Yes, I know I'm not fulfilling my new year resolution. But don't ask me why, 'cos I'm not in the mood to explain it now.

I thought life's been miserable enough for the first half of the year when I've been "spending time wastefully", and especially losing someone close to the heart nearing festive season. What makes it even miserable was the fact that she didn't even get to enjoy the festive cheer.

It may not seem obvious to others that I'm actually spending the first half of 2007 guiltily, but sometimes I actually do look at myself in the mirror and ask myself: "What are you doing?" or "What have you been doing?". I guess the frequency for the 2nd question was higher. I procrastinated duties assigned to me, mostly stayed at home doing almost nothing practical that the term "couch potato" could have been used on me, and then before I realised, night had fallen and another day had passed.

In case anyone happens to be reading this entry and thinks that I won't be feeling so miserable if I find myself a job, let me tell you this --- you are WRONG!

Put aside the punctuality problem. (Anyone who knows me will know that if there's anything I don't tolerate, it's got to be the punctuality issue.) Just when I thought things have turn for the better, I got smack right in the face by a frying pan hours later.

You ask me arrange, I've arranged. You ask me send a copy to you and logistics department, I've done that. So why is it MY problem when YOU or someone from logistics department didn't even bother to read the remarks I noted down in the spreadsheet, and didn't manage to get the stuff delivered? Or is my england so powderful that you all don't understand ar? Hello, you people are uni graduates leh, me only have A' Level cert that's not even that impressive. Why has it become my fault when you all don't want to read the remarks that you asked me to note down, or don't even bother to leave proper instructions before telling me to do it? Somemore still ask me to multi-task, and have the cheek to ask me "how's work? OK la hor?". Why bother asking when you're going to answer it as well? Push all the sai gang to me still "OK la hor?"

I'm feeling what my MSN currently reads: "dun know whether can tahan till 31st August".

And as if things are not shitty enough, Neopets decided to drop me a bombshell when I tried to log in: "Warning! This account has been FROZEN.......". I've decided to boycott Neopets.