i'll sing this summer seranade,

Monday, March 30

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them out

Cause they're all wrong

I know better

Cause you said forever

And ever

Who knew.

Friday, March 27

i know it makes no sense but

i'm doing it.

whatever it takes.

and i dont care about whats

coming in my way anymore.

so goodbye!

and ~~dont cry.~~

Thanks for the memories.

seriously. (:

haha sarah i lazy to blog luh someother time kayy.

but i fell today though thats all i have to say.

and it sucks its fucking painful.

both sarah and me were limping around like idiots.

Wednesday, March 25

YES ME HAPPY NOW MY MOMMY GOT MY WRISTLET FOR ME YAY YAY YAY YAY.

and fuck. tmr we have to play soccer :S

we suck man. loser4life.

PENELOPE SIGNATURE CHECKBOOK WALLET $238.00

now me wants this. its pinkkk :O :O

http://hotel626.com/

go play it and tell me if it scares the shitouttayou.

gordon told me to play it and i bet its something

bad cuz he likes to scare me with shit.

so i dont dare play unless someone tells me its safe.

Friday, March 20

17 AGAIN TRAILER. OH MY GOSH I SO WANT TO WATCH THIS.

now tell me how is it possible for anyone to fall in love with zac.

oh and i found this from ellen degeneres:

GAAHHH if my mom was leslie mann i would

totally lick her face to taste his spit too! :D

sounds gross though but i would!

lol hahaha damn funny.

yesyesyes oh my zac efron,your mineee.

Wednesday, March 18

this year became completely different without you.

i miss you so much.

going out, playing, talking, having fun.
and being able to relate so many things to each other.

sometimes i wish that time could just stop for awhile.

so we can be together, forever.

school sucks because there isnt you.

and so much is going on now i'm really

really confused of who to trust.

your presence fills me with the love of a

friend and the joy she brings to me.

my dearest ttb,

i wished you were in school.

but i'm happy for you now.

youve got life planned out all nicely.

and youre future is gonna be awesome.

Monday, March 16

I SURVIVED F&N CAMP DAY ONE.
AND I DID NOT DIE.
CARMEN YOU'RE SUPER AWESOME!

Sunday, March 15

damn scared.

just damn scared.

fiqah help meeeeehh.

and they held hands,frolicking down the beach.

sand in their toes and the waves crashing in their feet.

----

SEX IS OVER AT MY PLACE NOW HURRHURR

TONIGHT IMMA GONNA RAPE HERR MUAHAHAHAHH.

Thursday, March 12

i was tagged by kim!
and since i'm bored and d is sleeping i shall do it! :D

yayyy!!!! i like doing stuff like this. hahah!

1) Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
- cheeks/neck. :D

2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
- oh crap i'm damn tired. (then proceeds to snooze alarm to sleep another 10mins)

3) Who was the last person you took photo with?
- fiqah and sarah! and awesome fondue!

4) Would you considered to be spoiled?
- just a littleee bit! with the fact that i'm the only girl at home and that i spend more money 'as what they've said' as compared to the boys. so yeah. other than that i'm pretty much independant. :D

5) Would you ever donate blood?
- i hope nott. it's scary Ö Ö Ö

6) Do you have a good friend of the opposite sex?
- yupp (:

7) Do you want someone dead?
- not right now at the moment. maybe once i start with f&n i would. (:

8) What does your last text msg says?
- i waiting for the naruto movie to be out..i sleeping at 10.30

9) What are you thinking of right now?
- i cant wait for tomorrow! and the holidays!

10) Do you wish someone is with you right now?
- yeah. all the time D:

11) What time did you go to sleep last night?
- i think 11ish?

12) Where did you bought the T-shirt you're wearing now?
- kim bought it for me at some school trip to bangkok!

13) Anybody in your mind right now?
- yupp (:

14) Who was the last person who texted you?
- ♥ x)

15) Tag 10 person to do this quiz:
(randomly got people from my tagboard-i'm not forcing!)

1. ZAC EFRON
2. fiqah makcik
3. kahtheng
4. seri ttb
5. sarah joan soh!
6. nicholas
7. eas
8. sex
9. kailiang

10. awesome carmen!

16) Who is number2 having a relationship with?
[fiqah] chocolate?heehee/tom delonge. :D

17) Number3 is a female or male?
[kahtheng] male!

18) If number7 and number10 get together, will it be a good thing?
[eas and me] i hope it is a good think. i doubt so though, cuz i'll rape her everyday! mwahahahah.

19) What is number1 studying about?
[ZAC EFRON♥] oh he's studying all about me!

20) Number4 is single?
[seri] no! but i know she still is in love with me. like totally. you two-timer! haha. i miss you ):

21) Anything impressive number5 done for you?
[sarah] YES TOTALLY. she's my *** advisor and she's my joy! though most of the time she's the joke we all make. but dont worry my sarah i love you still! :D

22) If number3 and number6 get together, what do you think will happen?
[kahtheng and nic] i.dont.want.to.imagine. very wrong. but i think they have some r/s going on together alr i guess.

23) Describe number9.
[kailiang] damn bad student. never listens to mrs efron when she teachers. a letdown. HAHA

24) What will you do if number6 and number7 fight?
[nicholas and eas] just shut up and sit in a corner. eas is super fierce when she boils! haha. joke (:

25) Do you like number8?
[sex] YES OF COURSE i'm in love with sexy thang! i think she adores me too! :X lol

Wednesday, March 11

I AM HAPPY!

i had my apples.(I ate 3 at one go)

and made smores and drank cupss of hot chocolate.
i kinda like being sick now. i can sleep and not go to school!
but ahh! sarah. i miss you,and you're not coming tomorrow!

i'm still bored. :( :( :(

I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY HOLIDAYS.

though there's the dumb f&n camp shit thing.

i cant wait to sleep late and go out everyday

and spend time with yoou yay!

yeah you make me one heckofva happy happy person.

i'm sick i'm sick i'm sickk
and this sucks.
i'm craving for apples once again
and i hope kakak comes back from the grocer soon.
and i'm going crazy cuz i'mfrigginboredandtheresnothingtodo.
1 more day! Ö yayy ♥

everywhere i'm looking now, i'm surrounded by your embrace
baby i can see your halo, you know you're my saving grace
you're everything i need and more, it's written all over your face

Sunday, March 8

8/3/2009 9:38:44 PM iamrazi-carmen.
but definately ill miss it uh

8/3/2009 9:39:33 PM iamrazi-carmen.
i miss disturbing you. i miss scolding, laughing and see arifin make a fool out of himself. i will miss sham's somewhat talks. haha

8/3/2009 9:40:01 PM carmen.-iamrazi
HAHAHA

8/3/2009 9:40:04 PM carmen.-iamrazi
YEAH TOTALLY

8/3/2009 9:40:07 PM carmen.-iamrazi
it's been like

8/3/2009 9:40:10 PM carmen.-iamrazi
so fast

8/3/2009 9:40:16 PM iamrazi-carmen.
thats why

8/3/2009 9:40:45 PM iamrazi-carmen.
like only yesterday your hair was short and you were wearing those ultraman specs

we were talking about how secondary school has been in the moment of feeling nostalgic.
and WTF ULTRAMAN SPECTACLES. FUCK. OMG.

Saturday, March 7

waiting for mom to come back home and give me the

money before i go outtt. going to sentosaaa to see babarella

with sarah and mommy! yay ♥

hahahah

and i'm late.

i'm bored.and stuck with a noisy 70year old woman

talking about china and random stuff to me for 30mins non-stop.

Friday, March 6

i'm having a day from hell. i am struggling so much with my work now but i cannot do it still. i've been doing it nonstop for almost six friggin hours. trying and taking all the effort i can to try complete it but i'm just SO stressed up and feeling very very bogged down with everything. no of course i wont say what it is here(cuz i just really really need to rant it out)but there's just so much going on in my life right now that i have to deal with and it's hurting me so badly! i know there's no friggin use of crying like some shit cuz nothing will get better out of it. and trust me, having a dad who's equally tired and stressed sitting behind me with his laptop is no good either. he keeps swearing and it's making me feel really seriously terrible. like hello i feel like shit too but please keep it to yourself cuz i'm feeling really terrible as of right now. my life sucks i tell you. i need a huge break to just shut myself off from every single thing in this world. i wonder if going up to sec5 was the right choice cuz it seems to be pulling myself down even more. i'm really thankful for fiqah, she's like my source of support and pillar of strength whenever anything goes wrong. yeah, whatever,i'm just feeling like,super f'ed up. ignore this post it's just ramblings.

Wednesday, March 4

i am such a loser.

and very much of an idiot.

everything sucks.

goodnight.

Monday, March 2

I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N

I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N
I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N
I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N I HATE F&N