Hmm...I don't know why but I just more relaxed than ever. To all people who some how face something that upset you or something, that seem to be the end of the world or something, mostly is a blessing in disguise. Why I said so, I oso don't know. Nah, it just that once your head get into a peace state and start to think normally again, you somehow feel yeah, what the point. Life is short, you have fun and f off. Where got time think so much for what, it useless. The point of this post, I oso have no idea. Either way, I going golf again for tmr and fri. Tournament at Fri, Yay. Love adult tournament, more relaxed. :)

All I want for christmas is this...

Talk about luck. or maybe it fated. despite my beloved Liverpool draw with Hull City. Guess what, Man Utd Draw, Arsenal Draw and Chelsea Draw. WOW. Twice already. Weird things indeed do happen. 

“The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.”

Elie Wiesel - Nobel Prize for Peace

After managed to find a mob-tv promo code, i got addicted to the show "First Class". It a old show but I just finish it in a few hours i guess. and guess what i just know myself abit better. It kind of weird so i will no release it on my blog. Not to the whole world at least. But think about it, some people have mention it before and yeah it true. I will have to admit it and yeah it kind of cool to know weird things about yourselves. It so different from others, not positive but not negative either. Went golfing today again and will go again tmr if time permits. If you gonna train, than train to your best. WOAH! I am bored so off to slp.

Today went to get a earphone replacement after selling off my old earphone. Went to Causeway Point. At first, my intention is get a cheap one jiu hao liao. After losing money from the old de but idiot, my ear itchy, kena poison. My mouth oso big la, want to try that for what. So I went to test the Sony MDR-EX500SL, damn, it like love at first hear wor, i consider quite a while with a cheaper option, decided to went for the one i preferred. No regrets though, love it till now (Listening to music using it now). After that, went off with my family to watch movie at Sinema Old School. It at the hilltop behind Cathay. (Have climb a very long fleet of stairs) The show is 18 grams of love. I would say not bad for a local film. I like one part of this story though, it mention, "Often we try to change and be different to impress our partner or to have a assurance keep our partner, however what we always forget is, we never look back to realise our partner love us for who we are in the past and often not the changed you". Also the movie show Trust is important in a relationship. Recently, I oso read a book call Winners Never Cheat Even In Difficult Times by Huntsman. One of the chapter "Get Mad, Not Even". It mention we should always put thing behind you, move on and not to get even to those who may have cheated on you or harm you in anyway. Why?

Those who plant Mean, Vengeful and Unjust Seeds will reap what they sow. We tend to become what we degrade.

My new earphone.

Yo people. Getting happier and happier everyday and have no reason why either. I feel so relax and I just want to sell my useless, expensive earphone I got that I don't really like. Harsh lesson. Advise are only there to refer, at the end, is your own stupid decision. Gonna lose $49 bucks thanks to this expensive lesson. Expensive Mistake. SHIT! Going to sell them and get a cheaper earphone. My cheapskate ear can't get use to my expensive earphone. Anyway, so excited, gonna start a web development business, cross my figures it gonna be successful. Finding a job too, so I can keep up with my golf hobby. Result soon to be release...............












SHIT!!!!

i usually don't comment on thing that is not personal to me or business related or other stuff. but i recently hear online about Enyouth, worst still, now targetting Youth. MLM. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multi-level_marketing) I usually don't give a damn if ppl going to believe MLM that gurantee you to be rich without you doing much. But please la, wake up your idea la, if got so easy, there won't be poor people liao lo. For every cent you earn, someone below you going to suffer. You want to be rich? Simple, Work Hard. Even if never turn rich, at least you know the money you earn is from ur sweat and not other hard earn money. Rich asses like Warren Buffett, Bill Gates, Michael Dell, Carlos Slim, all of them oso is start from scratch, there is no sub for hardwork and passion in the recipe for success.

http://mlmg.sgforums.com/forums/14/topics/128306?page=60
http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=1932003&highlight=enyouth&page=2

Lack of money is the root of all evil.
George Bernard Shaw (1856 - 1950)

"For me to earn this kinda money...sorry ...i wouldnt be able to sleep well at night...karma will follow." Me too.

Always account for variable change

A new line I like to introduce to everyone. Always account for variable change, thing change, people change, every factor change every second, every mins, every hour. Always account for them and make changes to your plan. Be it in Business, Studies etc...

Recently, I got enlighten, I never managed put to it down (ppl who know me will know what i am refering abt) but I don't know why I just got enlighten in a sudden upon a bored bus ride from city hall back home. The only reason why one can't let go, is because one do not want to let go. The reason is that simple, the rest are just excuses. It take time yes, but once who get it and let go, you will realise there will be a brighter future. Despite all the factor that may reconsider ur decision sometime it just good to chose a path and don't look back. no regret. anyway, i got back my motivation for golf that was once lacking, never have such a rushing feel for awhile, never get frustrated over a bad shot for quite sometime, never have the urge to be better for quite awhile, part and parcel of my life seem to be coming back and fixing to the way I like. One big burden seem to have left my mind, quite sad but I am happy with the way it is. For now at least. :) Got a few stuff this week, will post if have time.

The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again. - Anonymous

last night the weirdest dream happened. it has been awhile since I have dream (i am those who literally dead when i slp btw). the dream come about like this, i been working on a video project on the global entrepreneurship week, while shooting the national pushcart challenge at toa payoh (1st out of the 7 days), hmm, i kind of got attracted by a girl from Jurongville. Okay, so back to work and never think of it again. Back to present, yesterday, bloody hell, god knows, i was dreaming about her (i didn't realise till i am awake of course and yeah content=...hhmm...not for the public). So real, tht all i can describle. Kind of feel good but all gone when I wake up. Wake up from fairytale and back to reality, it does a suck a little. Anyway, went to school to look at the new computer and samsung lcd screen do look nice, i might just get a samsung tv for my room. Going golf on wed (i think), hope it don't rain.

'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. - Alfred Lord Tennyson

You feel different when you truly fall in love. It just feel different from your normal crush.

It was not any one thing, more of a feeling, a joy when i see her, a warmth when i touch her and she make me forget you - The Leap Years

A degree is just a passport to your interview.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller

forgetting is hard but it must be done...

the closest finish i ever seen in my life

wow. just finish watching the brazilian grand prix and damn the driver championship was close. the rain cause some drama at the end but by luck, chance, i don't know, Hamilton win it. So tiny winy close but tht is a different between first and second. Many say F1 is bored but hell today race make people bite their words. My heart beated more than ever. Massa did not win it but this is F1, it a competition, there will be a winner and a loser.

Feel like a bitch just now but i am fine now. Medicine? Study my EMaths. I suddenly love studying, it help me to concentrate on something and won't think too much. It cool and I have higher possibility to get higher marks. One stone kill two birds. My dream is to own a big company involve in everything from Hotel to Airline. How would it be. Ng's Hotel anyone? Lol. If it fail, I would just like to be a pilot. Everytime I am at sea or sky, I feel relax.

"And obviously, from our own personal point of view, the principal challenge is a personal challenge." Richard Branson

You Try So Hard To Forget Your Past,
But It Just Never Seems To Last.

You Try To Forget Whats Happened, Whats Done,
But You Just Can't Forget The Pain, The Fun.

You Wanna Move On, Forget & Forgive,
You Wanna Be Happy, Let Go & Just Live.


But It's Not As Simple As That...

understanding the phrase "the truth hurts..."

one paper is over and things has been going quite well. however, i finally understand what call "the truth hurts". Even if it seem obvious and so, even though you know it around 99% sure it is true but as long as nothing is confirm you don't feel that bad. but when you someone just confirm it after all this while, you don't feel sad or something, you feel weird and idk, the feeling just sux. i don't know, this kind of give me back my feeling to write something for today narrative compo after losing it for quite awhile.

today is graduation day. quite ok other than the fact it is at a afternoon and worst of all at fairway club. but what is over jiu shi over le. went to watch eagle eyes and never study today. will be back tmr. i think i have overcome it, not totally (doubt will ever) but good enough to move on. i realise it aren't that bad after all. photos time.

sia lah...

i did the impossible. nv in my life, i study from morning to night. monday, i studied for about 12 hours. today, i studied at least for 8 hours. wow. 20 hours. it will usually take me 2 weeks to reach that much. as usual, determine to stick my daily routine to reach school by 8am and study at pulse regardless got lesson or not. more or less, finish my emaths le, now going to science and humanities next week. :) Amath still considering whether it worth the time to concentrate. Kena influence, i suddenly like abit of alternative genre, symphonic metal, genre that i will though of touching. i went youtube, i like this music video. beri nice



Ok that all. Back to study.

random...

Another random post by me. :) Love this song.



"Blind" - LifeHouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

To all muslim friends out there, may I wish you guys a Selemat Hari Raya. Enjoy the celebration. :)

Singtel Singapore GP is going to be here soon. This year no money so cannot go watch live but I will do it at least once for sure. Here are some picture, credit to the photographers who took them. Kimi's Ferrari for the win.

as the story end, we learn different things and improve on it. thanks to u, i managed to get over you. indirectly but it does work. o's is here and i will work my fucking best to do well in it. my mind is finally clear as the blue skies.

when i though it easy to get over to you but i realise it not as easy as it seem. i want to move on but something just pull me back...

In order to be the best, aim for the best and don't compare with the rest.

random

here is one of my another random post. i was surfing net and studying today. i realise macbook pro kind of nice. i always wanted to get a hp entertainment comp but got competition liao. i today oso saw the new ipod nano. damn nice la. i want the green or the light orange one. sigh, no money now but after o's will work. first for now, study first. on the random, thailand is government is so screw up, i think i can do a better job if i am a president. ok tht random. lol. nothing to type also. want to slp liao. this few days not enough. ok, i am siao.

Chinese Prelim. I either have lose interest in chinese or something is bothering me. First time ever I did not complete my paper. Worst of all, I slp in between reading the passages. I mean like how interesting it is and worst I don't understand much. But on the bright side, hey it just prelim and I already got a B3. There is o's to go. After school went to scoopz with Junko, Rachel and WK. After tht went to playground to talk talk, have fun fun and just "hehehehehe". Spam alot of photos. In a few hour near 80+ photos taken? Some abit crap but like tht more true ma. Will post next time bah, lazy to post now. Want to slp liao. Ps to 3 of u if I emo-ing just now. =D

“What makes life worth living is knowing that one day you'll wake up and find the person that makes you happier than anything in the whole world. So don't ever lose hope and give up, everything turns out okay and the good guy always wins.”

Done. Nuff. There is a different between possible and wants. What I did say to you, I do mean it, I did not lie and it from my heart. However what the point in lying to yourselves, let say pigs can't have wings. You know pigs can't have wing yet u quietly hope and hope to urselves tht pigs will have wings one day. While it is possible but will it happen? How long will it take? Or will it never happen at all? I am do enjoyed myself, ok not all the time yes but i serious got remember the happy times together. First time I ever battle the crowd just to see the firework and it with u. However what the point of having a chopstick when only one side is working, u might as don't use it at all since it will rather useless. I don't know. But than again, all those memories and stuff will be forever in my life, i swear, learn quite abit, make quite abit of error and a fool out of myself but will improve. What doesn't kill you make you stronger. I not a machine for fuck-sake. Out for point abit but thanks for the dinner, eugene, casey and marilyn, golf mates forever. :D For now friends. For future more than that? i wouldn't rule it out. I can't promise u I will wait forever but for now yes i will wait. For my mates, let me get through this stage and I swear darren will be back. Better than before? WTF.

Lastly I want to end with this. My only motivation for now. keyword "for now".
"If you love something set it free. If it comes back its yours. If it doesn't it never was."

I never like to post real-personal stuff on my blog so this time u guys are in lucky. WTH. Paiseh, if post too chim, it never meant for u anyway. :p Chimeenology. O ya, I will reply the tags soon. :)
I do it mean it when I say you are the one. I do not go and want to go into a relationship thinking wow this is going to be another teenage love affair where it never last. My only regret is not to be able to say "I love you" personally. Y? It true and you are the first tht I use "Love" instead of "Like", I hope you will be last but life is weird, U never know the ending.


Life is weird and unpredictable, tht what make it interesting. :)

"Remember brick walls let us show our dedication. They are there to separate us from the people who don't really want to achieve their childhood dreams " ~ Randy Pausch

"Always Bear In Mind That Your Own Resolution To Succeed Is More Important Than Any Other" ~ Abraham Lincoln

And lastly, my own.

"Never afraid to dream, if u don't dream, how are u going to a vision to do well in it." ~ Darren Ng

Let no one who loves be called unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbow. ~ James Matthew Barrie

WOW. Strong.

I don't know why I publish this post for...

if you love something set it free. if it comes back its yours if it doesn't it never was.

one of my favourite quote i found this year. anyway, recently i got so hook onto this song. By the script - the man who cant be moved. A very very nice song, some people may not like it but who cares.

Click here for the music video - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qw-J8kC5DHo

Anyway, for the tech geeks. It time to try out Internet Explorer 8 Beta 2. Use it and has since change my default browser to it.

I think I am rather random recently...i am rather out of my mind. lol. whatever.

happy teacher day to all.

yesterday we have our teacher day celebration and me, ierfan, ann perng, hairil and xin en perform a song done up by ierfan. i learn tht guitar for like one hour and ok la, for few days for practice, than play until like tht not bad liao la. hand still hurt from the blisters though. even though the performance can't hear and sound quite bad but neveraless it so much funny jamming with you guys. It the process tht matter and hell it fun. Tembak! *bangbangbangbangbang* After the performance, all our teachers visited our class than we hv a so call mini-celebration, enjoy ourselves than. Neveraless a very fun teacher day.
O yes, anyone who have photo pls email, send me or whatever so I can compile them together for the cds for the teachers. THANKS!!
A blur photo with the band members, cheryl and so called "lao po"...

Wednesday...

Feelin like shit recently. Feeling sick yet not sick. Injure my wrist and who know when it will recover. Sigh. Know too much of things I am not interested to know. Failing chemistry test again. Nothing seem going well, i am well speechless. Not quite sure what is she thinking also. I know nothing. Prelim coming soon and my study plan is in need of huge changes. I am so lacking behind but I believe I will catch up soon. I hope... Nothing to blog also. All the best for the Prelim people.

Quote of the Day:
Giving Up guarantee a Fail, Trying give you a Chance. - Darren

Inspire.

It has been awhile I have blog. I don't know why I nv a person who really like those long nonsense speech and stuff by VIP in event and stuff. But yesterday I went to my sister graduation ceremony and the VIP is non other than Esplanade CEO Benson Puah. His speech how future career no longer depend that much on qualification but instead on ur skills and ability to thing and help others. He also mention talent come with responsibility which I believe it so true. Only because you have talent than u will hv responsibility. Therefore instead of treating negatively, it should be taken as a compliment. Lastly, dreams. Many often stop ppl from dreaming and stuff. However, I always in other to actually believe, in order to be successful who need to dream, who need to visualise, other than you can motivate yourselves actually to achieve it. Like Mr Puah mention, If you don't dream, who will? Dream on however don't forget the reality.

Quote of the post. "We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand" - Randy Pausch

one more day to 08-08-08

one more day to the start of olympic and two more days to national day. our sadist school is not celebrating national day this year, they decided our lesson are more important than our national birthday. so much for the money spend in national education, no wonder more and more youth are migrating. than again they are smart people, why on earth you want to stuck in this island. singapore is always my homeland but do i want to stay here for my rest of my life? hmm... anyway, a teacher piss me out in class today, kind of resolve le but i still abit unhappy how unreasonable people can be but i guess that life.

Darren's Rule of Life
Rule 1: Do not let your emotion affect/overtake your aims.

Enlightenment

I have finally gain enlightenment. While many might disagree with my decision but I believe for now, in this current situation I guess this is the best. I might regret so be it. I believe one step at a time might be a dumb approach but who cares. I live for myself and I am willing to face all regrets. That life and so be it. I am speechless and who cares. Exactly.

"I believe that anyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do, provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experiences behind him." -Eleanor Roosevelt

Here are the photo i took recently. Just play with the shuttle and it the original. Not edited, what so ever. Ok, I will try to stop emo. I guess. No no. I will.

sun sun sun

sigh...so confused. i don't knw. i learn something, the past does affect ur future decision and will give u fear etc. however, we usually don't learn frm the past and do the same thing again and again hoping this time will be the same even though it nearly bound to fail. wth. i don't knw. have band recording tmr, so i guess i have to zheng zuo qi lai. must be professional. cnt let emotion overcome you when doing serious stuff. and once again, i have a quote of the day.

"Nothing happens until I make it happen."

Back to school tmr...

Back to school tmr. Nothing much happen today. Went to golf and yeah. That how I spend my day. Do finish my english hw and yeah. Feeling quite bored but lazy to go out. As usual I will provide a phrase of the day... :p

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder"

slack slack slack...

as our school celebrate the 45th. i am too tired to do anything. sat went play ball with friends than today too tired to leave home. so just slp and watch tv. no strength. wanted to start on my direct school admission entry form the personal statement or that but too lazy la. have fun on friday and guess all the hard work have paid off. of course, love the ribena i have. tmr going to golf and follow by a week worth of musical. another tough week but than again musical is nothing compare to the dinner. after this week, time to study. slackin too much, not a good sign.

"If you love something set it free. If it comes back its yours. If it doesn't it never was."

Mon...

First day of school and guess what I am nearly late. Have discipline talk which basically talk about all the same thing we heard for the last three years. Recap session as the teachers call it. Went back to class and we talk about what ah. Our studies and stuff de la. After recess, my laptop which is in my bag fall out and BANG it fall on the floor. Thankfully, it did not spolit. 3 1/2 years old still working strong. Did some testimonial stuff than went for photo taking. Did some recording after school than went popo house for dinner. Went home and start doing my compre june holiday hw. Still have 3 compre and 5 compo left. AHH!!! HW sux. This year I learn something new, life skills. Sometime it better not to know than know too much. It hard to side which corner and a wrong decision may cause you to give up something. Sometime it better to live in your own world, at least you control it.

"Sha ren you sha fu"

sunday...

Wake up late in the morning. finish up 3 compre hw (but still have many more). One week never go golf le and I think I finally understand when someone say they rusty le. Really rusty le, abit cnt turn (thanks to the fast food for this whole week), get tired faster than b4. Condition abit off liao, must get back to condition soon, golfing season starting soon le. Cook lunch today, not bad, not the best but come on I am guy for god sake. 45th Speech Day and Musical coming soon. Very excited. Last school project for my CCA. Hope it will be successful. O ya, recently saw a review on HTC Touch Diamond. The more I see, the more I love it. (http://www.hardwarezone.com/articles/view.php?cid=24&id=2561). O ya, today Spain Vs Italy. Come on Spain!!! Beat the Italian ass. Recently by chance visited someone blog and kind of like this quote. It goes like this...

"I’m so afraid because I am so profoundly happy.

Happiness like this is frightening.

They only let you be this happy if they are preparing to take something from you."

My mixer for the musical at NYGS - photo by rachel

weird...

Today has been a boring boring day. but something weird happen. 7pm plus was watching tv. feel so tired so slp at the sofa. 8pm wake up but has a headache and feel shag so went to bed and slp. I have a dream. There are message in it (weird i know), sometime if thing just can't go your way, no matter how you force or try, you will just never get it. Next, the phone ring, I pick up the call and the shagness and stuff just went off. Weird but well hmm...

"Today will go by much slower than you would like -- it's tonight or tomorrow that's where you really want to be! But you will have to wait, and there is no getting around it. Where did all of your patience go? You can bring it back by trying to focus on living in the moment. Try to focus on what you're doing today and time will go a little bit faster. Spending all your energy thinking about the future is telling the universe that you don't appreciate what you have -- and that's not true, is it?" My horoscope. True or not, no idea. Just find it interesting.

My dream phone for this year, HTC Touch Diamond. So nice!

busy busy week...

this week is a busy busy week. almost tired out. musical, 45th dvd music, homework blah blah. do so much work but not even credited. that how the world work i guess. just like in a movie, actor get praise over the excellent acting blah blah but where is the credit to the backstage crew? Cameraman, video editors etc, without them, there wouldn't be any of those movies found in cinema. at least, i enjoy my job and the mates i work with. they are so fun to work with.

mon:
spend the whole day having a feel about the musical, that all.

tue:
went to nanyang girls, have a hell of a time. incharge of the main mixer (a.k.a music engineer) and o ya, the mixer mic (talkback) is so fun. i can like talk to fanny (director) from third story down to her through the auditorium speakers. YEAH!! lol. Everything went well and I guess shld be fine.

wed:
have another rehearsal today and I someone blow up. I am tired and so many thing cock up. Darren Book of Vocab come into play again but come on how on earth can someone not be angry when 2 laptop f up at the same time, the video pblm which suppose to have fix but did not fix, plus every other factor, I just blew. BOMB!!...Stay till 9pm today at school and have finally more or less finish 3 out of 4 songs. Have lesson tmr and going golfing (i guess). YAY!

Will take some photo at the future rehearsal and hopefully can post. Can't wait for the musical to end, taking up precious time to study (like i will study but whatever)...

back to school...

after a week of rest, back to school. Due to musical did not went to English lesson. Have a rehearsal at Nanyang Girls tmr so must kind of get the flow of the musical first. Don't know whether is looking forward to it or not. Have a bad feeling about it. Anw, thanks to this musical I think I badly injure my hipbone le. Shit. Carrying the mixer down to level 1, bang! There goes my hipbone. Whether I turn now, it make a bone friction sound or something. Clack clack sound. Not pain but just uncomfortable. Budget school, no lift. Guess it time to rest again or see a doctor or something. Have tons of homework left and 2 production to be done in a week. Shoi ah...

Lalaalaaa...Sat...

All I want is one more opportunity and I will never it just pass me like that again.
Once again, I have training today. So happy I got my distance problem sort out. I finally got the distance I want but the consistency wise isn't there yet but will be working on it. Went home and too tired to leave home. Soccer all night really ruin my beautiful sleep. I always though of this, imagine if the world is just feel with happiness without the barriers and stuff, will we actually feel happy and a sense of achievement. I don't know. However, if we don't realise, all this sense of achievement and proudness moment usually happen only we climb over this barriers. Without all this "barriers", I guess great people won't be form and we will be living in a one bored life. What crap but life is nv mean to be enjoyable or so. Live well and f off.

I forget how to forget. I though I do. When I idle , i just think of her. When I tried think of others, somehow she will appear. Guess what, i get along with her once and that it. I learn something. Opportunity don't come knocking twice. WTH. It might just be a blessing in disguise.

perhaps it true...golf are for the rich...

back from my exciting, memorable trip from KL. i have not much cash so ya didn't shop much. Just went there to support my sis who were there for Cathay Pacific interview. This is the first time I swear so much in three hours of my life. I pull the big bulky "BOX" containing those heavy shirt and stuff down the street up and down just to find a god-damn hotel. Coming back to Singapore, we took a coach and guess wad our seat is just plain sauna, we sitting right at the top of the engine and damn it hot. No cold aircon but hot air for 4-5 hours? Guess wad, the people right infront of the bus were putting on jacket because it too cold. I gladly change seat with them, i rather freeze to death than get cook to death.

on the way and back from malaysia within this 12 hours i have been thinking what i really want to be. and golf seem to be my dream. however back to reality, perhaps it just true, golf are for the rich. my mentor cum former coach truthfully tell me this. well actually it does make sense. practice make perfect, a single golf round cost $100 plus, so a average people like me is going to play one round max a month. while a rich teen with huge cash support from parent can easily play two rounds in a day, once in the morning once in the afternoon. who going to improve the most, you be the judge. use basketball as a example, if you want to shoot well and play well, you got to practice often. sad to say, in the game of golf, even if you have the will, without money, even will have a limit. i guess being a pro is not option for me, my youth time is running off, i do not want to further stress my parent with additional financial burden, perhaps this is just a path not for me. Life just suck sometime, don't you think so?

SP Immersion Program

Morning wake up abit late, went school for a interview for the Taman Jurong Newsletter? I guess. After that meet up with Ann Perng, Cheryl, Liling and Alan to go to the Singapore Poly Immersion Program or something like that. I am the latest sooo ya...Went we arrive there, AP kena split off from our group so left 4 of us in the business school. After a round of confusion (will not say in detail) finally I went to A1: Human Resource Management With Psychology and Business Administration. Left with no choice so have to go but it ok at the end I guess. Meet a few nice people and learn quite a few bit. Our program ended late, so once again I am the last to meet up with them again. Went home and change and went off to nafa graduate fashion show. My sister is involve so went to support her. Will post picture of it in the future if have time. Tmr going off to KL and still involve in quite a few stuff so schedule very pack but exciting I guess...
On the sideline, during sp program, I kind of notice a beatty sec girl who is in my group for the second activity. Sigh...Wasted...

Darren's Quote of the Day: Chances don't come begging, once you miss your chance, it might nv come back again.

Different Between You Want and You Can...

Recently one accident start to make me reflect. I finally got a answer to it. There is a different between you want and you can. For example, if you want to be a professional english premier league soccer player, you want to be it. You try your best, you work hard blah blah blah. But despite how good you all in Singapore, you will can never make it oversea. In conclusion, it doesn't matter whether how badly you want it but it just matter whether it is possible and can you make it, if you pass the first stage than only than you can start thinking whether do you want it and how badly dare you willing to earn for it. In life, thing that are not possible perhaps it time to just drop it. Accept the fact, life is never fair and you just have to face it.

Paiseh, my "england" abit terrible but ya... you should get the point.

Lalala...

Today has been a much better day. Have emath lesson, revise coordinate geometry than went off to complete my one week old song. I kind of sick of that song already, i spend at a few hours a day on it, ah! It pestering me. The positive side is I have all the musical song but one song transfer off me. Mdm Rani step in and yes one load off my shoulder. With 5 more song project to do, with a week working time left to go, anymore I will be over loaded. Tmr have training and at night going to the 1st FIC. Not alot of ppl but for tmr it better to keep it this way. Going batam on Sunday, gonna be a hell of destress no-work weekend.

Another Day Has Pass...

Another day has been pass. Busy with the musical and I think I just sux. Is my expectation too high or I just can't even pass my own stage. Been trying to mix a song for the past few days and f**k god knws what I am doing. AH!!! Recently I am oso often get distracted. I don't knw what the f**k i thinking la.

I think I am lost.

O'level Mother Tongue

Today is O'level mother tongue exam. Stupidly, i today than realise O = Ordinary. So I am taking a Ordinary Level Mother Tongue exam, how dumb name of a exam can be. Paper 1 was average, think spend a bit too much time on letter writting so think the main compo abit no time to have solid content but shld be good be enough la. Paper 2 was quite ok, but compre mcq not enough time, so just ti giam, like no 2, so just write 2. Overall ok la, shld be able to pass. I think. Went to Nanyang Girls after that than went to my grandma house than went home. Boring day, more "good" days ahead until at least until after the musical. This feel days i think i abit emo, don't knw wad i thinking. But like the chinese compre passage says, it better to forget what you have lost and enjoy what you have. I guess it right to a extent. Life is short so just enjoy and f**k off.

Fuck up...

Ya....HoooO!!!!....I fuck up my tournament. Thanks to 4-5 holes. I lose my temper all the way and start throwing my clubs around, use up all my vocab and nearly walk back to the clubhouse without completing the round. Just right, the referee was there, told me to calm down and somehow I did it but it too late. Tried to save but ya...you roughly get there. Anw, did not play well and play like fuck. Fuck 2008, my golf sux like shit this year and the form just doesn't seem to get right. I plan this to be my final junior tournament b4 o'level but perhaps will squeeze in the Seletar Junior Open if o'level mt oral n stuff permits and see whether I really should take a breather for this year. FUCK FUCKID FUCK FUCK FUCK...Piss off. Tmr have school so I guess I will enjoy. MT FTW.

ya...hooooo!!!

2 more days before my tournament. after few days of hardwork, finally got all my stuff required sort out. got my new tournament tee, new golf ball and I am ready? Went to practice yesterday and in a two hour time will be leaving for JB to play a friendly style tournament. Tmr I guess I going to practice or maybe I just take a rest. I don't knw. Will see. Recently, exam did very badly, I fail all my maths and science. Passing my languages and humanities. On the positive side, I did pass my emath paper 2. I realise I just sux in my sec 3 topics. Yesterday has been going too well for me but once again this thing return and bug me again. Argh! Shit!

post-exam!!!

yay!! exam finally together end with a bang. today paper i anyhow whack, some question is easy some just anyhow whack lor. past few days has been basketballing, nothing better to do so just throw some ball la but leh guess wad, me golf tournament is just five days from now and I haven practice much yet. think prepare to play badly le. golf all about concentration and guess wad my mind is somewhere else. far far away. time to move on and focus on wad left. sometime i just hope to stuff myself at home, at least won't meet anyone new le. that all and peace off... bleah!

wed wed wed

34 more days to inter-school national golf competition. nothing interesting today. pe play basketball, get back my geo paper. Not very good but nv study so also don't really care. Do abit of shooting for the TVCs and than go home. Have just found a solution to solve a mental blockage that irritated me for awhile liao. So will live happier now, I guess. That all. BYE...

If fated does exist, you will never escape it.

Enlightened?

Not really in the right mind recently, many thing have cramp into my mind usually. No idea. Mid-year exam is starting soon and it actually my ticket to a direct-poly admission. If I screw this, all my 4 years of hardwork on my cca is GONE! Hey but have a tournament one week after the MYE isn't helping me to relax. My bag is filled of notes and finished homework, I just don't know why I just don't have the habit of filing. I kind of got enlightened after I hear this phrase from someone. Not any useful or so but every true. If you believe this is all fate than let the flow goes. What is yours is yours. That all i guess. BYE...

Mon Mon Mon...

36 more days to inter-school national golf competition, if I can qualify first la. If never qualify, than jiu study lor for MT O's lor. No different. The best decision I make this year I guess is to get a coach in both technical and fitness, really help me alot. Will be working hard for the next 35 days I guess. So today school also nothing interesting. Just normal lesson, blah blah blah. During geo lesson was discussing about the porm night with ap, joke about...aaa...nvm... After school have ASAP, do log, do until went siao siao. After that went to pulse to discuss about Crowbar competition, we doing a television commercial, working really really hard to win it and beat some poly and uni students. Finish my last goal in my cca than that about it for the 4 years...I guess... Life abit sian recently so nothing much to type also...Nite...

Sat & Sun

Summary Of My Weekend...

Sat:
Wake up in morning and went to training. Wake up late so was late for 30 mins. Don't know why very euthu in training. Want to practicing on my flaw I make in the tournament but coach force me to work on my swing instead. Say my distance hit very short, I fully agree with it so spend the next 3.5 hours working on it. My parents fetch me home, have lunch, bath than went out to study CHINESE with Lao Perng Zi, Lao Yan Zi and Lao Ma Zi. Evening went back for Steamboat with my family than just rot at home for the night.

Sun:
Wake up, Slp, Wake up, Slp. Do nothing but slp the whole morning. Afternoon watch a movie on my laptop than started to do my english work. Went to ah ma house for dinner, at night watch Liverpool vs Blackburn. Which liverpool win of course. 3-1...YAY! They will whip the chelsea ass for the champion league semi-final. Liverpool RAWK...

That all, signing off...

Golfing Day

Today I wake up with a happy mood. No school and got golf. So left home at 9am and reach there started to hit some shot to warm up. Wanted to hit some more but the feel and the shot is there so I just take a break. 11am went to the dressing room, wear my belt, put some stuff and basically sit at the lounge there for 30 - 40 mins to rest. Than went off to the tournament. Play ok ok ok, not very good, abit of bad. But acceptable I guess. Tmr have to go school le, sian. Here is some picture of the past and the one I took today. Nothing to do so take lor.

Hello...

After much weeks of looking for new blog skin. I finally found one, guess what, it the blogger one. No mood to really find skin la. This skin got title one leh, than I realise all my title like so no link. (Including this one). So morning, I have finally submitted the Inter-School Golf form, with my handicap, I think and hope that I can get in. Nothing much going on in school today leh but i guess i went abit siao siao. Have nafa test in the afternoon, ok lor but ah ya lose to andrea in shuttle run. He too light liao la, 9.1sec. Well, guess 9.5sec is good enough liao. Funniness thing is my sit and reach. 44cm leh, don't know how the heck I do it one but don't care. Recently practice golf until quan shen shuan shuan, tournament on thurs so all rest ahead till than. Long time no update oso nothing much. Hope to do well for my last cca competition and golf competition than O'LEVEL. AHHHH!!!!

Back To School...

Sian...tmr have to go back to school liao. One week only like very little leh. But not bad la, at least next week need to go school 2 days only. Mon and tue. Wed got tournament so don't need to go school. Yay! But wed abit worried la, my new coach change my style again than not very confident with it yet so ya...Today oso realise something, MOE inter-school golf tournament is like one week before chinese o'level. WOW...O crap...Still got tons of homework to do, so yeah will start doing i guess. Still haven find the urgency for this year o'level yet leh, die!

Sigh...

Sigh, recently very depressing. In tournament, score like shit, have nv play so badly since I started golf. Guess nv really prepare for it bah but it ok I guess, still got two more leg, with the next one next month. Will be prepared by than to win some stuff. I want to play golf as a career, many joke it off but I always believe if you don't dream you won't successive. Just because it is hard doesn't mean it impossible. Just because you have a hard chance to fail doesn't mean you should not try. People who achieve impossible are usually the one that try the hardest. Hmm, i oso don't know y I will type this, perhaps now in emo mood bah. crap. tmr still got school, sian...

Sun Sun Sun...

One month nv update blog le. So today morning went to The Arena shooting. Before tht went to jw to have breakfast. Thanks to Iwzan, my shoe kena Curry. So went Arena, than we joke abt err...nvm but happy JSS managed to get through the next round. After that went Lao Ba Sa to eat than went walking and crapping around before going home. At night went out for awhile before coming home to rot. Very sian la. Hand got blister so nv go practice today. Tmr tournament, yay, all the best to me...haha...

Mon Mon Mon

One more week to CNY, very looking forward to it. After CNY should have enough money to buy new golf clubs le, people say this year is o'level year, must put focus on studies. They are not wrong but for me I prefer to put some focus on my golf too if not I believe I will regret my decision in the future. 4 more days jiu know my new handicap le. Shld be below 18, so YAY!!!!...Next would be below 16 by June. Studies wise leh, I oso don't know la, will work hard and get the lowest score for O's. Want to go oversea to study after that. That all I guess...

Sun Sun Sun

Today morning travel off to Malaysia to have a friendly golf tournament. Did not play well today to get a main prize but still get a novelty price for Nearest To Pin. Alot still need to improve if got chance for this year May tournament. Must work hard le. Nothing else to blog le i guess.

Mon Mon Mon

So today ish Monday. First day of a nong nong school week. Very happy yesterday with my golf game, first few hole putting like shit but at the end not bad. Given one week nv hit ball le, quite happy. This few days ah, don't knw wad thinking me. Heart messy messy. Hey, this year only golf and studies, cnt lose focus. But... This few days going back to school mood le, geo test this wed, amath retest this thurs, amath test is said to set easy question la but if I fail leh mean I sux la. But if teacher advise me to drop, I won't drop, drop liao amath lesson slack oso sian...That all I guess...

Year 2008...

So year 2007 has been over and my studies still suck and golf still not that good but at least achieving in cca. Last few days has been boring, confuse and don't know wad the hell I am thinking. Thinking of my past but it like wtf can't u move on? So sad, talk is cheap...Well, I oso don't knw wtf I am doing for the last few years. This year suppose to be the "BIG" O'Level year, I am suppose to be worried etc etc but to be honest I don't feel anything, don't know that a bad or a good thing. Matter in fact, I am much more worried not able to get a low enough handicap for some of my golf tournament. Hey, get ur priority right. But wtf if I am so good at controlling my mind, I would be a genius. My new year resolution ish simple, do well in golf, do well in o'level and hopefully whole team can go Japan for the KWN Global. Even though I have good memories here, I still hope to go oversea to study, adapt to a new environment and leave all these shit memories in Singapore. My motto: Live Life And Fu*k Off. Going golf later in the morning and all the best to me...