Mon...

First day of school and guess what I am nearly late. Have discipline talk which basically talk about all the same thing we heard for the last three years. Recap session as the teachers call it. Went back to class and we talk about what ah. Our studies and stuff de la. After recess, my laptop which is in my bag fall out and BANG it fall on the floor. Thankfully, it did not spolit. 3 1/2 years old still working strong. Did some testimonial stuff than went for photo taking. Did some recording after school than went popo house for dinner. Went home and start doing my compre june holiday hw. Still have 3 compre and 5 compo left. AHH!!! HW sux. This year I learn something new, life skills. Sometime it better not to know than know too much. It hard to side which corner and a wrong decision may cause you to give up something. Sometime it better to live in your own world, at least you control it.

"Sha ren you sha fu"

sunday...

Wake up late in the morning. finish up 3 compre hw (but still have many more). One week never go golf le and I think I finally understand when someone say they rusty le. Really rusty le, abit cnt turn (thanks to the fast food for this whole week), get tired faster than b4. Condition abit off liao, must get back to condition soon, golfing season starting soon le. Cook lunch today, not bad, not the best but come on I am guy for god sake. 45th Speech Day and Musical coming soon. Very excited. Last school project for my CCA. Hope it will be successful. O ya, recently saw a review on HTC Touch Diamond. The more I see, the more I love it. (http://www.hardwarezone.com/articles/view.php?cid=24&id=2561). O ya, today Spain Vs Italy. Come on Spain!!! Beat the Italian ass. Recently by chance visited someone blog and kind of like this quote. It goes like this...

"I’m so afraid because I am so profoundly happy.

Happiness like this is frightening.

They only let you be this happy if they are preparing to take something from you."

My mixer for the musical at NYGS - photo by rachel

weird...

Today has been a boring boring day. but something weird happen. 7pm plus was watching tv. feel so tired so slp at the sofa. 8pm wake up but has a headache and feel shag so went to bed and slp. I have a dream. There are message in it (weird i know), sometime if thing just can't go your way, no matter how you force or try, you will just never get it. Next, the phone ring, I pick up the call and the shagness and stuff just went off. Weird but well hmm...

"Today will go by much slower than you would like -- it's tonight or tomorrow that's where you really want to be! But you will have to wait, and there is no getting around it. Where did all of your patience go? You can bring it back by trying to focus on living in the moment. Try to focus on what you're doing today and time will go a little bit faster. Spending all your energy thinking about the future is telling the universe that you don't appreciate what you have -- and that's not true, is it?" My horoscope. True or not, no idea. Just find it interesting.

My dream phone for this year, HTC Touch Diamond. So nice!

busy busy week...

this week is a busy busy week. almost tired out. musical, 45th dvd music, homework blah blah. do so much work but not even credited. that how the world work i guess. just like in a movie, actor get praise over the excellent acting blah blah but where is the credit to the backstage crew? Cameraman, video editors etc, without them, there wouldn't be any of those movies found in cinema. at least, i enjoy my job and the mates i work with. they are so fun to work with.

mon:
spend the whole day having a feel about the musical, that all.

tue:
went to nanyang girls, have a hell of a time. incharge of the main mixer (a.k.a music engineer) and o ya, the mixer mic (talkback) is so fun. i can like talk to fanny (director) from third story down to her through the auditorium speakers. YEAH!! lol. Everything went well and I guess shld be fine.

wed:
have another rehearsal today and I someone blow up. I am tired and so many thing cock up. Darren Book of Vocab come into play again but come on how on earth can someone not be angry when 2 laptop f up at the same time, the video pblm which suppose to have fix but did not fix, plus every other factor, I just blew. BOMB!!...Stay till 9pm today at school and have finally more or less finish 3 out of 4 songs. Have lesson tmr and going golfing (i guess). YAY!

Will take some photo at the future rehearsal and hopefully can post. Can't wait for the musical to end, taking up precious time to study (like i will study but whatever)...

back to school...

after a week of rest, back to school. Due to musical did not went to English lesson. Have a rehearsal at Nanyang Girls tmr so must kind of get the flow of the musical first. Don't know whether is looking forward to it or not. Have a bad feeling about it. Anw, thanks to this musical I think I badly injure my hipbone le. Shit. Carrying the mixer down to level 1, bang! There goes my hipbone. Whether I turn now, it make a bone friction sound or something. Clack clack sound. Not pain but just uncomfortable. Budget school, no lift. Guess it time to rest again or see a doctor or something. Have tons of homework left and 2 production to be done in a week. Shoi ah...

Lalaalaaa...Sat...

All I want is one more opportunity and I will never it just pass me like that again.
Once again, I have training today. So happy I got my distance problem sort out. I finally got the distance I want but the consistency wise isn't there yet but will be working on it. Went home and too tired to leave home. Soccer all night really ruin my beautiful sleep. I always though of this, imagine if the world is just feel with happiness without the barriers and stuff, will we actually feel happy and a sense of achievement. I don't know. However, if we don't realise, all this sense of achievement and proudness moment usually happen only we climb over this barriers. Without all this "barriers", I guess great people won't be form and we will be living in a one bored life. What crap but life is nv mean to be enjoyable or so. Live well and f off.

I forget how to forget. I though I do. When I idle , i just think of her. When I tried think of others, somehow she will appear. Guess what, i get along with her once and that it. I learn something. Opportunity don't come knocking twice. WTH. It might just be a blessing in disguise.

perhaps it true...golf are for the rich...

back from my exciting, memorable trip from KL. i have not much cash so ya didn't shop much. Just went there to support my sis who were there for Cathay Pacific interview. This is the first time I swear so much in three hours of my life. I pull the big bulky "BOX" containing those heavy shirt and stuff down the street up and down just to find a god-damn hotel. Coming back to Singapore, we took a coach and guess wad our seat is just plain sauna, we sitting right at the top of the engine and damn it hot. No cold aircon but hot air for 4-5 hours? Guess wad, the people right infront of the bus were putting on jacket because it too cold. I gladly change seat with them, i rather freeze to death than get cook to death.

on the way and back from malaysia within this 12 hours i have been thinking what i really want to be. and golf seem to be my dream. however back to reality, perhaps it just true, golf are for the rich. my mentor cum former coach truthfully tell me this. well actually it does make sense. practice make perfect, a single golf round cost $100 plus, so a average people like me is going to play one round max a month. while a rich teen with huge cash support from parent can easily play two rounds in a day, once in the morning once in the afternoon. who going to improve the most, you be the judge. use basketball as a example, if you want to shoot well and play well, you got to practice often. sad to say, in the game of golf, even if you have the will, without money, even will have a limit. i guess being a pro is not option for me, my youth time is running off, i do not want to further stress my parent with additional financial burden, perhaps this is just a path not for me. Life just suck sometime, don't you think so?

SP Immersion Program

Morning wake up abit late, went school for a interview for the Taman Jurong Newsletter? I guess. After that meet up with Ann Perng, Cheryl, Liling and Alan to go to the Singapore Poly Immersion Program or something like that. I am the latest sooo ya...Went we arrive there, AP kena split off from our group so left 4 of us in the business school. After a round of confusion (will not say in detail) finally I went to A1: Human Resource Management With Psychology and Business Administration. Left with no choice so have to go but it ok at the end I guess. Meet a few nice people and learn quite a few bit. Our program ended late, so once again I am the last to meet up with them again. Went home and change and went off to nafa graduate fashion show. My sister is involve so went to support her. Will post picture of it in the future if have time. Tmr going off to KL and still involve in quite a few stuff so schedule very pack but exciting I guess...
On the sideline, during sp program, I kind of notice a beatty sec girl who is in my group for the second activity. Sigh...Wasted...

Darren's Quote of the Day: Chances don't come begging, once you miss your chance, it might nv come back again.

Different Between You Want and You Can...

Recently one accident start to make me reflect. I finally got a answer to it. There is a different between you want and you can. For example, if you want to be a professional english premier league soccer player, you want to be it. You try your best, you work hard blah blah blah. But despite how good you all in Singapore, you will can never make it oversea. In conclusion, it doesn't matter whether how badly you want it but it just matter whether it is possible and can you make it, if you pass the first stage than only than you can start thinking whether do you want it and how badly dare you willing to earn for it. In life, thing that are not possible perhaps it time to just drop it. Accept the fact, life is never fair and you just have to face it.

Paiseh, my "england" abit terrible but ya... you should get the point.