this sucks

it seems like my grades this semester are all going down the drain.

my hopes of seeing my cap go slightly up is flying away.

i guess now really got to find job.

but for now? i feel like i have been cooped up in hall for too long. need a time out for myself and go town for shopping or tea drinking or read a story book with isnt my lit text or roller blading somewhere sometime. i cant wait for exams to get over and done with so i am finally go out

the last page of history of science notes

i know it is horrible grammer but it was a nice reflection for me


"it keeps coming back to me the past few hours. the images, the memories, the senses of everything in new zealand. i am just sitting there and suddenly the images of the house in whanganui flashed into my mind. the images of the living room and how we roasted our wet clothes at the fire. the undeniable images of the dining table and the record player we continuously plaeyd disney songs and sound of music

funny how such images have been popping all over the place. otago's clocktower, the geog department, union lawn and even the dunedin train station. even i am so srprised that my brain actually went back to these memories. i am actually in a mode of melancholy and nostalgia. i have not remembered my exchange times much since i came back and now these memories just constantly popping through my mind.

just as when i asked myself 'why are these images in my mind' my ipod pops "all good things come to an end" by nelly and coldplay. Nelly was my exchange soundtrack. then the senses rewind to the rolling hills and pastures with sheeps on it. there memory of me driving the final leg on our north island trip. i could sense and feel myself viewing the landscape through the front of the car.

i have been asking myself why these images were coming to mind. then more images - the plane hotel, the black water rating, the tairei gorge train ride. then i realized how much i miss my north island trip. i never really mentally flashed back to new zealand since i came back in november and now it is all i can think of.

is it a sign that i am studying too hard

impossible

i never felt i have been to new zealand. never felt like i have gone for exchange at all. and now i am sitting here in the reading room reminiscing those times like i was physically there just only yesterday. i realised that this would make a good piece of memory. maybe i should start a collection of a 'grandmother tin' where all my old memories can go into. this last page of my history of science notes can just go into the time. 50 years down when i look back i will remember how much i missed new zealand.

the images of whanganui farmhouse is still in my mind. and somehow i dont want it to go away.

-23042008 11.16pm-"

the last moments

not every day is like this one. this is one of those events that you only qualify once in your life. and to qualify for it is not an easy task. basically you have to survive horrible neighbours, horrible dinners, sleeping at the oddest hours, doing crazy random stuff you never grew out of, bitching through the night, mudpies and everything in between.

funny how it is and yet there at 80 people out there who have persisted through the years and did everything that hall had to offer. 80 people stupid enough to put their reputation on the line just to mark their final year.

my final formal dinner in KR and i am stuck with a dress which is one size too big. i think it is just the bust size that is too big for me and the dress is so new the tag is not off yet. actually it was van pageant dress which i borrowed last minute coz looking at what every one else wore i felt under dressed in my little pink skirt and black top. so decided to change into something that kept slipping off. and something that threatened to expose all my insulation.

well. apparently the rest of most of the girls all decided to turn up in black dresses. in fact, the whole b block final year girls turned up in black. scary. to think that they all have little black dresses. i think i should start scouting for a little black dress of my own.

and this is the first time after a really long time that i decided to whip out my camera and take some photos. well. this is the last time i can get a snap of everyone that i have seen for the past 3 years.

and seriously, i have horrible make up today. i wonder why i did not bother to add abit more colors. i thought that rina's make up was damn nice. i should start installing more colors onto my face. all the make up make my face look so white. almost matching nelle

my two coolest friends in hall. two people i really learn to bitch with.
yun and nelle


the final year fwocers.
me and keelong was saying that FWOC is the most memorable thing that we did.
me and my fav dee-nah.


teckie aka resident of the year.
my fwocer


the bblk final years


lionel - ill always remember him for being IMPORTANT (man)
Hailin - my good old cap. nice playing with you
Benny - mr nice guy


and of course my baby. he looks so adorable.
i so happy to command with you.

it was so nice to see the very old seniors. funny how i am joining their ranks of being really the LAO LANG. seeing qing you, sweeyong, big and small S, shuying, waterboi, edmund and the others. seems like you have gone back a year or two. funny how you will never run out of things to say to them after all this time.

and for the command, i have the honor of doing the finale with van, janelle, pam, emily, junli, steph, rina, ron, zhihao, jamie, brandon, martin, lionel, yao zhong and lin



thank you for making it as fun as it gets. i know it is not very 'reputable' but i am glad we all bared with the horrible outfits, 8 continuous nights of practice and horrible dance steps. i cant imagine i actually put myself into this mess of people to do up a performance. and these are really some people who have almost never stopped talking since we started rehersals. i think we have spent at least 24 hours of practice together. we are the item that practiced the most. if only i could clock a dollar for every hour, just to forgo the time i should have spent on studying for history of science.



it wasnt that long time ago when i was in fwoc. and now i am performing with emily and janelle. it was only yesterday we were in orientation together. and to see that all these people are graduating with me. life is so short.

and of course, we will always need to have the family song to EMO together. well... i shed a tear or two. i can honestly tell you that the people who cried are either damn emo or they really love hall. these are the people who would most likely come back for the next 2 years.

4th floor seniors.
janelle, michelle, huijuan, cherly and ME

all the other random others. i have taken a total of 60 photos last night with almost everyone i could have. so if your photo is not here than go check out face book!


and of course, my darling seniors.
thanks for the chocs

that means that i am officially an alumni

happy birthday jilly

may you get hitched