sell myself.

"my name is darren ng. i think the brand that represent me is Singapore Airlines. Singapore Airlines believe in innovation and being number one in their field. I believe I can bring new innovation and ideas to my team. And motivated them to be the best among the rest." something like that...but in my life i was inspire by Bill Shankly quote as following "If you are first you are first. If you are second you are nothing."

Finish school and went back home with Yuqi and Gabriel. After awhile finally go JP to buy food liao!! Got chee kuek and soya bean with pearl to bring back home for Teabreak. Stupid things happen in JP and ATM accident. Lol. So looking forward to go back to school! Got things to bullshit liao!!!

Going AirAsia Academy later in the day! Woopee!! One little small step to greatest! I may not be a christian but may god forgive my sin, i am trying to resolve the situation and i wont want to make the same mistake again.

miraculously i love going to school now. nothing has change, the boring mrt ride still remains, lecture remain boring but somehow going school give me a safe haven to hide from my feelings and my problems and my thoughts. it like going on a holiday. in geek-term it like a firewall, blocking the crap stuff and not requiring me to face it.

how i wish to be able to talk with someone, but they have their own life to live, i shall not disturb them. my sis was right, disagree with her at first cause i just find it wrong but the more i think the more i understand, some stuff in theory maybe wrong but in reality this is life.

when u are down and alone. it do sux...


"You're not alive unless you're living."

Today is wednesday! wooppeeee.... Fri going to KL! AirAsia has confirm with me I can go visit their academy, nothing big but still hope it will be interesting!! Really hope!! Will be getting a haircut there and will be staying in a 5-star hotel! Wooopeee...It has been awhile since I do that...

Miss JP food, thurs shall go hunt after school. Pepper Lunch next week! (Salmon one) Like it!!! Munch munch!!! Might go NTUC later! :D

One thing i been thinking, imagine u brought a dog, there is scar on it, will the dog life be better if the owner accept the flaw, dont mind of it, think it kind of cool and grow a liking for it or a owner that just tolerate it and avoid the scar itself? tolerate vs acceptance...it close in meaning...yes but it could meant alot of different in reality...

Tonight has not been a bad night! Appreciating my music again! Love it! And there still a huge thing in my mind that...nvm...It a nice night so will leave it this way. :D And I realise I might just do anything and give up anything to be pilot! Ahhhhhhhh...Pilottttt...

wooppeee...today wake up. realise i am still early. i though meeting rachel 11.30am. yuan lai is 12:30am. wake up at 11am though i late liao. then have my breakfast and leave house! meet up with wenkang and the extremely shy vathsala. (of course...) went up to Sathia house for Deepavali! :D Eat extremely spicy food. But the prawn is nice. (Even better when someone peel the shell for u) Egg also not bad! :D Then have the muruku, not bad but hazel and bryant especially like it, dont knw why. Then the prawn cracker! I find it a achievement! To finish almost 99% of a container of prawn cracker with just me, yeehui, ummu, hazel and vathsala. Do no other guys eat prawn cracker? That weird. Then since I have sch tmr decided to go home after that. Walk Vathsala home and yeah took 185 home. Watch F1 at night and seriously I wonder how did Hazel Wong stand that cheena channel and watch F1, it irritating to the ear. Webber won but Button win the World Championship. Damn it! Hate him. But Massa wave the flag so cute...Damn...hahaha. Time to sleep have school tmr!

Wooopeee...Feeling much better after going out. Went NTUC and got snacks to be placed on standby. And yeah. Don't know why feel so happy after leaving NTUC. Lol. Weird. I have two more plans I want to do for next year. 1. Travel Indonesia starting frm Batam using Exotic Airline (Airline that has very very very old plane and that is ban frm entering EU due to their safety records. :X) 2. Go visit China, Haikou, Guangzhou, Anything... :D

Beshrew the heart that makes my heart to groan - William Shakespeare

Am i as strong mentally then i think i am?...i have no idea...i am just so...nvm...i need to keep myself going...haix...nvm.

it...difficult for me...ahh...i just miss u.

jerk - a stupid person, usually a man

is the definition that simple? i don't think so...

for this post! I shall dedicated it to me and nic relationship. Today will be our fourth month together ever since I pop the question to her. :P Love her still and yeah love her still and will keeping loving her! :D she is the cutest in my eyes. :P

a quiet quiet night...my dear dear is sick so never chat with her tonight. :( but her health more impt and she have exam tmr! rest is impt! so tonight the series "How I Met Your Mother" <---This show is really good! accompany me instead. I fall in love with this show, it so good! I love it! :D But still hope it was my dear. Hope she will feel better tmr and do well for her mock bio paper tmr! :) Love her always! ♥

i am super bored recently, wanting to go out but lazy to go out. blame holiday, really make me tired. but thanks to ms hazel wong i have finally some stuff to entertain me all day long now! woah! i always find US series quite shitty...but not this one. good blue comedy but one episode...hit my heart...maybe it true...i hv a six sense thingy, i dont feel it often, sometime he might go for a year or so but when he come he is right and nv wrong. now...he is back...

one more thing, i decided to remove my dreams and goals...as i decided it so useless to have dream and stuff...cause object, people, things change as time goes by so might as well have it in ur mind and constantly update it in there...i hv idea of things i want to do and that good enough...as for being a pilot...that is more then a dream or ambition to me. i will TRY to make it happen, no matter what it takes! :D Here is what i am thinking now...to fly 200 over passengers frm Singapore to New York in a 18hrs+ flight...so coooooll...I like the pilot hat btw...it like so...WOAH!

back to watch my series...it good! :D i shall finish season 1-4 in a week! if possible. :P

"It’s the little things that make a relationship great.
The little things are the most intimate,
most important part of our relationship."

she love me...she love me not...she love me...she love me not...

yes...she love me. :p

Lol. I can't sleep! So this explain this random post...

I am in coffee bean currently in Bali, hoping to get internet as my hotel one is so bad let don’t get into details. Bali not a bad place to be but with a internet worst than Perth, it can’t be that good anyway. The music in coffee bean is so bloody depressing...What lonely, what missing you. As if I need any reminding about...Haix...too much travelling in a short period of time sometime just...feel...idk...But left a Kuala Lumpur! Shld be taking a break for the rest of this month! Nov or Dec or Jan? Holiday? Hmm...possible. :P

WAH! Nice right? Haha...I love you! :P

Credit:
Main Cast: Moi Truely
Photographer: Junko
Photoshop Genius: Sathia

I love you! my dearest Nichole! ♥

long distance relationship

By: Darren Ng & Nichole Tin :p

This is a topic that I’ve always wanted to write, but I never had the mood or time to begin with. Firstly, I will start off with a disclaimer... If u (= readers) don't agree with what I’m going to write...too bad. I don't care. This is my view, my opinion, my blog.

There are many type of views when it comes to long distance relationship...Some say it’s rubbish and will never last, some say it’s kind of exciting, while some say if u are tough enough once, the distance passes u, it will last longer than ever. But mostly, the one I often hear of is: It wouldn't last. (Obviously not my friends, they are very positive! Extremely!~) I saw this online "Distance can make the heart grow fonder, but too much distance can make the heart wander", it makes me wonder whether it’s true. Many stories I’ve found online and heard live are happy ones, of course there are the sad ones too, and some even worse...the sadder ones. Me? Someone told me before, it would be tough, but no one told me it will be that tough. But...I still love her...

Long distance relationship will give you your happiest and your saddest moment. Never cried or experience at the verge of crying in an airport before? LDR will give you that chance. Never been upset or cried before because you won't see your love one for months after that day? LDR will give you that exact chance. With LDR I am able to see things in different perspectives. In the past, I never understood why some partners do certain things (like cheating) despite having a very loving other half (some are still pure bastard/bitches though), but I finally do understand a little. LDR is not for the weak-hearted ones. If you don't really love someone strong enough, sooner or later you’ll be exposed. There are no doubts that there will be times where you will feel lonely and there are no doubts that your love one will not be there when you are experiencing your lowest moments of your life, but are these the best excuses one can come up with if you even dare to swear u love your partner with all u have in the first place? If you really do think these are the best excuses ever, it only shows how pathetic you are and you should just die in a earthquake or some other sort.

When people tell me how much they miss their other half, despite it being just a few days or 1-2 weeks, I often joke that, “What about me...” and laugh about it. Yet deep inside, how I wish I were them. Things that are not a big problem in a normal relationship will increase tenfold, misunderstandings might happen easily. Then, patience and understanding becomes more important than ever.

So should anyone get caught up in a LDR? I would leave it open-ended. If you really love someone, give it a try and try to make it happen. Three important essences to make LDR work: FAITH, TRUTH and COMMUNICATION. You will experience something that you will never would; you will feel love that you will never have. It may be tough but at the end of the day, if you truly love her/him, it’s worth it. When u finally meet up after awhile away, trust me...it is magical and WOAH!

For me, there are people who don't meet each other for years; therefore I am not that bad...a t least, if u try to think in such a positive way. For normal couple who are happily together and meet often, appreciate each another’s company always and never take love for granted. :)

P.S. I love you dear♥ , Nichole
P.S.S. I love you too dear ♥, Darren

There is no reason to love...

Lady: Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason. But I really like you...

Lady : You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.

Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man : Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful,
because your voice is sweet,
because you are caring,
because you are loving,
because you are thoughtful,
because of your smile,
because of your every movements.
The lady felt very satisfied with the man's answer.

********

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went into the coma stage. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you...Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile, because of your every movement that I love you...Now can you smile? Now can you move?
No, therefore, I cannot love you.
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Does love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, I still love you...And love doesn't need a reason

With love always,
Forever yours.
*******

Relationships are hard to handle......might even seem impossible at times.
There will be many fights and many quarrels,
many disagreements and many tears.....
The easiest thing would be to give up.
But if we spent half the energy we use in fighting with each other,
and spend that energy in fighting to keep the relationship strong, then that is love……
Remember, in a relationship, giving up is not the solution Disagreements, fights and quarrels will always be there.
But you must always fight harder to stay together.
Some fights are truly worth fighting.

I am currently at the airport massaging my leg and writing this blog post. Shall not type much and shall update you all if I have wireless internet tonight. Waiting for my plane now to Perth and I am excited! :D

i don't deny that mac has one of the coolest design of all the laptops...and it OS is kind of fun. but when it down to serious work...i am so use to Windows that I feel like throwing my sis mac on the floor...I just can't figure it out!

i need to resist my past habits!! it will not change anything!!

"It takes more courage to suffer than to die." - Napoleon Bonaparte

i feel so emotional this few days...i have no idea why...first time ever...to this level...i just feel so bad...i become bad-tempted and feel so shit like suffering frm some shit...thanks god there is someone always with me chatting with me every night (sometime during day) to make me happier always...if not things will be worst...

i constantly have to remind myself about this...let just hope i am right and things will be fine.

Newton's third law: To every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction

and something I saw online, kind of make me feel down...I hope it wrong.

"Distance can make the heart grow fonder" "Too much distance can make the heart wander"...


*Update: Upon seeing this...I just can't sleep. It troubling me...

PM promises to review immigrant policy under mounting pressure

This article is interesting as I totally agree with it. Can anyone remind me what the benefits of being a Singaporean again? I seem to have forgot about it. Okay I admit, there is some benefits but wait, is it worth it for the cons we receive? But there is something I have to agree with him. Dare to dream, if u don't than don't blame anyone else than yourselves if at the end of the day all u have is a boring 9am-6pm job. Bill Gates, Warren Buffett, Richard Branson...They started their empire by DREAMING.

"Dare to dream, surprise yourself with what you achieve and create a better future for all of us."


In the face of rising discontent and disgruntlement on the ground and with the prospects of an election looming over the horizon, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong said that he will “review” the government’s long-standing pro-foreigner policy.

During a dialogue with 1,500 undergraduates at the National University of Singapore yesterday, Mr Lee said the rapid influx of foreigners will slow down as the economy is not expected to grow at the exceptional pace it did for several years until last year.

There will also be ’sharper’ differentiation in the way the Government treats citizens and permanent residents (PRs), he promised. However Mr Lee did not elaborate more on how the government will implement these changes.

Mr Lee’s stance did not differ greatly from previous ones when he reassured Singaporeans that their rights will be protected by the government while reiterating the importance of opening Singapore’s doors to foreigners to keep the economy competitive.

His father MM Lee said in the aftermath of Singapore’s 44th National Day that foreigners are “vital” to Singapore’s economy and urged Singaporeans to “embrace” them.

Mr Lee echoed MM Lee’s views again when he emphasized that in a competitive and integrated world, a ’sustained, calibrated inflow’ of immigrants is necessary to ’safeguard the long-term interest of Singaporeans’.

While most Singaporeans understand the need for foreign workers to take up jobs shunned by locals and to boost the flagging population, many are becoming increasingly discomfited by the relentless influx of foreigners in recent years which has helped to push the prices of HDB flats to record high.

Letters began appearing in the Straits Times Forum complaining about the language skills of the newcomers, the unfair competition for jobs with NSmen who have to serve 4 weeks of reservist per year as well as competition for Primary 1 registration places.

The general perception on the ground is that citizenship confers no additional benefits over PRs other than slightly less subsidies for healthcare and education and the right to vote and stand for elections which is of little relevance since less than half the electorate gets the opportunity to vote during the elections.

Mr Lee claimed he “understood the concerns that locals have – ranging from fears about the competition posed by newcomers, to irritation about the latter’s different habits, accents and weak command of the English language.”

“I understand and empathise with these concerns. Worries have grown because of large inflows in the last few years,” he said.

Mere empty rhetoric is not enough. Mr Lee should follow up on his words with concrete action to safeguard the interests of Singapore citizens who are becoming increasingly short-changed and marginalized by the government’s liberal policy towards foreigners.

A clearer distinction must be made between foreigners who sincerely wish to contribute to Singapore’s growth and make Singapore their home and those out to milk the system for their own benefits.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIC ♥ !!!
Love you always!! =D (Every thing else I need to say, I probably have done through different medium :p)

XxxxxxX,
Darren, Piggy Ng!


Here is one wish I have even though it not my birthday!
It have Nichole to be genuinely happy. Seeing her happy is my biggest joy. :)

i think i am addicted to debit card. bank no money also apply for fun. put in wallet also happy. i am mad! lol... I have 3 debit card liao, looking to increase to my fourth! The Capitaland Master Platinum Debit Card. :X Actually quite troublesome to have so many card...but nvm la...collection!!!!

I have been pondering about something in the recent days. And ironically it was inspire from a module I never like. Principal of Marketing. What are needs and wants...

Needs: State of felt deprivation including physical, social, and individual needs

Wants: Form that a human need takes, as shaped by culture and individual personality.

Wants + Buying Power = Demand

So if something's value is based on demand, if it does not meet the needs and wants of someone, no matter how good or useful the something is, it will still be worthless and will not meet your satisfaction. So it never about how good something is but whether it meet your own personal needs and wants. The world is so xian shi...and that how life works.

Happy 3rd Month...

MR LAM MAKE MY DAY (NIGHT)!!!!!

From Lam: One Step at a time people...一步一步来！

This is my quote of the day... :)

Newton's third law: To every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction

and u think it only applicable to physics? think again...

i am currently at a prominent fast food chain regional director office to work on her computer. her office so big, so cool!! :) There even a small garden kind of thing next to her office. If I ever work in office, wish my office is as nice and simple as hers. :)

yesterday if u people realise about my facebook status...i am very sorry...it was just suppose to be playing around but Starhub decided to play me too by giving me trouble to access FB itself. But I can tell u is...for now why would I do that? I love Nic so much...It not possible. She my beloved dear dear. :P So if you are thinking that that could happen any soon, I have 3 words for u..."Tan Gu Gu". Anw, if it really happen, check out my blog for comfirmation...Cause I never once never blog about such stuff, my blog is like the moderated version of my life... =D

one more thing...is AirAsia has agree to my request to visit their academy in KL!! WOAH! :) It a dream come true? Maybe...Just a small little little step to achieve my dream as a pilot. Will learn more about how it like to be pilot.. =D

Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart - Confucius.

CANT MY FREAKING DNS SERVER JUST GET IT ASS TO WORK....IT JUST SO IRRITATING TO RECEIVE 100 OVER EMAILS A DAY TO PROVE THAT IT FAILED.


*I am so not going to work with my current designer anymore...he is delaying all my clients and i have to clear his crap...

i have so got to relax...i can't be thinking of leaving this country all the time whenever i am stress and mess up...

Somehow when I first listen to this song, I kind of like it...I don't know why...



Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think of you

Caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new
Flash back warm night, almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after sometime you pictured me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're callin' to me
I can't hear what you've said
Then you said, "Go slow, I fall behind"
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades
And darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

You said, "Go slow, I fall behind"
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

Time after time

i tried...but i am getting tired soon...

yahooo!!! i saw my letter in living room. is my frequent flyer card frm air france/klm. actually is just a ivory card...(mean the lowest level in their club)...but at least this means i have at least one point!




if u wonder i got fly airfrance or klm to europe? nah...i only flew with Malaysian Airline...they are partners... :p

*P.S...Hope my request to visit AirAsia academy will be accepted!! Finger cross! :X

i realise my own blog is great to vent my feelings...quite fun...can spam somemore...it soon to be the non-explicit version of my own personal blog.

sometime i wish i will remain a solo soul, leave whenever i want, fly whenever i want, no need to worry about others, no need to think of others, i wonder how it will be like...

people often say no point running away from the problem...what i say is...if u can run away from the problem, than run away la...knn...face the problem for what...one less problem is one less thing to think about.

meanwhile, back to thinking of my business plan...i am motivated to make it success by hook or by crook. i can do it!

i very head pain! i don't know should i combine my projects or separate it under different entity. worst i have a project which domain expiring soon, so should i close it down or maintain it... headache headache...no proper plan yet!!

Purpose of this post? No idea. :p

我爱你!

a new day a better day. even my spolit water heater by miracle somehow work. this afternoon i feel i have finish quite abit of delay project/things i always wanted to do but somehow i failed to even start. at least it starting now... :) great!

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

it a tough time to be in already...worst when everyone else treat u like moron and think u are just thinking too much...

worst when it come frm the one you love.

i am seriously confused about everything. to sum up my life, i am walking without direction. no idea where i am heading to...u know something is wrong with u, when u start to wonder why are u living for, u start to hope that u could just sleep forever, when u start avoiding reality and basically hope u don't exist. i have nothing much to rmb this year, while my happiest period happen this year but sadly my lowest point cover it up...bad moments are one too many, happy moments are one too little.

the though of oversea make me happy! i am tempted to add one more itinerary to my fullfilling trip of year 2009! PENANG or KUCHING! short-haul yes but who cares! i just love to take planes and I love to explorer...that all that matters! :) Jetstar shld be having a promo this fri...$8 trip again? I will take it this time!! :P No doubt!! Date shld be between the first two weeks of Nov, weekday most likely, weekend AIR TICKET SO EXPENSIVE. Reason is simple. After that two weeks is peak season, Hotel will be expensive like shit and it will last till end of DEC! I SHALL NOT BE RIP OFF!! NO WAY!! WAHAHAHAHAHA...HOLIDAY SO EXCITING!!

after alot of months of break, i am finally back to golfing. i wanted to touch the clubs only next month but it just seem too tempting! it like the holy grail! and convice myself that i probably i can use this as a test to see what going wrong. and straight away upon hitting, firstly my swing is off off and off...expecting additional distance but crap...like expected, my fitness is not there anymore. i can't swing effortlessly high tempo no more. it just getting tiring tiring to swing this way. time to get my lazy ass to build up my fitness to be ready for 2010 last junior season (i will be 18 after all)! haven played a junior tournament since last year?...missing out all the games!! my handicap maybe near single...but the way i play now is far from it!!! damn it!!!! AHHH!!!!! need to train hard!!! i just got a set of japanese drama frm Alicia (NONG TIME NO SEE!!) just a moment ago!! can camp at home tmr le!! WOAH!!! i heard it good!! =D Golfing make me happy!!! :)

i also realise i have two golf items for sell...i will post them on ebay...i want them off my house...waste space!!! and plus extra cash $.$...i want to get new gloves and practice tees (which sadly been disappearing frm my bag)

TARGET: BACK ON COURSE NOV/DEC!! =D SCORE: 85 and below!! :P

“There is no such thing as absolute value in this world. You can only estimate what a thing is worth to you.” - Charles Dudley Warner

what i have learn throughout my life is...if people are not going to appreciate what u have done then there isn't any point of doing it anyway.

i went golfing today. and it was bad...very bad...will post full story later...

dear...u rmb this ma? :p

Patrick Demarchelier....His work is good. :)

http://www.hasselblad.com/masters-2003/january---patrick-demarchelier.aspx
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/fashion/3365143/Patrick-Demarchelier-I-dont-like-exhibitionist-women....html

o ya! before i forget, yesterday was hell of a day!! managed to go back to meet teachers and meet old friends! at night, the buffet was hell!! will be part of my childhood. laugh like siao. how to hide food to prevent food wastage? flatten it between two plates. :) And of course!! The battle of the Nonya Kueh! Will post more details later in the day. Very tired!! Last time sleep 2hours (and Tiger Woods failed to win! DAMN IT)...Why am I still awake now? To force myself awake to chat with dear just now. And now GO TO SLEEP!

ppl often mention to me with faith and determination nothing is not possible. if only it was true. if only it was that simple. logically speaking, perhaps in a perfect world with faith and determination anything will be possible, but are we living in a perfect world? no. we are not. sometime there are too many external factors that we can't even control of. so what do we do about it? we either give up of it or take a risk. but like in a risk there is a huge chances it will fail and hurt u badly, so enjoy the current and in the future when it finally hurts u...than face it. this is life not a paradise anyway.

I suddenly have mood to golf!! My mood is there!! GOSH GOSH GOSH!! I will be back for next time!! One more shot at the junior tournaments and that it! Must train!

Target: Single Handicap!

I trust that everything happens for a reason, even when we're not wise enough to see it. - Oprah Winfrey

"You can always become better" - Tiger Woods

Bolton 2 - Liverpool 3 :)



I am sorry. I didn't know what I do will make you feel so down... :( I sux.

i think my life is freaking empty. i think i need to find more stuff to fill my time. have a job, do volunteer work, learn new stuff? if not it seem i have a freaking empty life.

WAHAHAHA SO CUTE!

I was watching History Channel (Yes i know...weird...) it was playing a documentary about Soviet Union and Gorbachev...And I am particularly motivated by one of his quote. I find it quite meaningful.

If not me, who? And if not now, when? - Mikhail Gorbachev

Sometimes we are often discourage by a tough task that no one else has succeeded before we even start trying...But think of this quote...If u are not going to try to be the first...then who? If you are not going try now, then when?

If you have anything that you wanted to do but always worry it not possible (for example a career as a director in the Hollywood), I should say go ahead and try it. Our life is short, u might as well try for what u want. If u worry no one managed to do that, than why not you be the first? If you think now is not the time to start aiming for it, than when? At least at the end of day, if u failed, at least u failed trying and not because u failed to try.

damn!! after spending so much time flying plane. I have temptation to travel again!! =D If my solo travel to Perth go well and it not bad to travel alone!! I November (Dec, too expensive! Hate school holidays!!) shall travel alone again!! Pontan two days of school, maybe go Kuching, KL or Penang! 2 days 1 night!! PERFECT!! WAHHAAHAHAHA! :P I want go Japan soon!!!! Konichiwa!!

I wanted to post this photo yesterday but forget about it...

This is what I have write during stats lecture...I didn't notice till I was studying for stats yesterday.

the last few days has been shit. insomnia. didn't sleep more than 15 hours for 3 days i think?... i am stress about my exam? stress about my other stuff? I don't know. I just feel so tired every night yet I can't sleep. having mood swing and idk la. it really shit to be tired and can't sleep. it sucks. so finally i get a proper sleep yesterday night and damn it good! finally!! FULL 8 HOURS OF SLEEP!! not enough to replenish my sleep but it cool!

what happen yesterday let it be yesterday...today is a new day and let it be. idk what i doing but sometime the distance just frustrate me i guess but it cool. and ily still.

i feel so ignored... :(




BLEH!

one quick post before i sleep...today sleep liao guai guai de...first time nv really chat with dear. not i don't want...but cannot afford to :(...still got so much stuff to study. damn it! :( i shall go sleep...wake up in the morning and chong. (It always work for me for stuff that need to memories like fark)...

ILY! *Muack* :)

No wonder my mum told me not to sleep so late often...I get use to sleeping late, i can't sleep any earlier. And my exam is tmr at 12.30pm :) . Not exactly good thing I guess. I just can't sleep. I lie on my bed for a hour...i figure out it better to study more than to just lying there. Realise Liverpool match is going on and Liverpool lost (1-3)...And it raining outside. How bad my day can be? Hope it will not spill over when the sun is out...Hope I will do well for my POA exam! Cross all finger...

Facts of the day: I usually don't do well doing on exam days when Liverpool lose...My motivation/energy level links to it... :(

*I finally understand why do ppl argue that badly with the referee (to a extent of swearing at them)...because?....some referee deserve it...

WOAH!! I FINALLY LAND A PLANE SUCCESSFULLY! I SO HAPPY!! IT ON A ASIANA A321 FROM SEOUL to RUSSIA PLACE... :) SO HAPPY!

i am super tired...i just sleep early today!! :)

I Can't Help It But To Post This...

As I have FINALLY figure out WHAT THE HELL ECON is...I can't help it but to post this.

I took a break and went on a blog hopping. And I can't help it but to post this...two weeks is considered as VERY LONG to meet ur gf/bf?? How I wish it was only that "VERY LONG"...

What I am saying is...treasure ur relationship. U might see each other be it once two weeks, once a week, twice a week. The amount of meetup may not be alot but at least u met. Enjoy every moment and rmb there are always couples alot worst off than u all. Alot Worst...trust me...

Before I sleep I shall wrap up a good day. 3 reasons...

1. I got back my mood to study...(abit late yes, but it better to be late than never)...

2. Liverpool won 4-0. Woah...Just watch finish the match and this season will be interesting. New players, some players seem to be playing better, interesting is all i can say :) And of course by having Man Utd losing today, finish up the main course.

3. Lastly...Hmm...This is more personal and probably the main reason why I am pleased. Glad it over. I think I have wake up...I hope I won't do any "stunts" again...It might happen again but I will try my best to really avoid it! I promise. :) Without ur tolerant, i think we will be history. :)



With this...I shall sleep...Goodnight ppl :)

i cant stop thinking about this song all night...


Sorry - Buckcherry

Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back.
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

This time I think, I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah

Sorry
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry.

only with a timely slap in your face...than u will wake u up...

Woah!! Slacking in starbucks now. Here are the pictures.

people often think and want things that worth a value...but often forget about those priceless things that exist around them. if i hv a choice, i prefer the way things are today and will never exchange it for anything, even if it me being rich. i prefer the way things going now for me and will never risk exchanging things that will affect this important base.

Happy Second Month & One Day..

Should have post earlier...but nvm...got post better than no post...

Happy Second Month & One Day Dear! :)

My Starbucks I have just now...When you come back, I will treat you! :)

*P.S - Saw something familiar? :P

ooo...the snapshot i keep taking...when i view them...i can't stop smiling... :P

THIS IS FOR TIVONA...

This post is for my friend Tivona. Who i call her BigT, or BigTV or BigPlasmaTv or 42inch Tv. She is crazy, she talk crap with me, she just make ppl smile. Okay, she sometime get emo but...who don't get emo. She is no Jessie. She is moi prata buddy and someone I can count on when i am down. I swear she is a good friend and I am real lucky to know her. :)

*feel free to laugh at her too...i permit! :)

this message is endorsed by Darren Ng 2009! :)

Satu ♥
Satu Nic!

wahahaaha!! wake up late today! sleep alot!! shoi!! suan!! thanks alot guys for the birthday day wishes i been receiving. the shocking part..my pri sch friend still can rmb...lol...will be celebrating with my family today so yay!! i also want to thanks those that celebrate with me on national day. i am surprise...so jessie u are wrong!!

the message i received last was surprising! and kind of sweet! :P haix...but sadly u are not here :(
I ♥ You!

if i have a phrase to describe life it will "it full of surprise"...when u have ur happiest moment, usually someone will have to kick ur groin and bring u down the earth again. but when u have ur worst moment...ur encouragement source sometime come from the unexpected...so unexpected that u sometime wonder how did it happen. maybe the bad stuff that happen to you the past...could be ur motivation in the future.

ahhhh! it shitting me...maybe it shld not hv happen in the first time....

Last 3 days have been mind-blasting!! Shit!! Which means haven study yet!!!!!

8/8/09 - Went Basketballing
9/8/09 - Went Mind-Cafe with YT,Sheng,AP, TIVONA and Jessie...Night went to Orchard with Rachel, WK, JUnko.
10/8/09 - Gathering with my Pri Sch Friends and Watch G.I Joe

Will post pictures and a more in-detail post of events tmr or the day after tmr!! =D

The video is for you! Even though idk i was recorded but since it recorded...than it for you than. =D

Idk Why...Wake up jiu like this le. Blur blur de. Like something bothering me like this...Don't know la. Than David morning send me such a message...Alan zhang da le! =D Going out later! WOAH! Shang shang xin.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

I Love You. Singapore you too? :p

And and and..i finish Akai Ito this morning...LIKE FINALLY...last night plus this morning equal finally done.

I believe in destiny...do u?

Went to Botanic Garden to take some pic for my portfolio, figure out staying at home will result in thinking stuff that isn't good for the mind. I didn't know Botanic Garden will have so many people, I though it was some wulu place but I am wrong. Many foreigners, Many Singaporean and Many Marriage Couple going there to have their wedding photo taken. All of them so happy, all faces smile smile maybe some bride not that happy (Than again who would be happy with the bloody hot sun shining on them while they wearing a Bridal Gowns but deep inside..they must be very happy), Bless them! :D Off to bballing!


feel (EXPERIENCE) Show phonetics
verb [L or T] felt, felt
to experience something physical or emotional:

That the definition of feeling? So sad? To me, it more than that...something cannot be describe by words and can only feel by heart. It something WOAH, something out of the world, something deep inside that we can't understand and will never will.

I have realise something while having dinner a moment ago...my eating habits seem to have too. I hate fishcake in the past, now i just want to bite them. I ditch my mango redtea for honey greentea now. I don't like Coke but I just love it now. I munch on Choco which I never do it for awhile. When I at NTUC just now, I stop at the shampoo section, it give a certain familiar smell, i stay there for awhile, idk why but I just did that...Maybe all these just make me a feel alittle bit closer...

Have to settle some resignation matters in the Zoo in the morning (10am - 12pm only, i also don't why but just hv to settle them quick) so did not managed to go sch for my POA lecture. I guess will have to self-lesson than. Decided to go Lot 1 to look at some stuff before going home but it was a wrong decision. So many couples around...it just so...idk...sad? maybe...but more like a punch to ur stomach, u just feel...idk... :'(

To know the bottom of the truth...u have to fall to the bottom first. - Darren Ng 2009

My Future Office! :D

What Goes Around, Comes Around - My New Mantra.

^^This is my new mantra...I shall believe in karma and pray for the best^^ :D

Woah!! Here is my crab and prawn I have...may seem gross but it taste very nice!! :D

On the side note...i just have to write this somewhere...
Youth often they do not regret till till they lose it.

i got abit of headache...damn...head very heavy...need to rest!!!

anw...meeting that Indian in Sec 1 at Editional Club (Weird place to meet but yes)...is seriously one of the best thing ever happen to me...along with his future wife of course....thank alot for ur words, it helpful.

anw...meeting nic and hv her as my gf is probably one of the best thing too...she always try her best to understand me and never once angry over my stupidness in both my thoughs and actions...luv her tons.

i need to sleep...headache...will study hard!! my C+ for stats motivate me even more... =D

Today went to schooolll!!! First lesson I have is POA!! I so happy!! I got another A for my second ICA. Now I have confident for the final paper le!! =D Have stats later on, damn..my project only have a C+...Damn it!!! SUX man....Have to score well for Stats final paper le...Haix...Last POM lecture...Ms Susan Paua chong revision lecture from Lecture 1 to 13...So fast!! But at least now have some idea what to study. That all my sch life. On the way home, from MRT to Home...Someone up there seem to want me to be reminded about some stuff...Keep appearing!! Not bad...but for now non are options. I also don't know why I suddenly have mix feeling over a topic. Seem weird. I always have a fix opinion but when I know of a experience...I seem to have a change of feeling...not exactly change but...just alittle more...i don't know how to say but yeah...I finally know why u don't stop learning in any point of your life...it is always not enough. When u though u know alot, all u know is just the surface...

All the food I have taken with my phone in the last few weeks... :D

call me old-fashion or what crap but here is my definition for relationship...to find someone i love to spend the rest of my life with... :D

here is my original quote...
Love is like Orchestra...In order to have a good music from a orchestra, the string, brass, woodwind, percussion must work together, ordinate and have the will to make it happen. For love, in order to make it forever, both must work together, have the will to make it happen and love each other.

and lastly...i am never wrong! :D ILY.

Still no pictures today!! Too bad i want to sleep. Maybe tmr...

i am sleeping soon. it has been awhile since i sleep at 12plus. but today pig is tired so i guess i will be sleeping early. that not a bad thing though...been sick for 2 days...seem to be better today but gods know what will happen tmr morning. if it fever again, i will go see a doctor. one idiot add me on msn today and woah is one of my old tuition friend, didn't know that moron is still alive :P, discuss about things on our life...and all this bastard can give me is this...

"Can this really be done? Can a girl have another boyfriend overseas, when she has a boyfriend back home? Can she be allowed to subscribe to third party insurance, before the current insurance policy expire? Can she allow multiplayer for a game that's meant to be for single players only? Can she install a back up hard disk, in case the current hard disk becomes corrupted?"

Soon i realise, his vocab did not improve all this years to write all this stuff on his own and that bastard just need something to provoke me AS USUAL. Finally he confess he rip it off from this. (not that i am surprise given it not possible for him to think and type it out) quite interesting read but still WTH...
http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2005/03/long-distance-l.php

Great to chat with that bastard again...and i will forget how i push you down the swimming pool after tution (parc oasis fyi) ...u look retard. =D

i live to fly...i fly to live...if i can't fly...where is the purpose?

i hate being sick. it so fark up. i seem to be getting worst. regretting so late still awake...i shld hv sleep early. too sick to post any photo. tmr than post bah ...i mean that all? my mum once told me...words is cheap...it most likely to be true. still hv one more project! FUCK!

since i wanted to sleep at 2pm...now still have time...so i shall blog abit...today wake up on time. wanted to reach sch on time...but due to 243 being crowded AGAIN! I am LATE AGAIN!! haix. went to stats lecture and phone call frm terence...mean working time. took longer than expected...my whole 4 hour break stuck in the office (MEAN NO LUNCH). after POM tutorial, stomach really is hungry!! drag yuqi (thanks for the chewy junior) to jp...must get food. got XXL chicken...wahaha...the extra chilli and pepper is shoi de lor!! than also DORISA and her friend...on 243...i also saw GUAN SENG!! saw so many ppl today!!! wahhaaha...went home....wanted to nap...but pig chat with me...so in the end never nap and chat with her till now.

ILY. Hope you will feel much better soon. =D

My blog no picture so long le...I shall post pictures tmr!!

8 years is the number. it long. it really really long. it super duper long...is wth long... can i wait? that the question....to be honest i have no answer for it. i have no answer at all. i am afraid of many things. what if another girl...what if...idk...there is many what if...and it does kill u...it twist ur mind, it emo u. but that the brickwall u have to face but how do u face it? 3 options. some decided to break up and avoid the wall all together. some..the 'what if' happens...which mean...they have bang right into the wall...some managed to climb/fight the wall and live happily ever after...which lead to only 2 options...turn back and avoid any chances or go ahead and fight it. u ask me have i ever think of this "maybe we shldn't be together eh"...idk...i really don't knw. what i knw is love is about taking risk. no risk no gain. it not what the final results that counts but is the journey that matters.

Night = :(
Morning = :)

Blood just can't fucking stop flowing from my nose. What a fuck night i been feeling...

Woah...i just saw ur blog...i didnt knw u took a photo of tht rose...i though it have been quash in ur blog :p. Anw...i found the reason why i emo le...i realise i did not remove my contact lens...no wonder my eye irrirated like shit...emoing is just part of me...dont take it to heart. :p

We're looking at the same star but with distance apart...it may sucks but the same love we have for each other shows that we are still close at heart.

Sorry for accidentally fallen asleep last night... :(

Darren

While I may seem better than Monday...but without you around, my heart feel so empty and it is missing of someone. YOU...

"Every night....The memories of ur face when u are just awake, happy, sad or feeling stupid etc...just make my heart tickles..." - Darren 2009

Nic! Te Amo!

I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love you."- By Someone Else

"She's the One"

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling

When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna say it
You'll be so high you'll be flying

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
Yeah she's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

today my pig think i am :\ and now she become :\...than i soon to become :\ le! than now she think i am a porn. do i look one? gosh. seriously, i am okay. really! be high pls! i really don't like to see u so down...it make me feel down too...

ily. :)

This will be a three to four part in 3 to 4 days story...I hope it will continue...but hell...I will just type to how i feel now. The day I know was 5 years ago...I never really remember much other than u are quiet and more quiet girl....Chat with u on MSN than...u won't like what I expected...I took ur blue mountain climbing clip...giving you one lame reason but somehow u are dumb enough to borrow it to me. I lost my shoe bag and my memories lost along with it. Fast track to 2009. I was dumb enough to start chatting with u after 2 years...after that life have never been the same again. Been distracted by ur constant on and off mood...I am always confused how to do you feel. Are you interested or not? I just do not enough hints and assurance about it. One mahjong session change it all. I decided to go for it!! and in lamest of way...I appear offline right away... :P...

To be continue! later or tmr...

Before I dedicated my next 3 or 4 posts (Sat, Sun, Mon or Tue) to my beloved _ _ _...I shall post this picture!!!! WOAH!! Finally I wore this tag aleast once...(Have no decided whether to cut my hair or not)....Need to start thinking on content! I think...

Haix...Finally after 2 weeks...You are leaving...It just...IDK...the feel just cannot be describe by words. Life is a bitch...she will give you your happiest moment first before taking back in a quick moment. While I do not know what will happen in future...All I care is the present and at this present all it matters now is I LOVE YOU!

Thanks for giving me my best 2 weeks ever...I enjoy every moment for it...EVERY! I am so so so sorry if I can't keep my emotion in check when Monday comes...

“You know that you are in love when the hardest thing to do is say good-bye!!”

"People so seldom say I love you till it too late. So when I tell you I love you, It doesn't mean I know you'll never go, Only that I wish you didn't have to.”

Wahahaha...I figure out since I write Emo post before....I write Nonsense post before....and seriously not much ppl read my blog anyway....A few do...but...to anyone who don't like what I write...than just don't read it...Simple as that....Today I will write something which is very obvious and pretty don't care what other people things or whether do ppl see it or not.

This post is dedicated to my special one!

Enjoy this post cause I will most likely not posting such a entry in the coming weeks. I know you maybe worry about people seeing this or what but I don't care!! This post is dedicated to 14th june. After all this days with you...especially today...Confirm liao!!! Chop Plus Stamp Plus Anything Else... The feeling is weird...it different and it like never been before...I just feel awaken...It just good! Can't be describe through any words and I just feel like in Cloud Nine! :D And lastly I know truth hurts...But I CAN CONFIRM AND DEEP FROM MY HEART TO TELL U...I LOVE YOU! You are the only one in my heart! With Nobody else! BLEH! :P

Yesterday finally after much planning, we FINALLY went for Steamboat to celebrate Rachel's Birthday! WOAH!! We went there around 5 and we left a 8. Not bad. 3 hours of continuous eating. Eat PLENTY of FISH and PRAWN....Eat until very very full! After finish Dinner, Junko want to go Fu Lu Shou complex nearby there the shop for awhile...but suai suai...it started to rain heavily! So bad we decided to camp at Ful Lu Shou Complex at the end. Rain isn't that bad...I am so bored...I hop in the rain with a umbrella looking like a gay (RACHEL haven upload the video yet)...In Fu Lu Shou, just sit around, playing music, cam whore more and yeah wait for the rain to stop. Went to Bugis Junction after that...have Chewy Junior (OREO) for supper (after that my stomach started to be uncomfortable) and went home. As usual like all night...chat with my pig before sleeping.

The days u are going to be here are getting lesser and lesser...It counting down every seconds as I speak. Haix...Gonna miss you!

I promise.


GROUPIE PHOTO...

MORE GROUPIE PHOTO...

A INTENDED GAY PHOTO BUT IT DOESN'T LOOK THAT BAD...

OPPS...MESSAGING MORE IMPT...

ZI LIAN...

MANGO ICECREAM!!!

I AM POKING YOU, CRAB!!!

HEAD TOO HEAVY...TOO SLEEPY....

3 GUYS....ONE CHOPSTICK...

LASTLY, OUR STEAMBOAT! TOM YUM! YUM YUM!!