Ok, so everyone is doing the "blog" thing, so I thought I would join in on the fun. So all you do is post your thoughts... it can't be too hard. But as I sit here and try to think about something fun and exciting to write and that would interest anybody who reads it, I realized that this is harder than it looks. People come up with their own funny sayings or lists or just write what is going on in their life. I think for me... realistically I won't keep up with this and I am not sure anyone will read it. But here it goes anyway... one of the biggest things I am struggling with in my life right now is being happy with my looks. Never as a teenager did I care about what people thought of me. But now that I am almost 25 and married, I choose now to care. That is odd to me. Now that I have the man of my dreams that the Lord has chosen for me, I am self conscious. I guess it could be because I am naked in front of him. But even that, I feel like I have to be this perfect girl. I am competing with the world's view of BEAUTIFUL. But I am clinging to the fact that the Lord says, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made... and that my body is a temple of the holy spirit and I should honor him with it." Knowing this and believing it is two different things sometimes. It is sad that so many girls deal with this and I am living proof, that you're never too old to deal with the lies the world is telling us. So I give it up daily... finding confidence in the fact that God looks at our inmost being and that the only person that I should care about finding me beautiful, does. So there it is... I basically need to cry myself a river and then build a bridge to get over it. The most important goal is that I stay healthy.
Well now that wheel of fortune is over and i've written enough, I feel that I am done with my first blog entry. Enjoy.
