Re-booting in Process

Today seemed like a good day to blog again, just for myself, after about 5 million years of hibernating.

Just a short update:
I no longer hold a full time job.
I am getting married in exactly 2 months time.
I am flying to US for a year in less than 5 months.

The longer version of the update:
To be exact, I'm a locum aka part-timer. Its been like this for about 1.5yrs. Ever since my last entry. That is a long time and the reason? I'm scared and lazy and confused I suppose. Scared to step out of my comfort zone. Lazy to find out more and start experimenting with things. Confused about what I really love.
I am green with envy everytime I read about people who are able to earn a living doing the things they love. The advice they give are all similar: "Do not be afraid to chase your dreams." But what if I do not have a dream? That seems to be a major problem for me. I like tonnes of things. From reading to puzzling to colouring to all things nice, sweet and cute. But what do I love? Frankly, I have no idea. And the fact that I have a short attention span doesn't seem to help either.
So to cope with the monetary demands of daily living, I continue to hold a part-time job that demands minimal effort (just requires time), and yet gives me just enough financial freedom to carry on with my current lifestyle. Although this is a situation I hope to be freed of in the shortrun. I know I cannot be a locum forever, neither do I want to be one forever. Some people may think I'm lazy for not holding a full time job at my age. Honestly, I am lazy, but my major concern is that I do not want to be doing something I have no interest in. If I'm not interested, I find it extremely difficult to put in any real effort. Everything's going to be substandard and I'm going to hate it.
Well, that basically explains it, although there are times when I feel emo about the situation. I do try to be thankful for the little things once I know I'm getting too whiney. =P

Secondly, about getting married in 2 months time, I feel so unprepared. Haha. Video montage is just starting to take shape, dozens of things left to be purchased. 5 million confirmations yet to be confirmed. When should I be doing what? I really don't know. Arrangements arrangements arrangements. To be optimistic, I believe things will sort themselves out gradually. Although I do hope 2 months is sufficient for gradual sorting. =)

Finally, about going to US for a year, people keep asking me what am I going to be doing for a whole year? Usually I keep things light hearted and say: "Nothing. I'm going to slack and nua for a year. Woooohooo!" And sometimes, I get some replies along these lines: "You should find something to do. You should make full use of the time. You should blah blah blah... " I understand fully where they are coming from and appreciate their concern for me. But this ties in with the first update. What should I do? I do think about it you know. Although some people may make me out as a bimbo. Oh wellz, but nvm since I actually don't mind that. =P
Anyway, back to the point. I do not have anything concrete in mind because I want to try everything! Its hard to make people understand where I'm coming from sometimes. Maybe its just me. And so I give up explaining. I just nod and say ok. (Its kinda like dealing with annoying customers, but with more patience since I know you better.)

All in all, having graduated from school since 2009 and officially entering the working world, it seems I have grown to understand myself better. At least now I know what I hate, I know how my patience runs low rapidly when it comes to communication with strangers but yet I can stay in front of computers and puzzles for hours trying to troubleshoot or fix up stuff. I guess I'm really an introvert and a nerd. Thinking back, if I had known all these while I was choosing a course of study, I would probably have switched to a totally different direction where I didn't need to communicate with dozens of strangers on a daily basis and trying so damn hard to be nice to those people who may sometimes be rude and annoying. But I guess this is another of those "if onlys" that I cannot help but think about during my emo days.

This morning's event did not have such a wonderful turnout...


Now i'm just sleepy...

This chair is the most uncomfortable chair I've ever sat on...

The spotlights are blinding...

The smells are intolerable...

I'm glad I wasn't posted here 3 months ago...

I was inspired... Now the enthusiaism is dying...

what a short attention span... haha...

Hyper creative? nah... I'm just plain lazy...

in the end... i may be unemployed for awhile...

Peaceful Day

Originally supposed to meet up the gang today... but due to a change of plans, it got postponed to a date that I am unable to attend...
*sadded*

So I wanted to meet xiao liang, but he flew off yesterday nite to london for work...
*eh, who was it that said we shld meet up before he fly off de?*

Wanted to talk to LT, but he is in berlin with no internet...
*3 more weeks!* 

*sigh*

So, I...

Planned my list of items to pack for europe... *headache*
Cleaned the shoe cabinet...
Napped for an hr or so...
Watched HK drama...
Read the new book I bought the other day when I was sick... *quite an inspiring read!*

A nice peaceful day off with no responsibilities... =)

Happy Rabbit Year!
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!

Finally CNY is here... but so fast the hols r almost over! =(((

Am loving the nua-ing ard and not having to do anything feeling... haha...

First and second day of cny is always standard: grandma's place and ah yi's place to bai nian...
Unfortunately this yr on the third day I have to start work... =(((

The only consolation is that we visited our jc cca tcher's hse!
We finally meet up after soooo many yrs!
Went to his hse in yew tee after work n becos he's a art teacher, his hse is tastefully done up...
Many many paintings n he even has his own art studio... how cool is that!
Love his bookshelf... but must be damn hard to clean... haha...
So we sat ard... playing wii... (while he gave his current jc students tarot card readings,
I never knew he was into tarot cards! but then again there's loadssss of things i dunnoe abt him! haha... not v shu... but he's the kind of tcher that u can be frens with. Althou his speed in replying sms is wellz... unpredictable... haha...) we only managed to chit chat abit after his students left... sam being the most chitty chatty one as usual... haha!
overall, it was nice to meet up again!!

Seeing these ppl again made me realise that there wasn't much of a highlight in my jc life except for
1) my cca (definitely not library.. =P) - NJPS, starting from yr 2 onwards when we were the exco... i love being the darkroom archival manager! 
2) the bus rides to n fro sch
3) sitting at the bench with all the ex-And.s.s. ppl...

omg.. sounds damn sad la... my class is not even listed... =X

haha... think it's cos my sec sch class is too perfect le... =P

so huai nian....

tsk tsk...

wo lao le....

Burlesque

Watched this the other day after i saw the preview on youtube...
Woots! Super nice! Christina Aguilera could really sing and she's so pretty in the movie!
i totally forgot she was christina while watching the show, she's like a totally different person...
This movie belongs to the musical/romance genre... some guys might find it boring, but i guess the sexy babes appearing on the screen will capture their attention... heehee...
definitely recommended!

Chalet

Had my 2nd chalet of the yr with a bunch of crazy and lazy ppl!
Realised that ppl our age can no long 'tong' n stay up late for chalets le... haha..
Light off at 1am everynite for us!! While other gin nas (our neighbours) continue to make noise until 5am...
What we did in the chalet: basically nua and stuff ourselves with too much food!
It was a gd break for us despite the beds being v uncomfortable... =S

**While we were enjoying ourselves at the chalet... my poor partner kenna a super nasty customer who called him a bas***d! She even made a huuuggeeee scene at our shop... WTH!!! er xin de nv ren!! qu si ba!!

End of a short short break

And then it is now back to work with no off days until CNY... and a good 4 full days in between...
pls let me get past this crazy crazy wk with minimal unpleasantness! =)

I want to be a billionaire so f***ing bad

*A new year*

I skipped blogging for about a year or so...
Have been too lazy to update...

A crazy 2010!
I'm glad it's over! =)

The year's barely started... and so far so gd!

We had our 4-6 chalet!
Whoa... like finally...
Really cool to be meeting up with all of them!
There's married couples lah, teachers lah, lawyers lah, police lah, accountants lah, doctor lah..
So amazing! =)
Everyone's changed so much! So glad we went for this... Even got to talk to andre! (Haha, in the past I would never have spoken to him...not shu at all loh...)
We played silly games, celebrated sam's bday, chitty chatted, like it was only yesterday that we graduated from anderson... So huai nian those old schooling days!

Met up with the gals too!
dinner at crystal jade was yum yum!!
Congrats to hx for getting a flat alrdy! Super fast de!!
And CCH, ask us out whenever u get bored! We r always available de! (maybe not always but we can arrange de! since we stay so near...)

All that's left to do is...
To start my exercising plan!
Damn it... i need some motivation!!!!
cannot duo luo anymore!

*counting down to cny...
2.5 more weeks to go!

Some people are just SOOOOO RUDE!!!

I hope he falls and break his leg!!!
GO to HELL!!!
ROAR!!!