Last entry for 2006... (Geesh I'm making it sound like I've been posting frequently...)

The past 2 days have been miserable, I can only describe my feelings with the word "caged". Well actually, I can't think of a more appropriate word, so this is the next best word.

Scenario:
1. Internet connection not working well, can't get the 2 episodes of the drama I'm currently watching, and 2 more coming up next week... Conclusion: sian -_-
2. No dates. Even when there is, was stood up last minute, no more reason to go out... Conclusion: pissed >_<
3. Worst of all, all my 파리의 연인 are out on loan!!! *_*

Ok, enough of my ranting. Below is my resolution-cum-wishlist for the new year: (排名不分先后):

1. New blogskins, this time all by myself...
2. Complete the construction for my new blog... (It's just a review of my favourite drama to date hehe..)
3. Speedier recovery for the internet connection, then I can complete my new MV...
4. Enjoying myself in Hong Kong...
5. Finding a job and earning lots of money...
6. Getting into my preferred course...
7. Shedding the tummy...
8. Making new football mates... (Haven't been playing for a long time...)

That's it for now, cos the expiry date for the above list is 31 December 2007... LOL I'll be coming up with a long term one, there a some things that I really want to do but not capable to fulfill...

Happy 2007 everyone!

Looking forward...

Was watching the news on Channel U earlier on (9pm) and realise that Christmas is just a week away...

Christmas -- "the annual festival of the Christian church commemorating the birth of Jesus: celebrated on December 25 and now generally observed as a legal holiday and an occasion for exchanging gifts." That's the definition I got from www.dictionary.com .

The news reported on how a shopping mall (I think is Marina Square) created a sculpture of Santa Claus made of chocolate as an attraction to do its purpose -- attracting customers. That Santa weighs 80kg, and of course inedible because chemical was added to prevent it from melting. For someone who doesn't have any plans for the upcoming Christmas (like me), there's one more reason to step out of the house, whether to "meet" this brown Santa, or down to Orchard Road to see the lights, or join in the ongoing sales everywhere.

As I was planning for myself for 25th December, I was thinking what exactly is Christmas. (Just curious to know what I will be celebrating for) And that's when I went to check for the definition. When I saw the news again at 11pm, I was wondering: are we overdoing it? I mean, there's so much excitment about next Monday, so much hype going on, but in fact, does every single excited soul really know exactly what they are about to celebrate? Or are they just "crowd-followers" (not sure if there's sure a term)? I have a few devoted Christian friends, and all they did for the past Christmases were just going to the church for prayers followed by meals with family and friends.

Somehow, I just feel that Christmas is so "over-commercialised" that I wonder if it's still Merry Christmas (or is it Merry Business)... Just my opinions...

Oooh... I got the present from her! Nice :)

I never really fancy celebration for my birthday, preferring instead to stay with my family, so yesterday was the first time in some years that I celebrated with friends (after lunch with my family of course!)

Perhaps because it was my 18th birthday, my friends felt the need to keep me company, and I must say I really did enjoy myself! On top of that, a big THANK YOU to all the greetings, which included a couple of pleasant surprises! :)

Thank you peng pengs!!!

Oh dear, I'm really starting to enjoy my time at teh peng's house. I mean, aside from being served drinks and snacks (that's what guests get hehe :p), I get to share with her my weird passion (teh peng will know) that I don't get to do with anyone at home... Plus, I had a wonderful dinner today, teh peng may not think it's much, but to me, nothing beats home made cooking...

Help me thank your mum, ade!

I'm really tired right now, but I can't seem to fall asleep. 've been lying in bed for 5 hours, yet my mind won't shut. Wonder what it's busy with, nothing special happened today (I mean yesterday) really... My eyes are really heavy. Great, insomnia... Actually, I've been having sleeping problems for a month or two. Haven't had many FULL nights' sleep, keep waking up then falling asleep again, today really is terrible...

Anyways, on to the next "topic". I was kind of disappointed yesterday when I heard that she's going Genting this Saturday. I knew she'll be going with her friends to Genting, but I didn't know when. Saturday, which means she won't be able to make it on my day.

I can't exactly distinguish whether I was jealous more than I was disappointed, or it's purely disappointment. When it was hers, I knew she'll be going out with her friends, which was why I met her two days earlier for dinner. Of course I'm not expecting her to do the same (not after that episode), but I didn't expect her to be away on that day...

Gosh, having headache now...

I'm afraid the disappointment may turn to resentment...

Today is Monday. Start of a new week, and start of the annual spring cleaning again... Well, it's kinda expected, my family usually starts cleaning early, but I definitely didn't expect to start today. Why? My Mum's supposed to be at work, but she got herself a MC, that's why. Tried "persuading" her to rest since she got herself the MC (that's what MCs are for isn't it?), but to no avail. Ya ya custom or tradition or what-have-you, but shouldn't we start in spring like the name suggest? But then again, since Lunar New Year signifies the beginning of spring, it only makes sense to start cleaning early. But this early? Oopf... I'm just contradicting myself... However, I do have some doubt about spring cleaning:

1. Like mentioned earlier, why start in winter when it's called spring cleaning. But I've answered myself, so ya... (I'm still not totally convinced though, anyone with better answers?)

2. Why start sooo early, only for them to be covered in dust again by the time Lunar New Year arrives?

3. Why is it that after discarding bags and bags of trash, and when the next spring cleaning comes, there is still as much or even more trash? Do trash grow or what? What have they been feeding on? This is plain absurd!

Okay, enough of it. No matter how much I complain, there's no escaping my duties. Yes, duties. Like what my Mum says, "aiyo, you live in this house of course must do ma..."

Be it acceptance or just that I've simply gotten used to it after cleaning for so many years, I must admit that it's pretty satisfying to see everything neat and tidy after cleaning, but only for a few weeks. Perhaps for other people's houses, it may take months. But for mine, it's definitely a matter of weeks before it's back to be like the Weasleys' Burrow again, er... without the magic part...

I'm so proud, this actually looks more like a proper entry hehe...

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Credits to Adeline! (thanks for pointing that out!)

Whew! Finally it's all done. Downloaded the skin, took some time to figure out all those html code, replaced the picture, shifted the position here and there... It's still personalised, isn't it? 'cos I don't know how to create a skin fom scratch, so downloaded one and just made changes... I'm still sourcing for suitable background music, or perhaps I don't even need one?

The city of light (romance)...

It erupted. I'm not at all pleased with that nonchalant "then?". How would you have reacted if I said that? I kept my composure, refrained myself from confronting you, all I needed was an apology and I would have been able to give you a smile and say, "It's all right."
What? "Then?"?! Your attitude infuriated me!

AND, don't try to include old scores which I don't even know what the hell you refer to! Just tell me frankly what you're unhappy with and we could have settled it there and then.

I've lost hope...

I've figured out that I should make the most out of my blog since I've already started it. Give me some time to doll it up, and I'm still learning what to include in my future entries... Look forward to it!

I'm feeling better these days...

The Reason

I never thought I'd be starting a blog (something I see as an online diary), I was skeptical about sharing my thoughts and feelings with people whom I may not know, and I still am...

But I decided to start one, for her...

There were just too many incidents, and I still have no idea which was the decisive one... And since then, we can't seem to be able to hold proper conversations. We don't even call, "preferring" instead notes and SMSes... I know they are sadden by our soured relationship, so am I. But I've already taken the first step, in fact a few of them, and I wonder when she will be making hers... Perhaps she think she did, and if she did, then I'm sorry to say I'm ignorant...

I hope one day she will be able to chance upon this blog, just like how I chanced upon hers... And if you're reading this, just want to tell you: "I'm tired, it's your turn to make the move..."