im dissappearing soon

im off to the north island in 2 hours.
will not be around to blog for the next one plus week.

i have had a very hectic week this week since i came back from my ski trip. i had a test to study for and a lab report to do. all which i managed to get done on wednesday. i never thought that i am such a nerd here. actually rushing to finish up my work so all that i can have more time to travel and do stuff during the weekends.

but i guess it is all for the sake of being here.

the following is rated RA
children under 21 should not read this.

my test just now was crap. i din know how to do 10 out of 30 questions dispite actually studying for it. well. i found out many interesting things from classical myths. it is really my favourite module ever taken in my university career. they really should have a classic department in NUS or even in singapore. it could really make school more interesting.

imagine the whole module telling you stories of greek gods and their sexual escapades. try this man apparently gay behaviour has a long history since the times of 1000BC. i was reading my textbook last night and i found this a very interesting fact.

"isolated from the female sex, men in their twenties gathered at the exercise ground to admire the prepubescent boys and to court them through gifts and poetry, a practice called pederasty, "love of boys".....

....If the boy accepted a suitor's attentions, he would submit to kissing and fondling and eventually to copulation form the front btween the boy's thighs or even anal penetration. The boy was to expect to derive little or no physical pleasure from his lover's attention, in keeping with Greek moral educaion in self control"

quoted from powell (2007)

seriously... the Greeks are one totally screwed up society. when you watch shows like troy or 300, those men you see there are strong and manly with muscles ripping all over. war smart and worly and you would never have guessed that they would have gone through sex with a boy. to think that "Greek moral education" lies in the heart of "self control" and not being able to satisfy yourself. like what the hell man. gays will love this era in history.

not only do they train in the yard totally naked, but they are also highly open to the idea of gay sex at such a young age. actually now the only thing on my mind is "what the hell is janelle thinking after reading this?" hi bitch. wont you love to be born at that time and age? you will be able to see naked muscle ripping men (pural) training in the yards.

another one of friends getting engaged.

CONGRATS on your DIAMOND RING LIXIN !
and elvin, you make a girl happy

plagerised from elvins blog but the point is to show how happy they are and how BIG the diamond is. haha. i suddenly love to read engagement stories. well... they have been tog forever. but still dawn on me that lixin is still only 22?

funny how i realise these stuff only when i read people blogs. first olea and now lixin. i guess that is why i support bloggin so much. friends you have never met in a long time and it is the only way you can find out about their special and unique lives. to those people who do not have a blog, please keep one. and to those people who do not update their blogs (aka lynette) please update.

anyway. i think i am going through the life phase where all your friends are getting engaged and married. people always go through a life phases throughout their lives. there will always be a time in your life when:

- your friends get attached one by one
- your friends getting engaged one by one
- your friends getting married one by one
- your friends having their first child one by one
- your friends dying one by one

i think i am in the engagement phase of my life. NO MY LIFE but to see all the people around me getting a diamond ring. funny how you realised that you have known people for such long time are carrying on with their lives in the happiest ways.

i wonder when will my turn come.

shit. i think my maternal instincts are starting to formulate themselves. suddenly i feel like i have to start toning up by body and losing weight for my wedding day. i guess when all your friends are hitting on the aisle to the alter, you suddenly wish you are never going to be left of the shelf.

people who get married always look happy

the party i was not at

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNETTE!

happy belated birthday wishes!!! you are one year older now. you are legally able to go to ROM anytime you want without parental concent. welcome to the age where everything hapens. hope you get a boyfriend soon! hehe. you need it.

the bitch took this video and i thought that is was so funny. so i am going to post it up.

she who never knew she could cry so much

she seem happy most of the time
makes the smile a great facade.
but there are actually so many deeper layers
of emotions, sadness and of grime.
she realised that she have been constantly wiping tears
and blowing her nose when she is alone.
and she cant help it, too many fears.
too many gushes of emotions and things to atone.

her hands never felt so empty,
one less arm to hold on to and places she wants to be.
she read somewhereinoregon and she find herself overload
with the emotions she never thought she processesed
and feelings she breached.
feeling the same way, equally grief-ed.
equally in the lost world
where everything seems beyond reach.

learn a new sport. ski

try something new when you can. even better if you can try a whole new sport. what is better than to try out skiing esp since you are in a place in the winter. there is no reason you shouldnt go and ski. and i was lucky enough to manage to join toroa in their ski trip. and it was a right time for me between reports and essays.

and this time it is another trip back to queenstown. but this time round we are not visiting the place but getting the sweat on on the mountain top. in fact i never really got to see queenstown at all. all i saw was queenstown in darkness.

this is our bus ride up from dunedin to queenstown. apparently they kept feeding us candies and lollies. talk about welfare man. i was sitting with tammy, bavini vietnamese flatmate. the bus was so old i thought if it could climb the hills and go up the mountain roads. but it seems that it got us to the top of cardrona so i guess it is okay. but as usual the bus ride was long. the thing i love about singapore is that maximum time to get from one end to the other was 2 hours at max if there was a traffic jam. in NZ without a single car sharing the same road as you you will still need hours.



we arrived at 10pm at night at queenstown lodge. it is a pretty nice place at the top of the hill facing the lake. if only the sun was up when we where there. but it was still great to be able to see the stars so clearly. you can never see stars in singapore. and it would have been more romantic if ron was there to watch it with me. or a moment i imagined. one look into the sky and you are wowed by the number of stars you can see with your eye.

that is what i call skylights.



this is our room. right at the end of the corridor away from the everything else they have at the lodge. apparently we got a nice big room. compared to the rest of the room ours is so spacous and roomy with a windows and this really awesome toilet. and what's more is that there is a tv in the room!

and shireen is so happy with it. but there are only like 4 channels in NZ.

we spent some time talking about things again. until we realised the next morning we should have slept earlier. waking up at 6 am in the morning when you slept at 2 plus is not very good for the brain. coz you get high and you get sleepy easily. but i cant deny that we really had a great "girls night in" there is always a photo moment no matter what.




this is the top of the mountain. or ski resort. the view is so pretty. remembered when i told you how nice the southern alps were when i was on the plane to christchurch? this is seeing the whole view nearer and with more color. with the really nice clear weather when we got there it was simply so beautiful.

see the view behind me? those are clouds and not water. we are over the clouds. i could just close my eyes and take in all the beauty it had to offer. NZlanders take pride and joy in their winter sports. you should see the number of cars parked meters all the way down the hill. and they can walk up the 200 meter slope in ski boots. and ski boots are painful.




these are some of the people from toroa. which i have no idea who they are. the weather was hot and sunny and actually much warmer than what ill expect a mountain to have. but the moment the wind blows......

lucky i had all of dias windproof and water proof things. actually i look like dias in all his gear. but at least i have a different beanie. but i hate wearing beanies coz it gives you VERY UGLE hat hair. the only reason why i did wear it was to keep warm. in fact i think i look hideous with the beanie and with the sunglasses coz it makes my nose look bigger (and it already is) and emplify it by ten.

and the good thing is that it snowed during the afternoon. a nice fresh sheet of cover and another experience for me. now i have offically seen snow falling and snow on the ground at the same time. just that this is cheating coz it is in the mountains. and we four look so nice in our different colored jackets on the sheet white background.



this is us when we got the skis from the rental place. it is so hard to get your feet into the boot. it feel like your ankle is going to sprain itself half way through. but i guess that is the way how it is. and skiing have so many pieces of equiptment until you donno how to carry everything.



this is me on skis, we had classes in the morning of our day 1 of skiing. and it is basically a repeat of everything i had learnt in korea. and i to think that i did remember what i had learnt in korea 4 years ago. and my pride is that i never fell once in my first day of skiing. that is one big confident boost for me. YAY!



the end of the first day and we went back to queenstown to have dinner. it was a chinese restraunt with nice and spicy food. god i tell you how much i missed spicy food. the hot and sour soup plus garlic prawns.

and as usual i cannot sleep well again at night. got too many things in my mind and i just kept thinking of things. and only manage to get a 3plus hour sleep although i did go to bed very very early.



day two.

we finaly have the guts and confidence to go up the chair lift to try the real slopes. and it surprised me how long it took to do a return trip from the top. the chair lift took ages to get all the way up. and coming down was so tiring that i had to stop a few times just to let my knees have a break.

but it was nice to feel yourself getting the hang of it. in fact i fell twice down the slope and another two times from the chairlift. the first time i fell was off the chair lift and i felt so stupid doing that.

we took two routes down. one was the senic route where you could just ski and overlook the alps and the other was a steeper downhill one. both were rated "beginers". it made me wonder how bad could the expert on be.



this little bit of photos we took on the second day is in the middle of the scenic route. we already took plently of photos on our first day and the novelty of it has gone away but we still couldnt resis taking our existence on the route.



the funniest thing is that on the way back when the bus drove down the slopes and round the turns. i could totally feel myself skiing and doing my S curves down hill. the feeling is just so awesome and yet weird. it is like dreaming you can fly.

i guess i feel very accomplished to be knowing that i did try something new and i was daring enough to ski down steep enough slopes. but there are so many things at the back of my mind i cant seem to forget or ignore. i am not exactly in the best of mood to type this post.

and the worst thing is that your whole damn body aches from skiing. even if it was just two days. for the first time after a very long time i realised how human i can get. like when every single muscle in your body aches like hell, all you feel is that it reminds you of your existance on earth. you cant raise your hands and your cant climb the stairs. but some pains are worse than others

it is finally here

this is what i have been waiting for the whole time i was here. my very own unicol sweater and i finally collected it this evening from the deputy master. i've always like university sweaters which says like "michigan" or "UCLA" on the front. now i have my UCOU hoodie.

and it actually is very comfortable to wear. love it

now i am going to blend into the college, literally. coz everyone here wears it here.

≅ why does it hurt so much to love somebody?

all i want now is to gorge down a whole bar of chocolate. mayb i should buy some from countdown tomorrow

it is bloody cold tonight. the temperature outside suddenly dropped to -1 DegC. i can feel the cold air in my corridor and my bathroom.

Celebrating Singapore's National Day

okok. here are my beautiful pictures. i guess shireen is not that inefficient at all. in fact i think she is fast. ONLY 2 day lag. usually people who owes me photos take a week to send them to me most of the time.

anyway. here is our national day lunch at GOLDEN HARVEST RESTRAUNT on saturday afternoon. and this is the first time in ages i am having decent chinese food that taste like chinese food. (all the "asian" food in hall are kiwi-nised) and guess what? it is actually spicy. GOD I MISS CHILLI. i miss chinese food. althought the vegs are not really the chinese xiao bai cai or kangkong (coz you cannot get them here even if you are willing to pay for it) but they are fried chinese style of caulliflower and beans. but who cares where there is CHILLI.

and chinese tea! this is like only two of the six dishes.



lesson learnt from this exchange trip : you will miss even things you dont associate yourself with.

i never knew how much i love singapore food and chilli lor i tell you. absence makes the heart grow fonder. i think i cannot survive in a country that doesnt have decent chinese takeouts. funny how i used to think that i can survive months with steak and fries. i know now how wrong i was. i have admit that i cannot survive without my japanese and singapore food.

you will realise that hawker centers are a godsend. chicken rice is the best thing in the world. laksa rocks and that cha quay tiao doesnt seem that oily anymore. when you are so far away from all this food that you realise that singapore is the best place to grow up in.

point of note: it was 20 degC that afternoon. thus i was able to wear a shirt.

there were the goodies that you get from the national day parade from singapore. apparently they shipped some of the goodie bag from singapore all the way here so that we can have fun and a decent national day dispite being so far away from home.

we even have the colored star. the lighted fan. the fish hat. the singapore flag and even the goodie bag they store everything in.

this is my table. there are two tables for the lunch.

the unicol ball

i have never been to a ball before. everytime i think of the world "ball" it just reminds me of one of those victorian type balls where everyone have to do group dances and learn to flirt with each other. or sometimes it makes me think of how cinderella lost her shoe. a night of dresses and glamor. and some extravagence and it really shocks me how some people can go so far to get their nails / hair / makeup / puffy dresses / dangling-of-arm-decorations. (you know what i mean) but hell i have got to say that it really was one really damn fun night.

i only came back at really really wee hours of the morning. the ball ended at 12 midnight and i still went for the after party. and you know what is the best thing? i havent drank a sip of alchohol the entire night except for the glass of shitty "campaign" at the door which came with the ball tickets. so i din pay to drink anything since all the coke, juices and water are paid for the entire night. MY ONLY COST IS THE 35 DOLLAR BALL TICKETS.

this is the group of people i came with. the cool and funky international bunch from unicol. there is sam, adi, nadee, khanita, jiening and katie! they are so much fun. this is the picture we took outside in the cold, i was smart enough to bring my jacket. too bad gene din come for the ball. but she did join us for the after party.



then there was lydia and bf, reqeeb, david and gf, monica, callum and many random others who we met inside at the ball. too bad i was too lazy to take my camera out coz i just wanted to dance. i tell you the music was great man. this is a picture of the girls.

i loved lydia's dress. i tell you it was gorgous to the end. backless and so stunning. i wanted to ask her where she got it from but hell. not like i am going to be buying any dresses here. there are so many people with stunning low back dresses. that ment that prob 3/4 the girls din wear a bra to the ball. i even caught people constantly tugging up their tubedresses and girls holding on to their boobs coz the nipple almost fell out when they danced.

girls go through all the inconvience for vainity.



these are all the pictures i took using my own camera. and some randoms from others



what is the funniest thing this day is that the stupid fire alarm went off twice and we had to actually evacuate the building at around 7pm in the middle of dressing up upstairs in Khanita's bathroom on first floor. everyone was in dresses and gowns and suddenly the bloody alarm went off. i think some one left her hot iron curler in the room on. no wonder we are not allowed to use straighteners and iron curlers anywhere but the bathroom. but anyway, i was in my dress and slippers without a jacket. and the night had to be so damn cold!

i wasnt there for the second alarm but it happened at 3am in the night. apparently someone broke the glass on the fire alarm and had to be shipped off to the hospital. i am lucky i dont have drunk neighbours.

This is at the after party at 10Bar where i met shireen and bavani. and i tell you those two girls are secretly party animals. you should have seen the way bavani was dancing her heads off. THAT IS ONE PARTY ANIMAL. well. even i had to admit to dancing 5 hours through the night. it was a good workout for someone who has a blocked nose and a period with a backache.

this is nadee, gene and me! and the funny thing is that i dont remember when we even took this photo. and NO. i was not drunk. remember that i din drink a single drop?



speaking of gene. she is like the cutest thing ever. i remember michelle saying that the first time she met gene she thought that gene was a 12 year old asian genius. but seriously, you have to meet her to know how adorable she is. she is like the most adorable person i have ever met. imagine a petite HK girl with a strong NZBC accent.

god was i hungry when we were done for the night / morning. i went back to my room and had a whole carton of milk and a cereal bar plus cookies. and for the 5 hour sleep it got i still managed to wake up for brunch at 12 and do my lab report. but when i was at the ball it reminded me of hall bash. and i did wish that ron was there with me. it sucks to see others sucking faces with their other halves.



i actually went for the Otago singapore club National Day lunch in the afternoon. but i can only blog the photos when shireen sends it to me. well.... the photos will have to be dependent on shireen's uploading and mailing efficency. if it is posted late it is not my fault, it is shireen's. everyone knows my efficiency for posting photos and blogging.

Tristan and Isolde

"know that i love you tristan
wherever you go, whatever you see
i will always be with you

My face in thine eye, thine in mine appears,
And true plain hearts do in the faces rest;
Where can we find two better hemispheres
Without sharp north, without declining west?
Whatever dies, was not mix'd equally;
If our two loves be one,
or thou and I Love so alike that none can slacken,
none can die. "

- Isolde

shit. like i have said so many times. i am a sucker for sappy medieval stories. anything from the 1200s to the 1800s just sounds so nice. their language will always be the most beatuiful thing that god has ever created. have you ever wondered why certain languages are so graceful and magnificant and makes you want to hear more? think shakespear and bronte and austen.

take elvish for example. dint lord of the rings make that one forgotten language sound so absolutly beautiful?

too bad i could take some screen shots. if not i would have plastered this blog with the many photos again. i am so going to go the library and borrow the original opeara to watch. if i can ill see if i can get a hand on the book or maybe the playwright of it.

shit. shanny... you are a downright sucker for such romantic crap.

what to do with pest?

check this out. this is a random thing i saw when we were out and about this afternoon. at the local gun/ fishing shop, there on the the rack was this. i thought that it was an interesting object and i could not resis snaping a photo of it with my phone.

seriously. who the hell will buy something like that anyway. why on earth would someone's dick want a warmer? isnt the pants enough? i think people who buys this is scared that their sperms will go all frozen and they will be struck impotent by the weather. and the worst thing is that it looks like a giant pile of hair anyway. you are adding a jungle to a jungle.

i think new zealand has too many possoms they just have massive kills to make dick warmers. haha



anyway. we went out for lunch today. this time around it is mirami, somewhere along sturt street. i realised that i should stop eating jap food here when i have lunch in hall. but like i said, the baby in my tummy wants to eat jap food. and besides, dias wanted to check out food places in dunedin.

i had a bowl of udon and it was drowning in musscles



i went to the supermart to get laundry detergent and some other stuff like toothpaste. and i saw some things that really caught my eye.

apparently new zealand babies have a good life man. winnie the pooh? like it is like so adorable to be crawling around on such cute diapers aint it? and why does the packaging for diapers look so cute? they should have packaging like this on pads wrappers. then you will never be embrassed to buy a box of femine care product. and in fact you can show it off to your friends. social norms will change man. mayb guys will even buy pads to blow their noses in coz it looks so damn cute.




but hey. i was shopping for femine related products when i came accross this. it is some unknown brand called - moxie. how nicely packed these are aint it. and it came in three different colors. it cost like 5 plus NZD for 16 pieces but i simply had to buy it coz it looked so cute and adorable. i have never seen tampons in such non-tampon-like boxes. in fact it is a tin. it looks like some of those exotic g-string package right? or maybe like a tin of mints you can pop anytime. and it iso damn small it looks so cute.

i cant believe that someone i know is getting married

they just graduated not to long time ago.
and now they are planning their big day.
even bought a flat at bishan (the best place on earth)

olea you rock man.
ill be like you..
SOMEDAY

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PEOPLE

while you all are going to be sitting in front of your television watching the fireworks... ill be alone in new zealand trying to webcast the bloody think from the internet. well... i really hope that it will be working.

i never thought that i would be so excited about national day. i have never really cared much for national day. but since this year is not at the usual padang or the national stadium then i guess it is nice to have something different. apparently this national day made singapore damn ugly. our dear water front is plagued with the disgusting plateform and seating stands. it is like the worst thing that a country can do to its water front. they better get rid of that stand after the national day parade or ill just be too embrasses to go back to singapore and call that my water front.

well. i also hope that the platform will not end up sinking.



and another thing is going to be the massive amount of people at the bay. i can imagine how the thousands of people will go up to the ECP flyover bridge and sit there for the view it offers and the fireworks. then there will be nicole highway two. jsut that if the ECP decides it wants to collasp after this NDP singapore infrastructure is going to die a horrible death.

i hope no one dies from the lack of oxygen or by being trampled upon.

and guess what? now that i want to watch the NDP the stupid website doesnt work. i have alreayd downloaded all the plugins i needed and yet i still cant watch it. stupid NDP site better make sure it works. no one in NZ can load the damn player to work. either there is something wrong with the system or the website simply sucks. i waited for the whole day to watch this you know!



now all i have left is to listen to all the national day songs online. sad huh. but i really have to say that national day songs are really nice. and there are so many national day songs out that i have never heard in my entire life. i guess after secondary school, national day songs are lost to the world. remember those times in school when you were taught to wave the flag and sing "enthuiasticly" ? that is government progagenda man. but now that you hear back at the old songs there is a sense of nostalgia. those where the times when you were the happiest and most innocent. now the world is so cruel. you existence is a ban to yourself.



but i have got to say that the website have a really good range of national day songs. all the way from 2007 to 1988. that is a good almost 20 years of archives of songs.

i remember we used to sing "9 of august" in pri school and i use to love that song loads.

jill: you said you are going to send me a singapore flag. well... where is it?

as the story goes

two people were sitting beside each other during dinner. one is named nadee and the other is name zed

nadee looks down at her apple before eating it
from other table:
"try turning the stem from the apple and for every turn recite a letter from the alphabet, that is the starting alphabet of your future husband's name"
nadee : "ok" and starts twisting it once "A" twists it another "B" and the stem came out.
nadee : "no one is every going to get to zed"
zed looks at her, gets up and walk away.

one report down

out of all the 20,000 words that i have to churn out this semester. i have already done 2500 words. that is one full essay down. and the good thing is that i finished this within a single day. i started only at 11 this morning and finished it at 10 at night while being able to go out for 2 hours in the afternoon and have two meals.

i hope all my other essays will go so smoothly.

i still have a 1000 word presentation report due on friday (which i have not started)
a lab report due on monday (which i have also not started)

funny how i do things which ends later first.

i have been away from home so long i cant remember what amber's fur feels like

you never you knew you loved wasabi

i never thought i would be so happy eating wasabi. me and johnson actually dragged out butts out for japanese food since we where going on and on about it last night. there is this place called jutsu where we manage to find that served "authentic japanese food"

but the food still wasnt as good as the ones in hanabi. but the price is ok so i guess it is not too bad. funny how you go to a western country to eat asian food when there is tonnes of it at home.

stupid shireen as usual dont answer her smses. like what the use of a NZ line if you dont even use it? even johnson this it is normal to not get any replies from shireen already.

here is sushi and sashimi platter, unagi don and beef bento. i was surprised that the bento had alot of things on it like spring rolls, chicken wing and calamaris. all for 10 bucks.



i did damage today. i was supposed to stay in my room and do my assignments. but i guess sometimes your pocket have to suffer for mental happiness.

but i guess a 15 dollar damage will not hurt that much. right?

cant wait to do damage to my pockets again. keep telling myself that i need more short sleeved clothes. but still have to figure out how to wear them in spring. but then again the weather doesnt really get any warmer. shall just be patient and wait for the sale. you must always keep yourself as happy as you can esp when there are only about 20 shops in dunedin.

bored beyond words

you can get so bored here you wished you were dead.
sometimes it is so borin you wished you were dead and burnt and buried.

shops close so early.
assignment due in weeks.
streets are cold after dark.
no one updates their blogs.

people in singapore either never online (aka jillian)
or too busy with orientation (everyone in hall)
or not back from holiday (mala)
or simply dont want to reply me when i msg them.

make me feel very unwanted.
and loney.

i have no one to talk to online.
i have no one to keep me company.
i have to much work i dont want to do.

think i better get some new hobby here like stamp collecting or ghost hunting.
mayb i think i should write a book or read more

that is the end of the first season of NANA

another useless blabbling post

i really love this anime!!!!



i have never seen an anime that makes me feel like that. it is just like i want to watch the whole season one more time. it makes me feel like a woman somehow. i cry almost everytime i watch the episodes. it is not your usual sappy ones with no storyline. i usually like fighting ones like samurai X or quest driven ones like hunterXhunter or dark magic type like claymore and bleach or ninjabased ones like flame of recca and naruto or "the chosen one" ones like curous play.

the drawings are not that best i have seen but the story line rocks man. i have been catching it every week even when i am in new zealand. i guess i've loved animes since i watched flame of recca on tv 8 years ago. i usually dont like sappy love storied animes but this one really takes my breath away.

you girls should really try watching it. it makes you feel very happy and sad at the same time.

you can watch the whole season HERE

i really should have bought the dvd for the movie when i saw it at music junction at Plaza sing. ill try to find if there is downloads on the internet later. i cant wait for the next season to come out.