wind to thy wings~

Monday, February 04, 2008

You Act Like You Are 18 Years Old
You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.
What Age Do You Act?


Hehe there's a reason why I'm pasting this here :P Erms... Anyway quoting ST: "I know the word barber' sounds very alien in our era because nobody uses it anymore unless he's 200 years old."


Oh dear...


In advance, Happy Chinese New Year! (In case I don't blog anymore the next few days. I think I would though...)



wishing wind to thy wings at 7:37 PM
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I agree with a certain someone that a certain someone else is too full of himself. Oh dear so cryptic but yeah well. I do not think that criticising someone I respect for something I cannot do or am not good at makes him a role model. Too haughty. Too proud. Looks down too much on others.


Another cryptic remark: Do I look so old??? :( (Haha if you know me well enough you could ask me what prompted me to say that :P)


I don't like facing the real world. Surviving in the little spaces called weekends right now. Thankfully this is a short week :) And well, I have made some discoveries and some reflections over the weekend.


I may lose heart. But I think I can grow up.



wishing wind to thy wings at 7:16 AM
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Saturday, February 02, 2008

I wish I knew what to do with my life.


I wish I actually meant something to somebody, anybody.


Sometimes I wonder who would miss me if I dropped dead right now...



wishing wind to thy wings at 1:55 AM
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Again :S There's some problem with me.


But with something to look forward to I'm fine. I guess this time it's shorter that's why.


Meanwhile I have many things I should do :S


I did something totally different with my class today. With 4 classes all moving at different pace and covering different topics, I wonder how on earth am I going to be able to remember which class stopped where. I wrote it down though.


Prac today was a disaster. Well I had a good time getting to know that class better at least. Now I can match every name in that class to a face. How pro ;)



wishing wind to thy wings at 5:03 PM
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Monday, January 28, 2008

I just finished the book "The Innocent Man" by John Grisham. The last few pages left me with my vision blurred and tears dripping off my cheeks. But. I didn't like the book at first. Much as I knew it was a factual recount albeit written by a fiction writer, I didn't quite like the style of his writing in this book. Completely different from the norm. And absolutely detached.


It was difficult reading it because facts were piled upon facts. A summary of the entire encounter. No story-telling skills. No emotion-tweaker. No tears-inducer.


And the book excelled precisely in the way it presented everything in facts. Uncoloured. Though highlighted. It would have been an absolute bore to read. But the truth was compelling. Horrifying. And captivating. (And that was why the last few pages were so painful to read.)


Which struck me as to why an innocent man was put through so much trouble and trauma when it was obvious the faults in his trial and the criminal justice system. The facts were staring at everyone.


Yet the determination to nail a crime to a "random" suspect won over.


And made Ron Williamson undergo much unnecessary torture. At the expense of taxpayers.


Ok I might be slow in picking up this story. And in picking up this book (bought it before prelims and kept it in its cover until only recently). But the book is so chilling in that it is a true story.


Ok I don't know what to say. I'm left speechless.


(Who wants to borrow this book? Just keep in mind the Zhi Xu's library rules :P)


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I realise I can find strength.


In cherishing hope, keeping faith, surrounded by love and blessed with a bit of luck :)


Someone recently asked me whether it was true I liked four-leaf clovers a lot.


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So Mr Barack Obama won the South Hampshire Democratic primary. I wonder whether it is truly good news for him. With overwhelming support by the black population in South Hampshire, the Democratic race for the Presidential nomination is becoming increasingly polarised along racial lines. And it would make it difficult for him to win the nomination in states with fewer blacks should he continue to play for black votes.


Super Tuesday would be highly interesting to follow.


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Why did I start commenting on American politics. -.-


Some replies to tags:
suwan: I look forward to dancing with you again soon baby :) Meanwhile, take care of yourself and stay cheery :)
zhu hui: Oh gosh the smile all the time line sounds like aster. I miss you very very much! When are you coming back!
nikki: so is outing on saturday confirmed?? yesyesyes?


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My super quiet class astounded me today by the cacophony they created. Faints.


Tutorial is becoming difficult to teach. Very hard for me not to stray into other topics because stoichiometry is so basic and essential to all subjects that it actually builds on knowledge from other chapters taught later in the syllabus. I hope I didn't repeatedly lose my class(es) today.


Ahhh and lectures are going too slowly for tutorials. Oh well. There's the CNY break soon! And a lot of marking to do after CNY :S Silly me for wanting them to hand in their _optional_ work :P



wishing wind to thy wings at 6:28 PM
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Oh dear it's all starting again. Again. I don't want...


Oh and my sore throat is back :S I think I'm falling even more sick.


Didn't have the strength to lift up my leg at all during dance today. So tiring. Maybe some bug :S I don't like being picked on. But everytime I tell myself -- Well, at least I'm being looked at to be picked upon.


My parents watched some Dao Lang concert just now. A song I like...


谢谢你
刀郎


假如人生能够留下可以延续的记忆
我一定选择感激
如果在我临终之前还能发出声音
我一定会说一句谢谢你


如果生命之重可以用我双手托起
你定是我生命的精灵
如果爱能够让我们永远在一起
我会对它说一句谢谢你


谢谢你
你搂着我的伤痛抱着我受伤的心
在迷乱尘世中从来未曾说放弃
你牵着我的手走进明天的风雨
不管前路崎岖你从来坚定


谢谢你
你让我可以在平凡的世界发现我自己
不管是否有阳光照耀我依然美丽
你让我明白:爱你就是爱我自己
你让我学会珍惜生活里的点点滴滴.



wishing wind to thy wings at 12:02 AM
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Saturday, January 26, 2008

Simple joys of life:
Sitting down in a windy corner of Singapore and simply enjoying the breeze. And the company.
Looking into a childcare centre and seeing a girl smile so brightly back at me.
Looking up, and admiring the beautiful moon in the sky.


There is hardly anything simple in my life anymore. I wish. I wish. I wish for a lot of things.


I wish I knew what to do with my life.


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27 Dresses was not as nice as what mini-mel led me to believe. Yet it made me think as well. When Jane was trying to hard to do what she thought she was supposed to do with her life, I couldn't decide what I want to do as well. And why was I trying so hard. And what was I trying so hard for.


I still don't know. Despite everything today.


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I wish the world was simple and easy.


"You are beautiful." I want to tell this to someone as well :)



wishing wind to thy wings at 11:23 PM
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Thursday, January 24, 2008

Slacked and bummed around the whole day today. Watched TV and played TV sudoku albeit on paper.


Was so tired when I was reading on the couch that I fell asleep and slept for about an hour. Sounds like last Thursday didn't it? Hopefully Friday would not be a repeat.


But tomorrow is different :) YES!


Oh today I finally heard the National Anthem on TV. Just yesterday gor gor was telling me about it and I was like "HUH got such a thing arh???" And I saw it today! Haha quite cool I never knew the National Anthem was played on TV :)


Oh and I forgot to mention something yesterday. Did you know that the steps leading to Thomson Plaza from the bus stop acts like a water fountain? The cascading waterfalls would have been extremely cool. Other than the fact that they made my feet UTTERLY wet. Haha.


Cough cough cough. I want my throat to be well again! I must learn how to speak with my diaphragm. Yeps.


Okies looking forward to tomorrow!


Dance dance dance I miss it so much!



wishing wind to thy wings at 11:07 PM
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It is rather late I should be sleeping but, but don't feel like yet. Yet.


Hmmm. Had a very silent phone conversation today because I think both ends were feeling very sian. Haiz today wasn't a good day despite it being quite good for the first half part.


Anyway, today had prac which went quite horribly because I didn't brief them carefully enough before they started the prac I think. Then ended up during debrief I had to correct all the mistakes again. But today's class was quite fun :) I like.


Other than that, lecture in which a teacher teased a student. Erms... No comment on that part. It was quite amusing but the student was amused as well sooo...


Had lunch with the gor gor today :) Thanks arh the four-leaf clovers. Hehe went to pizza hut and were told to present our student passes (which we duly did) and guess what? Hahaha. But oh dear he's going in when all the rest of the boys are coming out! Ok but I still look forward to the day he goes in! :P Hehehe.


Computer had some major malfunctioning.


Uneasy MSN conversation with someone.


I need to talk desperately but I really don't know how and who to talk to. A lot of things to consider which I would like to talk over with someone. But I guess it would be quite hard to burden someone else with all my problems when they have their own problems and are already overtaxed and getting down due to them. So I guess I have to keep it down as usual.


As usual. Haiz.



wishing wind to thy wings at 12:14 AM
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Can someone super pro at tech please please help me :'(


My computer decided to install IE7, Windows Live Messenger 8 and Windows Media Player 10 all at the same time itself. And now everything is back to default settings. And the best thing is "My Documents" does not lead to "Zhi Xu's Documents" when I'm in the profile "Zhi Xu".


HELP! I can't even restore it :'(



wishing wind to thy wings at 6:20 PM
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