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Saturday, March 24, 2012 • 1:45 PM • 0 comments
My one sided love begins with a girl with a poly tail and one pair of mesmerizing big eyes.My secondary school days has never been so dull before ever since i saw you.Still remember as i walked past the corridor ,the first girl that caught my eyes is you.Ever since then,the corridor has been my daily route and walking past the corridor has been my routine until at the point of time someone came to your life.I think it is a senior?From there,my heart sank and the only motivation i got is to be the best of the best,to be at least a top graduate in my normal academic stream.
With this,I strive my hardest and hope that someday I can be a centre of attraction,to no one but you.Years past,you are still the girl that i yearn for.The second year of our secondary school days came,I supposed that you are attached.I fight hard to be the top in my academic and I did.However,it is still not enough without you.What to do?Life goes on...Until my third year...when finally we were in the same class.My life brighten up... From there on,I hope to make friends with you...Soon enough we became friends...At the mid of the third year,we became close friends .However,i wished that we were even closer...Bit by bit...i get to know you...and soon we become god daughter-father...Time and time again,i will always make you things...
Still remember all the ayumi notes i give you?The cranes?The rose?The bear?haha...Such memories....Every time I look at you...it makes me want to tell you that I like you..but...I cant muster this courage like Glenn...haha..Hmm..He's one tough guy that I can't defeat ya?Cuz rmb throughout the last 3 yrs...u r loyal and faithful to him ya?With that,I very well respect both of you,bless happiness to the both of u and secretly loving you...Until my poly days when I thought that I can finally let my heart die and forget you...I was wrong...I met you at poly..we talked...just like how we did in secondary school...sometime later you came to my house and prepared cookies and still rmb the rice and some dishes you prepared for me...that day is simply my happiest day!!Until when I confess to you...head on...when you replied as if I am joking...my heart sank and that happiest day became the most worst day of my life especailly when I received the message from you that the both of us are impossible...
I cried,I teared,I sobbed...but can't change the fact that you have someone in mind at that time..it's not Glenn is it?It's some Kenneth guy,if I do rmb...As such ...impulsively...I go online,do any means..just to find someone who can be my girlfriend...and I did...We never reali last long....Still rmb theres a long period of time I din contact you?That's becuz im wif her..But our love is puppy love after realising that we do not actually love each other and that on a particular day,that girl suddenly disappear from my side and that's how we mysteriously broke up,with no explanation and nothing.After we broke,I try to approach u...But then again,I think u hav someone else.I don't know if its Kenneth or Shawn...but you seems to have found ur happiness...So,then again...I try my every means to forget you...to find another girlfriend,perhaps?
It din't took long for me to find another girlfriend.However,this time is the same...This isn't the relationship I want...I feel bad for this 2nd girl as I leave her mysteriously like what my 1st ex did to me...So,I approached you again..but then again getting you is realli hard...no matter how much I try to talk,you still would not accept me.Thus,I thought that I should realli get my head and my mind off you for good.
This time,I realli put my heart and soul to this third girl.I do everything I can think of to make her happy.I thought that I can realli last with her and that our love is not a puppy love thing.Then again,I'm wrong.While I am in relationship with her,she's out there with another guy alreadi,someone who hav a vehicle,with income...a steady man..I am realli nth compared to him!So in the end,we came to an agreement and broke up just before my NS as ours is not a puppy love,but a one sided love.
Ever since I'm in NS... I try to contact you back..and I managed to..As time passes by,I will try to meet you and bring you to see my grandparents.My grandparents said that you are a nice girl and I doubt that they are wrong..Hmm...nice girl hard to find as well as hard to get...dun u agree?This time,I would not want to ask you the same old question,whether to accept me a not...As I believe the answer will always be the same..Now,as long as I can see you,I'm more than happy le...So let us be this way ba...but if there's realli a chance to be your one and only,just tell me straight in the face as I'm tired le...realli tired to even chase you...
