from the front seat

this year chingay has me sitting in front of it. tickets for me to sit by the road side. apparently they dont give free seat tickets. mayb only for master.

actually i dont feel like typing anything.

project by the night lights

falling in love with lit again

here i am watching little women on youtube and i end up having this really dreamy feeling once again of JC and lit. and the times you used to spend hours with mr smith talking about eliot and and tyler and i cant remember what. the feeling of the old era really makes me so comfortable. little women feels like one of that type of movies on jane arye and charles dickens and wuthering heights. so familar.



feel like me sitting in SA library watching old reruns movie of lit texts. all the old dresses, the dances, the ball, the horses, the carriage. it is like living the victorian times where women have their place in society and the household and male firting seems so fun and exciting. then the times where everything just seemed so perfect and whole.

mala was just comenting how nice it would to be living in that era.

i think i love old boring movies. the ones where it is all poor quality filming and sub standard setting. just that the only saving grace these old classics have are the sweetness of the language. something so pure and yet so profound at the same time. just makes your soft in the knees to hear it coming from a character.

i type "little women" into google and sparknotes came out. makes me think of literature more than ever. how the times i used to surf the net for everything lit. the character list, the indepth analysis, themes, symbols, forshadowing, point of view, tone, setting, conflict. all words so once familiar to me.

how nice would it be to redo lit again.

i wonder what other classics are there made into movies recently.

here it is ONCE again

the time in the whole 365 days that i really hate the most. who on earth can spend 2 whole days going from place to place to place of homes of people you pratically dont give a damn about. if only there was no such things as a festive season. only during a festive season you are FORCED to visit dying grandaunts and over talkative uncles and irritating distant cousins. if you actually cared about these people you would bother to volunteer to visit them in the rest of the 363 days on the calender. and if you dont even think of them, than it just says alot of your needs and wants.

and if they are not thought about then there is obviously no aim in house visiting.

chinese new year just forces them into your company. great aint it. only unloved old people benefit from this stupid festival. cool and funky young people dont even care.

seriously. even with the ang paos, the oppurnity cost is still too high for me. you get to sit there with people you dont want to talk to talking about things you have told them a million times. like the usual

"how old are you now?"
"what course in university are you in?"
"this year you look very tanned"
"you every year look prettier"

keep those to yourself la. i keep repeating the same answer every god damn year and i sick of it. if you are trying to make casual conversation just save it. ill rather not talk to you. if you cant even remember how old i am than just make a point to remember it for ONCE and just add one more year to the figure you have in your brain next year. the simplisity of math.

lucky i am in university for 3 years only. if i would to be in uni for another donno how many years than ill have to spend the next many many years answering the same question i have been taught to answer for the last 20 years of my life.

and as usual i look as tan every year. like i can suddenly "pian hei" like come on la. ill let you know when i am significantly whiter.

almost everyone who reads this damn boring blog about my pathetic life will know that i hate chinese new year. and every year i find out new things about my relatives that i really never ever wished i found out. not that i asked, but that they just volunteer the infomation.

5 new things that happened this year.
read previous chinese new year post for more info

1> my 5th granduncle is showing off his goods again. last year was his favourite chinese bond dvd. 5 years ago was this phonecard collection. and this year is his new GARDEN at the bottom of the flat. apparently he is the new resident incharge of that mini garden he grows his fruits and vegetables. it is nice to have a garden but you dont have to boast about it. life is more than vegetables in a void deck. every year he talks bout "XXXXX" (*insert own interest) like he is the only person in the world that have it. like it is some source of a grammy or noble prize

2> my ever famous liposuction/divorced aunt is still as flabby as ever. somehow i dont believe that she is a ballroom dance teacher. this year she wear the same annually revealing dress that displays her smothly flabby arms and cellulited pig trotters. BUT.... her three irritating kids are no where in the pictuer of this chinese new year

3> the weather is so hot i only sat in front of the fan

4> there are weird other married people who i have never seen before in my entire life giving me ang paos. and i seriously have not seen these people in my entire life. they just walked in and out like they own the place.

5> my dad escaped my grandaunt place!!!! how can he just stay at home and leave us kids all to die a horrible death????? even my uncle know that it is a smart move and is going to attempt to try it next year.

i realised why some young poeple are always going on holiday during this time of the year. not only is there cheaper hoilday packages, they are smart enough to escape and run away from this socially terriosing atmosphere that they dont care about. i think when i make my own money ill try my very best to run away from a holiday and claim that i am on business trip. that will be my future master plan. not only do you sound like you are smart and finacially independent, no one knows what you really think.

3 ways chinese new year is socially reforming you back to comformity

1> the angpao is a reminder of your status. when you were young you were allowed to collect it although you are single or attached in kindergarden love. when you hit 25 it has become a symbol of age and social responsibility. everytime you get an angpao you are reminded year after year why you are socially unattractive to men and why you lost your previous one. just sitting there and faking a smile year after year puts your social status in threat

2> the children running around and every year somehow there seems to be an addition to the already too big family tree. then you are once again reminded of your reproductive responsibility whether you are married, attached or single. turning 21 makes you wonder if you will ever have kids like your cousins and neices. if they sit down quietly and do their own things you will not mind. but if they ran around screaming at the top of their voice you wished that they were never born.

3> looking at the food that are cooked makes you wonder how a socially uncreative person like you can sit there the whole year and not learn to cook a dish. all the pressure of food tasting every new year just makes you think that the already pretty good egg you can fry tastes like shit. then with all the people giving critizs about the food you are reminded to be socially feminine and housewifish.

i hope tmr will be a better day
yea... who am i kidding

guess how much this cost



this is an original picasso piece that sits in the oprah gallery at taka. an original piece by a dead artist that looks like what my to be 2 year son would be able to draw in 5 mins. i cant believe that a piece like this is actually sellable in singapore. think it got rejected by art buyers in europe and amercia and thus scrapped to singapore to pass off as art.

it cost a crazy USD$200,000

and it is about the size of an A4 piece of paper.

if you are bored
there are many boreder people than you

please dont do this at home. it may cause death or maddness

check this out if you love sketching or love to watch sketching

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=EclecticAsylum

i just smelt a smell of fwoc

there is always this smell that you will always remember is distinctively a FWOC smell. there is this smell that lies between C and the admin block. this smell smells like those familar times. it is usually not there but it is there today.

nice
familar
distinct

there are so many sights and sounds of fwoc.
the smell of the hall is so different from the top.
the smell of the Fwoc store.
the smell of sem room 1
the smell of SPR

the feeling is always different if you reenter these rooms.
I MISS FWOC

those that were never posted

i realised that in the last year i never really took that many photos. the photos that i am in are countable on my hands and feet. somehow i have lost the drive to put myself in front of the camera and smile. either that or i am really using my camera less and less. somehow i donno why my mom paid 500 for my camera. actually it is not really MY MY camera coz my mom paid for it. i am just freeloading the usage.

i have been out so many times with so many people and yet i never bothered to take out my camera to snap a photo. then i realised that photos are really a good reminder of the good memories that we have. althought i might just dissapear with the crashing of your computer harddrive but there are still so many good things about it.

just looking back at your old photos really make you feel better. i think when i get out of hall. i am going to print the most memoriable photos from my entire life in hall and put it into a small album and make a scrap book out of it. then ill have something to look back by and something to keep.

hall memories is something i will not give up.



4th floor open floor. i have totally forgotten to take this from martin.
and i realised that these photos look so christmassy. i feel so good looking at these photos. somehow the lighting is really warm like there is a fire burning in some fireplace in the middle of winter. just that it is no where near a white christmas this year.

there are so many photos that i have taken with the floor but somehow i have no idea where they are. i think it is time for me to go hunt for more photos. if not my second year in KR is not justified.


a random photo from hall production.
just that jessie is in it.



what is more hall than hall supper?





what more than hand ball?






AND OUR TENNIS CHAMPIONS
AGAIN!!!!

it is time to start doing some work

IHG is so coming to a full fullstop for me this wednesday. yes. i have a match on valentines day at night. so that means i have nothing much to do for my first ever valentines day. i am just going to travel all the way to temesek poly to play handball in the middle of the night. that means that i will not have any steamboat to eat.

i am 5 weeks behind everything and i realised that it is really not funny. finally gotten rid of all the episodes of greys anatomy that i have by watching them all today and that means that i have nothing left to watch and nothing more to distract me. we are already in the middle of the term and i am still wondering what i should do for my semester.

the books for my term paper are already scaned to my name for two weeks and out of the library doors. it is time i get started on my papers. nationism seems like shit at this point of time. sometimes you wished the government never did so many things in the past. some time you just want what ever little history we have to not exist. wasnt it better if we were still in orang laut times?



look at the amount of books i have. totally max out the damn card. i cant believe i am this much a nerd.

just a random picture of my dog for fun. i realised that i have not put up a picture of my pet for a long time. my guinea pig died and i realised that i never took much picture of my guinea pig. so that make me want to spend more time and take more pictures of my dog so that in the distant future i will still have something to look back on.

suddenly i think that it is very important to take photos and memories of the people and the things that you love. like your family and bf or pet or friends. you will never know what will happen in the future and you end up missing them so badly because your memories were simply not enought. even though sometimes things dont go so well. when something else worse happens you will wish that bad things happens still.



and to break some funny thing... i really had to snap a picture of this. take a good look at his shirt. i wonder how old that shirt is. hahah. i really could not resist. i saw this and i laughed to myself and i realised that i simply have to whip out a camera and snap this.

it says "student council" just in case you could not see

some of my hall production photos

basically i have no comments. but i do think the first preview of my newly cut and colored hair is pretty nice. yup. done on the day i got lost,

global warming is coming!!!
listen to the geog student.

the weather is so hot i want to die

singapore is being engulfed by some horrible heat wave

if the truth about global warming is true? then i think we are going into the next ice age soon. recently the world is going throught the worst things that can ever happen.

US is ran over by a killer tornado.
jakarta is over flooding with weird rains that have been pouring over weeks.
singapore is so hot in the day and so cold at night my plants are dying
malaysia east coast is not recieving as much rain as before

we are all going to die a horrible death.

what is busy
–adjective
1. actively and attentively engaged in work or a pastime:
2. not at leisure; otherwise engaged:
3. full of or characterized by activity:

somehow busy seems to be what i can identify with my week with and yet it is not exactly the word for it.

this has been a hell of a week. i have no idea why but i think i seem to have work and everything up to my neck sometimes i think i cant breathe. i already killed myself in the begining of the sem taking stupidly heavy modules which puts me in the middle of projects and labs and tut all week long. with the whole IHG thingy finally coming on i just want it to end. i guess i have just wasted half my semester doing stupid things. REALLY STUPID THINGS!

i am 5 weeks behind my readings for ALL my modules. i have been watching greys anatomy non-stop like my life depends on it. i dont blog to dispense my thoughts anymore coz the atmostphere in my room is different now. i keep telling myself that i must watch my webcast and yet it is still not anywhere near done. i have one term paper and one individual project due soon.

it has been a horrible week actually
sunday - assignment and training i have to drag my sorry irritated butt back to hall to get my work done. the number of assignments are killing me.

monday - my guinea pig died. (+ full school day)
my 6 almost 7 year pet since sec 2 finally decided to die of old age at home when i am not around. and my parents have to go bury it somewhere for me. now i have no more guinea pig begging me for vegetable scraps on the weekend mornings in the kitchen. now i am simply just wondering if they have cleared the cage in the kitchen. i guess ill be going home to a empty kitchen tomorrow night

tuesday - tennis finals (+ full school day)
already being so stressed out watching sherene and yun and jinx play. lucky you know what? line up was to our advantage and in the end????

WE WON.....
again!!!!
we are no doubt STILL the QUEEN OF THE COURTS!
the UNTOUCHABLES...

my gold medal from last year is going to have company on my notice board anymore. year after year i help KR get their gold medal. am i in-dispensible or what? i guess the team is really too good year after year. lets just all hope that next year i can get another one.

wednesday - house call, redid my hair and got lost in payar lebar
the getting lost in payar lebar one is probally the funniest one the whole day. i was looking for the sign that says "tampines" and i saw "eunos" i panicked then i saw "payar lebar". ending up driving into some shell station to call for help. i cant believe i could not read the damn map of the PIE. talk about me SUPPOSEDLY supposed to be GOOD at reading map coz i happen to be a GEOG MAJOR!!!!

i guess studying geog do not equal being able to read maps.

and i got my hair REDONE all the way at sengkang. my hairdresser went all the way to sengkang on the wed i was free. thank god my darling lent me his car.

thursday - handball match (+ class + meetings)
we won!!!!!!!!!!! hahah... that means we are up to the semis and we are going to be playing tmr. i barely slept the whole day. could not take an afternoon nap due to meetings. well... acadamic rules!!! yea!!!

friday - hall production (+greys anatomy)

the limit is only that high

there is a limit to what i can take. and i have come to a point when i cant take it anymore. i dont want to train and i dont want to play for anything anymore. my stress level is so high and my human body is not handling it well at all. my head is splitting and i am dehydrated.

i just want to sit in my room, listen to my music and day dream. and screw everything else in the world. just me and myself and ron. screw school work, projects, webcast, tutorial, readings, and IHG.

my mood today dropped so badly i could barely keep my emotions and tears from coming out, i was crying to myself in the shower while bathing after tennis trainin. i din even have the mood to train anymore. tennis and not wanting to train simply means that there is something wrong.

im so tired.

*random thought: i want soft serve ice cream.*

i already had 3 bars of chocolate, and they are not helping much. though chocolates are supposed to make you happy. apparently they are a urban legend. a marketing device to make chocolate manufactures rich. they dont really make people happy. people think it makes them feel happy but in reality they dont do a shit for your brain. only adds sugar into your system. and make you fat.

i am drowning my second cup of bubble tea. double pearl. fattening but i dont freeking give a damn about anything anymore. my brain cannot function. i just want to sit down and watch all my 3 seasons of greys anatomy. i want a life where things go easy and i dont have to do anything against my will and resposibility with no strings attached.

i am so not taking this easy.