念

“念” 可以构词成 “思念”、 “想念” 、 “怀念”、“眷念”。

“念”字，上有“今”；下有“心”，是否代表着今日的心在想起某个人或事物？

四月，我失去了爷爷。 

对爷爷的印象大概就是刻板的严肃，不多话。

爷爷所说的广东话只有奶奶、爸爸、姑姑以及伯伯们听得懂。他说的不像是在港剧里所听见的那样，爸爸称那是古老的 si hak wa （用广东话来说）。

可有两句我却听得懂的就是 “努力读书” 和 “不要贪玩” 。

以前无知地认为听听就好，可是现在再也听不见他说这些话了。

我怀念他每次买猪肠粉给我们吃，

怀念他每次在新年时给的一封红包， 

怀念他每次在庭院里等我们一家人的归来，

怀念每次要回 Subang Jaya 时硬硬给他一个拥抱，

怀念他每次放屁时都可以如此潇洒地走过我的面前不当作一回事……

如今这些一举一动不能够体验，只能回味。

我会永远惦记着您的，爷爷。

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放假真爽！

第一次在三月的学校假期依然工作。鼓起已久的勇气向上司请一天假溺爱自己。

难得的假日，想出去走走看看，顺便奖赏自己去年所做付出的努力。

这一天，我自己一人就花了 RM 170， 真是无法想象日后该吃什么过日子。

不过既然是要宠自己，就去吃了很想吃很久的拉面。两个字，爽爆！吃完后傻傻地叫了一个昂贵的抹茶红豆冰淇淋。 喜欢的是那淡淡的抹茶味；憎恶的是那满足不了我的份量。

不甘心的我，逛书店近两小时，在那地方不停地转呀转。可能太久没买书读了，选了很久最后才选了两本，书店还真是一个鬼地方。

买书后想再吃冰淇淋，就去了红头发小丑叔叔快餐店买，然后redeem一个 fish fillet。我是为了冰淇淋才来的。 

不知怎么，心里还渴望吃到别的东西，但当时却不清楚自己要什么。呆人就是呆人，走了不久便想要喝冷饮。到了年轻人很喜欢去的店，选了蜂蜜绿茶。 

我喜欢的苦涩味，把一切的甜腻感都冲走。

生活里有甘苦的日子，可我还是好好地过活。也许拥有太多的甜蜜并不是一件好事。

一个人到处逛，到处游，能够看清的 是自己的心灵。

一个人随地走，随地看，已经找回了 那沉默许久的快乐。

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Summary for STPM Term 2

Hey guys, how are you doing? I hope that the STPM 2016 candidates are prepared to cope into the "stressful environment" after a two-months rest. It's has been two weeks since schools all over Malaysia reopen.

Feel refreshed after a long holiday? Have you regain all your energy back and able to fully focus on what is ahead? I hope you are. And if you are not ready for the coming battle, my advice to you is that you HAVE to increase you pace. It's never too late to do the right thing (of course not the last day before exam).

Okay, back to the story, Term 2 had been the least stressful term among those 3. Why? Because I am able to have more time for relaxation as there were less homework to be completed. However it is just my opinion and it does not reflect the same for my friends in the Art Streams. They have more assignments and projects that Science Streams student do.

My advice for Arts Streams students, have proper planning, and do not waste even the tiniest time you have. I saw a few of my schoolmates studying in that stream stay awake until late night just to finish their projects in time before the due date. Trust your seniors advices for they also want the best for you.

In this term, my childhood activity came back (Basically for all F6 students). We did colouring in PA!!!! Yes, it is the only interesting thing to do in this term, but the tedious part it you have to be careful and a careless mistake might make you plunged into the depth of horror (Seriously this is no joke). In this term you are required to learn how to analyse and present data from a given passage and turn it into graphs. (Bear in mind it is not easy tho)

In this term, all F6 students have to (compulsory) complete  an PA assignment given by the Malaysia Exam Council (MPM). Each year has a different theme. The most tiring part is that you have be very systematic as you have do research about what you want to do and plan your own writing and analysis. To add on, you will also have to go out and survey, ask people about their opinions to certain issues and topics related to your assignments. After that, you have to edit your findings endlessly to ensure there is no mistake for the teachers to penalise you. Do not worry too much as your teacher will always be there to help you, but at the same time you also have to work hard if you want a good score. This surely makes a huge impact in your final result.

In this term, you will be also studying about Dasar-dasar Malaysia. You will read about different policies that Malaysia government has starting the day the country is established. It sure will make your head spinning with madness.  

 An example of graphs after interpreting and analysing the information given in passage form.

For Bio students, get yourself fully prepared!!! You will have rat dissection this term. Whether you like it or not, it is a compulsory experiment for Biology this term. Get yourself well prepared for Biology, as this term's topic is about Physiology and it could be a very tough one especially the plants.

Rat dissection. 

[picture on the left] Explanations after the dissection are given by my Bio teacher (Pn.Maziah).

[picture on the right] The structures and the inner organs of the rat after the disection.  

Chemistry was fine. We get to learn different groups of elements in a more depth manner, However, do not jump to conclusion and think it will be easy, nope! You still have to work hard to understand what is going on.

For Maths T, hahaha, you will have to welcome back integration and differentiation. You shall have Calculus for this term. No matter how you dislike it, you still have to face it with all concentration. Bear in mind, it can be very challenging if you do not grasp the basics.

Co-curricular activities were okay as well, we had orientation week for the juniors coming in as STPM 2016 candidates. The Form 6 Society had planned an Explorace for them, and I was put in charge for that. Although there were some moments that we had arguments, rejections and misunderstandings but deep down in my heart I thanked them very much. After all, all hands make light work. I was able to learn how to communicate with them and the final result is a huge satisfaction for me.

Visited the Palace of Justice.

Activities we had. 

My buddies in Science Stream, including me. I missed them already!

In conclusion, Term 2 was considered my favourite term. Well, there were some events that make me felt sad and dull but that's what make life even colourful. Hope you are ready for the challenges ahead.

Do feel free to share your thoughts. 

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Summary for STPM Term 1

Term 1 was considered the toughest term for me as it was the first time for me to go back and study after a half-year "Hibernation" from academic books.

Like any sixth formers all around Malaysia, I thought that Form 6 (I'll put as F6 further down) was just slightly more difficult than F5. Well, it turned out that I was totally wrong. It was not only hard, but was SUPER FREAKING HARD!!! Feel surprised? That was what I felt last year. 

I started studying in Lower 6 Biology in SMK ALAM MEGAH (which was the school I had my secondary education) 

( Logo of my school)

The number of students in that class was not constant until it reached mid-August. It finally left with the five of us. 4 females and 1 male (which is me). That's right. I know what you are thinking. I'm the only male student in the class. Do you know how the teachers describe my class? "The thorn among the roses"

Yes it is. Even my own class teacher agreed to that when she first heard from other teachers. 

I had a difficult time in handling Maths and Chemistry. I had Maths (T) for STPM. The contents in term 1 are the most in 3 terms. I spent so much time on Maths until I only had a short time for the other subjects. Bad time management you can say. The first chapter took us almost 1 and a half month to finish. It was time-consuming and I had experienced a stress that was more severe than during F5. But I didn't gave up. I kept on doing the best I could. 

On the other hand, term 1's Chemistry was also the hardest to me. For those who are going to be entering Science Stream, do remember that Chemistry in Form 5 can only be considered the primary stage of Chemistry. 

In first term, we were exposed to Inorganic, Physical Chemistry. It was hard for me to cope with the subject as it was totally different from what I learned during SPM stage. Luckily for me, I have a chemistry teacher who is always there to explain the things I don't understand and questions that was left unsolved. 

First term's Biology was quite okay for me. It was basically F5's contents but in more details and it requires a higher level of understanding. 

Pengajian Am (I called it General Studies in English) was the only subject in BM. The syllabus in this term aims to know about the structure of Malaysia from top to bottom. From Yang di-Pertuan Agong to Prime Minister and more to go..... The essays in this subject requires us to rewrite in BM, and it was quite a tough one as I did not wrote anything in BM after SPM.

Speaking of co-curricular activities, I managed to participated myself in Uniform Unit and the Society Unit. I completely neglected the Sports Unit. (Don't be like me okay.) Co-curricular activities were okay except that when you have members or "comrades" that are unwilling to support the activities held each time. Well, who am I to judge them? Let's just keep quiet for this. 

That's all for this post. Being in F6 was definitely a huge turning point in my life and being able to go through Term 1 was truly an unforgettable journey. It was not my first choice enrolling to F6 and yet it was not my last choice either.

Of course, there will be some stressful feelings seeing your friends going a different path and you always think of alternate paths other than F6 and said to yourself, "The road not taken". I know it is kinda hard to endure it at first, but once you went through the hardest time, you will sure be proud of yourself. Yes, you may look back and had a glimpse of your journey, but don't stay too long in the past. Let it go.

Besides, you have your friends, family plus teachers supporting you endlessly. What could possibly go wrong with these? 

The class picture I had in Term 1. In this picture, you only see 4 students, the other person was always absent when it comes to big event. 

Paper chromatography experiment for Biology. My favourite experiment of the term. The colours you can see slightly shows the colour of chlorophyll.

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New Year 2016. Stop doing these things!

Hey guys, HAPPY 2016!!! Do you guys have fun in 2015? I bet that each and every one who is reading this post are recalling the memories they have right now. No matter it is sorrow, joyous or heart-aching, let it be the lessons in your life and start a brand new you!!

As for a new year, I wish to re-edit my blog into a brand new site. I'll be writing and posting about the journey I had in Form 6 which already happened in 2014 and 2015. Stay tuned for more. 

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