Where is the hope & love of God?
Can people heal after hurts in their lives?
Do people like to live alone? Away from their family and friends?
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Sunday, March 09, 2008
I am having morbid thoughts
Do you think it's better for a person you love to leave eternally or to betray you and cut off all contact with you?
I think the former is better. At least I get to keep only the good and positive memories...
I think the former is better. At least I get to keep only the good and positive memories...
Saturday, January 12, 2008
A million dollar view
I have a window seat at work, I have a window seat at work! 
See the night view from my office/ desk!! Beautiful hor??
See the night view from my office/ desk!! Beautiful hor?? Snapshots of fireworks on NYE 2007/2008!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Why do we have HORRID relatives??!
Damn pissed this weekend. Trying to make myself less angry cos being angry affects me and my health and more wrinkles on my face and not other ppl! Yet I just can't help being angry!
One of my so-called cousins is having a birthday party today. Don't bloody care how old she is, think about 14, and don't bother how old she is anyway! This "cousin" also low EQ, been spoilt by parents, aunts, etc. She's poor but she behave like a rich princess and always think she so pretty, dolling herself up. Siao. Actually she's not poor, got computer, tv, education, food to eat, own mobile phone, internet, etc etc, where got poor??? Only my aunts think she's poor and pitiful cos her real mother abandoned her.
My mum had a chalet for her office event which was cancelled, so she happily offered to these relatives of this cousin. Anyway I have never considered her my cousin (long story). Don't like her philandering, womanizing father and her stingy, thick-skinned stepmother. Though the stepmother (wife to the uncle) is quite pitiful that her husband betrayed her but her behaviour is also irksome!
Well, offer the chalet to them never mind. My mum, in her kind-heartedness and eagerness to cook delicious food for people to enjoy, offered to roast turkey. So I thought that was all but felt it wasn't to be as that aunt don't know how to cook loh! Don't think I am dumb, a BBQ does not entail that little food... Ended up my mum was organizing everything and intended to cook other dishes such as beehoon and curry. My mum even borrowed car from another aunt to transport stuff like paper utensils, portable stove, to go buy satay from City Satay etc. Knowing my mum, she will go all out to do what she likes and not take her body into consideration by carrying heavy things or persisting even though she's tired. The next few days, she will complain of tiredness, body aching here and there.
Knowing that the aunt-in-law wont help and can't cook, I called up an elder aunt living with her (aka my mum's sister). She said she already asked the aunt-in-law to help but she is working so cannot help out. I felt it strange cos that "AIL" will not lift a hand to help loh! She is that low EQ and that lazy and that... dunno what words to describe. I called my mum's sister again this morning when I discovered my mum left the house so early in the morning to GO AND COOK!!! RIDICULOUS!!! This elder aunt somemore can say my mum is a willing party. Willing party yes but knowing them, they will NOT LIFT A FINGER TO HELP LOH!!! Willing party still must help right? If not sit there like dumbo?? So I made a big fuss out of it to my elder aunt (who actually dotes on this so-called cousin alot too) and ended up she went to help cook as well. (Or at least that's what my mum said).
I dont really believe and don't give a hoot about it just as long as I make my displeasure known. Call me disrespectful I don't care! What respect for elders who cannot behave themselves and set a good example?! By the way, I must go chase them to pay back my mum the money used to buy the turkey, satay and who knows whatever ingredients my mum helped to buy. Cos they will not pay back or even offer to do so.
These people are really horrible! I hate these kind of free-loaders, that's why I always end up being the bad person and telling them off!! But I dun care. Why do I have such horrid relatives???????????????????????
One of my so-called cousins is having a birthday party today. Don't bloody care how old she is, think about 14, and don't bother how old she is anyway! This "cousin" also low EQ, been spoilt by parents, aunts, etc. She's poor but she behave like a rich princess and always think she so pretty, dolling herself up. Siao. Actually she's not poor, got computer, tv, education, food to eat, own mobile phone, internet, etc etc, where got poor??? Only my aunts think she's poor and pitiful cos her real mother abandoned her.
My mum had a chalet for her office event which was cancelled, so she happily offered to these relatives of this cousin. Anyway I have never considered her my cousin (long story). Don't like her philandering, womanizing father and her stingy, thick-skinned stepmother. Though the stepmother (wife to the uncle) is quite pitiful that her husband betrayed her but her behaviour is also irksome!
Well, offer the chalet to them never mind. My mum, in her kind-heartedness and eagerness to cook delicious food for people to enjoy, offered to roast turkey. So I thought that was all but felt it wasn't to be as that aunt don't know how to cook loh! Don't think I am dumb, a BBQ does not entail that little food... Ended up my mum was organizing everything and intended to cook other dishes such as beehoon and curry. My mum even borrowed car from another aunt to transport stuff like paper utensils, portable stove, to go buy satay from City Satay etc. Knowing my mum, she will go all out to do what she likes and not take her body into consideration by carrying heavy things or persisting even though she's tired. The next few days, she will complain of tiredness, body aching here and there.
Knowing that the aunt-in-law wont help and can't cook, I called up an elder aunt living with her (aka my mum's sister). She said she already asked the aunt-in-law to help but she is working so cannot help out. I felt it strange cos that "AIL" will not lift a hand to help loh! She is that low EQ and that lazy and that... dunno what words to describe. I called my mum's sister again this morning when I discovered my mum left the house so early in the morning to GO AND COOK!!! RIDICULOUS!!! This elder aunt somemore can say my mum is a willing party. Willing party yes but knowing them, they will NOT LIFT A FINGER TO HELP LOH!!! Willing party still must help right? If not sit there like dumbo?? So I made a big fuss out of it to my elder aunt (who actually dotes on this so-called cousin alot too) and ended up she went to help cook as well. (Or at least that's what my mum said).
I dont really believe and don't give a hoot about it just as long as I make my displeasure known. Call me disrespectful I don't care! What respect for elders who cannot behave themselves and set a good example?! By the way, I must go chase them to pay back my mum the money used to buy the turkey, satay and who knows whatever ingredients my mum helped to buy. Cos they will not pay back or even offer to do so.
These people are really horrible! I hate these kind of free-loaders, that's why I always end up being the bad person and telling them off!! But I dun care. Why do I have such horrid relatives???????????????????????
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
My 1st experience with OBS
I have never been to Outward Bound School before in my life and was quite sianz when I was "arrowed" to organize it. Anyway the day finally came and with reluctance, my colleagues and I trooped off to OBS at Pulau Ubin for an overnight stay and a day of activities.
We started off with a BBQ dinner followed by some activities at night and a stay in their dorm, which was not air-conditioned. The food was ordinary and cold. Thank goodness the weather was sunny despite that it was raining cats and dogs non-stop just before. Glad to say that most of them enjoyed it after that, especially the "Flying Fox" and the "Jetty Jump". Some of them even wanted to do the "Flying Fox" again.
As for me, I was glad I was game for all activities, even though I was afraid of heights and really trembled climbing up the stairs. The stairs were quite scary as it was made up of hard wire and could see through. However, my boss was very encouraging and was the last to do the "Flying Fox" as he personally encouraged everyone of us to go through it.
Additionally, the "Jetty Jump" was kind of scary as we had to jump off a plank and swim a distance to climb to land but it was fun and exciting.
All in all, I finally know why some people like to go to OBS so much. It's all about challenging yourself and getting out of your comfort zone. Doing activities that you have never done before with an open mind and open heart will bring you new levels of achievement. I fully understand that and really it was a newfound confidence and sense of satisfaction having accomplished those activities!
We started off with a BBQ dinner followed by some activities at night and a stay in their dorm, which was not air-conditioned. The food was ordinary and cold. Thank goodness the weather was sunny despite that it was raining cats and dogs non-stop just before. Glad to say that most of them enjoyed it after that, especially the "Flying Fox" and the "Jetty Jump". Some of them even wanted to do the "Flying Fox" again.
As for me, I was glad I was game for all activities, even though I was afraid of heights and really trembled climbing up the stairs. The stairs were quite scary as it was made up of hard wire and could see through. However, my boss was very encouraging and was the last to do the "Flying Fox" as he personally encouraged everyone of us to go through it.
Additionally, the "Jetty Jump" was kind of scary as we had to jump off a plank and swim a distance to climb to land but it was fun and exciting.
All in all, I finally know why some people like to go to OBS so much. It's all about challenging yourself and getting out of your comfort zone. Doing activities that you have never done before with an open mind and open heart will bring you new levels of achievement. I fully understand that and really it was a newfound confidence and sense of satisfaction having accomplished those activities!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Year end ramblings
Well, it's almost the year end with 12 months of ups and downs!
Sometimes I wonder if it's more downs than ups. Perhaps.
It seems I have lived the past 6 months in a state of ambivalence. Well, I don't know what word to use either. God has been my support but sadly at the same time, I did not entirely believe nor trust in Him. Not even seek much of His help. I hope I do better in 2008.
Sometimes I wonder if it's more downs than ups. Perhaps.
It seems I have lived the past 6 months in a state of ambivalence. Well, I don't know what word to use either. God has been my support but sadly at the same time, I did not entirely believe nor trust in Him. Not even seek much of His help. I hope I do better in 2008.
Betrayal seems more hurtful than loss.
Maybe some things are just not meant to be.
Maybe I should not be so pessimistic and count my blessings.
I got a new job doing what I want to do! Plus new colleagues!
Oh and my childhood friend is getting married 13 months later - the first in my closest circle! Yoohoo. So exciting! Heh. What's more, it's a long awaited church wedding!
I feel happy but not entirely happy.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
My first work presentation
Well, I experienced many "firsts" with this new job and yes I am quite glad. Being challenged out of your comfort zone and knowing that you can do it at the end of it gives you added confidence.
I was "arrowed" for a corporate presentation to some visitors to our company. It's something everyone has to go through but I just felt irritated cos the slides are boring, hahaa... Mind you, the last presentation I did was in school.
Thankfully my boss ran through with me and asked me to practice in front of him before the actual stuff. So I would say that's nice of him though.
Anyway, it's just a small presentation and I doubt the visitors were listening much. I rather much present my own stuff but all in all, it's a good experience. And yes, my self-esteen and courage are boosted!
I was "arrowed" for a corporate presentation to some visitors to our company. It's something everyone has to go through but I just felt irritated cos the slides are boring, hahaa... Mind you, the last presentation I did was in school.
Thankfully my boss ran through with me and asked me to practice in front of him before the actual stuff. So I would say that's nice of him though.
Anyway, it's just a small presentation and I doubt the visitors were listening much. I rather much present my own stuff but all in all, it's a good experience. And yes, my self-esteen and courage are boosted!
My 1st media release
I am so happy cos my first press/ media release was sent to the media recently! Actually it was last week, hehe. Happy cos I had some involvement in the project though it was a three agency joint release. Happy cos I did the very first draft and nothing "big" was changed, except some sentences were cut to place elsewhere and I forgot to include a quote from someone famous... Hohoho. Anyway my mentor said it's a good first draft! Hehe. I am so glad.
Just slightly peeved that I did not go down to an event as the media was there and they asked about my "project" rather than my mentor. My mentor, of course knows about my project and she ended up fielding questions from the media. A missed opportunity for me!
Nonetheless, I guess there will be more to come.
Good start, good start.
Just slightly peeved that I did not go down to an event as the media was there and they asked about my "project" rather than my mentor. My mentor, of course knows about my project and she ended up fielding questions from the media. A missed opportunity for me!
Nonetheless, I guess there will be more to come.
Good start, good start.
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