i'll sing this summer seranade,

Sunday, June 28

my mother and that old lady is home with us too

The radio channel at home turned into a radiostation full of yakky people.

and poor fiqah is faced alone in school battling out all the bff-drama.

haha,i miss you makcik :(

Well at least i get to catch up on sleep after being nocturnal

for my entire holidays, and k is chatting with me as he’s having his

nap break at the fire station now. awesome possum.

Saturday, June 27

** IS A DOUCHEBAG.

>:(

I am irritated.

And i’m not going for cleo tomorrow :(

Thursday, June 25

Zac Efron's Pool Party from Zac Efron

OH MYYY I ♥ ZAC :D

and brody from the hills IS SOO FRIGGIN HOTT

(feels like posting in pink today)

I’m living in hell

I ~~HATE~~ DISLIKE OLD PEOPLE. >:(

pissing me off. she accused me of eating my brother’s

orange when kakak cut and prepared the entire plate for me.

And she’s making a huge fuss out of it. grr. (carmen tahan!!).

I swear i will be a nice old lady when i grow old.

anyway I finally got the hang to twitter today. whoopie

Carmen is so awesome, i am suuuper ~~slow~~ clever.

follow me

Tuesday, June 23

YAYY FINALLY SATURDAY!! :D :D

on another note, school’s starting next week.

Oh bummer :(

Monday, June 22

I AM BACK! (at 1.50 am, sheesh stupid traffic)

and feeling very tired and very full.

I had a haircut too and i saw stuff i dint want to see just now.

Geez, this sucks. Anyway proper update soon.

Oh, guess who just turned 15 it is.

happy birthday kim (oinks)!

quickkk we need to get boyfriends soon :(

Grow shorter and never out-tall me! i love you! :D

I miss these two teteks too! :(

(sarah i love this pic of you. memories of the longlost mushroomhead)

I heard the holidays might be extended but then we cant go out.

Ohpoop. :(

okay tired imma gon sleep now.

Friday, June 19

Take this sinking boat and point it home

YOU CANNOT MANIPULATE ME LOSER!

HAHA THIS IS FOR YOU IF YOU DECIDE TO LOOK AND MY BLOG AND

PLAN EVIL SCHEMES IN MANIPULATING ME INTO STUFF YOU DONT KNOW.

:D :D

Bye i’m gonna waste my life off now.

I went to the beach yesterday though it was funfun :)

Wednesday, June 17

Slow it down, make it stop. Or else my heart is going to pop.

I miss so much about you. :(

You know like the times we would sit down talk about boys and almost everything else. I remember the chinagirl hairstylist times, and studying together, playing random dressup, camwhoring, web-camming and "Carmen you reach here already we exercise and run one round around the park" but I end up talking so much we dint run that much. And me going to you crying sometimes after some boy starts making me sad. And going to sentosa, the surprise card on the top of the skyride before we took the luge. And all the horny moments together with Fiqah and Sarah.And you telling us so much about your cinta whenever we catch up. Haha the both of you are so sweet together aww :) Seri this year has been so crazy without you I really wished we turned back time and let it stop cuz you, Fiqah and Sarah had been the most amazing people to me. I feel this year so many things got screwed up for us and it’s driving us all insane. And we all need a break from everything that was draining and bogging us down. I’m really thankful I could talk to you Seri that day on msn, and also that Fiqah you picked up my calls when I was really upset and dint know what to do during that situation; also to Sarah who gives awesome advices and to be someone I can relate so much with.

Monday, June 15

everything's like a rollercoaster ride.

you caught me off-guard.

and it sucks sometimes.

Sunday, June 14

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,
life is a maze and love is a riddle.

I swear i missed you so much i could literally grabbed you and kissed you right away :/ geez ~~ifeellikeatotalidiotfornotdoingso~~. I dint even know what got me last night but i was like going seriously mad i dint know what to do anymore. It’s just crazy dealing with so much right now. Yeah it’s just so weird i swear i was about to kill myself. And i feel stupid now cuz i felt i had totally wasted his time when we met yesterday, idk what the hell is going on with me these days. To make it worse i have more new drama in my life now and it sucks so much D: geez i don’t know these entire thing’s like a whole cycle thing, i have no idea when it will ever end or whatever. I’m thankful for seri though, we had a short talk today and i miss you so much :( we should totally hang out or I’m gonna get jealous because you have a life and i dont/or it sucks. Haha. Anyway i still love you and i’m thankful for people like you, fiqah, and sarah ♥.

Friday, June 12

thank you for that talk today.

at least i think it cleared all my doubts.

in the mean time i'll miss you. alot.

but i think it wont go anywhere anyway.

Wednesday, June 10

if things could get any worser,

my mom doesn’t care about my health issues

and always forgets the dental appointment.

Gee, whatever.

I’m gonna have a new social studies teacher

and she’s gonna start tomorrow.

Right now i’m on the phone with fiqah and we’re bitching

so much about coco (new teacher).

tomorrow’s gonna be a loongg looonngg day :(

Tuesday, June 9

Use me as you will, pull my strings just for a thrill

I remember the 13^th, meeting you for the first time. And doing the things we do. Also, how things progressed in such a short time. Also, ‘Carmen promise we text each other at least everyday kayy’. And then finding out everything, then a short hiatus. I just wasn’t sure of what i’m doing and you had your overseas trip to KL. But then we talked, made up, and explained. You said A was just using stuffs to get back with you, well I trusted what you said. Following that, the times we spent were awesome. Though it wasn’t much. It’s hard living with the distance, but its okay. I held on to what seemed like love to me. :) I loved everything that we do. Getting into trouble together and doing all the shit that we do. The time taken to travel all the way to sembawang and then to vivo. The calls and video calls at midnight, and how i always fall asleep faster than you and so we have to hang up earlier. Grr. But then there came more news about A, because you got into deep shit at home. And then your parents being strict. We couldn’t talk much, I never texted you but waited for your text and calls. but its okay. We followed on with the plan. For the first time i talked to A. I dint know if that plan kinda worked in trying to get you out of the shit you got into. But i knew i tried to help you at least. Then that time when i came over, you talked to me about everything thats been going on and apologised for everything, we hung out together for that day and in that short while i reminisced the past and felt how much you really meant to me. You reminded me of the 25year-old promise thingy we told each other if in any case we cant be together, haha. It was awfully sweet. Though i know that things aren’t ever gonna be the same, i knew i just could not ignore you. Though you can be mean at times when you tease me most of the time in the bus back to your place, the thing about my loose pants, 'flasher you're gonna die later; your stupid ideas like me stopping at redhill and you at tiong and then see who reaches the interchange first. well you’re still as awesome as ever to me. So here goes, if you thought i took everything lightly because we hardly talked, I’m telling you, I had been serious all the while. You mean alot to me. I don’t even know if you’ll read this but yeah i felt i just needed to say this out. You may blog that C++ is a bitch and chubby baby i’ll always love you. but i wanted to make my feelings clear to you as from now on. I do not know whats ahead of us but no matter what, you’ll still at least be a great friend to me even if things do not work out. Happy 1^st year to you by the way. I’m sorry if i was kinda harsh when i talked to you just now. But it frustrates me everytime when i see stuff like that happening.

xo, Me

Monday, June 8

my weekends were super jammed pack with activities.

yeahh so much that i got so tired that i dint want to go to school today.

oh well but i found out later today that sarah and fiqah dint go to school too! :D

on saturday I met up with razi, key, jess and sean at

the cathay throughout the morning and afternoon.

then to haji again and then sent my stupid phone for servicing.

went to celebrate my brother’s aand Pf’s birthday

at mama’s place and slept the entire way back home in the car.

I was so sleep deprived my mom couldn’t wake me up when we reached home.

That sucks D:

oh my F&N teacher got hitched yesterday,

it was a pity fiqah dint come, else we could have so much to talk about.

Well, it was nice. I think i have a newfound respect for my teacher.

Haha Idk don’t ask me how

but i think she can be quite nice at times too.

Afterwards I went to woodlands to collect my

stupid phone, ate and walked around with key.

Thanks for the sush by the way :D awesomee.

had dinner with my parents and then went to get my medicine.

the back problem’s acting up again and i swear

i’ll start pmsing alot in like a week’s time.

Great. School tomorrow. Chem from 8-5.

Friday, June 5

it’s always the same line after a really long while.

makes me wonder if you still care anymore.

Wednesday, June 3

HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO WAIT TILL THINGS GET BETTER? :(

gaah whatever, i’m used to sitting by the sidelines anyway.

OH THATS SARAH, on my idea to make enghock smile

in the game honey i love you last week. we rock ttm.

i dont really like the study camp thingy in school.

zaps away all our energy.

that fiqah even gets less hornier recently in class.

but on a really really happy note,

I SURVIVED F&N CAMP TODAY,

8 TO 6.

thats almost 10 friggin hours spent in school.

and i am freed from the evil coursework A for the rest of my life.

I hope part B is gonna be super easy and super slacky :D

for the record im actually happy about F&N for the first time.

like yeah, literally happy. okay whatever Carmen maybe ms hawa passed

her pre-marital-joy to me. That explains on the sudden happiness.

oh the aircon in school made me sick today.

This suckkkkksss .

Tuesday, June 2

I NEED A PHONE THAT DOES NOT SUCK AND WONT DIE ON ME.

WHILE I WAIT AND

THEN I NEED A NEW AND PROPER PHONE.

SCRATCH-RESISTANT, WATERPROOF, FALL-PROOF, KNOCK-PROOF,

GOOD SCREEN, GOOD ORGANISER, BATTERY LASTS FOREVER,

SAVES UNLIMITED TEXT MESSAGES SO I DONT EVER

NEED TO HAVE THE TROUBLE OF DELETING THEM.

whatever. as if my dad would allow another one.

I NEED MY HOLIDAYS [ MY TRIP’S CANCELLED BTW :( , stupid flu ]

I NEED A MASSAGE CHAIR [ UPILOT? ]

I NEED TO STOP WORRYING AND STRESSING OVER sjkbnfdab.

I NEED TO SLEEP. I NEED MONEY TO BUY dsbfvbdavbv.

AND I NEED LESS F&N.

the thing about having almost 7 hours of f&n tmr scares the shit out of me.

BUT TODAY WAS FUN THOUGH..